hello beatifull kinky people. this is based on a scenario i made for the lovely @ecgguy a bit ago, but more people deserve to enjoy it😁⭐️
have fun!
(tw!! medical fetish)
going back to the doctors after years of misdiagnosis. struggle to breathe, swollen stomach, sore nipples, intense feeling of arousal…
they take you to intensive care. they put you on oxygen, a cpap for now, the pillow rests under your nose and the fabric string feels tight, forcing you to inhale as the machine pushes the air in for you.
then the ecg and electrogastrogram, to wire up and monitor your swollen belly. 12 leads across your chest. une under your navel, three on top, four on the sides, two on your pelvis.
they say they need a closer look inside the stomach. a small incision and two wires are pushed through your navel. then taped to your belly and around, secure and painless.
the team decides to put you on an eeg, to observe the arousal, suspecting it might be neurological. several pairs of gloved hands work on you as the electrodes are sticked to your scalp. you wonder how you look.
your nipples ache less when in tension, so a pair of milkers is added, tugging and sucking on them rythmically.
naked, you feel so exposed. the blanket only covers up to your groin, and nurses, doctors and other patients pass by and look quickly into the room, to see you so exposed, head, chest and stomach all wired up, breathing with a tube, your nipples being sucked. they see you and every machine that you need to be plugged to, they see the screens and how sick you are, and how turned on you are by all this.
Been a while since I last did a full setup tour so here it is!
Here’s the setup of everything you can see from my perspective in the bed. I have 3 monitors and they are all connected to each other. The main monitor is a Philips Intellivue MP50. I have an X2 that rides in companion mode. I have a Masimo Radical 7 that has Masimo Rainbow SPO2 and it sends that data to the MP50 via Vuelink. Total input capability of this setup is 10 lead ECG, Philips fast SPO2, Masimo rainbow SPO2, non invasive blood pressure, rectal temp, 2x press inputs for invasive BP, Microstream CO2, 2 additional temp inputs. The ventilator is a Philips Respironics V60. The V60 also sends its data to the MP50 via Vuelink so that all of my vitals data can be viewed in one place. I get connected to this setup every night, the monitor is networked using the Philips Intellivue XDS application which is running on a mini PC in the basement. It records all vital signs and waveforms to a PDF document every 30 minutes which then gets uploaded to my Google drive and is put into a shared folder with my lovely long distance girlfriend so she can review my vitals whenever she wants (I’ll let her introduce herself in the comments of one of my posts whenever she feels ready). The whole assembly that the monitors are on is completely custom made, I made the whole thing myself out of 1 inch square steel tubing, 1 inch round steel, 1/4in thick mild steel plate, and socket head cap screws. It clamps to the bed so I can remove it whenever needed, and the entire thing is adjustable. The arm that holds the ventilator tubing is from an old lamp and it works perfectly.
This is the side view. Here you can see 2 pieces of equipment I normally can’t see from my perspective in bed. The oxygen concentrator in the corner is just the cheapest one I could get about a year ago. It unfortunately doesn’t that much use since I got the ventilator. The thing on the side of the bed with the tubes coming out of it is a Covidien Kendall SCD 700 series anti embolism compression system that pumps air through sleeves worn in the legs or feet. The IV pole was something I got for free for review from Amazon vine.
Better view of the Covidien Kendall SCD 700 series
This is my breathing equipment bag, it’s got spare oxygen masks, nasal cannulas, ventilator filters, spare cushions for my Resmed F20 mask system, tubing couplers, tubing, and some other stuff.
In the nightstand drawer on the side of my bed where all the medical equipment is has a lot of different stuff in it, electrodes, hospital socks, condom catheters, and drainage bags.
In one of the other drawers next to my bed is my PPE drawer, I keep gloves, isolation gowns, bouffant caps, chucks, and my ambu bag and mask.
On my nightstand I have this mini trainer AED for resus play. It was also something I got for review from amazon vine. It comes with a set of pads as well.
In the nightstand drawer on the opposite side of the bed I keep more of an assortment of medical equipment. Including an M3001A, spare Intellivue modules, electrode gel, spare rectal temp sensor, trauma shears, medical tape, the chest leadset for my 10 lead trunk ECG cable, other sizes of BP cuffs, and extra sleeves for the compression system.
