trope: optional bias x fem!reader, arranged marriage, angst/fluff
synopsis: An all-too-well story through a series of letters she wrote to him, as they navigated a withering love story that had yet to see its eternal bloom.
word count: 3.7k, unedited (typical)
AHHH so excited that this is finally done!! I haven't posted in a LONG time so I'm nervous to see how this goes. thanks for reading, hope to see you soon xoxo
Dear you,
Today was the first time we met. I couldn't hear much of the loud conversation our parents were having while, well, I tried to keep the thundering beats of my heart quiet. Stolen glances were all I had the courage to give you, and when our eyes locked for a brief moment, I could’ve sworn I saw a tinge of honey in those gorgeous eyes of yours. Perhaps it was the effect of the lighting, but I doubt it.
I wonder what your hobbies are? What kind of music do you listen to? How do you take your coffee or tea? Is there a place in the world you wanna go to? Do you want the right side or the left side of the bed? Just thinking about the two of us sharing a bed makes me blush. These next few months are going to be dedicated to celebrating us, and I can’t wait for the day I get to become your wife.
Patiently waiting,
Me
Dear you,
The wedding festivities are ticking closer and closer. We got to exchange numbers so every now and then when I get the chance I send you small texts here and there. Your responses are slow, if at all, but I bet it’s because you’re busy with work. It’s no big deal, I totally get it.
Did you know, my friends ask about you all the time? I have to say that you’re always busy, so you don’t have time to talk or spend time with me. There’s always a flash of sympathy on their faces when I mention this, but I don’t care. As long as you respond to me, that’s all I care about.
I’ve been trying to learn more and more about you through your mom and sister, who have been nothing but kind to me since day one. I didn’t think you were the type to be in a band in high school, but I got ahold of one of your demos (courtesy of your sister) and I listened to it in the car one day. Pretty good, I would say. Your voice sounded so cute… a little bit of that childhood innocence is mixed in with the majority of the baritone found in your voice today.
Eager to meet you,
Me
Dear you,
When we sat down for dinner, you didn’t talk much. A couple of quick exchanges were all we had, but mostly I spent the evening picking at my food and looking around to watch the couples smile happily and enjoy their lovers’ presence. I moved one piece of broccoli around back and forth for a good ten minutes, while you quietly ate your dinner, one hand glued to your cell phone and mindless scrolling.
I saw a lady walk behind you towards the bathroom, and a quick look at your phone was all she needed to give me a look of pity before disappearing behind me. I excused myself to go the bathroom, and as soon as I leaned against the sink, my hands gripping the cold, wet porcelain, the woman was exiting the stall. I didn’t miss that strange look on her face when she approached the sink next to me to wash her hands. I tried to take a few deep breaths when she turned to me, a paper towel aggressively ripped from the automatic machine. She was hesitant, but eventually, before leaving she said to me, “take care dear, he’s not worth your time.” I don’t know why she’d said that.
Confused and a little hurt,
Me
Dear you,
The countdown is getting shorter. It’s now a matter of days, and if things weren’t crazy enough, the hustle and bustle around the house have definitely been made very obvious now. I’ve had my bachelorette party, and a few other small dinners courtesy of my friends, but I feel that now I must be the blushing bride everyone wants me to be. At least for the next few days, that is. Once we get married, things will be different. I know they will. I hope that whatever doubts and hesitations I am feeling now are nothing but mere wedding jitters.
I have to get my nails done, my hair colored and every inch of my body scrubbed and polished. My facial needs to be done, too. It’s funny, the last time I must’ve put this much effort into looking prim and perfect must’ve been for my senior prom, and it’s been years since that day. Did you go to prom as well? I have to remember to show you those dreadful photos, but back in those days, there was a spark of hope that love existed out there for me. Even if the guy I went with was nothing more than a friend, I hoped that my destiny had love written for me at some point, when I’d grow into a woman. I hope that time’s finally arrived.
Excited about what’s to come,
Me
Dear you,
The wedding is over. You looked dashing, as always, and I was told that I looked beautiful. My parents cried today, and I think it didn’t hit me until now that I really am a married woman now. You’re gone to play pool with your groomsmen, you just told me that you would be back in a bit. It’s been an hour and a half, and I got impatient and changed out of my gorgeous but annoying dress into something more breathable. I took the dozens of bobby pins out from my hair, and as I wiped the makeup away, I couldn’t help but remember the fake smile I’d put up for everyone; the pictures, your friends and family, and my friends and family. The facade is already setting in that we’re a happy couple… are we really? You didn’t even feel the need to spend tonight, of all nights, with me. I must be that ugly, huh?
Maybe pessimism isn’t how we wanna start this new chapter of our lives. I’ll try to make an effort to be more present in your life because I don’t wanna lose something without giving it a chance.
I hear your laughter downstairs. Wonder what that’s about.
Just stood by the door, but what I heard was enough to lull me into the security of my dreams. “I can’t believe we’re married… I know nothing about her, and frankly, could care less about her.”
Heartbroken on the night that was supposed to be cherished,
Me
Dear you,
Things have been up and down. On one end, when you’re around, we talk a little. Getting to know you has far exceeded my expectations, even though it’s little by little. In the beginning, you didn’t even want to sleep in the same bed as me, but one day, when I had enough I decided to confront you about it. The strongest I’d ever been, I will say, but it was liberating. You had no idea of the feeling of a burden being lifted from my shoulders that day. That conversation clearly had an effect on you, as you had started sleeping next to me since that day. but some people only deserve good, dare I say perfect, things in small doses.
I usually don’t wake up next to you. Feels like how it did when we first got married, which feels like ages even though it’s only been a few weeks. The faint dips in the bed from your body are almost completely faded by the time I wake up. The remnants of a freshly brewed pot of coffee lie in the coffee maker downstairs. I find myself repeating the same routine; making another batch of coffee, quietly having breakfast, and maybe rearranging the living room furniture to see if you’ll notice it when you get home. I do the laundry, cook a little, and work a little.
I actually did something a little interesting today, though. When I went grocery shopping I was surprised to see handwriting that wasn’t mine. I couldn’t read what you wrote, though. Your penmanship is not great but I guess in the corporate world, you don’t really see the need to handwrite things anymore. I hesitated on calling you before I eventually deciphered what you wrote. Turns out, you just need to look at it a little longer and give it some time because before you know it, it’ll unravel right in front of you. Maybe there’s hope in me that you’ll do the same.
Slowly feeling the fatigue of the night,
Me
Dear you,
Today was a bit different than the rest of the mundane days I’d spent in this empty house. I was sipping on my tea in the final hours of afternoon, reading a book when suddenly your footsteps started to echo against the marble floor. My gaze turned up to look at your figure that leaned against the doorframe, hands in your pockets. I raised my eyebrows, doggy-earring my page and setting the paperback to the side. “Hey, what’s up?” “Uh, nothing much,” you started. “I was wondering if you wanted to go grab something to eat.” I blinked back. This is the first time you’ve voluntarily offered to take me to dinner. Naturally I’ve grown a little skeptical after hearing the empty promises, but my heart has yearned for your calls. I hesitantly let my heart win over my head, and take you up on your offer.
I took out the perfect outfit, gold earrings and wore a blood red lipstick. The last time I wore a shade like this… I can’t remember. Not even on our wedding day did I go with a bold shade as this one.
When I got ready, you look up from your phone for a second and for the first time, you did a double take and took in my appearance properly. I felt shy under your gaze for a moment, but my brain was refusing to believe that this was happening. “You look nice, y/n.” I shift my gaze up through my eyelashes for a second and reply with a curt ‘thank you’.
Everything between going to the restaurant (which has a beautiful seaside view, a live musician and there’s a warmth accompanying the brisk autumn breeze), ordering the food, eating the food and going home, we had a conversation longer than we’ve ever had before.
The words exchanged were still formal, at least on my end, because deep in my heart I want you to experience what I experienced these last few months. I think you have a way of letting your frustration peek through more easily though, because I could sense your impatience with my one sentence responses to your questions and not as much reciprocation. My frustration’s getting to me too.
