#bea rants

[bealzebubs-blog]

Ik I act all whimsical and shit, making jokes about being disabled but this shit is scary. I already struggled walking but now it's even worse and I can't talk properly because I've got this really bad stammer after falling and hitting my head two days ago. I can't walk on my own and I can hardly talk. It's scary. Being disabled is so fucking scary. What if my legs never work properly again? What if I can never talk properly again?

Half the time I feel like I'm just stuck watching as my body slowly rots while I'm stuck inside of it. It makes me feel like a massive burden. I can't get myself anywhere because I can't use public transport because it's just not safe. If I go to college I can't leave until someone can pick me up.

Being disabled is one of the worst things that has ever happened to me. I'm fucking seventeen! SEVENTEEN! I'm not even an adult and I'm in pain all the time. I'm an active fucking fall risk! I feel geriatric! I miss being able to dance...

[sapphicwiles]

This is like a stream of consciousness rant but I’ve just been thinking abt how grateful I am that Arcane goes out of its way to show there aren’t gender roles or sexism in their universe, and esp creating a character as strong and dominant as Ambessa and then having her acknowledge that she was pregnant and nursed at one point, that that was important to her? I’ve been writing more for the follow up to my CaitVi family fic (I was initially so anxious to post the first one bc I wrote Vi wanting to carry and that’s not a super popular opinion about butches in our real-world, I was SO thrilled at how well-received it’s been seriously, if you’re here from ao3 thank you) and getting to explore butch motherhood/pregnancy in a way that doesn’t require me to go out of my way to address that there no hetero gender roles in a butch/femme relationship IS SO HEALING AND REFRESHING as a nonbinary person married to a transmasc!!! ITS SO NICE when I engage with the text I’m writing and I don’t feel the need to have this butch justify to anyone why she would want to carry over her femme partner!!! And that no one in-universe would think it was weird! (And on the flip side, I do also love Caitlyn carrying bc Vi accomplishing the ancient lesbian dream of getting another woman pregnant is ALSO valid butch motherhood!!!) When I see butches or studs online who are carrying, especially if they have a femme partner, and I inevitably see people laugh or think it’s comedic I just get so upset—it’s not funny it’s beautiful!!

Anyway. I just really needed to talk abt this lol. Keep an eye out for the follow up to “your dearest fantasy” which will be another set of five chapters, hoping to start posting by the end of February :)

[subbybea]

Kinda fun, kinda a pain in the ass

When like. You wanna be a brat so your hypnotic triggers stop working?

[lagowings]

real talk i'm kinda tired of people pretending jerma isn't a cryptobro just because they find him funny. stop having double standards it sucks actually

[extremelyblackandwhite]

can i just say how proud i am of katherine heigl being in a popular netflix show? it always left a sour taste in my mouth that people hated her bc she criticised the material she was in. around the same time robert pattinson was poking fun of twilight which he was in and no one treated him like they treated katherine. and you know what? KNOCKED UP WAS SEXIST!

[bramblebeau]

Rarely ever look in the big FHR discord but I read everything in the main channel over the last 12hrs or so and have seen enough screenshots of other conversations to get an idea of how rotten parts of the fandom are.

I’m a bit of an outsider but I still want to make it clear to any FHR people who follow me that the examples I’ve recently seen of some of the conversations going on in that server apparently unchecked, particularly involving racism and transphobia, are completely unacceptable.

What happened with the BLM donation link being spoilered for being “too political”, and the people who called out this behaviour being ignored by mods and labelled by others as troublemakers, was utterly wrong.

BLM is not “politics”. A donation link is not something to be censored/spoilered. People who call this out aren’t troublemakers and shouldn’t be ignored or told to drop the subject by mods. I’m also astounded to find out that some people who called out antisemitism and racism in the past were banned for it.

Might keep making content with my own sidestep for myself and talk to my small group of friends about the game but I’m not interacting with the wider fandom because I can see now that there is just so much rot.

[spicyfoodboi]

IM BACK FROM MY TRIP 💖

Taking my time to rest since the car ride home, my right side of my body started aching so amma just rest for a while before i write so hopefully you guys don't mind 💖

This is also me checking tags

-bea 💖

[miyaniacs]

okay soooo a small rant because I’m kinda still pissed about what happened last week.

I was at h&m with my best friend and I tried on some sport bras. So obviously when I stepped out of the fitting room you could see my stomach. As already mentioned I have a genetic defect, which causes my skin to form blisters and when they heal it‘s looking like normal wounds. soo those wounds were visible on my stomach when I stepped out of that fitting room. My bestie and I discussed the usual stuff about that bra-top shirt & a women - in her 40‘s WITH her child - looked at me. And then she said :“ you shouldn’t choose the longer version and not the cropped one.“ so I looked at her confused Bc ?? tf why. Then she added:“ it‘s an imposition for all the ones around me too look at my skin - so you should cover it up!“ - my friend told her off right after and said her being a mother is an imposition for her child - but ... what happen for people to be so ... arrogant and tell other, who they don’t know such stuff?? I‘m now again insecure about my skin because of this women & I mean the only thing shown were wounds that were healing. Also she said it in front of her child? And those are the kids that that end up screaming on the street in the middle of the whole city that I got the scabies (also only because of my skin).

Ok rant over. Thanks for reading ahaha