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I'm just a girl!
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I DON'T do commissions
No PMs only asks
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I have a lot of hobbies
Multi-fandom gal
Astarion and Sylus girlie
incredibly quick SMAU because I've been seeing them everywhere and wanted to try one, made with the postfully.app! (Tysm abyssyby for the reply to that one commenter) Trying to get out of the funk I've been in with lads so I'm just starting small... Hope you like!
Whether or not this was heavily inspired by me using every ounce of self control to not buy the Sylus perfume to save my wallet from despair is irrelevant-
ive been obsessing over you seem pretty sad for a girl so in love by Olivia Rodrigo and this song hit me Hard. So um here have a random (fic? blurb? drabble? idk what to call it)
Tags/TW: SFW, hurt no comfort, angst, mentions of death via car crash, nicotine/smoking addiction.
She loved him so much. He loved her. But that was never enough was it?
Cigarettes, God he could never go without his cigarettes. He tried, he really tried to get clean. Threw out all his packs and chewed gum. Everything he could think of.
What worked best was her... Waking up to her every morning- She was the best thing that ever happened to him... Which is why he couldn't ruin her.
Relapses, no one ever expected relapses. Fuck his mom. She and his dad were what started all this. Constantly smoking and drinking ever since he was born- His first real drag of smoke was taken at 8.
He hadn't really stopped since.
She met him at some stupid rave, she wasn't even sure how her friends convinced her to come. Something about needing to get out more. She thought he smelled like shit, incense was tolerable but cigarette smoke was a whole other ballpark.
She practically ripped the thing in half with how quickly she tore it out of his hand. Those things will kill you, you know that? He almost yelled at her... Almost.
God she was pretty-
Even in a dress that barely fit and a room lit by phone flashlights and glow sticks he could tell. ...He still believes she was the most beautiful person he's ever seen. Inside and out.
She was good for him. Kept him out of his usual haze that whole night, he asked for her number. To his shock she accepted. He wonders if she regretted that.
They moved like most couples do, a date or 3. Kisses, holding hands, fingers kept busy between hers rather than holding a lighter. She made him brush his teeth a lot, fair enough. Truth be told he didn't love the taste of it in his mouth either.
They fought as most couples do. Put away your dishes, why does it take you so long to get ready.
Stop smoking.
He had heard that before. But never from someone who mattered... From someone who made him want to try.
He never realized how easy living could be until he met her. 2 years, since they had started dating. He had been clean for one. They moved in together for their 3rd year. No hidden packs. No extra toothpaste.
He was happy.
He got a call from his mom.
His dad had passed away a few months ago, she wanted to see her son. Give old dad a visit. She offered him a cigarette. He said no. But she kept pushing, just one breath. That's all. In honor of the dead.
It wasn't what ended up being the biggest in his life.
It was the ring which never made it's way out of the drawer after.
He became distant after that. The smell of smoke dirtying his clothes. Every morning he woke up to her, happy. Loving. He had never felt so guilty. He knew how bad it would destroy her when she found out.
So he decided she wouldn't.
His aunt needed to be picked up from the airport in a few days. Is that okay? Alright then. Honey my aunt lost her luggage, mind if I pack some of your clothes for her? You're around the same size.
He was lying. A plane wasn't coming in. It was taking off, one-way. The clothes in the bag were his. He only took one thing, one thing which was meant to have been and will always be her's. That small velvet box, holding maybe a different life. A happier life. Now he'd never know.
She never even got the chance to decide. To try again. That was what had pissed her off. She drove, he got out of the car. He told her to wait, he'd be right back with his aunt in tow.
...20 minutes
....40 minutes.
She gets out of the car. Finds him there. With a suitcase and ticket in hand. Why-?
They fought, though less of a fight and more of a plea. Don't go. I have to. Why? Because I can't do this. Do what? ...I can't hurt you. You can't. I'm smoking again. What? I'm sorry. We can try again, you got clean once- We-
No.
I won't take you down with me.
...I wish I had never taken that cigarette out of your hand.
Tears flooded her vision as she went back to the car. Sobs wracked through her chest. Banging her head on the wheel as he went to board.
She pulled out of the terminal. She doesn't see the other car. Drunk driver was what the news said. Fate had it's way with irony.
She was gone by the time the paramedics arrived. The last thing she was him. His face crinkling in that funny way it did when they first met. She had lied to. She didn't regret a thing.
Wouldn't change it for the world.
He didn't see the news till he landed. He never smoked again. Forever left wondering what would have happened if he had the courage to open that box and ask a question.