The dresser next to the bed is my heartbeat recording setup. The mixing console is total overkill but it’s got a USB interface so I can use my MacBook Air to do the recordings. The mixing console looks really complicated but it’s actually extremely simplistic for me to understand because using sound and lighting equipment is what I do for a living and I’ve been trained to use analog mixing consoles since I was 12 years and this is actually one of 3 mixers I own and is in the middle as far as size. The microphone I use is a Sennheiser EW100 G2 wireless lavalier microphone system, I actually own 3 of these because I saved them from being thrown away. They actually are still one of the highest end wireless lavalier mic systems you can buy. I just stick the actual microphone part in the earpiece of my Littmann Classic III.
This is the setup that the Intellivue network infrastructure runs though. On the bottom is a very beefy uninterruptible power supply. On top of that is an older server that I hope to run PIIC iX server on (Philips Intellivue Information Center iX, the Intellivue central monitoring system) that will hopefully run PIIC iX once one of my friends that’s far more experienced than I am gets it figured out on how to run it. On top of that is a Cisco 12 port network switch that I’m running in unmanaged mode this is both my core switch for my home network and the switch my entire Intellivue network system runs though. On top of that is a Dell optiplex mini PC that runs the XDS software and functions as the XDS server, and it also runs the M3086A support tool for when I play around with software options and other things on my monitors. I should note that everything in this network setup was given to me by a friend, I didn’t buy any of it and you don’t need equipment like this to run XDS yourself, you only need a windows computer and that’s it. You probably also notice no screen or peripherals connected to the mini PC and that’s because I always remote into it over the network.
Just had some Wingstop and am watching Jacksepticeye play Subnautica 2 now. Below the line is spoilers for Subnautica 2's early access release, but only of stuff you see in the intro stuff. Also spoilers for some of the Markiplier and Jacksepticeye playthroughs of the game.
Also, CONTENT WARNING, later in the post there's discussion of studies about plurality featuring descriptions of denying endogenic systems exist and deliberate misgendering.
TL:DR
• Subnautica 2 is cool
• Jacksepticeye is cool
• Excited to use my CPAP machine tonight for the first time sleeping with it
• Giving a speech about plurality in my COMM 1A class tomorrow
• We read some awful studies on plurality
- Bard
Aaaaah I feel so excited cause like the ship that you start on is called the cicada and you're on a 14 year journey where everyone is in cryo sleep and like... I fact checked it cause I wasn't sure if I was misremembering (I do that a lot) and cicadas technically sleep for 13 to 17 years depending on the brood, but like... 14 is so close to that. I really feel like that was an intentional reference to cicada cycles.
I noticed that in the Markiplier videos I watched, but I didn't fact check it then cause I just got so excited I thought it had to be correct. Oops!
Once again, the game is so pretty! And it's really nice seeing another person play it because the responses and details are so different. Mark got so hyperfixated on what GI meant. But Jack breezed past it and moved on to different things sooner.
Mark's videos were very fun to watch but Jack is exhibiting such pure whimsy and delight. He even started his video with his old intro. I don't know if he does that a lot recently cause I haven't really been following him much, but I really enjoy the nostalgic element of watching my old favorite YouTuber play my old favorite game made new again.
Unrelated, I'm really excited to try sleeping with my CPAP machine tonight. It'll be my first night using it. Everyone I've ever known who's had one has said it's uncomfortable and terrible. My grandmother never used hers because she hated it. Mine is of course a lot newer and probably nicer than hers was, what with the heated humidifier tubes and everything. I only considered getting a CPAP machine because I walked in on one of my mom's therapy sessions and was invited to ask her therapist about her experience with CPAP therapy. She told me that it wasn't all dry mouth and agony. I lied awake in bed for two hours blogging this morning with my mask on, trying out my machine and it was very comfortable for that. I'm hoping it stays comfortable for sleep and that I can keep it on all night because I need to get up for school in the morning and it would be nice to be well rested before my speech.
Speaking of my speech, I'm in a communications 1A class in community college and one of my 2 finals this semester was to write an informative speech on a social issue. So I wrote about plural representation. Specifically I cowrote about plural representation with Moss. She wrote our first draft and I wrote our second and third and I'll be the one giving the speech tomorrow. I'll be mostly reading from cue cards that I wrote really small on to fit our whole speech, but I do have some sections I plan to expand upon through improv on the spot. Moss doesn't do well with improv so she was pretty thankful the speech got postponed to my week. I might write up the final speech and post it on this blog but I'm a little shy about it because I don't know everything and being honest, getting something wrong in front of a bunch of singlets who don't care enough to remember anything I say is one thing. Getting something wrong in front of other systems who know better and will either call me on it or think I'm an idiot feels scary. That being said, if I do post it, I'm open to corrections.
