This is a vent blog, where I complain about how much people on the Internet (and sometimes in real life) suck. TW: talking about different kinds of abuse and general bad behavior
The purpose of this blog is cathartic venting, where I come to complain about things in order to get it out of my system and let it go. A diary of sorts. It was inspired by seeing victims of parasocial (and other types of) abuse from people like Lily Orchard and Poppy and Zena. Just people being super open about how horribly they and people they know have been treated. So this will be a place to kind of expel the poison so to speak. Anyone who wants to vent along is welcome to. Just don't expect a response if it's unproductive.
CD-Call's Extremely Racist Take on Aliana Beniko & The Dark Side
⚠️ Trigger Warning(s):
racism, sexism, and sexually suggestive themes
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CD-Call, when she was still going by [LO], wrote a Star Wars fan-fiction with her wife, Mikaila Orchard, known as The Sith Resurgence.
A brief follow-up was done, known as Scent of Engine Oil, which is a combination of Rey's gender awakening as a male and Aliana's sexual fetishes for engine oil on Rey specifically.
That last detail is ironic to me because of the multiple times Kylo Ren is referred to as "grease stain".
CD-Call would confirm the existence of both pieces of fan-fiction.
An Alternate Universe has been in the works for a while now, referred to as Jedi!Alie, where Aliana Beniko (also known as Darth Amorosa) was taken to a Jedi Temple and trained in the ways of the Jedi instead of being left behind to be raised by a droid.
Tumblr is a place to express yourself, discover yourself, and bond over the stuff you love. It's where your interests connect you with your
The first image is, at time of writing, Jedi!Aliana.
Contrasting her against her debut in The Sith Resurgence, Aliana's hair is just the beginning of many contrasts between both versions. According to CD-Call, this is a deliberate design choice.
Yes, there is an in-universe reason why Aliana's hair behaves in the like of Pinkie Pie's hair, from My Little Pony: Friendship Is Magic.
The reason why Jedi!Aliana has straight hair...
is because she's miserable.
According to the original Tumblr post, CD-Call has established that Jedi!Aliana is naturally attuned to the Dark Side. Because the Jedi who are training her don't know this, and because she herself does not know this, this absence of knowledge is a huge factor into why she is so miserable.
Tumblr is a place to express yourself, discover yourself, and bond over the stuff you love. It's where your interests connect you with your
She is miserable because her natural attuning to the Dark Side makes her a good Sith by blood.
This also means that Aliana's connection to the Sith is (at the very least) not heritage alone...
Taking this idea an interpreting it literally, it is biology.
Keep in mind what the Dark Side of the Force is: the corruption, destructive, and chaotic aspect of the Force, fueled by raw emotion, self-interest, and a drive for dominance.
Bring this back around to Aliana's physical characterization, real-life racist stereotypes, and the implications of this new characterization. CD-Call, whether she meant to or not, is writing Jedi!Aliana in a way that suggests she (a black woman) is corrupt (or evil) by nature, and not by culture, environment, or personal decisions.
Tumblr is a place to express yourself, discover yourself, and bond over the stuff you love. It's where your interests connect you with your
CD-Call's reason for giving Aliana a unique affinity for the Dark Side comes from the idea that the Dark Side can be seen in Star War's nature. With this assumption, CD-Call comes to the conclusion that the Dark Side as a corruption is a lie. The presence of something as a corruption in nature does not suddenly void the fact it is still a corruption.
I'll give one important example of racist stereotypes that fits into CD-Call's characterization of Aliana: the angry black woman.
CD-Call, a white trans-woman, wrote a black character in such a way, it's easy to believe that Aliana Beniko's negative traits (The Dark Side) are not only traits she was born with, but are also traits she must indulge, or she will be miserable.
That is more than childish, it is very racist.
It's a damn good thing that this isn't CD-Call writing about a trans-woman, or she would have different words to say.
I do not know why CD-Call thought it was a good idea to write a black woman this way, or suggest that people inside a group get special exceptions of how that same demographic is written... only to be guilty of writing a demographic she is not a part of in such a problematic way.
Okay, see, I thought she was making Aliana's hair straight because she wanted to paint the Jedi as horrible evil racists who forced her to straighten her hair. Because hair has historically been used as a point of systemic control and oppression against black people, especially black women. And LCD is obsessed with convincing her audience that the Jedi are inherently evil.
But I guess she's even too dumb to do that. Either that or her hatred of symbolism is too strong to go for the obviously more creative choice.
It's just, "her hair reflects her mood" to the absurd extreme.
If Lily really wanted to challenge the "aVaTaR fOrMuLA", why not write Niva helping people in other non-violent ways? You know, stuff like humanitarian aid or other forms of charity work?
I don’t know if she DID do that. I haven't read it all
Now that you said that she might just answer a convenient Anon about how "Avatar Nive toooooooootally helped people, set up clinics and used bloood bending to heal the siiiiiiiiick"
Here's the thing though that I just noticed. Why does she have guards?
Oh my god its Aliana again
Its just fucking Aliana again
Its just the star wars fanfic. But. AGAIN
Its been 6 years and a whole franchise and she hasn't changed a goddamn bit. That. Is. Crazy
Regarding what you found about Lilistory, would you help with the building of a subreddit completely themed about Lorch with titles such as Lily Orchard Pokemadhouse (like Chris Chan Sonichu including the sfw version of it)?
No thanks. I don't reddit, and I'm not invested in this enough to put in that kind of energy.
A very unpopular opinion of mine: Sometimes i look at ship dynamics and headcanons of characters and realize...
