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@traumawings
adhd executive dysfunction sucks bcuz im just sitting there and my brain is like
YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME
no work done no rest gained. literally no point of this at all
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the neurodivergent experience:
20% of the time: wowwieee!!! i love my passions and interests!!!!! they make me so happy i want to jump up and down!!!!! weee!!!!!!! :3333333333
80% of the time: this mind is a prison
the older i get the more i start hating that "traumadumping" is seen as a toxic behaviour when its actually a blatant sign that that person is struggling.
like idk about you but if my friend or aquaintance starts textwalling me on discord about their family abusing them as a child or something, my first thought isnt "ugh this is so inconsiderate of them. toxic" its "oh no i think my friend is having emotional flashbacks :(" regardless of if i have the energy to engage with them about it at the time.
i was an angry child. i had so much anger inside me, that it often felt like i was being swallowed whole by it. even more than angry, i felt powerless. powerless at home, at school, outside playing with the other kids. i felt like there was nothing i could do to change anything about all the horrible things going on in my life. i took this feeling out on the other kids, a lot. i would get into fights a lot, cuss kids out, or just have a really short temper when playing with other kids. all in all, i was often not a fun child to be around. when i switched, i switched hard. i find myself feeling guilty about this a lot now that i'm older. i recognize that i have hurt others, and even though i was a child who found herself in a horribly toxic and hurtful environment, i also know i have caused that same pain to others.
at the same time, i also know i have changed a lot since then. in fact, i actually avoid confrontation now. and although i know it's not an excuse for my actions, i really was hurting. i often really was helpless and powerless. there really was nothing i could do to change the situation i was in. i hurt and cry for the little girl i was, and mourn the woman i could have been without all the trauma and abuse i had to endure. all the things that are still hard to talk about. yes, i've treated people horribly, but it was never an excuse for people to treat me the way they've treated me. what angers me the most, is the fact that no adult ever stepped in. no adult ever recognized my behavior for what it really was - a trauma response. a cry for help. a plea to be seen, to be heard, to be loved. but i try to atleast forgive my past-self, because i know better now.
When the trope is the main character being a kid who has gone through/is going through/ the horrors of life
everything feels too hard. it feels like i'm just pretending to be a grownup. nothing feels real.
mood as fuck
questionnaire: do you exhibit xyz symptom?
me, panicking in my brain: well i used to but i don't anymore bc it was causing me problems of one kind or another so i have a somewhat ridiculous and excessive counter to it that i now do instinctively so i barely even realize that i have that symptom anymore
my eventual response: uh, no
The ‘you’re mature for your age’ to sleeping with a bed full of plushies in your mid twenties pipeline is real
you ever feel like you were born with something rotten inside you and if people get close enough they’re gonna find out
what doesn't kill you makes you weird at intimacy
adhd paralysis sucks bcuz im just sitting there and my brain is like
YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME
no work done no rest gained. literally no point of this at all
Called out.
I'm falling apart every spring. like a dark goo, she clings to me and won't let me out of this hell or scream for help. alone again and again, only with tremendous pain in the soul that cries out for unconditional love.
I'm built different. like incorrectly i think
