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If you're the type of person who takes comfort in queer Christian music, I recommend Semler's new album Preacher's Kid. It hurts to listen to but in the best way.
*curling up next to the shadow people in my bed* what are we
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Schizo Spectrum Disorders + Disorganised Speech
People in the schizo spectrum can be hard or sometimes frustrating to talk to. People who are uninformed about schizophrenia and other psychotic disorders can mistake this as rudeness, silliness, or inebriation but it’s actually one of the symptoms of a debilitating mental disorder.
Disorganised speech often occurs in a schizophrenic person leaving their speech short, baffling or incomprehensible. It can display itself as random topic changes, gibberish, slurring, making up random words, word salad, and rapid and incoherent speech which makes the person hard to understand.
I complied a list of speech/thought disorders found in people on the schizophrenic spectrum with some basic definitions.
Most of these can be found in other mental disorders and you should bring it up with your doctor if you experience any of these often, without your control and without cause or stimulant (i.e. drug use, drunkenness, lack of sleep etc.)
ALOGIA
also known as poverty of speech. this is when there’s a lack of spontaneous speech. it can display itself in short and monosyllabic responses that trail off or end by the second syllable. it leads to an inability to make small talk or carry on simple conversation. in extreme cases it can even lead to partial mutism
( e.g. person 1: “hey how’s it going?”
person 2: “fine.”
person 1: “what do you want for dinner?”
person 2: [shrugs]
person 1: maybe we should go out, get chinese.
person 2: [shrugs]
person 1: do you want something else
person 2: no )
ECHOLALIA
this is the repetition of noises/words/phrases/sentences made by another person. persons experiencing echolalia often repeats questions or sentences directed to them and can make it difficult to carry on a conversation
( e.g. person 1: i have to go to the bathroom
person 2: go to the bathroom
person 1: can you watch my purse for me?
person 2: watch my purse for me
person 1: why are you doing that?
person 2: why am i doing that? )
THOUGHT BLOCKING
this is when there’s an abrupt pause in someone’s train of thought wherein the person often forgets the original topic. it can lead to multiple topics being covered in one sentence or to an unexpected and abrupt end to a conversation mid sentence
( e.g. i like that new song by [pause] … i wish i didn’t cut my hair. )
CLANGING
this is speech characterised by compulsive grouping of words by rhyming or alliteration. there’s no logic or reason in this sort of speech
( e.g. we have to go get green grass grisly grey. (or) when will we wait with words which wing were whims? )
NEOLOGISM
this is the creation of new words often in the form of gibberish or nonsense babbling. it can happen as full sentences or a normal sentence that veers off into it
( e.g. meaning to say “i want to go to sleep i’m tired” and actually saying “i want to go to sleep illa craviges”)
SCHIZOPHASIA/WORD SALAD
this is a bunch of random words strung together to no reason or purpose and while it can sometimes be vaguely related to the topic at hand, it comes out in a confusing array of disconnected words
( e.g. i want to get the purple apple match from the towel chair )
PRESSURE OF SPEECH
this is rapid paced, erratic, frantic speech. it’s usually loud and frenzied. it’s almost impossible to get the person experiencing it to pause and the listener will most likely not get a word in edgewise.
PERSEVERATION
this is the repetition of one word or phrase over and over after they’ve ceased to be relevant or appropriate to the situation.
( e.g. person 1: i’m going to take a walk in the park later
person 2: walk in the park
person 1: do you wanna come with?
person 2: walk in the park
[20 minutes later]
person 1: i’m gonna put on the kettle. do you want some tea?
person 2: walk in the park
NOTE: feel free to reblog whether or not you’re on the spectrum or have any mental illnesses at all. way too many people assume that schizo spectrum people are just rude or belligerent or mocking or joking when we’re really just exhibiting symptoms of our disorder.
(cw: psychosis and descriptions of psychosis)
right here’s a post about shit you can do in psychosis to help yourself
shadow people/government/etc watching you and you’re too scared to get naked? shower in a swimsuit or your underwear. you’ll get clean and not be as vulnerable
find a safe place. my safe place is my bed; no matter what’s out there, nothing can get me while i’m in my bed
find safe people. when i was having really bad night terrors i could only trust people who hadn’t been in my dreams. look for people like that.
things living in your mirrors? wash them with salt water. it won’t get rid of them but it’ll trap them in there and they can’t get out
find phrases or words that make you feel safe. i’m not christian but i used to recite the lord’s prayer when i was scared and i found it helpful
pinch yourself. if you can feel it, you’re in reality and not dreaming
find things that only happen in dreams. in dreams i can’t smoke because my cigarette always turns to ash, so if i can smoke my cigarette regularly i’m not dreaming.
