tristitia

TW ed, self harm & drugs, she/her, 19, bpd

[trist-itia]

I wan to belong to someone. I don’t wanna be myself. I need somebody to tell me what to wear, how to act, what to do. I want to be someone’s property, not a person... just a thing. I don’t have the energy to deal with my life.

[trist-itia]

will you celebrate halloween?

yes, i will. i’m going to a club probably and i’ll dress up as my feelings

[trist-itia]

stop allowing me to ignore my life.

stop saying yes when i ask if i should skip lectures and lie in bed instead. stop saying it’s okay that i don’t do my homework or take care of myself. stop agreeing to me getting high all the time and not eating anything.

it’s not okay, i’m not okay

[brokeninthebestways]

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[trist-itia]

fuck i hate you but don’t leave me

[alprazolxm]

[trist-itia]

It’s dark when I close my eyes, even darker when I open them

[trist-itia]

love me hate me make me feel alive

[skinnylegendsx]

I want people to notice

I want people to notice I never eat food at school.

I want people to notice that 15lbs i’ve lost.

I want people to notice I ball my eyes out in the morning when we first go into class.

I want people to notice how cold I get all the time now.

I want people to notice the little things, but it seems like no one cares. :)

[moody-co]

I know that eventually I will die from my mental illnesses.

[fraeuleinrabenschwarz]

Like how are ppl surprised when I show symptoms? I told you I’m mentally ill, what did you expect?????

[trist-itia]

please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me please love me

[trist-itia]

I’ve nerver wanted to die more than now

[trist-itia]

I spent my whole weekend crying over nothing

[trist-itia]

I just want someone to take care of me in every possible way because I have no idea how to live

[trist-itia]

Everyone tells me that I look skinny, but I just cant see that. Even my Literature teacher gave me a cupcake telling me to eat it because I will disappear before the final exams.

I don’t know if either they have a different concept of “skinny” than me or I just see myself differently.

To me I still look the same... big.

[elizabitchin]

me: im fat

also me: this xs is too big