Wondering what’s gonna happen next,
Me
Dear you,
We walked into the house tonight and you gritted your teeth, “I’m just trying to get to know you better. Why are you making this so hard?” That made me stop in my tracks. I’m confused now, because this entire time you were the one making things hard for me. I wanted to reach out and touch you, hold you, tell you that there was always a soft spot in my heart for you. But I couldn’t. Not anymore. “You were the one that pushed me away, and I just could not keep putting in an effort to try to win someone over that never wanted to be mine in the first place,” is all I can tell you. Tears ran down my face and the pain that I buried away reappeared on the surface of my heart with a vengeance. “I wasn’t ready!” I hear you exclaim as I walk away. There’s a tone of disappointment I’m picking up from your voice, almost like you’re confused as to why I’m walking away. “Well, good. I’m glad we’re finally on the same page for once,” my shaky voice responded and I shut the door to our room.
Crying myself to sleep,
Me
Dear you,
It’s been a couple of days since our argument. We’ve gone back to our terse exchanges, the lackluster life I grew to tolerate reentered my life. One day, much like before, while I was tending to my plants you came from around a corner, and grabbed a seat before me. “Look up at me for a second.” There’s something new in your voice, a sort of fragility that has my broken heart skipping a beat. I met your gaze and paled when I took in your appearance. Not that you’d been crying or anything but I could tell the stress over the last few days started to bring out an aged quality in your features. Subtle dark circles and a shadow of a stubble along your jaw. “I want to take this moment to say a couple of things,” you started. “I want to firstly apologize for how formal I was in the beginning. The truth was I never thought I would be involved in an arranged marriage. I was confident that I’d find someone myself, and when it didn’t work out the way I wanted it to, I let my ego come in the way of even starting off on the right foot with you.” I thought back to the very beginning, your words and actions aligned with you showing no interest. Perhaps what you say is true, so I nod to let you know I hear you. “I also want to give us a chance to start over. Like I said, it was a rocky start and I don’t think our families will be too happy if we keep things going this way. I’ll put in more of an effort, but this is a two way street. Are you willing to do the same?”
Truth of the matter is, I’ve grown tired of living this way. We became two strangers, two roommates under the same roof instead of husband and wife. I know that even though I don’t show it much, there’s still a part of me that’s mad for you. I want to revive her. I want my happily ever after. If this is what will lead to that, I’m willing to give it a shot. “Yes.”
Looking forward to starting fresh,
Me
Dear you,
Things have been getting better. I learned about the company you work for and what you do there. I had an idea of when you left for the office and when you came back home. Now that your alarm is something I can hear now, I have started to mold my routine to fit yours a bit better. This is how things go now: your alarm goes off and you go and shower, while I get up and get a pot of coffee going and pull your pre-packed lunch from the fridge. By the time I get to pulling out your breakfast stuff, I hear you come down the stairs. You make our coffee, which has taken you several tries to get it right for me, and I go brush my teeth and wash my face. I come down and you’ve made your breakfast and mine. We enjoy breakfast silently, albeit on the same table, which is progress in itself. You’ve asked me how the coffee was today, and it’s a bit on the bitter side but it’s gotten much better since day one. On day one, I had to pretend to like the coffee and then I waited for you to leave so that I could remake it.
When you get back from work at the end of the day, I usually have dinner ready so that all you have to do it wash up really quick and join me for dinner on the table. Our conversations pick up a bit at this point. You tell me about anything exciting or crazy that happened at work that day, and I tell you bits and pieces about my work from home situations. You’ve made it a point to learn more about me too, so now you know that my favorite color is forest green, I have a fondness for interior design and that I’ve always wanted to go to Europe. Your favorite color is blue, you enjoy the occasional mystery novel and you have a guilty pleasure of 90s rom-coms.
Beginning to wonder when we’ll have our 90s rom-com moment,
Me
Dear you,
You have started becoming more open and friendly, and now we’re becoming friends. I find your lingering gaze on me from time to time as I complete a chore or fix my hair in the mirror. I can’t find it in me to connect my eyes with your own yet, but slowly and surely I’m getting there. I feel too shy, is that so bad? I suggested that we sit down and watch a 90s rom-com tonight, which I know you won’t object to after the latest revelation. You’ve gone to the kitchen to warm up some popcorn whilst I had time to sneak out to write this letter. I wonder if you’ll ever find these, I’ve hidden them quite well and I know you won’t look there. My wedding ring is glistening under the desk light as I finish this letter to you. Today it seems extra radiant.
Hearing you call my name with that dulcet voice,
Me
Dear you,
It’s been a while. Our mini vacation to that cute little town is over now, we’ve just returned home. I finally got to see the many sides there are to you. Your adventurous side that wants to try any new food, your mortified side when you almost slipped down the hill during our morning hike, your gentle and soft side when a little girl was standing in front of us in line for ice cream. I’ve started showing you sides of me, where I laugh the loudest at a comedy show, or make stupid puns when I read street signs or stare in awe as fresh snow falls from the sky over our heads.
Tonight you asked to kiss me. Before today the last time we kissed was for the camera on our wedding day. The air was different tonight, though. You tucked a piece of hair behind my ear and asked for permission before leaning in closer. When our lips touched, a gasp left my lungs and my world stopped. My hands froze, hovering over your face and I slowly reached in till I felt the warmth of your cheeks across my fingers. Perhaps the chill in my touch caused you to pull back in shock, but you hesitated to let go. Your hands firmly held my hips with a fragile touch, like you were scared to hurt me, maybe again. Your eyes shined back at me and I’m reminded of the moment I first laid eyes on you. That tinge of honey came back to me and is now glistening with the same want and desire I used to see in my own reflection.
My heart has had its time to heal. It’s slowly letting me love you again. I’m mortified that I’ll regret it if things go wrong, I don’t have the capacity to get hurt again. I don’t know what to do. You’ve noticed when I grow quiet and have started asking if I was okay. I put on a small smile and tell you I’m fine, but I have a feeling you see right through me.
Scared to put my heart on my sleeve yet again,
Me
Dear you,
You found them today. All of the letters. I thought I had done a pretty good job hiding them but out of sheer luck, when I found myself out of the house coincidentally while you were at home, you found the letters. You read every single one of them, you told me. That’s why when I came home and found you sitting on the couch, the letters in your hands as you read through them my heart stopped. You noticed the door closing and looked up at me, the red rims of your eyes telling me these letters have affected you in a way I don’t want to think about. “I didn’t mean to, I’m, uh, you weren't…” I started, rambling while avoiding your gaze, embarrassed and ashamed that you’ve discovered a vulnerable side of me that you could have hated. You could have left me tonight. We could have been over. But instead, you put the letters down and rushed over to hug me. Hold me tighter than I’ve ever been held before.
“I’m sorry for everything, my love,” you started and my heart stuttered at the term of endearment. “I have never known someone as sweet, kind, innocent and breathtakingly beautiful as you. Please don’t be ashamed, I shouldn’t have opened these up,” Now you were the one rambling. I looked up at you, tears gathering at the margins of my eyelids. Waiting to slip and fall so you can catch them with the calloused pads of your thumbs. Your hands holding my face, cradling me gently, I wetly smiled, “they were addressed to you for a reason, honey. It was destiny for you to see them one day. I thought my world would come crashing down at the thought of you finding these letters, but I believe you. I’m ready to give you my heart in completion once again, because now I know. You are not going to hurt me like you did before. I trust you and love you.” With that, our mouths connected once more, and we spent the whole night talking about the letters. I am glad our lives brought us together like this, for now we will spend the eternity of our lives hand in hand, facing the world together as one strong team. With love, happiness and companionship at each step of the journey, and I wouldn’t want it any other way.
Confident that this is my last letter to you,
Me
(p.s. You just read the ends of this letter and whined for me to keep writing to you. I’ll start giving them to you directly starting from this one, my dear)
imagining the phantom thieves in genshin impact! (kits, headcannons and teams because i'm a nerd)
genshin impact
- yoimiya, baby you’re a firework!
- haikaveh, summertime sadness
- haikaveh, born to die
- haikaveh greek god headcanons
- (wip) alhaitham, mirage of whispering petals
optional bias!
