Four days of fighting, blood, screaming, and watching you throw yourself in front of danger over and over again. The last thing Zoro remembered was you taking a hit meant for half the crew before disappearing beneath collapsing debris. When you finally woke up in the infirmary, bruised and barely able to move, he was sitting beside your bed.
For a moment, you thought he'd stayed.
Then he looked at you with tired eyes and sighed. "You need to stop doing that." No I'm glad you're okay. No you scared me. Just frustration. "One day you're gonna get yourself killed trying to save everyone." Before you could answer, he stood up and grabbed his swords.
And then he left. Just like that. Training apparently mattered more than the person who had almost died four days ago.
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✦ SANJI ✦
The first thing you saw after waking up was Sanji.
The second thing was the bandages covering almost every part of your body. Relief flooded your chest when you noticed him there, waiting beside your bed. Maybe someone had stayed. Maybe someone had cared enough to wait. Then Sanji started talking.
"Do you have any idea what happened because of that stunt?" His voice was sharper than you'd ever heard it. "Nami-san got hurt trying to get to you!" Never mind the fact that Nami herself had insisted it wasn't your fault. Never mind that you'd nearly died protecting them. Somehow the conversation became about everyone else's pain instead of yours. By the time he stormed out of the room, you felt smaller than when you'd woken up.
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✦ LUFFY ✦
Luffy cried when he first saw you awake.
Actually cried.
His eyes filled with tears, his smile huge as he squeezed you into a careful hug and told you how worried everyone had been. For a few minutes, everything felt normal again. Safe. Familiar.
Then Boa arrived.
And suddenly Luffy was being dragged away for food, celebrations, and whatever Boa Hancock wanted. "We'll hang out later!" he promised with that same bright grin. The same grin he always wore. The same promise he'd made a hundred times before.
You watched him leave the room without looking back. Later. Always later.
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✦ LAW ✦
Law didn't visit until hours after you woke up.
You'd expected that much. He was a doctor. He was busy. But when he finally arrived, you found yourself hoping for something. Anything. A sign that almost losing you had mattered.
Instead, Law checked your pulse, adjusted a few bandages, and informed you of your recovery timeline like he was reading a weather report. No emotion. No relief. Nothing.
Then, before leaving, he paused at the door. "If you pull something like that again, I'll leave you on the nearest island myself." The threat was probably meant to stop you from getting hurt. It probably came from concern. But all you heard was that even after nearly dying, you were still a burden.
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✦ ACE ✦
Ace arrived with flowers.
A stupid bouquet he'd probably stolen from somewhere because he definitely hadn't bought them. He dropped into the chair beside your bed and spent ten whole minutes telling you how worried he'd been. For a little while, your chest felt lighter.
Then he laughed.
Actually laughed.
"You know everyone's calling it your hero complex now?" he said. "Seriously, Y/N. You gotta stop acting like you're invincible." Maybe he meant it as a joke. Maybe he was trying to lighten the mood.
But after four days unconscious, hearing your near death reduced to a bad habit felt like a slap across the face.
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✦ SABO ✦
Sabo was the last one to visit.
By then, everyone else had already come and gone. The room felt emptier than before. You thought maybe Sabo would understand. Out of everyone, Sabo was usually the one who listened.
He sat beside your bed and stared at you for a long time before speaking. "You can't keep making people choose between the mission and saving you."
The words weren't cruel. If anything, they sounded tired. But somehow that made them worse. Because it sounded like disappointment. Like the person who always understood you had finally run out of patience. When he left, he squeezed your shoulder gently. But the warmth didn't stay.
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✦ YOU ✦
Maybe they were right.
Maybe throwing yourself into danger had been stupid. Maybe you should've thought more about yourself. Maybe you deserved the lectures, the frustration, the disappointment.
But lying alone in that infirmary bed after four days unconscious, one thought kept repeating inside your head.
Not a single person asked if you were okay.
Not really.
They were worried. Angry. Frustrated. Relieved.
But nobody stayed.
And as the door clicked shut behind the last person, the room suddenly felt very, very quiet.
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Trying to become a 2000s yoga girl in 2026 (and what it's actually teaching me) 🧘♀️🍵
There's something about the early 2000s yoga girl aesthetic that feels so soft and untouchable. Think low-rise folder leggings, messy buns, wired headphones, pilates at sunrise, green tea un clear mugs, blurry digital camera photos, and that quiet healing without announcing it.
