Just 'Whisp' is fine

Music is the best escape, and sleep is for the healthy. He/they, asexual, hopeless romantic Love all things black & purple.

[tundralwhisper]

So, haven't been on this Hellsite in a while. Not like anyone had reason to notice, I don't do shit on here... or anywhere else, for that matter 🤷

Twitter was my main thing to scroll through, post on, comment on, etc. in the interim, 'cause most people I wanted to hear from are on twitter but not tumblr.

Twitter has become a hellsite in the bad way tho, so here I am, crawling back to the old void to scream at it once more.

If you scroll here, prepare for edgy, depressed, and nihilistic posts, interspersed with stuff about TTRPGs, Computer Science, and the occasional ramble about a piece of media I got really into all of a sudden.

Also, as for how to refer to me (please don't refer to me if you have a choice btw):

Whisp, He/him pronouns, that'll do it.

Have a great day, morning, or evening, and if it's nighttime, sleep better than I will :)

P.S.: whenever I post art or music or memes, assume I didn't make them and just don't know / lost the source unless I specifically say I made it

[homunculus-argument]

Not book smart or street smart but a secret third thing.

[luckyletd0wn]

supid

[homunculus-argument]

supid.

[biggest-gaudiest-poltergeist]

WAIT. Wait wait WAIT.

poltergeists:

push things off tables

break delicate objects for fun

in general just enjoy moving and destroying stuff for pleasure I guess

make loud disturbing noises in the middle of the night

sometimes poke or bite people, depending on the myth

are invisible aka no one knows what they look like

poltergeists are just the ghosts of rambunctious housecats

[another-random-dom-3]

“The power of Christ says psspsspss! The power of Christ says psspsspss!”

[real-live-human]

*fills a spray bottle with holy water*

[visloka]

You sprinkle Miette with holy water? You get her ectoplasma damp?! Oh! Oh! Hell for Mother! Hell for Mother for thousands of years! 😾

[everythingfox]

I like to think that these 2 baby kittens are gonna attempt to defeat the giant boss (the dog) and get some good drops

[tundralwhisper]

Me & Bestie playing Elden Ring the first time with seamless co-op fighting Agheel

[tundralwhisper]

AAAARRRGGGHHH

Literally took a walk into the forest at 2:30am, despite my knee pain that gets worse after walking like 10 meters.

So, before I rant, ramble, and vent, the Context:

I DM a D&D game for friends, on the server where I met most of them. It's a server of about 400 people, though *maybe* 30 are actually active.

Donald J Trump got shot (unsurprising), and a friend (who is in the game) went into the server's "controversy" channel (a bad idea to even have that channel, ngl) and mentioned that this is gonna be a big danger for trans people, because the nutjobs supporting trump have just gotten the most intense incitement to violence imaginable. He may have made a little bit of an inflammatory remark on the matter

Another friend (who is also in the game) did NOT like that. And the conversation got *heated*. I joined, 2 other players joined (that's 4 out of 5, plus me). Over the course of the discussion, they dropped several instances of hate speech. Transphobic rhetoric, xenophobia, it was *BAD*. Mind you, one of the people in the game is literally an immigrant, and him and I are both not very cis.

Meanwhile, I was in a movie watchalong (American Werewolf in London, very funny movie tbh, kept me sane during this) while participating in the discussion.

I postponed D&D, trying to figure out how best to kick the nutjob. Then passed out for 12 hours.

Shit. Went. Down. Other mods got involved, jumped the gun on an announcement without reading the hate speech context, things got convoluted, two people left the server: The nutjob, and the immigrant friend.

I solved things in the end, by making a seperate server for the D&D game and inviting everyone over (except the nutjob, he specifically said he left the campaign, too).

So, bad situation. Not happy.

Now, the VENT PART!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGHHHHH GODS FUCK WHY FUCKIK I SLEPT FOR 12 HORUS AND SO M;UCH SHIT IMMEDIATEL WENT DOWN AND ALL THE OVERTHINGKING AND PLANS AND SHIT DID NOTHIGN TO HELP A'CAUSE I WAS ASLEEP FUCKIG SHIT FGUCK.

OKAY. Okay. Phew. I don't usually post anything, anywhere, without double and triple checking grammar and spelling. Not this time. FUCKING HELL.

Between postponing the D&D game I was making PLANS. I was THINKING, PLOTTING even. I was gonna get the other players' views on the nutjob, I was gonna write up a civil and calm message to send to the nutjob to kick him and be done with it, 'cause I didn't wanna cause drama across the active parts of the server.

And then, I just had to fucking pass out and assume things wouldn't implode for a couple hours at least. I passed out for 12 hours, and everything was fucked when I woke up. The drama had already extended beyond the group into server-wide drama, I had to abandon all my plans and improvise (I suck at that), and just. ARGH. I'm mad.

