Synopsis: you and Eren have been together for three years already hence why you talk to each other like besties instead of boyfriend and girlfriend. It’s giving, twin bitches:)
WARNINGS>< fem! Reader!, college boy Eren jeager, cursing, mentions of sex. Sexual interactions, insults, mentions of violence, mentions of eating out, reader is called mama a baby and love.
authors note: m gonna write that stranger things skz au no tags list btw cause it’s a little short i didn’t know if people wanted to be
summary: req
warnings: short, anxiety & panic attacks, online harassment/cyberbullying, invasion of privacy, emotional distress, trainee/idol pressure, hiatus, READERS IDOL NAME IS I.X
Smile, conform, preform, repeat.
Smile, conform, preform, repeat.
Smile, conform, preform, repeat.
Day in day out, that’s what was drilled into you when you were a trainee, when chan found you, added you to his little group of kids trying to break through the barriers stage fright and anxiety had been infused into your very bones, hindering you from doing your best, between the panic attacks that nearly sent you to the ER and the intense stress put on you from staff a compromise was made, a mask you could wear for your performances, each one tailored for your different outfits and concepts.
It made you stand out in a way you were comfortable, an idol that doesn’t show his face? intriguing. It drew attention to your group, you specifically. Everyone was impressed by you, and moved by your reasoning for the mask. on the occasion yeah you did take off your mask, like that one time at the MAMA awards when you proved you sung live by taking it off as Chan and Minhos hands had covered what is usually unseen by the beady eyes of the world.
Yes it did scare the fuck out of you but you did disprove the lip sync rumours. nothing stays perfect for ever though.
One time in a SKZ CODE behind the scenes of your dance practice you had gone out of frame but just before you made it the sticker covering your face was gone, you were far enough to be blurry, obviously it was fixed as quick as it was brought up. but that didn’t matter screenshots and ai enhanced images immediately spread across social media. Majority of the people had tried to support you, reporting, telling others to respect you and your wishes many also praised what they could see.
The ones that really didn’t ease the situation were the ones that criticised you for what they could barely see. Cruel words about the way you looked, about how you didn’t fit the rest of the visuals, about how you’d bring down the group of you ever fully showed your face. Changbin had found you in the midst of a bad anxiety attack, tears streaming down your face as you showed him your phone, he didn’t know how to help, he just held you whispering words of love and affection to your as he did his best to calm you down, when you eventually fell asleep in his arms he called the company and a statement was put out effective immediately. A couple lawsuits for the particular bad posts had let this whole thing die down. But things just didn’t stop. You never really revealed a lot about your personal life other than your birthday.
Fans knew you as ‘I.X’ not your real name, didn’t know how many siblings you had, pets, nothing people deep dove into your life as much as they could, rumours of you being in witness protection, a chaebol, a member from another group. edited screenshots of you and snuck pictures made you feel uneasy, so uneasy in fact you took a small hiatus. But you came back you just had to deal with it, you always took precautions, your members definitely would not think twice before defending you and some part of that was comforting.
I like to think that since myriah had four boys, for the longest time she didnt have anyone to gift dresses and jewels like her mother did with her, but as soon as her sons were bethroed/married she started spoiling those girls rotten, and she passed on a lot old house martell heirlooms to them and later on to her granddaugthers
I'm currently out of the country on my first big holiday after quite a few years. So I'm excited!
Let's see if you can guess where I am... It's a beautiful country with super friendly people. The city I'm visiting has lots of cats walking around. The city had a lot of different names and even songs written about it. And... (this makes it quite obvious, I know) the city stretches over two different continents.
The challenge for my members is already up on Ko-fi!
Big shout-out as always to my lovely members: @rosegrl18, @ouilah, @idaofinfinity, @norbezjones, @inthewildyrness, @jewel-shard and all my other members!
