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๐กผ๐คฃ๐ฅง๐ผ with. keiji akaashi ๐คฃ๐ฅง๐ผ๐
LESSON #0 โ CONVINCING ๊ฉ
part of him wants to refuse outright. what do you mean you want his help? you want to learn how to kiss other guys? it's bad enough that he likes you, and now you're going to rub it in by giving him a taste of what he can't have. but, when you look up at him with those eyesโthose beautiful, pleading eyesโhe can't find it in him to say no. this is a common occurrence. you've gotten him to do your laundry on numerous occasions. this is also how you got your dorm pet(s).
"but, keiji, please? she's so cute, isn't she?"
"i'm not cleaning after them, though."
you're going to kill him. you're actually going to be his 'cause of death. sure, you might think it's normal; it's only kissing your best friend as practice for another guy. but, to him, it's way more than that. you're like a cigaretteโhe wants to try you, so bad, but he knows that once he does, he won't ever be able to go back.
"it's not my problem if you like someone. look up a tutorial on youtube if you're so curious," keiji hums, purposely avoiding eye contactโhe's just so interested in this show.
"i have! all they say is 'once you get into it, you'll instantly know how to do it'. i mean, it's the dumbest thing i've ever heard. i didn't look up a step-by-step to skip from looking at them to after the kiss."
he simply shrugs. "they're right, you know. it just clicks when you get comfortable."
"well, i'm not going to be comfortable if i don't know what i'm doing, and i'm scared i'm gonna mess up and embarrass myself in front of him!"
"keiji, no, please! you're my best friend, no one else will get it if i ask! they're just gonna think i'm weird!" you plead, kneeling down and hugging his leg as a last resort.
"please, keiji?" you interrupt, not wanting your plans derailed.
"i..." he sighs, running his fingers through his hair before begrudgingly agreeing. "fine, okay."
with an excited squeal, you stand up and intertwine your fingers with his. "thank you! what's first?"
he loves your eyes. he thinks that they're absolutely gorgeous. with or without makeup to enhance your eyelashes, each wisp of color within your iris is a pathway that he wishes he could explore, simply by staring into your eyes for hours. he's a complete moth to the flame, because he swears that if he looks too long, he'll fall in.
"hey, keijiโis there something on my face?"
"what makes you think that?"
"...well, you've been staring at me for a good minute. is it paint, or something?l
"...okay, first things firstโdo not open your eyes unless you're ready to pull away. no one wants to see that right now, for one, and it just makes a kiss seem... not real. like you're not into it," he explains, pausing his show and turning to sit sideways on the couch. he lifts his glasses off from his nose and sets them on the coffee table.
"is that why you take your glasses off?" you ask, tilting your head curiously. "is it to prevent you from looking, or something?"
"um, no. i just don't like the idea of them fogging up," he says, thinking about what else to elaborate on. "closing your eyes is just because it'd be really awkward if you both stared at each other in the eyes."
"okay, i get it, i think. when do i start closing my eyes?"
"whenever you start feeling awkward. or, probably better for youโbecause you're so inexperiencedโis to just mirror him."
"oh, yeah, i'm sooo inexperienced," you scoff, leaning back.
"you asked for my opinion."
"fair enough. what next?"
to him, hands are the most useful part of the body. it controls everythingโvolleyball, writing, hobbies... even eating, though you can technically do it otherwise. it's just messy that way. one thing he does take pride in, though, is how his look. it's mostly your faultโyou compliment them all the time.
"keiji, your hands are so pretty. you've got such nice nails, too."
"um... thank you? i think?"
"what do you mean, you think? you should let me paint them."
"try not to do too much with your hands. it'll just be distracting you or him from the kiss."
he'd almost wanted to intentionally give you bad advice. maybe, that'd keep you to himself. but, unfortunately for him, he's smarter than that. he knows you'd be hurt, and he knows very well that it probably wouldn't work in the first place, and that whoever you'd wanted to kiss would just laugh adoringly at your inexperience. he knows he would.
"honestly, it can be almost anywhere you want."
"...i don't want to know what's going on in your head. try to keep them on the upper body, at least." keiji says, rubbing his forehead with two fingers.
"come a little closer," he motions.
you crawl across a few cushions before plopping down in front of him.
"now, try and find the most comfortable spot for your hands so that you're not deciding in the middle of a kiss."
panic visibly sets within you, and you hover your hands in a multitude of places, when keiji gently holds your wrists as a request for you to stop.
"hey, calm downโhere, i'll guide you. shoulders first," he hums, bringing your hands to rest on his shoulders, allowing you to get a feel for it. "next..." cupping his face, resting on his chest, arms around his neck... before you reached having your fingers tangle in his hair.
"oh, this is nice," you say, immediately settling as you gently scratch his scalp with your nails.