Hi, this is me just letting anyone who might be interested know I'm just taking time off (officially)- I really haven't had any ideas or motivation for my L.a.D.S fic and idk when or if it's gonna come back-
My life has been really crazy lately and it just seems like I cannot catch a break *prime example being my doctor says I need to start taking antibiotics because this cough could be turning into pneumonia!!*
And just yeh- I've been taking more time for personal writing projects anyway and want to take more focus with the limited energy and motivation I have for those and hopefully improving my skill as well.
I'm sorry to the (well its small but an audience is an audience) people reading the fic who have been waiting or wondering where the next chapter is and the empty promises I kept making : ( I genuinely did want to keep going but I could not make words sound right on the page and it was incredibly frustrating-
This blog will still be semi-active (reblogs, possible art posting, maybe drabbles) but for now its just going to be me doomscrolling Tumblr and liking cool posts lol
I hope everyone has a wonderful day and ty for reading! 🥲
@meeshrox tagged me for this game on my main blog but I thought why not bring the game here?
So thank you, my love, for the tag and for the opportunity to show my girl.
This is Arya, Rafayel's Cutie. She's a bit light headed and clumsy, and she daydreams a lot. In her naivity, she sometimes let others take the best of her, but when she realizes it, the woman turns into a storm and you better step out of the way.
Her opinion is many times overlooked or ignored, and she tended to share her thoughts less and less because of that, until Rafayel. Fishie seems to be the only one who understands her and she's not ashame to share what's going on on her mind around him.
She loves fiercely, and she will protect the ones she loves until the end. Rafayel is a very lucky bastard 🥰
I might be starting to collect some ideas for a long fic about those two. Let's see if I can pull it through 😬
Tagging some lovelies to join the game if you want: @sweet-evil-trap; @munnmolads @irandial @hachisenshi @whateveritisisfine @raffyfish @flamulas-n-boingfish and everyone else who likes to join! If you do tag me to see your gorgeous girls!
She‘s Like… my younger self since I self-insert much.
She adventurous, spontaneous, whimsical and with her it never gets boring. She doesn‘t like it, to fit in a certain box and is always eager to try new things!
The one thing she‘s passionate about and absolutely devoted too, though, is her precious Lemurian groom.
But she‘s not afraid to tell that Sassy Artist her opinion 🤣 His well-being often is even more important to her than her own, which is why they have quite an equal Relationship to take care of each other 🤭
my mc is a self-insert and a silly & nerdy loser just like me <3 her name is mina. she's very hyper-independent and struggles with letting go of her self-imposed pressures and anxieties. when it comes to others, she's fiercely compassionate and firm about her beliefs—but towards herself? nobody is a harsher critic than her.
sylus is appealing because he respects and supports her independence, but he's also there to help without condescension or making her feel weak. the hard part is getting her to admit it when she needs help. she has a tendency to keep going until she burns out and explodes, like a dying star. sylus admires the fighter in her, but it pains him knowing she won't fight for herself.
i could keep yapping about her relationship with the other guys, but i'm just leave it at sylus so i'm not yapping forever on this post :P
i tried to make her facial features look like mine but i'm kinda ass at character customization so i still tweak her features a bit every once in a while :P
obviously, i don't have yellow eyes. i just thought they looked cool and reminded me of a cat because of the way they seem to glow, so i gave that color to my mc. i don't wear makeup irl but again i thought the golden eyeshadow and thick eyeliner looked so cool i had to put it on my mc <3 i really wish the game had more alt or goth inspired fits im ngl
recently, i had a weird moment of dysphoria where i adjusted my mc's features to look more similar to me (esp the nose and thick eyebrows) and i had this horrible overwhelming dread of "oh my god. i ruined her. she's so ugly now." i realized i was projecting my own insecurities onto her. i only felt she was "uglier" because i made her look more like me. the feeling was so, so strange. eventually, it faded away as i got used to looking at her. now i love her <3
of course, the guys would love us no matter what we look like. plus, me and sylus get to be twins with our big noses and left-handedness :3 honestly, seeing so many people thirst over sylus and higuruma's noses made me feel so much better about my own nose. ultimately, i think participating in the lads fandom and playing the game has been a positive experience in my life. i'm very grateful for that <3
this is my mc, she's half me and half oc. i based her looks off my own features but she came out too pretty and looks nothing like me yet i decided to keep her cause i am in love. we share the same name, cause she is who i wish to be. she's kind, warm, amiable and independent.
👇 and these three are her husbands. she doesn't have a type, but she loves the familiarity and the feeling of home they give her.
This is my MC. I don't self insert, but I still made her look like me
She is fiercely independent and a firecracker that does anything to protect who she loves, including recklessness if it's the only option she has left.
