theUnfoundSoul

Finding myself from the unknown!

[theunfoundsoul]

It's so easy right? Easy to see things when you're seeing them as a big picture. You can easily get things in perspective. But only you know what's happening in those little moments. The struggle it takes to get through those little moments. But I guess we're supposed to see the big picture. Because otherwise how are we going to survive these little moments? But it's probably equally important to actually feel those little moments. Because if you don’t, you’ll probably notice a stain in that big picture you’ve been holding onto. It's such a cycle. One that we all have to survive. Or maybe live.

[theoptia]

Clarice Lispector, from The Passion According to G.H.

[theunfoundsoul]

I see so many people out there. Doing what they love. Doing what they're passionate about.

And here I am. Envying them.

Because I'm stuck.

Stuck in my cycle of grief. Stuck in my cycle of shame. Stuck in my cycle of exhaustion. Stuck in my cycle of judging myself. Stuck in my cycle of self-condemnation.

All while wishing I was just a normal person.

[theunfoundsoul]

[theunfoundsoul]

I keep wondering if this is ever gonna end.

The awful misunderstandings. The long stretch of silences. The "trying to understand you" phases.

It just keeps going on and on. Every time we try to mend it, something else happens.

And it makes me wonder again if this is ever gonna end.

[yahahatism]

listening to music with headphones is so awesome especially when it shoots straight into your brain and you can pick out all its little layers like sandwich ingredients

[niepewnosc]

I want love that feels like growth.

The kind that reminds you that you are capable of more than you thought. 

[life-spire]

[theunfoundsoul]

Imagine being so exhausted that you can't even feel your own feelings. Everything can go completely down the drain. You're desperate to talk to someone who'd actually understand you but deep down you know you'll have to carry this alone. And somehow, you're finally admitting and owning up to that shit.

[theunfoundsoul]

I feel like doing the worst. Just to have his attention. I see that he's tired and exhausted but I just can't help myself. I need someone to see me like this and tell me I'm enough. I'm seen. I matter. But STILL I do nothing and stay in this miserable hope that maybe someday he'll come and see me for what I am, making my miserable existence worth it.

[theunfoundsoul]

I often have this episode where for a few weeks I go numb. I try everything to make myself feel again. But it doesn't work. I'm full of feelings and emotions inside myself but I'm not able to release them. I try to tell someone but I just end up crying with pity for myself that doesn't release anything. Well maybe it does a bit, I'm not sure because I don't feel any different. Then comes the phase where my overwhelm and my burnout doesn't let me do anything. I feel the guilt and I want to work but I just can't. Because I'm too burnt out and I don't know how to get out of this. How to become my normal routine self which had been so hard for me to be. I'm just there surviving and hoping tomorrow I'll work but tomorrow I feel the same again and not do anything again.

[lelif]

on being yourself

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[theunfoundsoul]

I wonder what a relief it would be when I learn to love without conditions.

Without searching for validation. Without waiting for someone to realize I’ve loved them the way they wanted, and that now it’s their turn to love me the way I loved them.

Because I’m tired of always choosing a path that leads me nowhere, of always being the one who’s disappointed, of always being the one who asks for too much.

[theunfoundsoul]

Sometimes I wonder who hurt Nick Jonas enough to grow into someone Priyanka Chopra would fall in love with.

[theunfoundsoul]

How it hurts knowing that someone loves you so much and yet it's still not enough. Isn't it paradoxical that if they loved you so much, they'd do anything to be enough? But at the same time, it feels so wrong. Because maybe they can't be enough. Maybe they just don't know how to be. But is that really a reason to deny someone the love they deserve?

[theunfoundsoul]

Sometimes I just feel sad.

Sad to see how many people are out there with unsaid feelings, unspoken thoughts while the other person has no idea about it.

It hurts.

Because humans should be there for each other.

To love, to understand, to care, to live.

But here we are, struggling alone.

Afraid they won't understand.

Afraid that they will avoid, ignore or deflect.

Or even worse, not even respond.

[theunfoundsoul]

In a world full of “It is what it is,” I want to be someone’s “Itni shiddat se maine tumhe paane ki koshish ki hai ki har zarre ne mujhe tumse milane ki saazish ki hai. Kehte hain agar kisi cheez ko dil se chaho toh poori kainaat usse tumse milane ki koshish mein lag jaati hai”