get rid of all weapons. when you’re in psychosis it’s scary as hell and it’s not uncommon to have weapons to protect yourself. i would sleep with a knife or pair of scissors in my bed at one point. but it’s easy to accidentally hurt yourself or others, or be accused of being a danger, so it’s best to get rid of them or have someone trusted hold onto them.
avoid enablers. this is super hard to do but it’s not good to have people around you who encourage your symptoms. it often feels like those are the only people who understand you, but they’re not good for you.
avoid substances. things like alcohol, weed, and other substances will only make your symptoms worse and are extremely difficult to control. do NOT do acid. trust me on this this will fuck you up hardcore.
give yourself space. what’s happening now is scary and overwhelming and you have to be gentle with yourself. it’s ok if you can’t do what you normally did, it’s ok if you struggle at work or school, it’s ok if you struggle with taking care of yourself. this is so hard! and so many people don’t understand. you are okay where you are.
anyway those’re my tips so i hope this helps and it’d be swell if yall could reblog this thanks
shoutout to visibly psychotic people
psychotics who dont want to hide their symptoms
psychotics who cant even if they want to
psychotics who twitch
psychotics who talk to themselves
psychotics who have obviously disorganized speech
psychotics who have obviously disorganized ways of acting
psychotics who are paranoid they’re being obviously psychotic
psychotics who are called freaks for being symptomatic
psychotics who are unaware when they’re in psychotic episodes
here to my psychotic siblings who cant hide it
Schizo Spectrum Disorders + Disorganised Speech
People in the schizo spectrum can be hard or sometimes frustrating to talk to. People who are uninformed about schizophrenia and other psychotic disorders can mistake this as rudeness, silliness, or inebriation but it’s actually one of the symptoms of a debilitating mental disorder.
Disorganised speech often occurs in a schizophrenic person leaving their speech short, baffling or incomprehensible. It can display itself as random topic changes, gibberish, slurring, making up random words, word salad, and rapid and incoherent speech which makes the person hard to understand.
I complied a list of speech/thought disorders found in people on the schizophrenic spectrum with some basic definitions.
Most of these can be found in other mental disorders and you should bring it up with your doctor if you experience any of these often, without your control and without cause or stimulant (i.e. drug use, drunkenness, lack of sleep etc.)
ALOGIA
also known as poverty of speech. this is when there’s a lack of spontaneous speech. it can display itself in short and monosyllabic responses that trail off or end by the second syllable. it leads to an inability to make small talk or carry on simple conversation. in extreme cases it can even lead to partial mutism
( e.g. person 1: “hey how’s it going?”
person 2: “fine.”
person 1: “what do you want for dinner?”
person 2: [shrugs]
person 1: maybe we should go out, get chinese.
person 2: [shrugs]
person 1: do you want something else
person 2: no )
ECHOLALIA
this is the repetition of noises/words/phrases/sentences made by another person. persons experiencing echolalia often repeats questions or sentences directed to them and can make it difficult to carry on a conversation
( e.g. person 1: i have to go to the bathroom
person 2: go to the bathroom
person 1: can you watch my purse for me?
person 2: watch my purse for me
person 1: why are you doing that?
person 2: why am i doing that? )
THOUGHT BLOCKING
this is when there’s an abrupt pause in someone’s train of thought wherein the person often forgets the original topic. it can lead to multiple topics being covered in one sentence or to an unexpected and abrupt end to a conversation mid sentence
( e.g. i like that new song by [pause] … i wish i didn’t cut my hair. )
CLANGING
this is speech characterised by compulsive grouping of words by rhyming or alliteration. there’s no logic or reason in this sort of speech
( e.g. we have to go get green grass grisly grey. (or) when will we wait with words which wing were whims? )
NEOLOGISM
this is the creation of new words often in the form of gibberish or nonsense babbling. it can happen as full sentences or a normal sentence that veers off into it
( e.g. meaning to say “i want to go to sleep i’m tired” and actually saying “i want to go to sleep illa craviges”)
SCHIZOPHASIA/WORD SALAD
this is a bunch of random words strung together to no reason or purpose and while it can sometimes be vaguely related to the topic at hand, it comes out in a confusing array of disconnected words
( e.g. i want to get the purple apple match from the towel chair )
PRESSURE OF SPEECH
this is rapid paced, erratic, frantic speech. it’s usually loud and frenzied. it’s almost impossible to get the person experiencing it to pause and the listener will most likely not get a word in edgewise.