We've been reading a lot of studies lately as research because our other final was an essay for a home made theory where Moss wrote about syscourse and transmedicalism.
We've bookmarked a bunch of studies on Tulpamancy but so far two of the ones we've read really suck.
There's one by Rimary et al. about multiplicity, but it's kinda awful. It talks to systems that are endogenic and claims that because they have trauma at all, they're clearly lying and trauma is definitely the source of their plurality. It also deliberately misgenders trans systems and headmates intentionally for the sake of "convenience".
The Isler one was promising for a bit but then we saw the conflict of interest statement and found out she was a prominent figure in the communities she surveyed and furthermore when looking for the YouTube channel she linked to in that same statement, found that she had deleted her channel after being exiled from the tulpamancy community for being a creep. I would like to go into more detail because I don't want to throw baseless allegations around, especially at systems that seem to be trying to further the knowledge and acceptance of those like us, but what I know is pretty dark and I don't want to trigger anyone by bringing it up.
If anyone has better studies that they'd like to share about endogenic plurality, I'd love to check them out. It seems right now most of the studies are about disordered plurality, more specifically DID. It's not a bad thing that people are trying to learn about DID by any means, but the medical perspective is not the only perspective out there and there's a lot you can learn about consciousness and life by studying and learning from endogenic systems as well.
Gonna take my nighttime meds and chill out now. Goodnight.
I started painting as it gave me something to do while on oxygen due to untreated sleep apnea. I stopped breathing 50x an hour resulting in low O2 levels. The CPAP Machine saved my life. 2yrs later and my Oxygen levels are almost normal. Thank you, more please! A self-portrait of survival
Not only is healthcare expensive in the USA, it's also set up to fail those who need medical devices by putting arbitrary limits on them. Then medical device companies willingly choose to become impossible to contact for emergencies. For example my wife needs a CPAP machine. We've already paid the original $70 for the machine and are paying $17 a month until the whole thing is paid off. However, within the first 6 weeks if you don't use it enough the medical company will take it back because the insurance will no longer pay due to failing the trial period. YOU DONT GET THE MONEY BACK IF YOU FAIL EITHER!! Now this trial period isn't hard to pass unless you have aerophagia that you only learned AFTER you started the treatment!! LIKE MOST PEOPLE LEARN AFTER THE FACT DUE TO THE WAY THE TREATMENT WORKS!!!! The fix for this is really easy because you just have to lower the pressure on the CPAP. HOWEVER IF YOU DO IT YOURSELF WITHOUT THE COMPANY DOING IT INSURANCE WILL ALSO STOP PAYING FOR IT SO THE MACHINE WILL BE TAKEN AWAY!! SO CALL THE COMPANY RIGHT???? THAT SHOULD BE THE SIMPLE FUCKING SOLUTION RIGHT??? A 5 MINUTE FUCKING PHONE CALL!!! THEY HAVENT FUCKING ANSWERED IN A WEEK!!!! THAT PUTS MY WIFE BEHIND AND A RISK OF THE MACHINE THEY NEED TO FUCKING SLEEP SO THEY DONT DIE EARLY AT RISK OF BEING TAKEN AWAY!!! WHY IS IT SET UP TO HAVE YOU FAIL???? THIS DEVICE HELPS MY WIFE WE JUST NEED SOMEONE TO APPROVE PUSHING LIKE 2 BUTTONS AND THATS IT!!!! The worst part is that if they take it away my wife has to pay for a second sleep study to get reapproved and the REPAY THE $70 AND THE $17 A MONTH TILL ITS PAID OFF!! ALL BECAUSE A STUPID FUCKING COMPANY CANT FUCKING ANSWER THE DAMN FUCKING PHONE!!! AND WHEN THEY DO THEY SAY THEYLL CALL YOU BACK AND NEVER TELL YOU WHEN!!!! On top of that the PAIN from the aerophagia is causing my wife's Type 1 Diabetes to go fucking crazy because PAIN MESSES WITH YOUR BLOOD SUGAR!!!!! ALL THIS EXTRA SHIT OVER SOME DAMN ASSHOLE NOT ANSWERING THE MOTHERFUCKING PHONE!!!! JUST PICK UP THE FUCKING PHONE YOUR OFFICE IS ONLY OPEN FOR LIKE 5 HOURS A DAY ANYWAYS ITS NOT THAT HARD!!!!!!!!!!
