May 29, 2023
how can you be so unphased by my absence in your life?
was i nothing to you from the start? was losing me like shedding excess hair, painless and freeing?
why are you okay without me? why am i the only one suffering?
seen from South Korea
seen from Türkiye
seen from Germany
seen from United States
seen from Netherlands
seen from United States
seen from Türkiye
seen from United States
seen from Egypt
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from India
seen from United States
seen from United States
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seen from Russia
seen from China
seen from Germany
seen from United States
how can you be so unphased by my absence in your life?
was i nothing to you from the start? was losing me like shedding excess hair, painless and freeing?
why are you okay without me? why am i the only one suffering?
Finished this book today. It’s just sublime!
“How empty and emptied I felt walking away with all my words still on his floor. Wanting so badly to pick them back up. Take it all back. Wipe away the night, my dumb tears, my endless tumbling out of words. I never meant to give this to you.”
-Bunny (Mona Awad)
Abandon me.
I deserve it.
Hey if you want to be my casual online friend (for now) or if we already have a relationship and would like to get closer please slide into my dms or heart this message
okay maybe im just dramatic. or maybe im mentally ill.
sorry new plot development as i was writing this
I TAKE IT BACK I HATE HER. HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME AND JUST BE OKAY WITH IT?? how can you treat me like i’m fucking nothing??? all i wanted was to see you on your birthday. that was five days ago. hell i’ve been trying to see you long before then. you blew me off for some randos then, and you fucking did it again. you fucking abandoned me for a party. “she has no gas i don’t think i can make it back” I VENMOED YOU FOR FUCKING GAS. you make me feel so worthless. i hope you feel at the MINIMUM half of what you’re doing to me. this isn’t even me overreacting because i’ve got problems this is you being a shitty friend. yes i dramatize things. yes i make issues in my head. yes i overthink. this is all on you. you LEFT me. you said ONLY AN HOUR. you’ve bailed on me three fucking times this week. i guess im just stupid enough to believe anything that comes out of your mouth. i should return your fucking birthday present.
I haven’t had a bad BPD spiral since I cut out people in my life who were continuing to disrespect me and my boundaries.
Do I miss them sometimes? Absolutely. Have I thought about reaching out to repair things? 100%. Will I reach out to be friends again? No.
Your boundaries are your boundaries. If people can’t respect them - you don’t need those people in your life.