It's very Brandy Melville before it became 'corporate core' it's the beach mornings and journaling energy. It's not loud wellness, but quiet discipline.
And this year, I decided I want that.
But here's what I've learned so far:
1.) The aesthetic is calm, the practice isn't.
Handstands are humbling. Sun salutations have exposed how tight my hamstrings are 🥲. Holding a plank is also REALLY testing my patience.
I thought yoga would feel instantly graceful. It doesn't... It feels shaky, awkward, and like confronting yourself and every tiny emotion.
I guess that's kinda the point.
2.) The 2000s yoga girl wasn't just skinny, but also consistent.
This was the biggest shift for me.
It's not really about chasing a body, but chasing a routine (feel like a track-star). Waking up a little earlier for school, even if I don't feel like it. Drinking less coffee, and taking more time stretching instead of scrolling.
Getting a glow up will never be accidental. It's build in tiny, (sometimes exhausting) habits.
3.) Healing is quieter than I expected.
I used to think healing would be something profitable. I thought I'd be the next Spencer Barbosa but lately it's been:
Going on a walk instead of spiraling.
Journaling instead of texting (which drains me).
Stretching in the morning and night instead of 5 more minutes of scrolling.
It's slow and private.
And maybe that's what it's supposed to look like. 🤷♀️
I don't want to say "new year, new me" again. I want to ACTUALLY become disciplined. I know the best version of me is already in me. I just need to drag her out.
I want:
To hold a headstand for 10 seconds.
To pray consistently and feel grounded (ramadan is coming up...)
To be flexible in my body and less rigid in my thinking.
To eat in a way that fuels me, and makes me feel relieved and light.
To enjoy every morning.
To read more books than videos I watch.
To choice piece over everything, anything, and anyone else.
I want to be the kind of girl who glows.
Not because she's perfect, but because she is happy.
I crave to be structured. I am calmer when my room is clean and smells nice. I'm more confident when I stretch daily. I feel emotionally strong realizing I don't have to chase validation. I feel closest to الله (Allah) when I can make دعاء (dua: the act of supplication) at night.
The 2000s yoga girl aesthetic is sooo cute. But what I actually want is the discipline wrapped in being grounded.
2026 is the year I learn to be balanced. Balanced in crow pose. Balanced in friendships. Balanced in ambition. And balanced in rest.
If I glow this year, it won't be from makeup, or skincare. It'll be from peace.
Some seasons of healing feel like tiny, shaky steps—and that’s okay. You’re not failing. Each small breath, each gentle choice to keep going, is progress. He meets you right where you are, walks beside you, and calls your slow steps victory. If today you’re moving quietly through pain or trying again after hard days, know you’re seen and loved. ❤️
summary: working on seperate teams, but crossing paths, breathing the same oxygen - sam and bucky just can't seem to escape each other. suddenly, it blows up in their face.
warnings: divorced!sambucky, spoliers to thunderbolts, petty sam - pettier bucky, yelena, bob, joaquin, and carol watching these idiots fight, bucky throwing sam's tramua in his face, sam throwing hands, and then it gets eally angsty towards the end - sorry!
Sam Wilson didn’t notice the temperature shift. Didn’t notice the silent questions Joaquin threw his way with just a look. Didn’t notice the way Carol smirked and cleared her throat like she’d just walked into something she wasn’t supposed to see.
Well, Sam did notice.
He just didn't want to admit it.
Because admitting it meant acknowledging the distance that he placed between the two of them or how the weight of a single stare ran chills up and down his back until he shivered from the mere thought of what flesh and metal felt like on his skin again.
A deep sigh pulled from his nostils, breathing the exact smell of something lost.
"Barnes," Carol tested the waters, as if she was waiting for Sam to suddenly combust to the name. She had joked that their reunion would be known as Sam's Finest Hour, but she had no idea in that moment how right she would be. Because even though Sam kept his face straight—no crack in his armor, no flicker of anything but calm—his mind was sprinting. Every question, every possibility, every why now? clawing at the edges of his thoughts.
Bucky Barnes did notice the temperature shift. How every eye in the room seem to dance between him and Sam. Yelena's smirk. Bob's raised brow. The silence that stretched between all of them just a second too long.
He stole a glance at his -
No.
At Sam.
Sam, who was standing arms crossed with an unreadable expression as if nothing in the world could shake him. Like Bucky hadn't just walked in and cracked something open both had been tiptoeing around for months.
