80M (1%) people are estimated to have DID. The American population is around 343M, so one quarter of Americans roughly have DID. This doesn't take into account OSDD, DPDR, which may be more or less prevelant.
hi, i’m roshi, and ever since i was little i’ve had moments where i’ve felt like multiple people or had conflicting opinions or felt guilty or conflicted about things i’ve said or decisions i’ve made before, as if they weren’t done by me or don’t actually align with my beliefs and interests. i often feel myself feeling like different people, switching like someone with a personality disorder, typically DID. i align with a vast majority of the symptoms of DID, howeverrr i haven’t had an official assessment of it or talked about it to a professional, or had a diagnosis.
I AM NOTTTT SAYING I HAVE DID OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT, DO I BELIEVE I COULD PROBABLY HAVE IT OR ANOTHER PERSONALITY DISORDER? YES. BUT IM MOT SAYING I DO AS ITS A SERIOUS CLAIM AND I NEED TO CONSULT A PROFESSIONAL BEFORE I AM CONCRETE WITH THAT CLAIM.
I do not want to make myself seem like a spectacle or like this is all fun and games and silliness. it’s not. is it fun and cute sometimes? yeah, and i love when the fun/sweet alters come to visit me, but it’s not always fun or cute. it leaves me feeling like i don’t know who i am at times, and like i’m no one or have no actual morals because i feel like i’m not a real or actual personality/person. it’s made me be mean and dismissive to my loved ones and felt awful about it afterwards. it makes me feel like i have no actual personality or interests because they always change or feel different. i have actually sometimes struggled to tell past dreams or delusions from reality and the possibility of that seriously affecting me (it hasn’t yet luckily) actually terrifies me but it’s not that extreme. mostly just random stuff but still scary. my symptoms have resulted from trauma and having to put up several fronts or create different versions of myself to satisfy others as soon as i was the age where i realised i was being perceived. (so like 6 or 7 lol)
i haven’t had a label to term these symptoms till now. it helps to have these labels for alters or symptoms even if i’m not 100% certain about my potential diagnosis. sorry for the vent if you just came for fun character profiles i promise the isn’t as sad or dark as it seems i’m just explaining my stand point!
if you have any questions please ask me i beg youuu do not feel guilty or weird it helps me to understand myself better literally!
OKAY NOW THE FUN PART
Alters:
RIRI ❤️
Riri is my little alter, I usually feel in a regressed state when i’m her, and i feel just small and silly and say weird or cute things, at least i think they’re cute lolz. i love when she visits and she’s so sweet and has brought me nothing but joy 99% of the time. she has her own blooog, unfortunately i haven’t switched to her properly in a while but she’ll be back soon :). this is her blog @ririxbot . think of her like a real life cat valentine.
she’s my first termed or labelled alter. i do not believe she is my first actual alter tho, as she’s pretty new on the scale of my symptoms starting. On here and other places i have been silly and comedic or weird and saying things like “yes yes” which is kind of her catchphrase lol, and just genuinely being a weird cute little character. i thought it was completely by choice and just a silly character i did but i soon started feeling like her involuntarily and switching to her without realising until i started thinking it was just age regression or good method acting but no, i felt like i was a different person. people brought the possibility of DID or things like that up and i did research and i started labelling myself with some aligning symptoms and terms. I had felt like i might have had it before but never truly felt like i did but now i am aware of it a lot. heh. it’s weird but she feels like a robot or some kind of doll? i don’t know it’s hard to describe it apart from using the word character, but it’s not a voluntary thing yk.
KURT 🦖
Okay, i’ll be honest, kurt can be a DICK sometimes. he’s been a dick to people before and i’ve felt awful about it and people don’t understand. i’ve obviously took responsibility and do not feel like i am absolved of it, i am not!!! but i hate when he makes me feel like that. BUTTT usually if you don’t get too sappy or anything he’ll be just a standard funny british lad (ejekejhekauehea). he’s masc and probably gay? it’s weird cause i’ve felt myself aligning with gay or mlm concepts or relationships but i am not a trans guy or transmasc so yeah i think that’s been him all along. lol. he’s kind of the opposite of riri. she’s sweet he’s not sour but not over affectionate or lovey dovey or the kindest which kinda sucks.i have mixed feelings about him :P he’s kinda new but i’m pretty sure he’s been around subtly before for a long time but only just became more dominant. I’d give him his own blog but he doesn’t care enough or visit enough. he usually litterally only visits on weekends it seems. he likes chilling and laughing at dumb shit. standard lad to be around usually. i like him. i think.
I don’t have any other fully fledged out or completely solid alters but i feel like some are starting to come alive lol, so i’ll update but for now those are the ones i feel most comfortable with talking about or genuinely exist in my opinion. thanks for listening :) please let me know your opinions!!! or questions but please be kind
It happened quite suddenly--a shift in the eyes, a change in posture, the way his lip stilled and hardened into a thin line. The door swung open, and Professor X bustled forward, assuming the helm while Charles crawled safely away into the quiet corners of his mind. Their mind.
"You couldn't leave him alone, could you?" The Professor huffed, gaze sharpening into a glare as he leaned forward in Charles' wheelchair. That's how it always went, wasn't it? Crossing lines and sidestepping boundaries until poor little Charles Xavier nearly drowned in his own anxiety. Thank fuck he had somebody else living inside his head.
