[theabyssofhappy]

THE EGGS YOU GAVE ME ALL DIED AND YOU LIED TO ME SO I DID THE IMPLANTATION MYSELF YOU SELF-SERVING ZOMBIE AND YOU STILL SENT HIM AFTER ME AND I WOULD HAVE HAD HIM IF I HADN’T BEEN COMPROMISED AND HE TOOK PITY ON ME! HE TOOK PITY ON ME! HE SAW ME AND HE TOOK PITY ON ME

AND FOR THAT I’LL MAKE YOU BOTH SUFFER UNTIL YOU NO LONGER UNDERSTAND THE MEANING OF THAT GODDAMNED WORD

HIM I’LL KILL QUICK BECAUSE SHE ASKED ME TO AND BECAUSE THAT MUCH HE HONESTLY DESERVES BUT YOU TWO MUMMIFIED WIZARD SHITS I WILL BURN AND BURN AND BURN AND BURN UNTIL THERE IS NO TRACE OF YOU LEFT IN THE SHADOW OF MY LONG-LOST NATAL SUN.

WILL REMEMBER THE FIRST TIME YOU KISSED ME—YOU APOLOGISED—YOU SAID, I AM SORRY, DESTROY ME AS I AM, BUT I WANT TO KISS YOU BEFORE I AM KILLED, AND I SAID TO YOU WHY, AND YOU SAID, BECAUSE I HAVE ONLY ONCE MET SOMEONE SO UTTERLY WILLING TO BURN FOR WHAT THEY BELIEVED IN, AND I LOVED HIM ON SIGHT, AND THE FIRST TIME I DIED I ASKED OF HIM WHAT I NOW ASK OF YOU

I KISSED YOU AND LATER I WOULD KISS HIM TOO BEFORE I UNDERSTOOD WHAT YOU WERE, AND ALL THREE OF US LIVED TO REGRET IT—BUT WHEN I AM IN HEAVEN I WILL REMEMBER YOUR MOUTH, AND WHEN YOU ROAST DOWN IN HELL I THINK YOU WILL REMEMBER MINE

THE ONLY THING OUR CIVILIZATION CAN EVER LEARN FROM YOURS IS THAT WHEN OUR BACKS ARE TO THE WALL AND OUR TOWERS ARE FALLING ALL AROUND US AND WE ARE WATCHING OURSELVES BURN 

WE RARELY BECOME HEROES.

-Commander Awake Remembrance of These Valiant Dead Kia Hua Ko Te Pai Snap Back to Reality Oops There Goes Gravity, Harrow the Ninth

[estro-boi]

we gotta get back to torrent distribution, i just watched someone eat eight grand in bandwidth charges because they ran a direct-download piracy site with local file hosting through cloudflare. torrents were invented literally for this exact reason

[estro-boi]

torrents work like this

i have a file or folder on my pc that i want to share with other people. let's call it gayshit.mp3

unfortunately gayshit.mp3 is 750mb and im not paying for discord nitro so i need another way to send it

i put it into qbittorrent and it makes a torrent file. this is essentially a very small file that points to gayshit.mp3 so other computers can find it. kinda like a treasure map

i send this tiny file to my friend, who loads it into qbittorrent. their computer takes a moment to find mine over the vast expanse of cyberspace and then (as long as my pc is running and the file is still where it should be), it gets copied from my hard drive to theirs

this is the cool part: if somebody else loads that tiny file, they can download it from both of us. if i'm offline but my friend is on, the third person can still get it. this also means that if two people have separate halves of the file, they can download the other half from each other. as long as some combination of people have the pieces between them, they can all have the whole thing.

crucially this does not require a server!!! you can just upload the file to a few people and as long as they keep it, it's still accessible. as long as somebody, somewhere is still connected, it's available forever. the only way it goes away is if everybody disconnects from it.

please learn to torrent

[macleod]

How to Use Torrents (with Pictures) - wikiHow

An expert guide to get started using torrentsTorrents are one of the most popular forms of file sharing on the internet, accounting for over

always use qbittorrent, do not use bittorrent or utorrent.