Bucky forced his gaze away, jaw tightening. He'd told himself that when the time came, he would explain why he left. How he got caught up in this mess of New Avengers, but there he was, thinking Sam didn't deserve his explanation.
"Danvers." He finally answered back.
“Now that we’re all together,” Yelena said, leaning back in her chair with a smirk, “we can talk about Avengers and New Avengers.”
Her tone was too casual, too knowing.
Sam’s jaw flexed. Bucky didn’t look at him.
"It's a stupid name, in my opinion," Joaquin said, plainly, "Anything else would have been better."
Bob chimed in, "We were the Thunderbolts. Named after Yelena's soccer team, but Val had other ideas."
Yelena shrugged like she couldn’t care less. “Thunderbolts was better. At least it didn’t sound like a bad sequel.”
Carol’s lips twitched, holding back a laugh. “Well, branding isn’t exactly our strongest suit.”
The room filled with the kind of easy banter that should’ve broken the tension. But it didn’t. Not for Sam. Not for Bucky.
Because every word, every offhand comment, was just noise against the weight of what neither of them was saying.
Bucky tried to ignore that he’d chosen to stand closer to Sam than anyone else in the room—so close that if he wanted to, he could reach out and touch him.
Just once.
Just to know what it felt like to be touched by something good.
Sam snapped, "There's only one Avengers team. Hate to be that person, but you guys aren't Avengers," He wanted to glance at Bucky, but he need better. "You're knock off anti-heroes, trying to finally do something good with all the bad you've done - with the government funding your little adventures."
The room went dead silent, the kind of silence that feels thick enough to swallow whole.
Everyone was watching. Waiting.
Yelena was the first to break it, her smirk widening as she leaned back in her chair, unbothered.
“Ouch,” she said, voice dripping with amused sarcasm. “That hurt, Sam.” Her tone was light, but her eyes were sharp, like she was daring him to say more.
Bucky huffed. Every gaze landed on him. He stood tall and rolled his eyes, "Like Bob said, Val threw this on us. What were we to do?"
There was an edge to Bucky’s voice—rough around the edges, a brittle blend of defensiveness and challenge that wasn’t quite a dare but almost. Like he was standing on the thin line between frustration and something deeper, something raw and barely contained.
The air in the room seemed to shift, growing heavier. Every person caught in the space between them fell silent, their breaths nearly held as if waiting for a fuse to ignite. Time stretched, slow and suffocating, as Sam’s eyes locked with Bucky’s.
Sam’s gaze was steady but weighed down—like he was trying to hold back a storm that had been brewing for years. There was an entire history written in that look: betrayals, regrets, moments stolen and lost.
Finally, Sam spoke, "I don't know, James. Something other than agree to this shit. Maybe, run. That's what you're good at." The words hung between them, raw and unapologetic.
Bucky recoiled at his name - nostrils flaring. "Sorry, we can't all be Mr. Perfect, Samuel. Staying when the party's over because you don't know to let go."
Sam’s eyes narrowed, the flicker of irritation barely contained.
"Well, at least Mr. Perfect doesn't have the government playing puppet with him and his team." Sam smiled, but it didn't reach his eyes like normal.
Bucky smirked, the tiniest spark of mischief flashing in his eyes.
“Oh, please. Like you’re some kind of saint. You think your little team’s any better than us? At least I don’t have to babysit a bunch of rookies.”
"Rookies?" Joaquin asked quietly. Carol rubbed his arm with a face saying - sorry, you had to hear thatm, but it's true.
Bucky took a slow step closer, voice dripping with mock sympathy. “Shuri, Riri, Elijah - those are kids. You're not building the Avengers. You're making a daycare.”
Sam's jaw clenched, "You're the one to talk about age."
“Funny coming from someone who’s been acting like a kid since we met.” He took a slow step closer, voice dropping to a teasing drawl. “Still got a lot to learn, Sam.”
Sam’s eyes flashed, but he held his ground, voice steady. “Maybe. But at least I’m still here, trying.”
The room held its breath again, the tension thick enough to cut with a knife.
Bucky’s gaze flickered, sharp and calculating. “Trying doesn’t mean anything.”
"Oh, we know." Sam was closer to Bucky now. They were practically toe to toe. "You don't try at all, do you? You run when things are too hard. You give up and leave in the middle of the night without a call or text or whatever the fuck you think I didn't need." Sam's accent was starting to slip out.