"yeah? here?" he asks, trying not to focus on the pleasurable sensation that would lull him to sleep if it were under any other circumstances.
you nod, playing with his curls. "definitely."
he barely notices the soft smile that slips onto his features, simply watching the glint of fascination in your eyes. "now, i'm gonna put my hands here, okay?" he whispers, trailing his hands down to gently grab your waist. "is this okay?"
you nod, still mesmerized by his hair.
you talk way too much, in his opinion. not as much as bokuto, but a lot. to be fair, everyone talks a lot compared to his normal days. even though he may complain in his mind, he knows in his heart he doesn't care at all. he loves watching your lips move, memorizing how each individual letter looks on your lips. sometimes, he'll try to guess what you're listening to based on how well he can read your mouthing now.
"...are you listening to beabadoobee?"
"yoshimi, forest, magdalene?"
"whโhow'd you know? are you psychic?"
now comes the part he's almost dreading mostโnot that he could ever want to avoid your lips. he's just nervous. he takes a deep breath, starting his explanation.
"when you're kissing someone, don't tense up. you need to completely relax. no one wants to kiss a rock."
"weird metaphor, but i get it."
"you slightly part your lips. just a little bit."
"how much is a little bit?"
you slightly drop your bottom lip, and it's almost perfect. keiji lifts his hand to your chin, just barely pushing your jaw up with his finger.
"do you want chapstick?" you ask.
"are you trying to tell me that my lips look dry?" he raises an eyebrow.
"no! your lips look nice. i'm just saying, i've heard it helps." you defend, getting the chapstick out and applying a quick layer.
"sure," he sighs, leaning a little closer and allowing you to drag the chapstick on his lips for what seems like forever (it was two seconds. he was just focused on you instead).
"ready to focus?" he asks, watching you apply yet another layer. it felt like you were teasing him.
"yep," you smile, re-parting your lips. "like this, right?"
he nods, beginning his next explanation. "don't do that when you kiss people. if you start talking in the middle of a kiss, make it relate to the experience, at least. if you start talking about the weather, you're getting kicked out."
you offer a sheepish grin. be continues.
"anyway, when most people kiss, they tend to lean their heads to the right, but it really depends on the person. i go right, which means you should also go right. with me, at least."
"how do you know that? just how many people have you kissed?" you tease.
he purses his lips. "two."
you stifle your giggle, waiting for keiji's next words.
"kissing isn't as difficult as you think. it really does just come to you."
"i'm not done. i'll do my best to help you, but when you kiss someone, you're not really paying attention to that. it just kind of happens."
you nod and stay quiet as he thinks for a moment. "i tend to put whoever's bottom lip i'm kissing in between mine."
"should i try and do the same thing?"
"no. nโnot with me, at least."
"and after a few kisses like that, you just keep going until it gets more intense."
LESSON #4 โ TONGUE ๐
he doesn't have much to say about this. you use it lots? ice cream, popsicles, cleaning off butter knivesโhe could go on. you made him try the cherry-stem test once, though. he passed, obviouslyโthat was definitely the main reason you asked for his help specifically.
"i don't get it. what's the point?"
"apparently, if you can tie a knot, you're a good kisser."
"hm. let's see if it checks out."
"what're you expecting? you look like the only thing you've kissed is your pillow."
"do i really have to explain this?" keiji sighs, burying his head in his hands for a moment.
"yes, come on! i need this one the most. what do i do with my tongue?"
"it's going to be so weird to talk about. and it's gonna sound so odd. i'm warning you."
"i understand the risks and i read all the terms and conditions. give me the goods. services? i dunno."
"definitely do not start off with it. if you shove your tongue into his mouth, he's gonna shove you away from him."
"honestly, don't do anything about it. let him slip it in and take control of it. you lightly suck on it, i guess."
"ew, you're right. i don't wanna hear about this."
"i told you," he responds, leaning back and resting his head above the armrest, his hands acting as a pillow under him.
"do you really shove your tongue down their throat?"
LESSON #5 โ PUTTING IT ALL TOGETHER ๐
he knew it was coming. he knows you too well to think it'd be as easy as telling you what to do. unfortunately, he plays an incredibly well-developed game of denial. againโyou've done this on multiple occasions. half of your essays are written by him. half of the recipes you've learned? him.
"thanks for teaching me how to make this! it's really good. i should get more recipes from you."
"i'm starting to doubt you actually listened."
"then why did i end up making the whole thing?"
"i cut up the vegetables."
"after complaining that the onions were making you cry, so you couldn't cut the others."
"okay, then... i think that's it, right?" you hum, leaning forward and climbing onto his lap. "that's all the information itself?"
your action causes a sharp intake of breath from him, who does his best to hide it. he props himself up onto his elbows to get a better look at you. you look really, really pretty from this angle.
"iโwhat are you doing?" he stammers, his cheeks turning a pinkish color. in his mind, he blames it on the tv's screensaver. it's on green right now; so, what?
"is this not how people kiss?" you ask, tilting your head to the side.
"it is, but..." he averts his eyes.
"keiji," you whine, leaning down closer until you're laying on top of him. "i need the practice."
the way you say his name nearly makes him choke, but he covers it up. he's really going to try not to mess it up for you, even though it may benefit his (one-sided) rival.