- cupcakes, high school!au
- privacy, married couple!au
- privacy (2) married couple!au
- now or never, enemies!au
- cherry, highschool/enemies!au
golden child!
- now or never, kim jibeom
verivery!
- you, clouds, rain, jo gyehyeon
- rest, bae hoyoung
- melancholy tears of sadness, lee dongheon
requested!
- bling bling, the boyz, hyunjae
the reader is always gender neutral unless specified otherwise.
thanks for checking out my blog ♥
# : optional male bias x gn reader, established relationship, you visit your bf while he studies
[💌: reply 1988's junghwan had me all riled up for no reason.. wtf.... so i wrote this... oops... and i kept revisting it in my drafts until i finally decided to finish it up heh]
you open the door to his bedroom and there he is, back to you as he sits at his desk. his earbuds stop him from noticing your presence. it isn't until you gently stroke his soft hair that he quickly turns towards you, smiling before covering it up with a colder stare.
"y/n.. what're you doing here?" he asks.
"i just miss you... are you studying hard?" you ask, kissing his forehead.
he clears his throat as his ears turn red.
"mhm," he replies.
as you sit on his bed, next to his desk, he shyly reaches out to hold one of your hands in both of his.
"i don't wanna bother you. keep studying," you tell him.
he nods and turns back to his work. meanwhile, you lay in his bed and take in his scent, not so subtly staring at him as he works. he rests his chin on his palm and the way his delicate fingers wrap around his jaw and cheek make you feel warm. his lips are pouty as he calculates the math problems in his head before scribbling down an answer.
so focused he doesn't feel your eyes on him, its only when you kiss his squished cheek that he notices something is up.
"hm?"
"i... just think you're so gorgeous," you blurt out before you know what you're saying.
a smirk spreads across his face as he tilts his head while looking at you.
"i'm glad you think i'm attractive, baby," he said.
he takes one last look at his homework before getting out of his seat and moving towards you. he pins you to the bed, his sage green t-shirt hanging loosely off his shoulders and tickling the lower part of your exposed stomach. his lips place delicate, loving kisses all over your face. on your forehead, your eyelids, cheeks. his lips are soft, plump, and warm, and each time they press against you, you feel butterflies bubbling within.
you call his name and his eyes immediately meet yours. with hooded lids, he looks so lost in you right now. his eyes keep moving to your lips, and as soon as you gently touch the back of his neck, he closes the gap, kissing you passionately and make you feel warm inside.
he pulls away slowly, savouring every bit of you as you stroke his hair.
"i love you, y/n. i really really really do," he says in a low voice.
"i love you more, my angel," you say.
his exposed forehead makes him look so damn attractive, and you sit up slightly so you can kiss it. he shuts his eyes as you do, enjoying the feeling of your lips on him.
"what about your homework, love?"
he looks to the side at his desk, as if laying eyes on a long lost ex. then, he turns back to you.
"it can wait," he says, before kissing you again.
by the end of the night, he's tangled up with you on his bed. his head is laying on your chest as you run your fingers through his hair. he listens to you talk about whatever comes to your mind as he slowly drifts off to sleep, though he tries so hard to stay awake just to hear your precious voice.
less than an hour later, you're both asleep, your boyfriend's homework untouched. the only thing in his notebook is your name written in the margins from when he acted like he was hard at work as you watched him earlier. really, he was just thinking about you.
Warnings: toxic relationship, mentions of sex, swear words
Summary: after getting into an argument with your boyfriend, you decide to make up with him which leads you to regret every second you've spent with him
A/n: part 2 dropping very soon
PART 2
You've been seeing H/n for couple months now. You both met on a game online and things got serious quickly. You texted everyday, stayed up late at nights texting each other, woke up with "goodmorning" messages and so on. Within couple weeks you fell for each other and after heated up late night conversations and lovey-dovey messages you finally decided to meet up. Meeting each other in 'real life' made you fall deeper for each other. You kiss, have sex, share sweet and bitter moments together, cuddle... Everything couples do. Calling eachother names like "my girl", "my baby", "my man".
You were automatically dating. It's not like you officially asked each other to start dating, but it was obvious. You both were in a relationship. Or was it just you who thought that way?
Honestly your relationship wasn't perfect. He was kind of..... Toxic? No, toxic is a big word. Let's say he's got problems, yeah. You know the whole "i can fix him" thing. You did it without realizing.
He has issues but you ignored them. His anger issues, his rudeness. He took his anger on you everytime. One day he'd fuck you till you're crying and the other day he'd tell you to leave him alone and the other day he'd start arguments with you about stupid things, just wanting to get his anger out. You never have vanilla sex.
He'd make you upset with his attitude and rudeness towards you, then the next day he'd fuck you mercilessly. You thought it was his way to show you he loved you. But it was his way to let his anger and stress out. In other words, he was using you. Your body was a toy to him. But you never realized it. You were too blinded by love, you didn't see yourself drowning into his poisonous lake.
Couple days ago, as usual you had a small argument. It was one of those days where he looked sad or mad so you decided to show him a funny video, he hit your hand off his face "get that unfunny shit off my face Y/n". (when i said stupid arguments, i really meant it) you got mad at him for doing that and started arguing. "you're such a disrespectful piece of shit H/n!"
"you either shut your mouth or leave my apartment". You got up immediately "I'm leaving either way" you took your stuff and left, heading back to your own apartment.
"fucking idiot i hate him" you throw your phone and purse on your bed and lay on your back. "I'm never talking to him again". You turn to your side and close your eyes.
Waking up the next morning, you check your phone, no calls nor messages from him. You insult him under your breath and get up, doing your morning routine.
Eating the breakfast you think about the argument.
"maybe i did wrong.... He was clearly not in the mood for jokes ... I shouldn't have done that.."
You go shopping, buy a new set of silky white lingerie, his favourite colour. You try them on, them hugging your beautiful curves, white reflecting on your body making you glow in beauty. You imagine H/n's reaction to seeing you in them and your heart starts beating faster. You go back home, take a hot shower, exfoliate and do an "all" body routine. You apply lotion and go sleep.
Waking up, still zero messages and calls from him, you assume he's still mad. You do your morning routine and eat breakfast.
By afternoon you start doing your hair, light makeup and wear your new lingerie set, wearing a hoodie and pants on top of them. You put his favourite perfume on and leave your apartment, heading to his apartment.
You type in the security password to enter his apartment. He's always told you that you can enter his place whenever you want and you don't have to knock or anything.
You open the door and enter his apartment. You hear some noises coming from the dark living room, entering it you see H/n with two male friends of his and two female friends watching a movie. You look further, and see H/n in the corner of the sofa, having one of his arms wrapped around a girl as she kisses his neck.
You step back, still staring. H/n somehow looks at the direction of the door and sees you, he gasps quietly, but not quiet enough, leading others' attention towards you. They get startled.
"H/n who's this?" one of the boys ask.
"she's just someone i k-know" he says getting up from the sofa and hurrying towards you. "you guys continue the movie I'll be right back"
He grabs your arm and drags you away from the living room. Ending up at the front door. He pins you on the wall. "what the fuck are you doing here?" he says through gritted teeth
"is visiting my boyfriend a sin now?!" you say, your eyes switch from looking into his eyes to his neck, you see two hickeys.
"boyfriend? Since when are we dating?"
Your eyes switch back to his "what?"
"Y/n" he chuckles rudely "looks like you've got the wrong idea"
"H/n is that a hickey? You've been fucking hoes behind my back?" you say in disgust.
"behind your back? Who are you even?" he leans closer making you smell his breath, full of alcohol "you're nothing more than a slut I've been using" he whispers. Leaning away and chuckling in bitterly.
"can you fuck off my apartment now Y/n?"
You hear one of the girls - most likely the bitch who was sucking on him earlier- calling his name to go continue the movie with them.
You chuckle "im not fucking off this easily H/n, not after what I've seen" you try to move and go to the living room but he holds your shoulders and pins you back on the wall hurting you.
"can you like..... Can you leave me alone for once??!" he hits the wall right next to your head with his fist, startling you.