This was getting personal now. Avengers and New Avengers were suddenly sidelines, and the group was watching a house being set on fire.
"I'm sorry I activated your abandoment issues. Grow up." Bucky’s jaw tightened, fists clenching at his sides. His voice was low, but every word dripped with bitter resentment. He stepped closer. They were definetly toe to toe now.
"Okay, maybe we should take a step back and some deep breaths." Bob offered.
"Shut up!" Sam and Bucky shouted in unison while staring each other down.
"Or, we can not listen to me. I'm down for either." Bob eased back in his seat, hands raised in mock surrender, while the room sat frozen between the storm and the calm before it.
"What the hell did you say to me?" Sam whispered, yet he didn't need Bucky to repeat it. They both remember nights were Sam crawled into Bucky's bed, whispering his fears of being alone. Of waking up and finding the people he cared about gone. Of carrying the weight of that loneliness with no one to catch him.
How he clinged to this thing - whatevr it was - that him and Bucky shared. The need to have each other around no matter what.
Sam had to learn how to be alone - alone. He wanted Bucky, and he wasn't there.
"You heard me."
Bucky whispered back, voice low but heavy with something Sam hadn’t expected—raw, guarded vulnerability.
Inside, a storm raged. Shame twisted in his gut, clawing at him.
He hated how true Sam’s words felt. The nights he’d left, the silence he’d kept—all of it a defense, a way to protect himself from his own fears. But now, standing here, so close, all those walls felt fragile, cracking under the weight of years and regrets.
He wanted to say more, to reach out, to fix what had broken. But the words stuck, tangled in the space between them. Bucky’s eyes flickered—pain, guilt, and something like longing—all hiding behind that hard edge.
Yet, none of that mattered the moment Sam lunged at Bucky, fists flying with blind, burning anger.
Bucky dodged instinctively, moving with the grace and precision of years in the field, weaving away from Sam’s wild punches.
Sam wasn’t thinking—just furious, every hit a release of pain he’d been holding in too long.
He landed a couple of solid blows, gritting his teeth as Bucky staggered back briefly. Bucky didn’t hold back either. He returned fire with quick, controlled strikes, landing a few hits that made Sam wince.
The room erupted into chaos.
Yelena was the first to leap forward, voice sharp as she shouted, "Okay! What the hell?!”
Carol was right behind her, rushing in to grab Sam’s arm, her face tight with concern. “Sam, we promised no fighting!”
Joaquin and Bob hung back, watching the scene unfold, their expressions a mix of disbelief and reluctant amusement.
Bob crossed his arms, nodding slightly. “They're pulling their punches.” Joaquin smirked, eyes following the flurry of jabs. “Still got some good moves, though. Sam’s got heart, but Bucky’s got the experience.”
Meanwhile, the girls worked together to physically pull the two apart, their strength and urgency forcing Sam and Bucky to slow, their anger simmering beneath the surface.
"Timeout for the both of you," Yelena's yells. Sam froze, meeting her sharp glare and—just for a fleeting second—he saw Natasha in her eyes. That same unwavering steel, that same don’t test me authority.
The heat of the moment was still in the room. Bucky meet Sam's eyes. For a moment, he almost apologized.
Almost.
Then his lips curled into the faintest, cruelest smirk. “Walker hit harder than you do.”
Sam’s face went blank for half a second—then fury lit behind his eyes as he lunged at Bucky again without hesitation.
Carol cursed under her breath. Yelena groaned. Bob muttered, “Should’ve seen that coming,” while Joaquin sighed, “Yeah, round two.”
And just like that, chaos erupted all over again.
The room was quiet now.
Sam and Bucky sat on opposite sides, bruised and scratched, each holding an ice pack against the damage they’d left on each other.
Outside the door, their teammates’ muffled voices drifted in—Carol, Yelena, Joaquin, and Bob debating in low tones about what to do with the two of them.
But inside, it was just silence.
Bucky stared at the floor, the faint rise and fall of his chest the only sign he was even breathing.
Sam leaned back in his chair, jaw tight, ice pack pressed to a swelling bruise on his cheek.
Neither spoke.
Bucky shifted slightly in his seat, wincing when the ice touched a tender spot on his ribs. His eyes flickered toward Sam for just a moment—quick enough to go unnoticed, or at least he hoped it would.