"okay, fine," keiji sighs, sitting up again. he doesn't dare say anything more lest he seem too eager.
your eyes flit to his lips, barely breaking your shared gaze for less than a second. for this moment, you take in his current aesthetic. flushed, messy-haired, (how you wish he hadn't taken his glasses off so that they could be slightly askew), heavily breathing, shirt ridden up just enough for you to see his stomach... you could find so many little things like this to name.
and, finally, taking in what you've learned, you lean in just a little closer. tilting your head to the right, slightly parting your lips, and itching to tell him just how pretty he is. but, he said no unnecessary talking.
he mirrors your actions, feeling his heart beat so fast that he's genuinely scared he may have a heart attack.
when your lips touch, it's not like the movies. you don't picture a firework exploding in between you, and there's no dramatic music.
there is, however, the most polite man you've ever met on the other side. he's so gentle, kissing you slowly so that you don't get overwhelmed. you didn't even notice how his hands had gotten to cup your face, but everything about the interaction is soft.
it's almost like he thinks you're delicate.
you're both a mess of heavy breathing, your lips sloppily moving against his. and he was rightโhe does think that your inexperience is cute.
his lips move over yours, the soft texture you'd expect from no man but keiji as ever so gently nips your bottom lip.
your hands crawl up his nape to settle on the roots of his hair, tangling your fingers in the familiar curls as refuge from the unfamiliar feeling of the kiss. he lets a quiet sigh into your mouth, the vibration of the sound waves against your lips causing you to nearly melt.
noticing his hands move from your face to your neck, you take the moment to be just a little cheeky.
"i thought you said not to move your hands much, keiji," you teasingly whisper in between breaths.
he simply scoffs against your mouth. "actually, i said no talking," he murmurs, becoming less and less conscious of what he's doing.
the more your fingers massage his head, the more he wishes you were his. he hasn't kissed anyone like this beforeโit's simultaneously nothing special yet the most amazing thing he's ever experienced.
his hands slide down your body to rest at your waist, feeling your breath hitch the slightest bit. mumbling an apology he doesn't really mean, he leans forward a bit more to tilt your head back. only then, does it dawn on him.
LESSON #6 โ ESCALATION ๐ฆเพเฝฒ
he didn't think it'd get this far. he really didn't. he should've known better than to assume he had the self control for this. looking back on it now, he really did care for you too much. the time he spent with you felt romanticโlike an old married couple that always argues yet never harbors the negative emotions. but, alas, you weren't his to care for... or, so it seemed.
"you really should be more careful. you're going to get seriously injured if you keep this up."
"no, i won't, 'kaashi; you don't know anything."
"do you know how many band-aids i've gone through in the past ten minutes?"
"we should stop," he whispers, barely audible. he doesn't pull away, though.
"why? you want to?" you frown against his lips, brushing the corner of his mouth to place another kiss there. maybe, he just needs some convincing... if this is about what you think it's about.
your hands trail from his neck to his abdomen, your fingers tugging on hem of his shirt. you lean forward and cradle his head until he hits the armrest, and you realize he's much more susceptible now. good moralsโhe feels guilty about kissing you.
fortunately for him, you don't actually like someone else. dragging the fabric of his shirt up his stomach, you deepen the kiss as a form of distraction. it was a feeble attempt; he noticed right away.
"wait, wait," he breathes, pulling back for a moment. he can't seem to find his words when you look at him like that, your gaze all sparkly and enticing. "i thought you had your eyes on someone. why are youโ?!"
"it was an excuse. i just wanted to kiss you," diving back in without giving him a chance to respond to the shock you've just supplied him.
you open a singular eye, noticing how his are wide open. "what happened to closing your eyes?" the giggle that travels through you isn't enough to soothe him. he needs to hear it directly.
his hands lift to your face, gently pushing your head back with his fingers tangled down to your scalp as he shares your stare. "yโyou mean it? you actually want to kiss me?"
"was the fact i've been trying to get you to make out with me for the past 20 minutes not proof enough?"
he shakes his head. "you said that you wanted lessons!"
"so that i could kiss you! you're too smart for this, keiji," you laugh, brushing his dark strands of hair out of his face.
he groans, rubbing his eyes. "god, you're..."
"a genius? yeah, i know." you teasingly raise your eyebrows, as you reach over for his glasses.
the confusion evident on his face, his eyes follow your hand. "i was gonna say crazy," he mumbles, watching you place the glasses on his nose.
"but you've gotta admit," you grin, leaning closer again, "i was able to get this far without you suspecting anything. i'm at least a little smart, right?" he flinches when you tilt his glasses to the side.
"what's that for?" he asks, avoiding the question.
you kiss his nose before moving to his jawline. "keep your glasses on next time we kiss. it's so hot when they're crooked.
"mhm," you sigh, connecting your lips to his.
notes. this is probably university au 'cause i didn't have a specific time in mind but too old to be high school too young to have a working job... you get the point
also... can you tell i've never actually kissed anyone ha ha so silly (i'm going to cry)
edit: me forgetting to put tags