She loves being a hunter, but as her relationship with Sylus progressed she started drifting more and more toward his word and learned to manage it and actually has taken down or at least tamed some of his enemies when they thought they had the upper hand.
Sylus is inmensely proud of it, all of her sides.
They are currently married, after she was captured by EVER she found out she was pregnant as they held her and experimented on her before she was rescued. She suffered many after effects, but her relationship with Sylus remained strong and they are now expecting their baby to come into the world.
I have more backstory, but thought I'd keep it shorter.
Idk if you have been tagged, but I tagged in case. Thank you @erenophilic for tagging me!!
This is my MC! Her name is Madelyn Blythe, she is not a self insert nor does she look like me (I wish I did look like that though holy-) but I still love her very much!
I don't truly have lore for her but I have some fun headcanons!
She went through a big C-Pop idol phase as a teenager! She did the training and everything but she chose the path of a Deepspace Hunter instead. Although she still enjoys doing choreos and singing now and again as a hobby.
*It's her best kept secret from everyone except Caleb and her Grandma as they both had to drive her to practice.
She joined a small cover group called SuperNova, they never 'made it big' but they had a loyal fan base of around 10-20k.
Later she took a semester abroad in Paris during college where she got scouted by a photographer and modeled for a photoshoot which ended up in a popular magazine.
Trilingual! She speaks Chinese, English, and a bit of French!
Has an EXTENSIVE plushie collection.
Definitely crashes out every time Sylus flirts but puts on a poker face because she can't stand him- ...Right?
I think pre-relationship she would 'doll up' a bit before leaving to go to the N109 Zone or on mission which may involve Sylus- (much to her own dismay, why did she care if her hair looked nice?!)
Loves flowers and gardening, its one of the few respites she has outside of work and dealing with the Boss-Man's nonsense.
Idk many other people in the lads fandom on tumblr but I'll try to keep it going! @starfilledfield, @lads-kitten
happy birthdayyyy! 🎂🎉🎊❤️✨️ i hope you're having a balst on your special day with great food and even greater company. ❤️✨️ my wish for you is that you get sylus' card from the lingering lust wish pool early (if ur pulling).😌🍀✨️🍀✨️🍀✨️
stay hydrated and healthy.😗🫶 - @syslut
OMG TYSM- I didn’t expect anyone to remember that comment this is so sweet of you 🥹 I wish you the best for your birthday as well! 🫶 You’re one of my fav creators on here so this is an honor for my small barely active page 🥰
And thank you for the well wishes I’m gonna need it 😭🙏 (already 31 pulls deep with NOTHING and I hope to get the full banner so I’m cooked 💔)
p.s. to anyone who’s reading my fanfic I started a while back IM SORRY ik it’s been like a month since the last chapter life’s been crazy 😭 soon I promise 🥲
Y’all I ain’t even a Rafayel main I just pulled bc I was curious abt the lore and the stunning kindleds what the hell-
(Rafayel mains don’t come for me I don’t know what happened I somehow got the both of the pair on the second day of the event in 12 pulls total and I’m SHOOKETH)
I guess Rafayel felt bad because Sylus was being so mean (he didn’t come home till 63 pulls and I couldn’t get his rerun in time 💔)
OK no drabble yet as I have to head out for the day, but I just hit 100 days in the game yesterday and I've been wanting to do a drabble for it and this sounds fire! Mind if I participate OP?
Tags: MC/GN! Reader x All the LI's (Seperate), Fluff, Mild Angst with Comfort, Slight Main Story/Spoilers, Not Proofread!
I wanted to do something for my 100th day playing L.a.D.S. (I am a day late but better late than never!) and this post by OP sounded like a really good prompt so mb if I didn’t do it justice 😅
Post inspired by the song Timeless by Taylor Swift
Timeless was the only word to describe us, a love touched by fate. In every life, whether in the past or future I'd choose you. We'd choose each other.
Rafayel
I still can't believe how long it's been since I've become your bodyguard. 100 days of dealing with your dramatic personality, and 100 days of loving every minute of it. Watching these sunsets with you has been wonderful. Whenever we're out on the beach hands clasped you get this wistful look in your eyes and I wonder what you're thinking about. I know that sometimes you worry about me leaving you, but know that even if for some reason we separated I wouldn't stop looking for you till we were in each other's arms again. I hope we can stay together and watch 100 more sunsets together my silly fishie.
