The Sprite Squad

|| System Blog || They/Them || Bodily 21+ || Queer, Mostly ran by Host, Probably some vent content. Side blog, follows and likes by a secret main blog. All Systems Welcome

[alteredpanel]

thank you for being my friend again and again and again and again

[blakesreefium]

for those out there who feel like their dissociation 'isn't enough' and feel like they're faking because of it, hey. maybe it's because you lived your entire life with this experience and got too used to it. but here's the thing, dissociation isn't just 'suddenly blacking out and having no memory of the entire past day' no matter how much its painted as that. not all dissociation is sharp and obvious.

forgetting passwords, forgetting names and people, forgetting your dreams, having too vivid dreams, insomnia, brain fog, face blindness, remembering your days like a blur, struggling to remember your schedule, school/work day gone too fast, forgetting to eat, forgetting to drink, derealization, depersonalization can all be caused by dissociation. i know its hard to accept but it is, just because you don't black out doesn't mean you don't dissociate; if you sit on your computer stopping for a second doubting your password or if you wake up feeling like that was a trainwreck of a dream then suddenly it stops being visible is caused by dissociation. if you're awake, looking around but having the feeling that something with the existence of the surroundings is wrong is also dissociation. if you suddenly remember that you forgot to eat that day, that you forgot to drink that day, the time is 3 am and even though you never blacked out and you were always there, is still dissociation.

if you grew too used to constantly living these little things, then you are probably ignoring your symptoms. so please stop the doubting. you're not fake, your dissociation is real, your amnesia is real and you are not lying. please remember this. you are a system, and it's okay to dissociate. it's not your fault.

[changelingcoded]

[st4rless-n1ght7]

[coffee-without-anesthetics]

to be honest any discourse ever in the wider trans community on tumblr makes me wanna go "ok now what about systems. how do systems fit into this wonderful categorization you've got going on. you don't know any systems, you say? think long and hard about why that is. really. sincerely"

[coffee-without-anesthetics]

#REAL #also not just trans discourse tbh. any qieer discourse #queer* #like y'know the mspec lesbian discourse? #completely fails to take into account plural experiences

EXCELLENTLY BROUGHT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[oddball-1-2]

OH OKAY IF YOU'RE BRINGING MY TAGS HERE I WILL ELABORATE!!!

i actually made a post alluding to this, but something about the mspec lesbian discourse that always interested me was how often i saw systems being pro mspec lesbian compared to singlets, who were more frequently against them. more specifically — it interested me to see how many systems (ours included) heavily benefited from the label due to the complexities of attraction and gender that comes with being plural, and how many singlets just never considered this to be a possibility.

queer singlets tend to have this mindset that your queerness needs to be "clear cut" in a way that often erases plural experiences from the equation — because plurality, suprise suprise, can cause many complications when it comes to identity. singlets want your identity to be chopped down in a way which is palatable and easy for them to digest — any sort of complexity which would require them to stop and try to understand experiences aside from their own is something they tend to be heavily against.

[intersexcat-tboy]

Made this a while ago

[ghost-of-a-system]

too many

it's been a long time since we've posted a comic so we're a little nervous. this issue has been weighing on us for a long time though, especially recently. we know that sharing experiences like this always helps us to be nicer to ourselves. and we always share them with the hope that it can help someone else, too.

[whentherewerebicycles]

saw this on twitter and wanted to save it here

[hauntedselves]

Image transcript:

Thriving: "I got this"

Calm and steady with minor mood fluctuations

Able to take things in stride

Consistent performance

Able to take feedback and to adjust to changes or plans

Able to focus

Able to communicate effectively

Normal sleep patterns and appetite

Surviving: "Something isn't right"

Nervousness, sadness, increased mood fluctuations

Inconsistent performance

More easily overwhelmed or irritated

Increased need for control and difficulty adjusting to changes

Trouble sleeping or eating

Activities and relationships you used to enjoy seem less interesting or even stressful

Muscle tension, low energy, headaches

Struggling: "I can't keep this up"

Persistent fear, panic, anxiety, anger, pervasive sadness, hopelessness

Exhaustion

Poor performance and difficulty making decisions or concentrating

Avoiding interaction with coworkers, family and friends

Fatigue, aches and pains

Restless, disturbed sleep

Self-medicating with substances, food, or other numbing activities

In Crisis: "I can't survive this"

Disabling distress and loss of function

Panic attacks

Nightmares or flashbacks

Unable to fall or stay asleep

Intrusive thoughts

Thoughts of self-harm or suicide

Easily enraged or aggressive

Careless mistakes and inability to focus

Feeling numb, lost, or out of control

Withdrawal from relationships

Dependence on substances, food, or other numbing activities to cope

End transcript.

[mycavesystem]

these people

[partially-split-comix]

Fractured mind

[lyter-system]

Host is about to pull a pro gamer move

[polyfrag-median-mess]

It's a mystery!

[theseus-system]

its gonna be one of those days

[changelingcoded]

i believe they call this 'locking in'

[changelingcoded]

im one of like 3 of us that can be nostalgic

[vulpes-star-system]

Do you ever forget that you’re a system and not roommates

[vulpes-star-system]

Me and ibis paint at past midnight should not be a combination

[semiplural]

States of Being

We were trying to explain to some friends earlier that saying "this person is in front" and "this person is co-conscious" isn't always the most useful phrasing for us because either of those terms can mean a lot of different things. We have our own words that we like to use to describe where folks can be in relation to our awareness.

The states on this chart are still a bit of a simplification, as we flow between them and it's more of a spectrum than a discrete set, but they're close enough to the actual language that we use to do the job.

[shadow-rider-system]

This is great tbh, I'm gonna show this to some of my singlet friends and family next time they're struggling with one of these concepts. -Damien