Winter is killing me. @torturedpoet21 - Tumblr Blog

what a lot of people on here don’t seem to understand is that shane is going to outfreak ilya every single time. I’m rewatching ep 1 and five (5) seconds into his very first gay experience ever shane hollander is on his knees hob slobbering. ilya puts his thumb near (near) shane’s mouth and shane is swallowing that thing. like yes ilya has more experience but shane has the vision

why do i have to be so fucking dramatic about a goddamn job interview? why do i have to spend the entire day anxious and catastrophizing. wtf is wrong with me? why can’t i stop being sad? why can’t i grow up? it’s like im an alien pretending to be human but i can’t. i fail every time. not for the first time, i wish to be normal. i genuinely don’t know what’s wrong with me anymore.

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my dad is going on vacation to his home country and i feel unmoored. it’s been a stressful couple of days and i just feel bad, and worried, and sad cause this country is super dangerous right now and he could get killed for no reason.

plus, my doctor made me stop taking my contraceptive pills ad an experiment so now it’s all fucked. im taking them again, fuck it.

every job i want asks me for references of the past five years and i can’t exactly say that i can’t keep a job for longer than a month because i get so depressed i can’t get out of bed.

im just stressed and sleeping poorly and on my period and just want everything to stop.

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i just wanna complain, so here it goes:

i slept like shit. i had multiple nightmares; including one where ww3 started and trump was bombing my town. i’ve had this horrible headache all motherfucking day. my neck is tense and it hurts, as well as my inner ear (wtffff). im uncomfortable in my own body, i wanna peel it off like a snake and walk out brand new. im grinding my teeth constantly until it hurts (and can’t stop). i hate everything and everyone. i feel like i have to go out there and find a job asap even tho i feel like im sinking into myself. and my doctor told me to stop taking my contraceptive pills (which helped with my period psychosis jk kind of not) to test if i feel better but it’s worse. EVERYTHING’s WORSE NOW. my period has to come sometime this week and i don’t want to leave the house tho i have dance class tomorrow AND I DON’t KNOW HOW TO DANCE THIS SHIT AJFIFICKC. I don’t wanna see anyone. i don’t find joy in anything. I HATE EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE AND MYSELF AND I WANNA DISAPPEAR DISAPPEAR DISAPPEAR

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im proud of myself for going outside today.

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maybe reading george orwell when you’re depressed might not be the best idea. possibly, probably.

anyway,

ALL ANIMALS ARE EQUAL, BUT SOME ANIMALS ARE MORE EQUAL THAN OTHERS

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aavec

I understand that people have issues with ep 3, but I’m grateful for it bc it gave us the Scott/Shane fight and therefore all of these great posts on Tumblr.com

katinacrisis

i just wanted to say that most times communicating your thoughts and needs does nothing. but SOMETIMES, only sometimes changes everything.

and i think that’s why it’s worth trying every time.

i’m leaving this shithole mama!

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i really need to change my sleep schedule. i can’t keep falling asleep at 2:00 or 3:00 am.

i forget to take my sleeping pills at the right time and end up taking them in the middle of the night, which makes me tired the next day. ugh. why am i the way that i am?

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i feel like my childhood is over. im so sad. i know it’s just a show but stranger things means so much to me. i cried inconsolably when i finished it. i just can’t believe it’s over.

is this how millennials felt when harry potter ended?

one more year that i waste. instead of dying like i was supposed to.

i should’ve passed away at sixteen. i knew i wasn’t meant for this world.

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millenialmfa

I would be totally fine watching Hudson Williams and Connor Storrie “fall in love” in various ways over the next 50 years. Don’t separate them.

I’m talking like Fred Astaire and Ginger Rogers. Katharine Hepburn and Spencer Tracy.

Let my screen be filled with various love story interpretations as they age and grow and change.

We have 2, I need at least 5 👀

evanzbuck

Ilya felt like his smile was going to split his face. He was overwhelmingly happy. Shane was beaming up at him, eyes bright and freckles crinkled, and Ilya loved him. And Shane loved him. Holy fucking shit. Shane Hollander is in love with me.

i thought they ran out of t-shirts but mom and i found the t-shirt i wanted so bad of Stranger Things.

im so happy. she’s best mom ever (!!!)