Caleb
I was going through the back of my closet when I found that old box of photographs. I was shocked, I forgot I still had it- I thought it was destroyed in the explosion. Safe to say I was overjoyed. It felt like I was supposed to find it, it's our 100 day anniversary since we re-united after all- So many memories were in there, one stood out to me however. It was when we were teenagers in that little store back home. You had me thrown over your shoulder like a rag doll- I miss that Caleb, but despite that grief I love the current Caleb to. I hope in every life you still have me on your shoulder, happy anniversary honey.
Sylus
100 days, I can hardly believe it. We got off to a rough start to say the least- If you told me back then I'd be celebrating 100 days of looking at your smug face I would have laughed. But look at us now... I found a book in the base, it was covered in dust and I think a cobwebs? Shocking I thought you kept everything tidier than that Boss Man. The book was a myth about 2 lovers back in the past, separated by fate... It reminded me of us, back in that arena. ...I know we tease but I hope you know that I will always choose you. Fate be damned, I will always make my way to you in every lifetime. Happy Anniversary Beloved.
Zayne
You know you really didn't have to sign me up for that desert cafés delivery list, I love food but I can only eat so much sweets in such a short amount of time Zayne! For a while I thought it'd never end- I wanted to call you and reprimand you but when I looked at your contact photo I couldn't bring myself to do it. I know that despite that cold exterior, there's warmth within. You're like a chocolate lava cake, from the outside you look simple. Plain, bland even- But when you take a bite and look inside there's this exciting burst of warmth and flavor. I hope you know that I love that about you... Here's to 100 days together love, and hopefully 100 more deserts eaten! Though I'd prefer if we are them together.
Xavier
100 days of being partners in every sense of the word, wow I still can't wrap my head around it. I was on my way home a few days ago with some of our favorite snacks when I saw this little antique shop... I don't know why but I swore I felt something pulling me in, like maybe fate had a plan in mind. After all I still needed a gift for our anniversary. When I walked in I realized you'd love this place, there was a ton of antiques all very old fashioned like someone I know... There was so many interesting things, a bundle of love letters, an old pin from around 1944. Nothing caught my eye, until I turned my head and I saw it. A simple but classic watch. It sounds basic I know! I wasn't even sure you'd wear a watch outside of our Hunter’s Watch. But, it reminded me of you... How sometimes you get lost in how many minutes we have left together at any given moment... This is my reminder to you to get out of that head of yours sometimes... And to just enjoy being here, spending time with me. Happy 100 days my Star.
Divider Credit goes to; I forgot and I cannot find the OP I am so sorry 🥲
I am so shocked at how long this got lol, definitely shocked Xaviers was the longest 😳 (I usually don't reach for him at all lmao) But I hope everyone enjoys! Apologies if it doesn't live up to expectations 🥲
OK no drabble yet as I have to head out for the day, but I just hit 100 days in the game yesterday and I've been wanting to do a drabble for it and this sounds fire! Mind if I participate OP?
How many people’s most beloved childhood stuffed animals are actually teddy bears, like I feel like that’s a thing someone made up. Reblog this and put what your longest owned and/or favorite stuffed animal as a child was in the tags, inquiring minds want to know
But what if your favorite stuffed animal was a teddy bear... (They’re name is Putian, yes I still have them and ig they qualify as gender fluid bc they'd be a girl one day and a boy the next, I couldn’t make up my mind lmao)
Withers: "Who broke it? I'm not mad I just wanna know."
Tav: "I did, I broke it-"
Withers: "No, no you didn't. Astarion?"
Astarion: "Don't look at me- Look at Gale-"
Gale: "What? I didn't break it?"
Astarion: "Huh, that's weird- How'd you even know it was broken?"
Gale: "Because it's sitting right in front of us and it's broken-"
Astarion: "Suspicious."
Gale: "No it's not-"
Karlach: "If it matters- Probably not but, Shadowheart was the last one with the wine-"
Shadowheart: "Liar! I don't even drink that crap!"
Karlach: "Oh really? Then what were you drinking earlier!?"
Shadowheart: "I use the bottles for target practice everyone knows that Karlach!"
(She just has to empty them first...)
Tav: "Ok, ok, let's not fight- I broke it let me replace it Withers-"
Withers: "NO. Who broke it!?"
Wyll: "Withers. Lazel has been awfully quiet."
Lazel: "Really!"
Wyll: "Yeah really!"
(Chaos ensues)
Withers: "I broke it. I dropped it by accident and decided to play a prank. I predict 10 minutes from now they'll be at each other's throats with war paint on their faces and a pigs head on a stick."
Original Audio is from Parks and Rec! I did edit the script a little to make it make more sense in the BG3 setting but other than that it's pretty accurate.
Divider Credit goes to; I forgot and I cannot find the OP I am so sorry 🥲