Most of the time you all are perpetuating extremely harmful stereotypes. Think about it. You see a man crying, you call him gay. You see a woman kicking ass, you call her lesbian. You see someone struggling with emotional problems and questions that May or not be related to their gender, and you scream about eggs and transgenders. And worse of that? Most of the time these are stereotypes that could be broken, but you insist in perpetuate.
A Straight man can cry.
A Straight Woman can Kick ass.
A gay man can be strong.
A lesbian can be feminine
Not everyone is an egg and the ideia you need to break an egg to free whatever is inside is and sounds extremely harmful.
And not all struggles are fixed with HRT or self-love.
I feel like in realizing that sex and gender and sexuality all exist on spectrums, people became more determined to make the binaries more polarized and extreme, more stark against each other. My least favorite thing is the whole, "If you're not cis you're trans" thing. People don't seem to want to accept the million shades of grey that exist between pink and blue.
CD-Call Claims Poison As "Grandmother's Cough Medicine"
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Please, do NOT take CD-Call's advice about her "grandmother's cough medicine".
Molasses is generally considered safe to eat (defined as an organism substance in Canada), but Vaseline and Vicks Vapo Rub are not safe to consume.
Never eat Vaseline on purpose. Swallowing large amounts of petroleum jelly can cause severe diarrhea and stomach cramps. Most importantly, inhaling it into your lungs (aspirating it) can cause severe, long-term breathing issues.
Vicks contains camphor, menthol, and eucalyptus oil, which are poisonous if ingested. Swallowing it can lead to severe symptoms, including nausea, vomiting, and seizures.
Please call the appropriate authorities if you happen to follow CD-Call's advice on this.
Keep in mind that CD-Call is the same woman who has told people to kill themselves on a regular basis, her most recent methods of endorsing suicide is telling people to "apply for MAID".
How is anyone supposed to take CD-Call's advice sincerely if she's endorsed self-harm?
I cannot, in good faith, sincerely take medical advice from a woman who has told me that I should hurt myself.
Its actually kinda impressive in a really stupid way that she was able to take space: the final frontier and make them bum around their house about it.
Like, they have a trailer home that one of the two drives around while the other bums around drinking coffee or tea and tells them fun facts. Thus far whats been described has been...nothing. Its crazy as someone who has been on many a road trip but the highlights of such a thing are, ya know highlights comforting a friend going through a tough time or stopping and seeing something really really dumb or cool, hell even a truck stop can be a highlight as you for whatever reason decide "Lets see who can find the weirdest thing to eat and then everyone tries a bite!" Or frankly just a bizzare conversation about lunch meat at a subway
The 54th game of Ispy or 20 Questions aren't what make the trip memorable or interesting those things are used to pass the drivers and to a lesser extent the passengers time before the invention of smart phones.
The appeal, I feel of the quiet moments, hard to capture with just words, talking about whatever comes to mind, the ultimate nothing conversation of little weight. Lets not forget comfortable silence, the hymn of a healthy relationship if your take on companionship isn't "I need to be inside another humans skin" like CD's evidently is
Given how she gushes so much about blind devotion and zero conflict in the relationships she writes, I could see LCD setting herself up an AI chatbot and sticking it in the life-sized Gardevoir plushie if Mikaila ever broke up with her.
Okay from the screenshot of CD-Call recounting the oldest things she owns- why the hell does she have Courtney’s journal??
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Why would CD-Call have a journal that is tied to Courtney? I honestly do not know. I'm not in CD-Call's head, so there are things we will not know unless she says something about it.
All we do know is that she's claiming to have it - no pictures, no point of reference, nothing. She'll show a picture of her old computer that she claims is tied to Tara Callie, but she won't show a picture of the journal that allegedly belonged to Courtney.
If I was making the same allegations CD-Call was making against Courtney, then I would have presented that journal to the police to prove the s🔞xual assaults happened and finally be vindicated, especially if people alleged and proved I have a history of lying.
Just outright destroying the journal, if it was true, is more than just suspicious (based on what CD-Call has said is written in it) - it's very likely a crime - theft and spoilation of evidence, to put it bluntly.
I can't even begin to guess how many years of therapy my sibling and I will need to unlearn the behaviors instilled by our dad in order to keep us trapped as his spousified and parentified emotional support children.
Enmeshment is emotional incest. It does not "stabilize". There is no healthy form of it. The people who say that are predators and liars.
So a few things, being on tumblr.com isn't writing... anything actually what your doing is called procrastination and cheap dopamine... (yeah i know never said this wasn't a joke blog) if your writing at all which lets be honest once you finished the character cards your progress hit a wall and talking ABOUT writing is just as good
The second thing is:
Self Ask that started the "brainworms"
Third off:
Yeah girl, can't believe one of the Avatars teachers is a young girl of only 12 YEARS OLD!
Fascinating choice to admit to the already obvious self projection when the only form of this she's written in years has been between siblings. "I just want a version of events where the way I feel is welcomed!" Yeah. We know.
Frankly the entire framework is fucked if you ask me. Though I am no psychologist, and neither is Lily.
See. Devotion isn't a fuckin throw out word. As much as I try to apply Hanlon's razor to Lily this one do got me thinking this time it might actually be malicious. We know Lily is not Lev or SR Rey, she is Alaina or Kestri. It is asking someone to give everything and expecting essentially nothing back as her ideal relationship. That just doesn't sit right to me even if it is said in total ignorance.
Though yeah it doesn't help in the slightest it all leads back to incest with her... accusations sounding more like facts every time...
There is no nuance or stability to enmeshment. It is emotional and psychological incest and a form of emotional and mental abuse. End of story.
No one should ever listen to this woman's opinion on anything, but especially not this. She just likes to insist enmeshment can be a good thing because she wants to be enmeshed with her sister.