I'm mad. Actually, genuinely mad. Not even at the nutjob, he's a victim of propaganda. I'm mad at the "mod" (doesn't even have actual mod powers, barely qualifies as a mall cop for the server) that made a statement to spread the trouble so much further than it needed to be. Like, do you not *READ* something before you type a response? Are you out of your FUCKING mind?!

Like, people were mad not over the economics talk it fizzled out to, but over the ACTUAL FUCKING HATE SPEECH you absolute childish IMBECILE. "Be respectful, agree to disagree" IT WAS ABOUT HUMAN RIGHTS, THERE IS NO "DISAGREE" ON THAT YOU DUMB CENTRIST FUCKWIT.

At least he realized when he went back to read it - WHICH I HAD TO TELL HIM TO DO. Do you need a parent to carry your brain after you everwhere so you don't forget to fucking THINK, too?!

But also... it's sad to see that someone I thought a friend had fallen so deep into the propaganda, and someone else I considered a reasonable person turned out to be so fucking stupid as to not consider that context matters a lot.

I hate insulting people like this. Fuck, man. I'm gonna go sink into endless amounts of angsty music now, if anyone needs me try to search the woods near my house.

[tundralwhisper]

[tundralwhisper]

AAAARRRGGGHHH

Literally took a walk into the forest at 2:30am, despite my knee pain that gets worse after walking like 10 meters.

So, before I rant, ramble, and vent, the Context:

I DM a D&D game for friends, on the server where I met most of them. It's a server of about 400 people, though *maybe* 30 are actually active.

Donald J Trump got shot (unsurprising), and a friend (who is in the game) went into the server's "controversy" channel (a bad idea to even have that channel, ngl) and mentioned that this is gonna be a big danger for trans people, because the nutjobs supporting trump have just gotten the most intense incitement to violence imaginable. He may have made a little bit of an inflammatory remark on the matter

Another friend (who is also in the game) did NOT like that. And the conversation got *heated*. I joined, 2 other players joined (that's 4 out of 5, plus me). Over the course of the discussion, they dropped several instances of hate speech. Transphobic rhetoric, xenophobia, it was *BAD*. Mind you, one of the people in the game is literally an immigrant, and him and I are both not very cis.

Meanwhile, I was in a movie watchalong (American Werewolf in London, very funny movie tbh, kept me sane during this) while participating in the discussion.

I postponed D&D, trying to figure out how best to kick the nutjob. Then passed out for 12 hours.

Shit. Went. Down. Other mods got involved, jumped the gun on an announcement without reading the hate speech context, things got convoluted, two people left the server: The nutjob, and the immigrant friend.

I solved things in the end, by making a seperate server for the D&D game and inviting everyone over (except the nutjob, he specifically said he left the campaign, too).

So, bad situation. Not happy.

Now, the VENT PART!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGHHHHH GODS FUCK WHY FUCKIK I SLEPT FOR 12 HORUS AND SO M;UCH SHIT IMMEDIATEL WENT DOWN AND ALL THE OVERTHINGKING AND PLANS AND SHIT DID NOTHIGN TO HELP A'CAUSE I WAS ASLEEP FUCKIG SHIT FGUCK.

OKAY. Okay. Phew. I don't usually post anything, anywhere, without double and triple checking grammar and spelling. Not this time. FUCKING HELL.

Between postponing the D&D game I was making PLANS. I was THINKING, PLOTTING even. I was gonna get the other players' views on the nutjob, I was gonna write up a civil and calm message to send to the nutjob to kick him and be done with it, 'cause I didn't wanna cause drama across the active parts of the server.

And then, I just had to fucking pass out and assume things wouldn't implode for a couple hours at least. I passed out for 12 hours, and everything was fucked when I woke up. The drama had already extended beyond the group into server-wide drama, I had to abandon all my plans and improvise (I suck at that), and just. ARGH. I'm mad.

I'm mad. Actually, genuinely mad. Not even at the nutjob, he's a victim of propaganda. I'm mad at the "mod" (doesn't even have actual mod powers, barely qualifies as a mall cop for the server) that made a statement to spread the trouble so much further than it needed to be. Like, do you not *READ* something before you type a response? Are you out of your FUCKING mind?!

Like, people were mad not over the economics talk it fizzled out to, but over the ACTUAL FUCKING HATE SPEECH you absolute childish IMBECILE. "Be respectful, agree to disagree" IT WAS ABOUT HUMAN RIGHTS, THERE IS NO "DISAGREE" ON THAT YOU DUMB CENTRIST FUCKWIT.