"i will.... Not for once but forever" you say, eyes red in anger and disappointment, you push him away from you. Wear your shoes and head towards the door. You look back at him "you're my biggest mistake H/n" and leave.
All your life, it was told that nothing about you was normal.
You stood out, not in the right way as they said.
Sometimes you craved normal though. You were sure it was never present in your entire existence.
And it seeped in to your relationship.
He never bragged about you on social media but your selfie was his lockscreen which only changes when you send him a new photo. He hasn't given you a proper gift but he has been there with you in the middle of the night when you wake up, shaking from your constant nightmares. He sometimes freezes up when you get mad at him but would never complain when you steal food from his plate. He would silently sit as you try on clothing upon clothing before you head out and he would never judge whatever choice you make nor would he question it's decency; he would compliment you with kisses and he would be the only one you let wolf whistle at you. He would annoy you by constantly fiddling with your hand and fingers when it was intertwined with his, constantly exclaiming how tiny they looked in comparison to his. He would get annoyed when you pick at your flaws and he'd remind you of all the things that made you perfect. He would remind you of his love every day and he would be shameless about it.
This was your normal.
And you've never been happier about not fitting in.
synopsis: no matter how much you toss and turn, you're unable to fall asleep. giving up, you get out of bed and go across the hall to your neighbor, who also happens to be your best friend
word count: 643
you've been laying for an hour. endless tossing and turning and the red numbers on your alarm clock turning every minute is starting to feel personal to you
you run over ideas in your head on what you could do that would help you fall asleep. make a snack? it's too late for that. watch a movie? again too late. all the ideas coming to your mind not being good enough, except for one
anytime you're unable to sleep or have a nightmare, you always go to your neighbor who lives across the hall. luckily for you, he also happens to be your best friend from high school
you debate if it's too late to go and knock on his door. looking at the clock you see that it says 2:35am on it. mentally you tell yourself screw it and pull yourself out of bed
you tiredly walk yourself out of your room and apartment, crossing the hall. for a moment you become concerned about whether or not you'd be waking your long term friend
he'll get over it you once again tell yourself mentally as you knock on the door
the door swings open quicker than expected and soon enough you're greeted with his familiar face
"y/n?" he questions you, "are you okay? did you have a nightmare?"
his voice is immediately laced with so much concern, it almost makes your heart flutter, almost
"no nightmare, i just really couldn't sleep, i'm sorry if i woke you but i swear if i had to stare at my clock for one more minute i was going to go insane," you reply
a light chuckle could be heard coming from him,
"i was just getting ready for bed, perfect timing"
he invites you and asks if he could get you anything, after telling him that you're okay, you both head back to his room and assume the normal position
him on the far right of the bed and you far left. never touching, just comfortably next to each other
it's sort of strange, you two are very close and usually intimate but never have you cuddled when you've slept over
you two sit in a comfortable silence for what seems like forever to you but in reality was probably only ten minutes
you sigh and turn on your side, facing his laying form
"still can't sleep?" he breaks the silence
"i don't know what's wrong with me tonight, i'm sorry"
he turns to face you and gives you a reassuring smile
"i have an idea, is it okay if i come closer?" he asks
you give him a slight nod and he immediately moves closer. he pulls you into his chest and wraps his arm around you while his other goes to play with your hair, moving some of it out of your face
and for the first time in forever you're actually feeling shy around your best friend
"this okay?" you hear him ask
all you can do is give back a faint 'yeah'
you're trying to ignore your irregular breathing and the thoughts in your head about you two that you've always tried to ignore, but that gets substantially harder when he places a kiss on your head that's so light you almost didn't feel it and whispers 'goodnight y/n'
and maybe this time your heart did flutter
you also realize how comfortable and right this feels with him. you relax into his hold and whisper back a faint 'goodnight'
you smile as you feel him pull you closer and hold you tighter. a simple act that reassures he's feeling the same way you are right now
before you know it, both of your breaths have slowed and you slowly, or rather quickly, drift off into one of the best sleeps you've ever had in the arms of your best friend, or better yet, your home
Summary: What happens if your first love from 10 years ago, walks through the office doors and introduces himself as your new coworker as the two of your are working in the high school you both attended? You put up a front, pretending that you have never seen him as he seems to not recognize who you are. As high school days are retraced in your head, you try to push away the past feelings and stay professional as an adult, but you fail to realize your deepest thoughts, and memories that made you who you are today, because of him.
Pairing: optional!male nurse x female!P.E teacher
Genre: fluff, comedy, school life
Warning: papercuts, cuts, wounds, heavy dialogue
A/N: This was inspired by a manhua called Once More that I came across a couple days ago and I absolutely love the storyline and characters! The picture above is taken from the manhua they're so adorable I highly recommend you guys checking it out!
Here are some pointers to avoid any confusion:
Y/N and Y/L/N: you name and your last name
H/N and H/L/N: his name his last name
F/N and F/L/N: friend's name and friend's last name
E/C: eye colour
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Scary, cold blooded, emotionless. Those were the characteristics linked to you back in high school. You were often found alone or away from the crowd. Your so-called “friends” only ever talked to you when they needed something from you, but even that was rarely ever. You’ve heard countless rumours about you which stressed you out at first, but as time went on, you became immune to it as it became a part of your daily routine. It was something that bothered you but something that you couldn’t fix. Yes you have broken a couple school uniform regulations and got into quarrels with other students but on your end, you were only trying to defend your classmates who were getting bullied, to only be the one to get in trouble instead. Your grade was playing basketball one day as you ended up falling and scraping your knee from your opponent’s attempt to try to steal the ball away from you. Normally, then this occurred, you would hear whispers of “she’s such a try hard” and “who is trying to impress? She’s a nobody here.” as you walked up to the nurse’s office but today, to your surprise, H/N L/N offered to walk you to the nurse’s office. He hurried to walk beside you before you glance over to see his charming smile. H/N L/N was the complete opposite to you. He was the school’s gentleman from his warm, kind and friendly personality. Everyone in the school adored him. You found it odd how he was single, turning down all the girls who confessed to him but at the same time, you felt jealous, quietly observing him from your desk during breaks as he happily chatted with his friends, teasing each other with jokes and laughter. You never got to experience that. He quietly walked you to the nurses office, knocking before sliding open the door to peek inside.
“Hmm, the nurse isn’t here.” He walked in as you hesitated, not knowing if you’re allowed inside without the staff’s permission. “Maybe she’s running errands.” he mumbled, walking over to the supplies. You took a seat at the bed nearest to the window, staring out.
‘Why is he here? Why did he follow me? What does he want from me? Is he here to tease me too?’ Your mind wandered, trying to find his true intentions before your thoughts disappeared hearing the first aid kit open beside you. Looking over, he kneeled down, opening the disinfecting wipes.
“I'm going to clean the wound, so it might sting a bit.” His voice was soft. He gently tapped the pad onto your wound, as the tips of his fingers would occasionally brush against your skin. You observed his soft H/C hair and how it was slightly messed up from the game. His long eyelashes that were naturally curled and his lips that were pressed, making sure he doesn’t put to much strength onto your injury. He suddenly looked up to see if you were in any pain when you locked eyes, his E/C staring into yours before the both of you looked away, flushed at the unexpected situation. You felt you cheek heat up as you tried to calm down the weird sensation in your chest, looking out the window, seeing the small figures of your class playing basketball.
“And you’re all set.” You saw your wound securely dressed and treated as you extended your knee, moving your leg around. “It’s obviously not as good as the nurse but this should do for now.”
“Thank you. You should become a nurse with this kind of skill.” You smiled and chuckled as he froze midway through his cleanup, taken aback by your brightened expression.
“This is the first time I've seen you smile." He muttered to himself as he stood up, returning the first aid kit. You stood by the window, watching your class play as the wind blew through the gap. He turned around, seeing your hair flow from the wind, your eyes watching from a distance as your lips curled into a small smile. Letting out a hopeless sigh, he quietly walks over beside you. He leaned against the wall beside the window, arms crossed as he continued to observe your features.
"I wonder why people say such rude things about you." You listened. "It must’ve been hard for you to hear them say such horrible things about you.”