PERSEVERATION
this is the repetition of one word or phrase over and over after they’ve ceased to be relevant or appropriate to the situation.
( e.g. person 1: i’m going to take a walk in the park later
person 2: walk in the park
person 1: do you wanna come with?
person 2: walk in the park
[20 minutes later]
person 1: i’m gonna put on the kettle. do you want some tea?
person 2: walk in the park
NOTE: feel free to reblog whether or not you’re on the spectrum or have any mental illnesses at all. way too many people assume that schizo spectrum people are just rude or belligerent or mocking or joking when we’re really just exhibiting symptoms of our disorder.
Alogia, clanging, and neologisms are my worst ughhh, it makes communicating impossible
"Why are you so obessed with found family?"
I watched this as a kid and internalized it for forever
Lilo and Stitch really said "This is my family. I found it, all on my own. It’s little, and broken, but still good. Yeah. Still good." And i still live by that
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god, don’t I exist a little bit?
every 1 is honestly beautiful and tragic like sometimes i can't look people in the eye because im like i know something is making you deeply irreversibly sad and you're just here talking to me about the weather and im going to let you
earth an·gel
/ərTH ˈānjəl/
noun
I threw myself into the void, but the void placed me gently back on shore and said darling you will be remembered, not for who you are, but you failed to be. So, I told the void fuck off and dived right back in, these seawater lungs gulping down lifeblood, this is a stinging baptismal rebirth.
I wake up to fluorescent lights in the hospital, and desperately rip out needles they injected in me, devil tendrils pulsing in life I do not want. Ten hands hold me down, and I scream this is my last rite, the doctor says that is a classic case of delusions of grandeur to the scared interns and there is a prick on my neck and everything goes dark.
The galaxy is eating me, and this non-oxygenated blood circles in my lungs, making my heart and everything so devastatingly blue blue blue, I am so daringly mortal, in my self-destructive tendencies, that these veins can’t take any more pinprick points before they burst. The galaxy whispers this is how a junkie looks, this is how an angel self-destructs.
I claw my way out of my own lungs, in a different world, my hospital gown hangs off me as my back bends and breaks, I rise to the ceiling and levitate, the doctor says that is a classic case of demonic possession to the scared interns, my head spins 360, my spine cracks and bees erupt from my mouth I am not a classic case, I am the original Lilith, my serpent tongue speaks. The nurse checks off unknown species on my chart and continues on.
Gabriel draws me up from the water, and I can swear, he reminds me of someone I know are you Hermes? He smiles in another life some knew me by that name. In that moment I remember, and I know he is not taking me somewhere I want to be so I rip myself from his grasp, leaving twin bruises on my arms, in another world I was Icarus and the sun was my beloved, but in this one I made my vows with the ocean abyss. Where are you going? He calls after my plummeting body, home home home.
Is your home not heaven? the sky asks as I descend through it. In another world maybe, but it never truly was.
I hit the earth hard, dazed and mouth full of soil, I think this is home. With its glided mortality, and chocolate chunk brownie ice-cream. With its blood-soaked kisses, and barbed wire love,with its sunshine lungs and radiation smiles, in its imperfections, this is home in the way the ocean stings against my cut wrists, this is home in the way I have bled for it, this is home in the way it gave me shelter when my wings were gone. This is home in the way it embraced me when all I had was a cage on my back. Welcome back it says, welcome back.
Who have you become, the void whispers, she stops and corrects herself what have you become? All I know is that these veins are no longer glowing, that this halo is broken and gone, that these wings cannot fly no longer, all I know is that this earth is my cradle, my mother, my grave. All I know is that I am stronger than ever before. I tell the void fuck off.
I am no longer what I was before.
"There is a kind of crying I hope you have not experienced, and it is not just crying about something terrible that has happened, but a crying for all of the terrible things that have happened, not just to you but to everyone you know and to everyone you don’t know and even the people you don’t want to know, a crying that cannot be diluted by a brave deed or a kind word, but only by someone holding you as your shoulders shake and your tears run down your face."
-Lemony Snicket
being an abused kid is having no space you could safely exist in and then being told it’s your fault for not existing somewhere else
You survived this. Even with clenched fists and gritted teeth and neverending wounds, you survived this. I hope you remember that on the mornings when you feel worthless and small. You were given an impossible mountain to climb, and you climbed it to get to the other side.