Sam sat still, arms crossed loosely over his chest, ice pack balanced against his cheekbone. He didn’t look at Bucky. Not yet.
Outside the door, the muffled voices rose for a moment—Yelena’s sharp tone cutting through, followed by Carol’s calm, measured response. Then, footsteps faded, leaving just the two of them with the quiet hum of the room.
Bucky exhaled slowly.
Sam’s jaw flexed, like he was chewing on words he couldn’t bring himself to spit out.
Finally, Bucky muttered, almost too low to hear, “Sorry about what I said.”
Sam didn’t move. Didn’t blink. He just kept staring at the floor.
After a beat, he replied, voice low but steady. “About me punching like Walker, or running a daycare, or the Mr. Perfect thing, or the abandoment issues?”
His tone wasn’t angry anymore. It was quieter, flatter. Like the fight had burned out the fire and left only the hurt behind.
Bucky’s grip on the ice pack tightened.
Yeah… he’d been harsh. Too harsh. Every word meant to push Sam away had landed exactly where he didn’t want it to—straight in the places he knew would hurt the most.
For a second, Bucky wanted to defend himself. Say it was just the heat of the moment. Say Sam hit first.
But the excuses felt empty in his throat.
“…All of it,” Bucky muttered finally. His voice was rough, edged with something that sounded almost like regret.
Sam slowly lifted his gaze, finally meeting Bucky’s eyes. He expected anger to rise again, that familiar spark that always came with their arguments. But it didn’t.
What he felt was heavier.
It was that hollow ache he knew too well. The same ache from the nights he’d whispered his fears in the dark, hoping Bucky understood without him having to explain it. The same ache from the morning he woke up and Bucky was gone.
And now here he was—bruised, sore, and still wondering why he cared so damn much.
Sam pressed the ice pack harder to his cheek, like it could numb the sting that wasn’t physical.
Bucky shifted, looking uncomfortable, like he wanted to say something but didn’t know how. “I was—” He hesitated, then let out a short, tired breath. “I was being an ass. I know. I just… didn’t know what else to do.”
Sam stared at him, searching his face for anything real.
And what he found wasn’t anger. It was regret.
It almost made him feel worse.
“Yeah,” Sam finally said quietly. “And you still went for it.”
And the words hurt to say, because even after everything, part of him still wanted Bucky to choose better.
Sam shifted the ice pack, letting it rest in his lap. He leaned forward slightly, elbows on his knees, staring at the floor before lifting his eyes back to Bucky.
“Why’d you leave?”
Bucky froze.
Sam’s voice wasn’t sharp, wasn’t demanding. It was quieter than that, steadier. And somehow that made it worse.
“Don’t give me some half-ass answer, either,” Sam continued, his tone calm but heavy. “Don’t say it was easier. Don’t say you didn’t owe me anything. You were there. You… were there, Buck.”
His chest felt tight, the words scraping against the knot in his throat.
“You don’t get to just disappear and then stand here acting like I’m the one who couldn’t handle it.”
Bucky’s hands tightened around the melting ice pack. He stared at the floor, his jaw tight, the muscle in his cheek twitching like he was holding something back.
Sam continued, "Dinners in Louisiana. Date nights in New York. That was us. I saw you on the news, parading around your political career, and I was happy for you. Then, you don't text. Don't show up anymore. You came and went. For 2 months, I watched you through a TV because you couldn't face me, and I was tired of being understanding. I finally thought I was someone's end goal. Not another phase to get through."
“You were always my end goal,” he said quietly, voice thick with something like regret. “No matter where I went, no matter how far I got roped into other shit… you were the person I wanted to come back to at the end of the day.”
He rubbed the back of his neck, tension visible in his shoulders.
“But then… The Void happened. Bob got involved. Val forced us to say we were the New Avengers. I didn’t want to join. Hell, I didn’t want any of it.”
His gaze dropped again, voice barely above a whisper.
“I was in my Shame Room, and I relived every mission. Every day and night I hurt someone. Then, I came out and realized how much I wanted to change. How much I still had to change. Then, I saved somebody. People clapped for me when I saved someone. You know what that’s like. I didn’t then, but now, I do.”
He paused, swallowing hard, struggling with the vulnerability in his own words. “I thought if I lost that feeling, I’d lose myself. And maybe… I was scared I’d lose you too.”
Sam listened, the fight draining out of him but the hurt still burning beneath his skin.