“I’m used to it.” You felt the spring wind blow through your hair. “I don’t blame them. Some people can’t help but to judge a person’s outer appearance.” You knew trying to prove the rumours wrong would only cause more trouble on your side since you had no one to stand by your side to defend you. You have already accepted your defeat.
“Then what about me?” You felt his fingers against your cheek, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear that was in your face. Your eyes rounded as you turned to face him, meeting his charming smile. “Let’s be friends, Y/N. I want to get to know you. The real you.” The tingling sensation returned, but this time, your heart started racing. You felt the heat of your face spread across before you stepped back from him, covering your face with your hands. You left the nurse’s office, stomping your way back to your class as he ran out, following you behind with a huge grin on your face. As much as you avoided him after that incident, H/N stayed true to his words, trying to befriend with every opportunity he got. He would visit your class whenever you have different subjects during breaks, sit beside you during lunch, and visit your lockers to try striking a conversation with you. At first you were a bit creeped out and annoyed by his committed attempts but you found yourself letting loose around him as you got comfortable around him. Without realizing, your true personality started shining through as H/N got closer to you. You started smiling more, laughing more and talking more. It was something that H/N looked forward to everyday. It was his number one reason he went to school everyday; to see your face and you smile. For the first time in your years in high school, it was happy, memorable and exciting. Your personality became more lively, cheery and carefree since meeting H/N. He brought out the sides of you that you’ve been concealing all along and without realizing, you developed feelings for him.
You were in your last year of high school and you found yourself falling head over heels for H/N, but you didn’t want to confess and put such a precious friendship at risk. Regardless of that, the two of you remained best of friends, always teasing and joking on who’s the more childish one. He would always catch you off guard with his heart skipping compliments and actions, though you’ll explain to yourself that it’s just part of his personality. The rumours about you didn’t stop and instead, it seems like it only got worse. Rumours of you being two faced and fake to try to win H/N’s heart started speculating. When H/N found out about this, he was enraged at the fact that even when you start showing your true self, people still had rude things to say about you. He always reminded you that people who talk behind your backs are where they belong- behind you and for that, you always found yourself hearing his voice and those words when you felt insecure.
“College applications are just around the corner. Have you thought about what you want to study yet?” H/N sat beside you, head resting on the desk as he waited for your reply
“Haven’t really thought about it yet.” You tapped the back of the pen on your lip, trying to come up with some options. “What about you?”
“I’m going to study nursing.” He answered directly, watching your expression. You slowly nodded, feeling a slight disappointment that the two of you won’t be studying in the same field. “Someone mentioned nursing seems suitable for me, so I decided to give it a go.” Your eyes travelled down, seeing his sweet grin. “I have a suggestion for you Y/N. You should try going to teachers college and become a P.E teacher.”
“P.E teacher?” You repeated. He lifted his head, nodding his head.
“I can definitely see you as a P.E teacher. With your cool personality and your talent in sports, you’ll make a great P.E teacher.” He gave you a thumbs up before patting your head upon hearing the bell, returning back to his class. You thought about his words, trying to imagine yourself as a teacher.
‘P.E teacher. That’s not too bad.’ You thought to yourself. You ended up applying to a teachers college for physical education and much to your surprise, you got in. On your graduation day, you were heading back to your locker, clearing the last bit of your belongings when your phone vibrated with an incoming text message.
‘From H/N: hey Y/N. could you meet me at the rooftop after school? I have something to tell you.’ Your head starts racing with the possible thing you might need to tell you, causing you stomach to twist. At the last bell, you slowly walked up the stairs to the rooftop, a hand on the knob before you ran back downstairs, running away from possibly the one and only time you could’ve confessed your feelings, and they would’ve been reciprocated. H/N leaned against the railing of the rooftop, watching the student’s excitedly run out of school as summer holiday started. He saw you hopelessly walk out the doors, wiping your facing from what seemed to be from crying. He wanted to run down. He wanted to grab your wrist and stop you. But something inside him prevented him from doing that, and so, he stared at your depressing figure disappearing in a distance. From that day on, the distance between you and H/N started drifting as neither of you saw each other during college, too afraid to text each other and ask about that day.
-Present day-
"Where'd your get your shirt? It looks good on you." The student walked past you before stopping at his steps, nervously laughing.
"R-Really? I got it over the weekend when I went shopping with my friends." He looked away, hand rubbing the back of his neck as his cheeks flushed.
"That's cool. But can I give you another suggestion on what to wear?" He looked down at you, somewhat surprised. "Maybe try wearing your uniform. That'll be 5 laps around the track." You tippy toe to flick his forehead before his friends came running behind him.
"C'mon Ms. Y/L/N. It's summer! How do you expect me to wear it in the summer?" He whines before zipping his mouth, seeing your darken expression.
"Don't give me that excuse when our school offers summer uniforms." You scolded, seeing his friends playfully nudge and ruffle his hair from your lecture. You were standing under a tree at the entrance of the school, making sure students walked in with the appropriate clothing and appearance.
"Good morning Ms. Y/L/N!" A group of female students respectfully bowed as they walked past you.
"Good morning girls." You quickly scanned their clothing. "Lily!" You walked up to the girl, before fixing her skirt, flatting the part that was slightly flipped up.
"Thank you Ms. Y/L/N!" She smiled before you nodded. "Oh my gosh, did you see how beautiful she looked up close? My heart just fluttered just now." You heard a branch snap behind you before you let out a sigh, knowing who was trying to enter the school without getting caught.
"Boys." They froze as you turned around, glaring at them. Usually, they're wearing anything but their uniforms but surprisingly today, they were wearing their uniforms. Or at least tried to. You placed your hands on your waist , feeling somewhat proud at the troublemakers’ attempt to follow school rules. "You boys are surely something else. If you're going to try to follow school policies, at least try to put some effort in it." You walked up the to boys, fixing each of their outfits before patting them on at back, letting them off as they walked pass the entrance.
"Man, even her scolding makes my heart flutter."
"How can someone be so cold yet warm at the same time?
"I wouldn't mind if she scolded me daily."
"She is the school's heart shaker" You heard the boys' conversation, shaking your heads from their silly comments. The students had named you the school's heart shaker ever since they witnessed your cold yet heartwarming actions. Maybe it's because you were a former student and having to teach in the school you attended, you couldn't help but to soften up at times, seeing your younger self in the students. But when it comes to your P.E class and school regulations, you were strict about it, from the trouble you've gotten into back in your high school years.
Entering the staff office, you heard your coworkers whispering about something.
"Y/N, did you hear about this most recent news?"
"If it's gossip, I rather not hear it." You sat on your desk, reviewing your notes for the day.
"Apparently, we're getting a new school nurse! The previous one retired." You hummed an uninterested response, focusing on your work. "I heard he's young and handsome as well. I wonder when he's going to come." The principal gave a brief run through over the schedules and any changes that may possibly occur. The words enter through one of your ears and out the other, as you mumble to yourself, trying to remember your schedules and the class notes.
"Psst, Y/N." Your coworker whispered before you shot up from your chair, assuming that the principal caught your distracted behavior.
"Yes!" The office went quiet as all the eyes were on you, your coworker trying her best to hold in her laughter. Glancing down, you glared at her, mouthing a 'what?'
"Great, you can show the new nurse around when he comes. Which should be any time no-" The doors slid open as you let out a small yelp from seeing a familiar figure. H/N L/N, the guy who you left hanging on the last day of high school, also known as your first crush.
“Just on time, Mr. H/L/N.” the principal stands to introduce the new staff. “This is H/N H/L/N. Starting today, he will be the school’s nurse.” Your eyes followed his figure as he walked to the middle of the office, bowing.
"I hope we can all get along." He smiled as your coworkers started throwing questions and compliments at him.
"What a handsome young man!"
"Are you sure he's old enough to be a nurse? He looks so young!"
"How old are you? Do you have a girlfriend?" He chuckled at their comments.
"I'm 25 years old." He answered, as the staff looked at each other with jaws dropped.
"Looks like you and Ms. Y/L/N are the youngest ones here." He glances over you as you flinched from suddenly meeting his eyes
"Ms. Y/L/N?" Your back straightened from your name suddenly being called." Do you have something to say to Mr. H/L/N? You've been standing there this whole time."
