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[theheart-ofa-momma]

My truth...

With my first pregnancy, My biggest fear was always labor. Growing up all I was ever told is the horror stories and how painful birth is and to "never have kids."At 39weeks, I was a mother that wanted my child to stay-in. Labor was hard but, I was able to go threw with the process with only 3 doses of pain medication(they stop at 8cm)and no epidural.Never did I think breastfeeding would be as uncomfortable as it was. I had anxiety induced nursing, everytime I fed my child I would have this feeling come over me and at times I would be emotional. I had a hard time with latching on my right ride which caused one boob to stay bigger than the other. When I got pregnant with my second child, it was no longer labor I was scared of even as I was being induced.It was breastfeeding.

signed with love from the heart of a momma.💜

[redefiningthirtysomething]

Since yesterday's tragic event unfolded I've just been thinking about Vanessa Bryant constantly. As a mother and wife I think about that moment she received the news and what went through her mind. Obviously I don't know her, but I just want to hug her. I have prayed for god to give her strength, give her guidance, it's all too much ... losing your husband and daughter in the same day is beyond imaginable. I pray and pray that she has support and her truest of friends are beside her, helping her in this time and in the times to come .

I can't stop thinking about what their last words may have been to each other. Did they give each other a kiss goodbye? A hug? In my mind, they did. In my mind, little Gigi ran to her bedroom to say goodbye, gave her a kiss and ran off with her daddy. What hurts more ? They both do, honestly but I think for ME, as much as I absolutely adore my husband, I think losing my daughter would have a lot more sting. Thinking about it hurts. I just imagine, and cry. But I dont know ... or understand what she is going through. I hate that it takes something like this to stop us in our tracks. I was definitely jolted from mine. We take our loved ones being with us for granted and always think they'll come back home. But that is not always the case.

I'm not much of a sports fan, but I always knew about Kobe Bryant. I'm from LA and he's definitely a staple. Plus he's from my generation and it just feels like we lost a childhood friend. I was lucky enough to have been to a Lakers game and watch from box seats many years ago. I'm reminded of watching games from home with my ex boyfriend. My cousin always updating his Facebook feed with the score and posting updates. "Lakeshow"

Ooooh so so unbelievable still.

Seriously, LOVE your people. Love them with everything you have. I felt anxiety today as my daughter left for school. I kissed and hugged her before dropping her off. I decided I wouldn't let the baby's cry frustrate me today and I would sit with her if she needed me too, the dishes really CAN wait. Eli wasn't feeling well, he stayed home and asked if he could take a nap. I kept the baby occupied so he could rest, I rubbed his hair so he could doze off. Things I should always do, but with life constantly changing and busy schedules, I tend to always be chaotic and challenging to be in the moment. But I have to remember what is important.

We forget, well I forget sometimes, that we are all going to die one day, we don't know what day or when ... so while we are alive we just really need to LOVE and LIVE. LIVE TODAY, NOW! life is just too short. ❤

I'll continue praying for this fellow mama, I don't think there's really anything else I can really do but offer prayers and ask god to give her as much strength, support, time and love that she needs right now.

[athousandsmallheartattacks]

How a 4 Year Old's Brain Works, Part 9

Maren: Can boys wear necklaces and bracelets? Me: Sure, of course they can. Maren: Well, when Jack marries me he will not wear any bracelets or necklaces. Me: Let’s remember that every person gets to decide what’s best for their own bodies. Maren: Ok. If he wears bracelets and necklaces at our wedding I won’t even care.

[theheart-ofa-momma]

When people ask for my family to come over I remind them I have a hurricane and tornado that follow wherever and are they prepared for that in there house??

signed with love from the heart of a momma.💜

[redefiningthirtysomething]

I love my mornings once the the baby is ready for her first nap. Yes, I have to hold her the entire time because she will not sleep with out me, but I use this time to enjoy my coffee and catch up on my trashy reality shows. It's freaking awesome.

I set up my area with a blanket, phone, remote, a book, coffee area, diapers and wipes, and done! It'll be a 2 hour nap usually if I don't put her down. If I decide to put her down she'll wake up and be whiny. So I set myself up as comfortable as possible.

90 day fiance- here I come! Lol.

[this-is-me19]

The four year old has now been expelled from their third daycare. 🤦 Tomorrow is their last day. Ugh.

[newmomhobby]

Working from the floor

Its a scorching heat outside today so I have decided to sit on the floor with the baby to get some work done. It is the only place with AC in my apartment, lets just say I am not thriving in this weather.

I am working on my blog and trying to get the layout for my planner finished for next month. Attempting to get keyword research finished however its not really going in my favor because I can't stay focused. I just want to sit here and watch parks and rec.

The only thing making my keyword research easy is rankiq. just type keyword phrase your looking for and it does all of the work for you.

[theheart-ofa-momma]

I give my all to my children each and every day and neglect to give myself the attention I need, But some days every now and than it can feel to much and our own personal battery has died out, it is ok to give ourself the attention we need and step away when we feel overwhelmed. It is normal, you are not alone.

-signed with love 💜