He understood. Hell, he really understood. Bucky’s fear, his struggle to hold onto something real in the chaos—it wasn’t easy.
But understanding didn’t erase the sting.
Sam’s jaw clenched, eyes flickering away as the weight of everything crashed down on him.
“I get it, Buck,” he said quietly, voice rough. “I get the fear. The guilt. The shame. The pride of being someone's hero. Saving a life. Feeling wanted.”
He ran a hand over his bruised cheek, fingers trembling just slightly.
“But I’m tired. Tired of being the one who always understands. The one who holds it all together when you walk away. I don’t know where to put this hurt anymore.”
His gaze snapped back to Bucky, sharp and raw. “I just wanted you.”
The silence that followed was thick—full of the kind of truth that wasn’t easy to say but had to be heard.
Bucky stood slowly, wincing when his back popped sharply. He stumbled a little but caught himself, then took a few careful steps over to Sam.
Without a word, he sat down beside him, shoulder nearly brushing Sam’s. He rested his head against the cold wall, eyes closing for a moment as if to steady himself.
Sam breathed in.
He didn’t move, but the warmth of Bucky’s shoulder so close was something his body remembered—something his heart had been aching for without admitting it.
Neither said a word. The silence between them shifted, no longer heavy with pain but fragile with a quiet understanding.
Sam’s hand twitched, hovering just inches from Bucky’s, but he didn’t reach out. Not yet.
This closness, whether Sam wanted to admit it or not, was Bucky's apology. Sam could feel the steady rise and fall of Bucky’s breath against the wall, the subtle warmth of his presence seeping through the space between them. He wasn't ready for the apology yet, but this was a start.
The two of them sat like that—silent, bruised, and broken—but together in the quiet.
Paulit ulit akong nangangako sa sarili ko. Na bukas iba na. Na sa susunod mas matibay na. Na hindi na ako magpapadala. Pero pagdating ng sandali, pareho pa rin ang reaksyon. Pareho pa rin ang pag iwas. Pareho pa rin ang pagkapit sa mga bagay na alam kong hindi naman talaga nakakatulong.
Doon ako naiirita. Hindi dahil mahina ako. Kundi dahil alam ko na dapat mas alam ko na. Ilang beses ko na itong dinaanan. Ilang beses ko na itong sinulat. Ilang beses ko na itong inamin. Pero heto pa rin ako. Umiikot. Parang walang natutunan.
Parang dumaan lang ang lahat. Parang binangga ako ng buhay paulit ulit, pero wala man lang naiwan. Walang aral. Walang marka. Walang dalang kahit ano. Para akong umalis sa giyera na walang sugat pero walang natutunan kung paano umiwas sa bala.
Ang dami ko nang maling desisyon. Ang dami ko nang sinayang na pagkakataon. Ang dami ko nang binayaran. Pero tuwing babalik ako sa simula, para pa rin akong walang karanasan. Walang baong karunungan. Walang dalang babala. Parang hindi ko man lang pinulot ang mga piraso ng sarili ko sa bawat pagbagsak.
Siguro ito yung mas masakit aminin. Hindi lang ako nasaktan. Hindi lang ako nagkamali. Kundi parang wala rin akong nakuha. Parang hindi naging puhunan ang sakit. Parang hindi naging guro ang pagkakamali. Dumaan lang. Tapos iniwan akong pareho pa rin.
Siguro ganito talaga kapag paulit ulit kang nasanay sa sakit. Nagiging ingay na lang siya. Hindi na leksyon. Hindi na paalala. Isang background lang habang nagpapatuloy ka sa parehong direksyon.
Hindi pa ako nagbabago. Totoo. Pero hindi na rin ako yung dati na hindi umaamin. At minsan, sapat na muna iyon para magpatuloy.
At sa huli, naiinis ako sa sarili ko sa tuwing naaalala ko na hindi pa rin pala ako nagbabago.
Some of the deepest growth happens slowly, quietly, and one step at a time.
This Monday Mindfulness reminder is for anyone feeling discouraged in their healing journey. You are still growing, even when progress feels slow. Be gentle with yourself as you continue forward.
In this Friday Focus Forward video, we explore emotional acceptance, sitting with difficult feelings, and learning that emotions are information — not failures.
If you struggle with overthinking, emotional avoidance, anxiety, or feeling pressured to “get over it,” this reminder is for you.