"N-No." You sat back down, hiding your face behind your notes.
"Very well then. Mr. H/L/N, your desk will be beside Ms. Y/L/N. She will also give you a tour around the school during lunch break." The principal left at his final words. The bell rang as teachers left the office to their assigned rooms.
"You definitely just fell head over heels for this dude." Your coworker whispered before you jerked your head up, about to curse when you hear a male beside you clearing his throat.
"Um, Ms. Y/L/N-"
"I better get to class! My students are waiting for me." You jumbled your papers together before standing up, walking at a brisk pace, leaving your coworker and H/L in confusion.
'He seriously had to come here out of all the schools? Does he recognize me? He shouldn't, right? Just pretend you don't know him and you'll be fine, Y/N' You tried gathering your thoughts as you walked to the field to your students.
"Is Ms. Y/L/N alright?" H/N asks your coworker who was giggling to herself.
"Yeah she's fine. You have to get used to her abrupt actions sometimes." She advised before leaving the room.
"I know, I've already gotten used to it." He mumbled while looking out the window, watching you stomp over to the students.
"Ms, Y/L/N! I heard there's a new school nurse! Is it a male or female?" The girls went up to you as you backed up from their close distance.
"Male."
"Really?! What's his name."
"Mr. H/L/N."
"How old is he?"
"25."
"Is he cute?"
"Why does that matter? You are going to purposely injure yourself so you can pay him a visit?" You crossed your arms, as they girls shook their heads in denial but you could see through them. "And why am I even telling you these things?"
"You're no fun, Ms. Y/L/N. Can't you give us a little hope?" The girls nagged.
"Dream on. Alright class, we're playing ultimate frisbee today!" You ended the conversation, starting the class.
-Lunch Break-
"Looks like the P.E class is going overtime again." One of the staff declared while entering the office, stretching his hand over his head. "Ms. Y/L/N got herself in the game and now the kids are more energized than ever."
"What do you mean?" H/N asked, glancing out the window, seeing you sprint across the fielding to catch the frisbee.
"Whenever students have class with Ms. Y/L/N, they just don't seem to want to leave, even if it's lunch time. Especially if she starts playing, the energy level in the students just skyrockets."
H/N exits the office, walking down the stairs to the doors to the field, watching you play with the students through the glass doors. You glanced at your watch, blowing the whistle to stop the game.
"Alright guys, if you keep on playing, you're going to miss your lunch break! I'll take things from here so you guys are free to go. Have a good lunch everyone!" Hearing them whine, you chuckled, shooing them off as they rushed to the cafeteria. You saw them left before smiling to yourself, fixing your hair and started to pick up the equipment. H/N heart skipped a beat when he saw the bright smile of yours. He placed his hand on his chest, feeling it race. You wiped the sweat on your forehead before tossing the heavy bag over your shoulder, walking through the doors.
"Ms. Y/L/N?" You jumped, letting out a squeal as you almost lost your balance before H/N got a grip around your arm, balancing you back.
"Who creepily approaches someone like that?"
"I was here for a while now,"
"That doesn't make it any better?!" You hid your face from showing such an embarrassing side. "Do you need something from me?"
"Yes. A tour." Your lips circled into an 'oh' from realization.
"Give me a second. Let me put away the equipment first." You dragged the bag before it was taken away from you.
"Let me lend you a hand." You opened the doors of the gym storage room, pointing at the spot for the bag to be placed before you locked the door.
'Stay calm, act normal, it'll be alright. Just act like this is your first time seeing him and everything will be fine. Just get through this tour and you won’t have to interact with him later.' You reminded yourself as you twisted the lock, turning to face the tall male.
"This is the gym and storage room. We have two gyms. One that's attached to the school and one that's in the back which is normally used for club practices." You pointed around as he quietly followed behind, looking around.
"So the gym attached to the school is the main gym?" He asked as you nodded, walking down the hallways.
"The first floor is usually where the grades 9 and 10 are. Turning right is the entrance to the cafeteria." He peeked through the doors, seeing the room full of students chattering and eating.
"I heard the cafeteria has really delicious food." He comments as you turn to look at him.
"It's what makes our school special. If you ever get a chance, you should definitely try the ___, it's my favorite" You smiled, feeling excited to eat it after the tour.
'I know. You used to eat it everyday for lunch.' He thought to himself, following you upstairs.
"The second floor is usually for grades 11 and 12. Occasionally other students come here depending on subjects. Do you know where the nurse's office is?" He shook his head. You placed your hands behind your back, walking to his office when a couple of female students from earlier walked pass.
"Good afternoon Ms. Y/L/N."
"Good afternoon. Have you eaten lunch already?" They nodded as you smiled. Their eyes shifted to H/N behind you before switching back at you, smirks plastered on their faces.
"Is that Mr. H/L/N that you told us about from the beginning of class?" You looked at the girls, eyes twitching.
"Ah, you mean the new staff you guys asked me about? Yes. This is Mr. H/L/N." You forced a small grin.
"I heard you're the same age as Ms. Y/L/N. Did you guys go to the same school?"
"Hey! That's not very nice to ask Mr. H/L/N such questions on his first day, girls!" You panicked, trying to stop their plan before it gets out of hand.
'Please say no, please say no, please say no.' you prayed.
"No no it's alright." He reassured, smiling at the girls. "I don't believe so." You let out a silent sigh of relief, without knowing that H/N was observing your actions. "Ms. Y/L/N is just showing me around the school."
"Mr. H/L/N, did you know that Ms. Y/L/N is the school's heart sha-"
"Now now, students shouldn't loiter around in the halls." You pushed the girls to the opposite direction as they giggled to each other. "And Yumi! Button up your shirt!" You yelled before hearing "Did you see her blush? She's so cool!" echo down the hall.
"What were the students saying just now?"
"N-Nothing. Here's your office." You opened the door for him. He stepped in, observing the place before standing behind the window, looking out at the field. You felt your heart tingle from seeing his figure by the window, recalling that time when he helped you try your wound.
"Ms. Y/L/N? Are you alright? Your face is a little red." He walks towards you before you quickly back up.
"I'm fine! I'll if you'll excuse me, I'm going to go get lunch." You ran off. H/N walked to the desk, sitting down before resting his head back on the chair.
'I didn't even get a chance to say thank you.'
-The following week-
You were finding every possibility to limit your interactions with H/N, trying to keep yourself distracted and busy, with every possible way.
“Excuse me, Ms. Y/L/N, do you know where the prin-”
“Sorry, I have to go print some documents.” You stood up from your seat, walking into the printer room. Your coworker beside you, saw the suspicious interaction, rolling her chair over to the nurse’s desk.
“I have to say, Miss. Y/L/N isn’t normally like this. So I don’t blame you if you’re a little flustered by her actions. I’ll go check up on her.” He kindly smiled at the female before her cheeks heated red, walking into the printer room. “Y/N, what’s up with you?” You flinched at her sudden voice.
“You scared me there F/N!” You relaxed, seeing it was just her. “What do you mean?”
“You’ve been acting weird ever since Mr. H/L/N started working here.” You punched the buttons on the printer. “Is there something wrong?”
“It’s not that. Promise you won’t say anything?” Your coworker gave you a trusting bob. “It’s just that… We went to the same high school together.” You quietly spoke, afraid that other staff would hear.
“What?!” She screamed before your hand whipped over her mouth, shooting her a glare. “Sorry, sorry. I wasn’t expecting this at all.”
“Neither have I. This would be the last place I’ll expect to see him.” You spoke your thoughts out loud, inserting the documents before punching in the number of needed copies.
“Do you think he recognizes you?” You shook your head furiously.
“I don’t think so. The last time we saw each other…” You recalled the memory during your graduation day. “...was in high school. So it’s been years. But do me a favor.” You felt a weird tingle in your body from what you were about to say. “Could you not address me by my first name when we’re around him. I don’t want to take any chances of making him realize that we’re classmates.”
“For sure!… What if he came back because…” You pressed 1 and 0 for 10 copies. “He likes you and thought that you might return back as a teacher?” Your finger slipped and pressed onto the 0, making 100 copies.
