#being disabled

[adragoncalledcat]

The child athlete to chronically ill/disabled pipeline is NOT for the faint of heart

[bealzebubs-blog]

Ik I act all whimsical and shit, making jokes about being disabled but this shit is scary. I already struggled walking but now it's even worse and I can't talk properly because I've got this really bad stammer after falling and hitting my head two days ago. I can't walk on my own and I can hardly talk. It's scary. Being disabled is so fucking scary. What if my legs never work properly again? What if I can never talk properly again?

Half the time I feel like I'm just stuck watching as my body slowly rots while I'm stuck inside of it. It makes me feel like a massive burden. I can't get myself anywhere because I can't use public transport because it's just not safe. If I go to college I can't leave until someone can pick me up.

Being disabled is one of the worst things that has ever happened to me. I'm fucking seventeen! SEVENTEEN! I'm not even an adult and I'm in pain all the time. I'm an active fucking fall risk! I feel geriatric! I miss being able to dance...

[brain-rot-see-pinned-post]

Me: *suffering from debilitating levels of back, hip, knee, and leg pain as well as intermittent numbness in my toes*

Also me: "Man, I should really reorganize the bedroom and also sweep and mop! This is a good project to take on right now and I am going to get a good grade in Adulting."

Me, some time later:

[halevai-sholem]

Handicap spaces are not only for the elderly!

I am so tired of elderly people either giving me dirty looks, or even coming up and commenting. Handicapped spaces are for Handicapped people. Just because someone is Elderly doesn't meant they are disabled, and therefore deserving of the permit. And just because someone is young doesn't mean they are not disabled and qualify for the pass because of their disability.

I really dislike "handicapped = elderly" thinking about society. There are so many people who are disabled and are young. So many people are still able to drive with their disability.

As someone with a physical disability I shouldn't be made to feel guilty about using handicapped parking spaces because someone elderly wanted the spot.

It shouldn't take someone using walking/ aids you can see, for someone to believe you are disabled.

I shouldn't have to deal with a random person harassing me just because on this particular day I'm using leg braces you cannot see.

Just because someone is elderly doesn't mean they even need to have a parking pass in the first place.

I have seen fully able elderly people use the handicap spot, and yet I'm the one who is shamed?

Kvetching don't mind me...

[franknfurterstriangulardinosaur]

hating your disability and being proud you’re disabled aren’t opposites; these things can be simultaneous. of course, i’m not best mates with my cerebral palsy; this shit has put me through worst things than my exes. but i’m not disappointed im disabled; im not going to shut up about being disabled; im not sobbing at night because im a cripple. that’s what i am. maybe it took a while to get used to but i love being disabled as much as i hate the symptoms. also these two are not the only two options on how to feel about your disability and all of you need to stop policing how cripples feel about our own things, thank you very much!

[brightlotusmoon]

[dredgen-dumbass]

not so friendly reminder that the ada accessible changing room is for disabled people. when you and your able-bodied friends find a way to cure disability by banging on the door incessantly and rattling the handle of the stall you've repeatedly been told is occupied, I'm sure the NIH will love to take your paper. until then, you can take one of the 5 other changing rooms, and if they're taken, you can fucking wait.

sincerely,

guy who's sick of groups of girls using the unisex ada changing room at goodwill to film tiktoks

[disjournaled-scrolls]

I'm so self-conscious of my handwriting lately. I've always had fairly good writing, but recently I've been struggling to keep things straight. My grammar is getting worse and worse. My spelling is getting embarrassing. I've used the wrong "your" and "their" multiple times in the past week. I spell "retrieve" as "retreive" and "attached" as "attatched" almost daily. I keep trying to practice my writing (because maybe it was always this way? maybe I've just never noticed. maybe I've just started writing faster and I need to slow down to work at it.), but it's so much more difficult than I remember it being. I misspeak more than usual. I stutter more. I'm not the same.

I love learning languages, and it's been a passion of mine for my whole life. But now I'm using ser when I should be using estar, and por when I should be using para, and I'm conjugating incorrectly, and my tones are off in Mandarin, and I'm pronouncing ь like ы when I've never done that before. My syntax in ASL is so messed up that I've just completely switched to signed american english.

I don't know what's happening, but I know that I used to be good at this. I used to be able to do it. I used to switch accents and syntaxes so easily. I used to be so annoyingly anal about grammar and spelling. There's no explanation, I don't get any answers, I'm just stuck watching my love for language fall flat against a backdrop of embarrassing errors. I wish working at it could do something, but it doesn't. I think something is happening. I have no idea what to do to help. It's my worst fear, to be honest. I don't want it to be real. Maybe, if I keep trying, it won't be.