the metalhead gooner

hi im sam. i'm a 33 year old guy from england (and no i am not posh) university graduate, lefty (both politically and writing), loves music (rock, metal etc), aspiring author and general life fuck up.

[crap-userrname16]

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Haven’t had a chance to watch the tutorial yet, but I’m seriously considering making this for my gf’s niece

[kumkaniudaku]

And then you can’t even say shit about bc people start trying to put you in a jacket and shit. Like omg it’s so strict???

[lesbians4franzferdinand]

actually the rhythm section on wow! signal is. INSANELY GOOD dom and chris are genuinely insane

[troopersknightsandbubbles]

I can honestly say The Wow! Signal is the most I've looked forward to a new Muse album since Drones

[inthetags]

reblog with the last song you listened to in the tags

[nighttimerebel13]

Matthew rawr! Has a vicious edge here XD

From 2019 Recap vid

[inanotherunivrse]

in another universe i am not constantly contemplating about ending my life everyday

[gothdoggygirl]

this frame from the fallout tv show is so funny i nearly puked watching it

[meow-moment]

[machinot]

Scientists have found that if you get 8 hours of sleep and are still tired during the day it’s because your soul is cursed and your body doesn’t think you deserve happiness. There is no cure or treatment

[pinnipetal]

It deeply saddens me that "pdf file" has become slang for pedo. Don't you dare disrespect my wife the beautiful portable document format ever again

[dualcasterjay]

and to the children in the notes saying we need this fucking baby talk to get around censorship online; there's been no credible evidence that any site other that YouTube (which will only demonetize your video, ftr) will actually censor or hide content that include words like rape, pedophile, gun, terrorist, etc. etc. and even if we take as a given they were (which, again, they are not), do not fucking comply in advance, you absolute fucking coward. and ESPECIALLY do not comply by altering your real life fucking vocabulary. don't let the technocrats dictate what words you say holy fucking shit dude!!!!!!!!!!!!

[troopersknightsandbubbles]

It's been a while since I posted about myself on here. If I'm honest, the last few years have been absolutely awful. Got divorced and have been single for coming up to four years now. The loneliness can get quite bad some days, but I'm used to it now. I have recently started looking at dating apps with no success. I have also been taking citalopram for over a year. Currently on 20mg, but did get up to 40 at one point last year. Financially, things have also been a struggle. Every time things look like they might be picking back up, they come crashing back down again. I honestly have no idea how I've managed to get through all this; I just know that somehow I have.

Sorry if this comes across as mopey or depressive. I've just needed to get some of this out. This doesn't even cover all of it tbh.

[excitementshewrote]

[depsidase]

[troopersknightsandbubbles]

Can't remember the last time I posted a picture of myself on here. This is me about a month ago on my 33rd birthday

[madness-and-gods]

[am-i-evil]

Rest in peace, Ozzy Osbourne. What a legend. A true icon.

[snakeautistic]

People underestimate how much it fucks you up to be subtly excluded as a kid. I would try to talk to my classmates and be met with disinterest or annoyance. The one friend I had, who I clung to and nodded along to his every word, had other friends he liked just as much or more. And his other friends didn’t care for me at all.

I look back at pictures from the time and see how separated I was from them. I remember knowing I was different. I remember posing questions about the world to the girls playing next to me and realizing that they had never asked the same ones to themselves. That the ways we thought couldn’t be more different.

I kept myself amused with my own fanatical stories and musings in my head. I would wander the playground on a circular path, imagining a friend and being sorely disappointed when it didn’t feel as real as I’d hoped.

There was a bubble separating me from everyone else, thin, and nearly invisible, but with a pearly sheen you could catch under the right conditions. I knew it was there, they knew it was there, and it changed me