“Are you crazy?! Who in their right mind would come back for that?” You whispered yelled, glancing over at the screen before your eyes popped out, seeing the number of copies. “100 COPIES?!” You yelled before you and your coworker started to panic.
“Why’d you click 100?”
“I clicked 10 but YOU distracted me and I clicked the extra 0!”
“I was only stating what could possibly be true!”
“Stop talking nonsense and help me out.” You clicked the ‘cancel’ button before the printer finally became silent, only printing out a couple copies. You walked over to pick up the slot to gather the printed copies. “That was a close call.” You looked over at your friend, seeing her tense eyes on the screen. “F/N…?” The printer started running again, making loud whirring noises before sheets of paper started shooting out everywhere. It was too late to cancel the operation.
“Y/N!” Your coworker yelled, as you hectically picked up the fallen and flying sheets as she clicked random buttons in hopes to stop the machine. “Oh my gosh, Y/N! It won’t stop printing!” She cried. After a couple minutes, the machine finally stopped, leaving the two of you heavily breathing.
“I’m so screwed.” You groaned, looking at the amount of copies in your hand. “What am I going to do with 100 copies?”
“I mean you always manage to lose your papers, even when they’re on your desk so maybe having a few extra copies isn’t a bad thing.” She tried comforting you in the worst way possible.
“I think we should go Y/N, Mr. H/L/N mentioned that he needed to use the printer- '' The both of you turned around being greeted by none other than H/N who was standing by the door, with a rather shocked expression. You started panicking, not knowing if he witnessed the embarrassing incident or your coworker calling you by your first name.
“A-Ah, Mr. H/L/N! What a sight to see you here!” You mentally face palmed yourself from hearing your coworker attempting to speak as if nothing happened. “I was just checking up on Y/- I mean, Ms. Y/L/N to see if she’s alright with the printer.” She glanced back at you to see you pursing your lips, forcing a smile. She definitely can’t keep her promise.
“I see. Do you mind if I use it after you’re done?” You nodded, stepping aside from him. Even though he was pretty confident that on the first day, he saw you and knew it was you, he was able to confirm to himself that it was truly you, Y/N L/N, his crush from high school that was his coworker. You walked over to the table on the other side, trying to organize the stack of papers.
“You are so dead.” You grumbled lowly as she uneasily stood beside you, feeling guilty for breaking the promise.
“It just slipped out of my mouth. It’s only natural to call my friend by her first name!” She whispered her reasoning as you rolled your eyes, letting out a sigh. “Wait Ms. Y/L/N, your fingers are bleeding!” You glanced down at your hand, seeing paper multiple paper cuts on your fingers and hand. It must’ve been when you were catching the flying papers. H/N turned back to see you stick your finger in your mouth.
“It’s just a paper cut.” You mumbled with a finger in between your teeth. Holding the papers back to your desk, F/N worryingly follows behind.
“I don’t think paper cuts cut that deep onto your skin. Plus, there’s multiple of them! You should get them treated.” H/N couldn’t help to be worried about your state, knowing that you’re the kind of person who doesn’t like showing their weak side. Peeking out the door, he sees you wince, flapping your hand in the air to cool the pain. He wanted to step in and help but he had the feeling that maybe he should stay out of it. He quietly returned back to his seat, seeing you glance to his side as he sat down, causing you to straighten up your back from the tension. You keep yourself busy, scheduling class for the next couple of days and reviewing the upcoming ones.
His eyes wandered to your facial features, seeing your play with your cheeks, puffing them and rotating the puffed cheek from one side to another. Your lips pressed together tightly into a thin line before pressing them outwards, alternating from playing with your cheeks and lips. He knew this was a habit of yours since high school whenever you’re focused. Seeing how your habits haven't changed made his heart warm up, knowing that this was something that he found adorable of you. You slowly turned your head towards him, feeling his eyes staring at you. His pupils widened, unexpected by the sudden eye contact before your face turned into a shade of red, realizing your habits haven been caught.
“Sorry, this is what I do when I’-”
“When you’re focused?” He finished the sentence for you before his mouth snapped shut, alarmed about how he might’ve exposed himself in front of you. Your jaw dropped by his sudden words.
‘How does he know? Does he… remember me?’
“Sorry, a previous coworker of mine had that habit whenever he’s focused.” He lied with a smile, praying you’ll fall for it.
“O-Oh really? That’s interesting.” You chuckled awkwardly, turning your focus back onto the screen of your monitor. You laid a hand over your chest, feeling just how fast your heart was racing.
H/N was nervously fidgeting with his fingers onto top of his desk, not knowing he got away with pretending he didn’t know you. He tried distracting himself with filling in some documents and ordering supplies when his mind wandered back to your scratched fingers.
‘She should really put ointment or at least a bandage on them.’ He glances over at your hands, seeing the red cuts. Biting his lip, he pondered back and forth on whether he should check up on you. He is the school nurse after all, so it’s normal to care for his fellow coworkers, right?
“Ms. Y/L/N, is your fingers-”
“Hey H/N, wanna grab lunch together? I heard they updated the menu with new dishes!” A male worker shot up from his seat in front of him right at the bell. Your eyes looked up at him from hearing him call your name.
“Sure.” H/N said after a brief pause. He glanced down, having the expression as if he wanted to ask you something but left with the male staff.
“Man, with this much paperwork, I would rather be teaching.” F/N leans back onto her seat, stretching her arms over her head. “Are you sure you don’t want to get them treated?” She looked at the papercuts. You shook your head, telling her that it's just a tiny scratch and that it’ll heal itself by tomorrow. “Shall we head for lunch then? It’ll be my treat today. I feel bad for what happened back there.”
“As you should be.” You said matter-of-factly, feeling her hug onto your arm, trying to cheer you up. Walking into the cafeteria, there was a huge line formed by the students to get lunch. Getting a tray, you queued up with your friend. You spotted H/N and the teacher a few people ahead, having a conversation with a few female students lining up in front of them.
“Ah, Ms. Y/L/N and Ms. F/L/N, do you want to go ahead of me? I’m actually waiting for a friend.” The male student offered.
“No, it’s alright. Thank you though.” You kindly smiled, as the student blushed, looking down.
“I mean, he offered it, so why not?” F/N whispered to only get nudged by you.
“One curry chicken katsu please!” Your friend happily ordered once it was your turn.
“And the usual for you, Ms. Y/L/N?” You nodded, giggling at the lunch lady’s question. The two of you sat at a table near the windows, enjoying your lunch in peace.
“So how was H/N like back then?” You almost choked on your mouthful, hitting your chest to prevent the food going down the wrong pipe. “Were you and him good friends?”
“You could say so.”
“Then why didn’t you keep contact with him in college?” You remained quiet, feeling guilty about what happened that day. “...Did something happen?”
“Not really…” You munched. “I’m not sure how he is now, but back then, he was really popular.”
“That, I can definitely say, hasn't changed about him.” You followed her eyes to the table where he sat, eating with a table full of female teachers. “Didn’t you say that your high school years weren’t memorable or something?”
“Yeah. It was only untilI met H/N. He was the light in my darkness.”
“So you like him.”
“I never said that.”
“But you’re sure making it sound like it.” You scoffed at her words. You have to admit, you liked him in the past but after getting into teacher’s college, you only focused on your studies, forgetting about H/N.
“It’s just weird. Seeing your classmate as your coworker working together in the same school you used to attend.”
“Maybe he has a reason.”
- 2 days later -
“What a surprise.” You entered the office, eyes still half awake from your lack of sleep. You slumped down on your chair, taking out a box of bandages. “Are you actually going to use them or are they going to end up being your desk decor?” You narrowed your eyes at F/N’s statement. “You do know the nurse’s office has bandages, right?”
“Yeah but…” You haven’t been sleeping well for the past couple of weeks, unable to wrap around the fact that H/N is actually your coworker. You tried searching answers for why he possibly could come back, but nothing would come into mind.
“It’s because of him isn’t it.” Letting out a groan, couldn’t help but to chuckle at your childish acts. “Are you scared of the room or him?”