"What do you want, Emily," the Professor snapped, opening his telepathic floodgates with ease. She was a tricky one, Charles' daughter-in-law. One of few living in the school with the infuriating ability to block his abilities. He hated that.
"I know you aren't stupid enough to intentionally call for me"
how do i figure out who i am?? is there like a list of questions or smth?? i hate this. quinns friend came over and they didn't even get to talk.. i feel like a fraud i took their time we haven't seen them in forever and now quinn didn't see them and it sucks
i hate inviting friends over here my house sucks my mom can hear everything and nothing feels private or comfortable
god who am i?? i wish my irl friends would ask me that and see us as different people
they know but idk if they get it, and its so hard to describe when we're like.. at school and ppl can hear and shit, and i hate being at my house and i haven't gone over to their houses and i feel so alone in this, bc i want them to understand and ask and shit, or at least quinn wants that
god fucking, idk who i amm
sorry ranting online, we gotta stop that.
tl;dr: do any systems have like, a check list or anything they use to help get to know a new alter/part/headmate/etc? like... idk sorry im really unfocused sorry too much going on uhh yeah sorry
I don't know if this one is okay but just to tell you. Can I request a platonic headcannons for Trey, Leona, Jamil, and Sebek with a gn!reader that has Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID)? Basically, reader has a split personality that they developed due to growing up in an abusive home. The other personality is their younger self from the past and is afraid of their parents coming to get them, they see the boys as their guardian. While their other personality is their original one, the older self and the one you see in the present. How do the boys react when they see reader switching from the original to their younger personality where they cry and cling on them like a child begging them to take them away from their parents, then switches back to their original self who took note of the ke situation and apologized, explaining their condition to the boys.
You can ignore this if you find it difficult to write or you find it a sensitive topic :)
warnings: gender neutral mc, platonic relationship, themes of childhood trauma, Little personalities mentioned
Sebek
not gunna lie, his first thought is 'wtf human???' but once he gets beyond that things get better. the idea of multiple people or personas inhabiting one host is a lot less 'strange' to fae.
he is confused by your littles, and admittedly hes not the best with children. Sebek can be rather loud and stern, which frightens off most kiddos. but if your alters are attached to him and that doesn't shake him he mostly is unfazed.
Sebek is remarkably protective of you, even the host. he knows there is a small, frightened, traumatized child within you that he feels a strong need to protect. he sees it as a point of pride or a part of his masculinity, and hes quick to jump to your side.
Leona
its much more strange to Leona then Sebek. but hes rather openminded to your experience and will except it without much struggle. in Leona's logic your little alter is a primal part of you that, dew to your trauma, was never able to develop.
now he'll treat your little alter the way he treats most children, which is with a strong desire to avoid. if your little one is frightened and comes running to him for comfort and protection he will see it as a nuisance, most likely ignoring the little.
he won't offer you the same level of sympathy as some of the others on this list, but he does except you mostly without question. Leona can become protective but its rather rare for this lazy lion.
Trey
hes heartbroken when he learns of your DID. mostly because of what you must have gone through to develop it. he tries not to cry after he meets your little. probably holding them in his arms and offering them as much soothing and comfort as he can.
Trey is great with your little alter. hes gentle, patient, and sweet. if they come running to him frightened hes quick to sooth them. they dont need to be frightened, hes there. and he'll make sure no one can hurt them again.
he will also develop a protective streak for the host. his Big Brother persona will kinda take over and he older siblings you a lot.
Jamil
he is quiet upon you first explaining your DID to him. he has a very hard time understanding your experience at first, and may ask some 'stupid' or 'rude' questions but he means well.
once he wraps his head around it hes mad. not at you, but he is angry. its his anger at what happened to you as a child for this to be the result. he won't take it out on you, and probably bottles it up to explode at a later date.
Jamil is wonderful with children, and its no surprise your little attaches themselves to his hip. he treats them with the same gentleness and respect he treats all children. his heart does sting, looking into the hosts eyes but knowing hes speaking to a child.
I know you’re probably not the person to ask for this, but idk where to start.
I’m so thankful for your golden afternoon AU because it sent me down a research spiral on DID (I think it’s kind of cool? I know it has its hardships, but I just have an overall interested and positive relationship/thought to it) and that turned out to be helpful because my best friend recently told me she’s being diagnosed with DID herself.
I know you linked some good blogs/channels with DID information, but I can’t remember them. Do you know any good people o can go to to help support my friend and help her figure this out? (At this point, I know more about DID than she does because she learnt it exists like. 2 days ago and doesn’t have regular internet access)
Thank you for giving me the opportunity to learn about this in the first place though
i'm glad i could be of any help in the first place!
unfortunately the channel where i learned most of my information from deleted most of their videos and quit youtube, which really sucks because their videos were easy to understand. the entropy system also has some decent videos though. They have a playlist called a "beginner's guide to DID" that will probably help with the basics.
my lovely friend who helped me with the golden afternoon AU's blog is here! they might be able to help your friend with where to get started and tips on how to help manage it. i suggest asking them how to deal with switching and dissociative amnesia, how to develop internal and external communication within the system over time (ex. writing in journals or calendars or sticky notes to remind other fronting alters about stuff), and what non-systems can do to help support your friend if something happens. my friend can talk a lot more about specifics, but i think those three topics would provide some foundation for how to organize their situation.
i know i have a couple other systems following me, so if they have any advice or just random tips that i would never think of, i will post all of them under the tag 'did advice'!