[animentality]

[skullvis]

*Spoilers for Obsession, 2026*

Something that does disturb me more than the vast majority of things that are depicted in Obsession as a film, are the people I’ve seen adamantly defending Bear and calling him a victim like Nikki.

I’ve seen multiple people at this point, usually responding to someone else’s post emphasizing how insidious Bear’s behavior is, talking about how “actually Bear was set up to fail!”, or “he could never have known the wish would work so it’s not his fault!”, or that “he never intended to hurt Nikki so he’s just as much of a victim as she is!”

And I think these sorts of reactions are really indicative of how we are taught societally to value men’s feelings and image over the safety and wellbeing of women.

There are people who see how Bear behaves initially, and empathize with him so deeply that they either ignore, or apparently just literally choose not to acknowledge the harmful choices that Bear actively makes throughout the film.

They see Bear ignore that Nikki is *very*.**CLEARLY** behaving erratically and NOT acting anything like herself, they see him choose to continue his “relationship” with Nikki after it becomes literally undeniable that she is not in control of herself, that she has lost her autonomy, and they’re able to excuse his behavior because they’re more willing to believe in the initial image they are shown of Bear, than they are to believe in Bear’s capacity to do horrific things.

In a previous post I talked about how Bear is not in love with Nikki, but is obsessed with the image of her he’s created in his head. For some audience members, it seems that they have done the same thing with Bear as a character.

They’ve fallen for the image of Bear they have in their heads after seeing him at the beginning of the film, and believe so strongly in that image that they can just ignore ALL of his wrong-doings and the ways in which he hurts Nikki.

What disturbs me about this is how much of an art-imitates-life/life-imitates-art situation this is.

The biggest most recent example I can think of is the Depp v. Heard trial. That was a clear, real-life example of society valuing the reputation and the public image of a very beloved man over his alleged* mistreatment of a woman (regardless of her being an “imperfect victim”).

There are countless more examples. I think of the People v. Turner case, and how there were people lamenting over the “loss” of a rapist’s “bright future” and how he had “such a promising career in swimming” or whatever the fuck.

Both tragically and horrifically, I could go on.

Fuck, the movie itself also touches on this in-universe with the character of Sarah. Sarah is aware of how Bear is taking advantage of Nikki, but due to her perception of him as a “nice guy” and due to her feelings for him, she’s convinced herself that Bear is the one being victimized by Nikki. The nice image she has of Bear blinds her to the horrific nature of his behavior, and this ultimately costs her her life.

In interviews writer/director Curry Barker has been very explicit about how Bear is the antagonist of the film and his behavior is inexcusable, but there are still people who are trying to interpret Bear as being a “good guy”, who are grasping at whatever straws they can to absolve Bear as a character.

Like. Someone replied to a comment I made on a video about Bear not knowing or loving the real Nikki and they actually said that Bear was trying to break through to the real Nikki with his inaction:

(Never mind that when Bear first called the service line he did NOT want to cancel the wish, only to alter it to make Nikki love him on his terms**)

It’s shocking to me that there are people who see what happens to Nikki, who see how she is treated by Bear throughout the film, who see what his actions lead to for his ENTIRE friend group, and STILL think Bear deserves to be defended in some way.

Anyway, that’s my new “very disturbing and deeply horrific thing Obsession has given me to mull over” this week.

Obsession is definitely going to be a cultural phenomenon for a long time and I think it’s largely because of how intensely disturbing it is on so many different levels. There are layers to this movie that speak very deeply to people’s fears surrounding autonomy, sexual assault and rape, and relationships. It’s about the objectification of women and abusive relationships, it’s about how personal perception distorts reality, how people are willing to ignore red flags if a situation benefits them, it’s about desire, about taking responsibility for your actions, about how the people you trust the most may hurt and betray you. This movie has everything.

Thanks, Curry Barker!

*because of the ruling of the defamation case I am putting “allegedly”. I can’t claim to ever know what Depp and Heard’s relationship was like, but I can’t ignore the fact that there was an indisputable power-imbalance between them in Depp’s favor.

