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DID is “friends in my head” for me, but I feel like people hear that and think “fun and easy”. It can be fun, but what I mean is “relationships that can be messy and hard and take active work to maintain”. And that doesn’t really ‘solve’ much for me. It’s more that, if I’m gonna suffer through things, I’d rather do it with these goofs than alone.
Thoughts on Innerworlds:
They’re not physical locations that system members actually live & walk around in, but the brain may make them perceive it that way.
When we front, we can “remember” what happened in our innerworld while we were there. Since we share a brain, we all have the same “storyline” there, which has created consistent “memories” from within our innerworld over the years.
We’ve had things happen there that have helped us process & recover from things that happened in the outerworld. (It’s why it’s used as a therapeutic technique.)
There’s a fine line with it. It’s possible to rely too heavily on the innerworld to escape the stress of this life, which, for many CDD systems, was the only way they could survive. Once it’s safe to do so, it is important to draw up a healthy distinction between innerworld reality and physical reality. But, on the other hand, entirely denying the legitimacy of innerworld events can greatly hinder healing.
Oftentimes, innerworld happenings are metaphorical. They occur because there’s something the brain/system needs to work through. For example, a “physical fight” occurring within the innerworld may represent clashing morals between two system members, and signify that the misalignment needs to be addressed.
So, are innerworlds “real”? Maybe not in the way the walls of my house are, but it’s real in that it’s a significant part of how my brain functions. To deny that reality entirely is to deny the very thoughts in my head, simply because I can’t touch them & other’s can’t see them.
one thing about being a fictive: i hope i never find anyone else from my source & constantly hope i find other people from my source simultaneously
Me: “Hey where’s my—?”
System mate:
you ever feel the tickle of a split beginning to happen and go “NO NO NO NO NO” as you shove every scrap of your latest OC into the fire?
i want to be able to go into denial about being a system again, like way back when. and i know that’s a strange thing to want, denial, but… there was a time when i was still hopeful the right antipsychotics would work. i miss when there was a chance that it wasn’t DID.
haunted by the fact that the more people love me, the less they like me
We made a new system-oriented community, for those interested.
A place to discuss the psychology of systemhood.
The focus is meant to be discussing the psychology (and by extension philosophy) of systemhood. Come talk about your personal theories, discuss the logistics of headspaces, share research you’ve found, or spark discussions on your favorite systemhood-related topics!
As a psychology student, we’re fascinated by the possible “whys” behind systemhood and everything that comes with it. If you’re into that as well, this is the place for you!
*Syscourse may be involved by virtue of what the community is about, but this is NOT the place to mount a vendetta of any kind. Keep it kind, keep it cool, keep it respectful.