At least he realized when he went back to read it - WHICH I HAD TO TELL HIM TO DO. Do you need a parent to carry your brain after you everwhere so you don't forget to fucking THINK, too?!

But also... it's sad to see that someone I thought a friend had fallen so deep into the propaganda, and someone else I considered a reasonable person turned out to be so fucking stupid as to not consider that context matters a lot.

I hate insulting people like this. Fuck, man. I'm gonna go sink into endless amounts of angsty music now, if anyone needs me try to search the woods near my house.

[vink-charles]

Every breath feels like a burden

As if I am wasting air

I wish I could stop time

Only for a minute

Just to take a break

Without regret or pain

Floating in the bliss of nothingness

How I wish that was possible

[outofcontextdiscord]

[tundralwhisper]

The daily struggle, truly.

[whispofcreativity]

I'm back

Hi, yeah, I'm not dead actually. Had a bit of a terrible time these past few... weeks? I think?

New poem (?) sunday, 23.07.23, noon CEST

[tundralwhisper]

[wizard-of-interesting-failure]

Reblog this post to cast Crumb of Serotonin on whoever you reblogged it from

[gasterofficial]

wtf drinking is cool again

[tundralwhisper]

...I'm attending a birthday party tomorrow, and I will suggest this idea for a different day (I'm german, canned beer isn't exactly the standard here)

[the-skringler]

I believe I've just created a hard pic of all time..,,. feel free to screenshot,.,,,.

[catchymemes]

[rumade]

I was a cheerleader at university, this was in the UK so not serious at all, but we did go and compete at Nationals which were being held in Bournemouth, a fair distance from our uni in London. One of the girls was like "omg you can stay at my house! My parents live like 30 minutes away." so all 25 of us got on the coach with a blanket and pillow and clothes, expecting to like, stay at a house.

Her house in the New Forest. They had a pool and hot tub, a pool house, and I think 4 or 5 bedrooms and 2 reception rooms. I say "I think" because we weren't actually allowed to stay in the house. Our coach and 2 male members stayed in the pool house, which had a very small room, plus a bathroom which all of us were to share. The rest of us had to sleep in a big tent gazebo thing in the garden. In May in England. When none of us were prepared for camping. It was about 10°c in the night, not comfortable at all.

I very briefly saw the inside of the house when I asked her mother if there was another bathroom because we were running late and i needed to put my contact lenses in, and she shooed me into a cupboard under the stairs. The living room I caught a glimpse of had enough space for all of us to sleep there.

The next day when we got back from the competition, we were given a BBQ dinner! Which consisted of 1 chicken leg and 1 potato each.

For the privilege of staying at her house, we all had to give Nadine £5.

Every time I see a post like this, I think of that time, freezing my ass off, in a mansion garden.

[dannybagpipesarecalling]

And they wonder why we say Eat the rich.

[ellioop]

My dear old mum says "those who are good, give of what they have with their whole hearts, while those who aren't and who have plenty will not give a shit for free". And she is right.

I have had "friends" -- people who I had considered upstanding, trustworthy folks, whom I'd helped and provided for before with no expectation of reciprocity when I was poor and struggling myself because I thought we were friends -- present me with an itemized bill after a car ride. Including cleaning and petrol for their car, which the company they work for pays for. On a black AmEx.

Don't trust rich fucks, they do not see you as people, never mind equals.

[the-haiku-bot]

Don’t trust rich fucks, they

do not see you as people,

never mind equals.

Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.

[probablybadrpgideas]

Implement the Fuck Rule.

If you say your action with the fuck intensifier ("I'll fucking kill those goblins", "I'll sneak in like the fucking wind", "I'll broker the most fucking evenhanded peace treaty these equally valid fuckheads have ever fucking seen"), then the result is always either a critical success or critical failure.

[tundralwhisper]

Sorry for the lack of poems yesterday. Been a long fjxking week, and I did NOT have the energy to make literally anything.

Except mistakes. Making mistakes takes no energy for me.

Have a good one, I'll be back with more poems this Sunday, I hope!

[only-cat-memes]

Your daily dose of cat memes

[tundralwhisper]

Oh. Oh yeah. Several by now, I think.

Dark Souls 3 immediately springs to mind. Just the Pling Pling Plong while fighting against Soul of Cinder while it's using the moves and weapon of THE FIRST LORD OF CINDER, THE ORIGINAL FINAL BOSS, GWYN...

Yeah. That shit was good.

Life is Strange: Before the Storm with Wolf Alice's "Bros" in the outro cutscene... urgh. I cannot express how fast I went from "aww, they're havin a happy life :)" to remembering "Oh yeah. This is a prequel. And bad shit happens in the game it's a prequel to. Oh."