**A point that was made on the very fun “Too Scary Didn’t Watch” podcast episode for Obsession—the hosts mentioned specifically that Bear calling the help line was upsetting to them because even after making his wish for Nikki to love him MORE THAN ANYONE, he’s still not satisfied and wants her to love him on his own terms—granted yes, her behavior was frightening, but it speaks more to how Bear, after literally stripping away Nikki’s autonomy and making her choice for her regarding her feelings towards him, he’s still not satisfied.

Nikki’s behavior is incredibly alarming at the point right before Bear makes the phone call, but instead of showing genuine concern about her mental wellbeing or actually acknowledging her breakdowns, he talks to her like a child and gives her reprimands (“you can’t cook the cat, Nikki!”) and just tries to redirect her behavior instead of get her HELP.

[monsterboyjunction]

Saw a post and decided to fix it ^^

[forestgreenandgray]

Hey do you know what rumination is?

Rumination is probably the most common type of OCD compulsion, but I rarely see anyone talking about it. I've talked to multiple people diagnosed with OCD who didn't even recognize it as a compulsion.

Basically, if you have OCD you have terrible intrusive thoughts. They can be about anything, but common themes are fear of being a bad person, fear of hurting someone, fear of contamination. etc.

Rumination is when you get stuck in a spiral. Rumination is when you spend hours catastrophizing, overthinking, analyzing, telling yourself it's going to be okay.

I'll say it again:

Rumination is a compulsion.

Rumination is a compulsion, and that means you have to stop doing it.

I did ERP (exposure response prevention) for my OCD with a therapist! For 9 months! And it did help, but the idea didn't really click until I found this website a couple years later.

And Oh My God. It made things make so much more sense, and I was able to pull myself out of an episode even though I wasn't in therapy or on meds at the time.

Genuinely if you have OCD, or even if you suspect you have OCD, I'm begging you to read some of these articles.

Like this was genuinely life changing for me.

Here are some of the ones that were most helpful to me:

Defining Rumination

How to Stop Ruminating

ERP Exercises for Compulsive Rumination

What to Do When You're Triggered

[tikkunolamorgtfo]

Just want to add that if you're on the spectrum, you may also experience Autistic Rumination, which is distinct from the obsessive variety, despite the two having some overlapping characteristics!

[starlightomatic]

People without autism or OCD can also experience rumination! Often people with anxiety or depression experience it.

[whatbigotspost]

A lot of folks with “pure o” ocd will struggle w/o knowing the source why (ocd) bc they don’t exhibit the external compulsions that most people associate with the condition. Obsessions and compulsions that live entirely inside the mind are still obsessions and compulsions

[fantasypeasantgirl]

OBSESSION (2026) SPOILERS

I've heard a lot of comments talking about when Bear truly becomes irredeemable. The "what's so bad about being with me?" line, asking to alter the wish instead of cancel it outright, his "as a friend" wish attempt still invalidating Nikki's free will, the sex scene that was bluntly just rape, there's many options to choose from.

But honestly, I think he becomes irredeemable the second he snaps that Willow.

Sure, there's an argument to be had: "He didn't know it'd actually work", but like, what did he think was gonna happen? There's one of two outcomes: either it doesn't work and nothing happens or it works and he forces her into the relationship. Clearly you don't just do something like that knowing it won't work, so he must've been aiming for the latter, which ended up happening.

Also, when Ian makes his wish later in the film, he does it dismissively and bluntly, clearly thinking there's no way that it'd actually work. Meanwhile, Bear says it in this frantic, almost desperate tone. There's desperation there. He WANTED it to work.

Also, let's not ignore that he does this immediately after rejecting the chance to open up to Nikki. He has the choice to be open with her, to actually ask her out, but he doesn't. Why? Whilst it's partially his cowardice and fear of rejection, I think there's also a part of him that knows Nikki's never gonna like him back.