“Both? I don’t know.” Opening the box, you took out a couple of bandages, placing them on your cuts. “I didn’t know papercuts take this long to heal.”
“I didn’t know someone could be so bad at using bandages. Plus, I told you, papercuts don’t cut that deep into your skin. Why didn’t you treat them either? Imagine all the bacteria that has gone into your wound for the past few days! You could get an infection!”
“You sound just like my mom and it’s scaring me.” You shivered, recalling her words in your mother’s tone. After finishing with wrapping your cuts, you left for your first class. Due to the heatwave, you decided to move your P.E class indoors to prevent anyone from getting heat strokes. “Alright since we’re indoor today, we’re going to be playing volleyball.” The class whined and complained. “I’ll be treating the winners for ice cream.” The gym was filled with shouts and cheers from hearing the reward. Splitting the class into a couple of teams, you and a couple of students went to set up the nets.
“What happened to your hand?” A male student asked, pointing at the bandages.
“Oh, just a minor cut.”
“No I mean, did you wrap that or did Mr. H/L/N?”
“Oh… I did. Why?” You felt your cheek heat up from humiliation
“You can obviously tell it’s not Mr. H/L/N’s wrapping.” You hissed at the other classmate’s comment before he ran off, teasing you. “Mr. H/L/N is really good at wrapping wounds. I scraped my elbow the other day and he wrapped it so well that even when I move my arm around, it doesn’t loosen!” You were suddenly reminded about his gentle touch when he helped you treat your injured knee.
“Ah, I see. He is the school nurse after all.”
“Maybe you should ask him to help you with your cuts.”
“No! I mean, I already have bandages on so it’ll be a waste to throw them away now.”
“Not to be rude or anything, but it’s already a waste from how you place them on.”
“Hey!”
-
“6 vanilla and chocolate twists on a cone please.” The students behind were happily cheering as you paid for their desserts.
“Thank you, Ms. Y/L/N!” They chimed in unison.
“No worries. Stay hydrated and get home safely.” You headed upstairs, stopping by to see if F/N is still in her class before heading back to the office. You saw someone holding a box filled with calligraphy equipment as they hastily stumbled.
“Shit shit shit shit…” You heard a familiar voice.
“Ms. F/L/N?” Her panicked face relaxes upon your appearance. “Is something wrong?”
“You’re a lifesaver. I just remembered I have a meeting to attend about the upcoming class event with a few teachers so could you help me bring these to the art class and make sure everyone gets a brush, ink try and calligraphy paper! Oh and be careful with the ink, the bottle isn’t closed properly.” She thrusted the box to you before taking off down the stairs, shouting her gratitude. You stood there dumbfounded before slowly wobbling your way to her class. Setting the box down, you went around each desk to hand out the brushes. You went back to take out the ink bottle, struggling to twist the cap open
“Not closed properly? More like closed too properly.” You gritted your teeth, twisted the cap before it pops open, spilling some ink on your hand.
“Shit!” You cursed loudly before you heard the door burst open. Slowly turning around in fear that the principal heard, H/N rushed over, surprised and puzzled when he saw your face.
“Ms. Y/L/N? What are you doing here?” He looked down to see the scene.
“Ms. F/L/N needed some help so I offered to lend a hand.” He went to get some wet paper towels to wipe the ink on the floor. You walked over to the sink to wash your hands, sighing to see that the ink stained your bandages. Walking back, you saw Mr. H/L/N pouring the ink onto the ink pallets. “Thanks.” You laid out papers on each desk before carrying the box onto the side, walking out with him. The two of you walked in an awkward silence. You didn’t know what to say and you couldn’t tell if it’s because you have nothing to say or too much to say.
“I heard the heatwave is going to last until next week.” He placed his arms behind his back. You let out a “mhmm” before raising your hand to wipe the sweat on your forehead. “Are those rings?” You looked down at your hand, seeing your bandages stain into black.
“No, these are bandages. The ink must’ve stained them.” You chuckled, feeling more sweat build up as you saw him observe them. “Well then, if you excuse me.” You stepped to leave but he got a grip of your wrist.
“Come with me.” Not letting go of his hold, he pulled you into his office. He loosened his grip, walking over to get the first aid kit before taking a seat at his desk, dragging a stool out in front of him. You stood by the entrance, feeling your heart pound. It was just you and him. In the room. Alone. Together. Almost 9 years ago. “What are you waiting for? Take a seat.” You timidly walked over to the stool, avoiding his eyes as you sat down.
“May I take a look?” You raised your hand, slightly flinching as you felt his familiar touch. “Sorry, did that hurt?” You shook your head, feeling the head spread across your face. He gently took off the bandages as you glanced and saw his worried expression, just like when he was younger.
“Ms. F/L/N was right, papercuts don’t cut this deep.” He spoke to himself as your eyes widened in realization that he heard your conversation with your coworker. He applied some ointment before wrapping them tightly. “Why didn’t you stop by? I could’ve helped you treat them.”
“It’s nothing serious.” You answered, looking down at the floor.
“Are you sure?” Your head lifted from his change in tone, meeting his eyes. “Are you sure it’s not something else?”
“I don’t know what you’re saying.”
“Why are you avoiding me?” You tried to think of an excuse.
“I wasn’t.”
“Every time I tried to talk to you, you’re always excusing yourself.”
“I wasn’t.”
“Then what were you doing?”
“I…” You trailed off, lost at words
“You can’t fool me.” He started. Your eyes shifted to look at his.
“Even after all this time.” He rolled his chair closer to you.
“You’re still the same to me.” He reached to tuck a strand behind your ear.
“Y/N L/N.”
Hi dear! Can I request for a fluff where optional bias constantly pouting and touching his lips in front of you on purpose to hint you to kiss his lips, but you're being oblivious so he starts to whine, and when you finally get his hint you shower him with kisses? Thank you so much!
Note: I have to apologize. I sincerely don’t know when this was requested and I just found it in my inbox. So sorry!🙏🏻
Thank you for requesting♥️
Pure fluff
His favorite meal// optional bias
“Hey... baby...cooking dinner? ” your boyfriend who just got out of the shower approaches you with a back hug as you stir the noodles in the boiling pot carefully. He places a kiss behind your ear and a smaller one between your shoulder and neck, which made you shiver a bit and giggle.
-“Stop, baby~ it’s hot, we might hurt ourselves.” You point at the pot and close it with its lid. His wet hair leaves some water drops on your plain T-shirt, not that you minded.
He leaves your waist and leans on the counter, staring at you like the usual tease he is, a smirk spreads on his face, teeth exposed. -“What?” You ask him, glancing at your handsome boyfriend just for a second, barely notice he wasn’t wearing anything but a robe on. “Can’t I just look at my beautiful girlfriend cooking?” He was being just cheesy, but it never failed making your heart race faster.
He brings up his slim fingers to his lips, swiping over them couple of times, trying to get your attention. That did fail.
You were so focused on making everything on point in the kitchen, that he was almost completely ignored by you. He lets out a sigh which causes you to raise an eyebrow.
“Baby~” he whined cutely, looking up at the ceiling when you turn to the fridge, grabbing some vegetables. -“What’s wrong?” You furrow your eyebrows and look up at him as your empty hand closes the fridge door. He repeats his attempt to steal a kiss from you and says nothing but rubs gently on his own bottom lip and smiles.
-“Oh.” You finally notice both his smirk and exposed chest, placing the vegetables somewhere on the counter messily, grab the hem of his robe, pulling him closer to you, tiptoeing (skip this if you’re the same height or you’re taller than him) and placing a small peck on his soft, pink lips.
“Na-ah.” He says as you’re about to leave the grip on his robe and taps twice on his lips, wanting more. -“Grrr... why are you so sweet?” You cheesily reply and peck him for 10 seconds straight, pure little pecks until he gets a hold of your neck, turning it into a deepened kiss, slowly tilting your head rhythmically together, enjoying the moment until the sound of boiling water pouring out the pot interrupts you two. -“Oh no...” you rush to turn off the stove and see the noodles are over cooked, dinner is ruined. “It’s okay baby,” he pulls you into a hug as you fake cry into his chest/neck. “You’re my favorite meal anyways.”