She's moving away, she sees him as a brother and he just avoided his chance to shoot his shot. To Bear, there's no way he asks out Nikki successfully, so he resorts to a bizzare, last-ditch attempt to force her consent, snapping the Willow.

[dellscape]

a long ass yap

****SPOILERS AHEAD DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVEN'T WATCHED OBSESSION!!!!****

____________________________________________________________

The more I think about Obsession, the more convinced I become that it functions as an allegory for rape and coercion. (to be fair i thought this the moment he made that wish lol)

Not because it contains a traditional assault scene. Quite the opposite.

The horror comes from the fact that Nikki appears to consent.

That is what makes it so disturbing.

The wish does not chain her to a wall. It does not physically force her body to move. Instead, it takes control of the thing that allows consent to exist in the first place: her ability to choose.

The moment Bear wishes that Nikki will love him more than anyone else in the world, Nikki's autonomy begins disappearing piece by piece. We watch her recognize that something is wrong almost immediately. She repeatedly asks what she is doing. She mirrors conversations instead of participating in them. She argues with herself. She seems confused by her own actions. At one point she outright says, "Wait, what the fuck am I doing?"

That is not the reaction of a woman freely choosing a relationship.

That is the reaction of someone realizing she no longer has control over herself.

What makes Bear so unsettling is that he knows this.

The film goes out of its way to show us that he knows.

He keeps asking if she is okay. He keeps commenting on how strange she is acting. He repeatedly looks uncomfortable and confused by her behavior. Yet every time he is presented with evidence that Nikki is not acting like herself, he chooses to benefit from it anyway.

That is why the bedroom scene is so important.

When Nikki kisses him and then immediately recoils in horror, screaming and panicking, Bear's response is not concern.

His response is, "You kissed me."

Technically true.

Morally meaningless.

Because the film has already established that Nikki is not operating with normal judgment. Bear knows something has fundamentally altered her behavior, yet he immediately removes responsibility from himself and frames the situation as something that simply happened to him.

From that point forward, Nikki becomes less and less like a person and more like a prisoner trapped inside her own body.

The film repeatedly visualizes this loss of autonomy. She stares at him for hours. She follows him compulsively. She structures her entire existence around him. She becomes physically unable to separate herself from him. Even when she appears happy, the audience is constantly shown flashes of terror underneath the performance.

And then the movie does something brilliant.

It shows us the consequences of being trapped inside a body that no longer belongs to you.

Nikki's body begins breaking down.

She stands for hours without moving. She soils herself. She vomits. She deteriorates physically and mentally.

Many viewers interpret this simply as obsession taken to an extreme.

I don't.

I see a body rejecting a reality that the mind cannot accept.

The real Nikki knows something is wrong.

The real Nikki knows she does not want this.

The real Nikki knows she cannot escape.

And her body begins expressing that distress in ways her mind no longer can.

The most heartbreaking part of the movie is that every time Nikki briefly resurfaces, nobody helps her.

Ian notices something is wrong.

Sarah notices something is wrong.

Bear definitely notices something is wrong.

The audience notices something is wrong.

Yet nobody saves her.

Instead, people continually return her to the man benefiting from her condition.

Even the hotline scene reinforces this reading. When Bear calls asking to modify the wish, he never asks how to free Nikki. He never asks how to restore her autonomy. He never asks how to undo the harm.

He asks how to make the situation more manageable.

The focus remains on his discomfort rather than her suffering.

That is what ultimately convinced me that the film is not about romance gone wrong.

It is about entitlement.

It is about what happens when someone's desire becomes more important than another person's agency.

The horror is not that Nikki loves Bear.

The horror is that she doesn't, and is forced to love him/be raped by him constantly.

i don't know... i can't stop thinking about it...

[skullvis]

**Major Spoilers for Obsession (2026)**

I think the thing that is the most disturbing to me about Obsession is just how quickly it becomes totally clear that Bear not only never loved Nikki, but that he never even liked her.

In the little time we spend with Nikki before she becomes possessed “freaky” Nikki, Obsession goes to great lengths to establish Nikki as a person.

In just the first 15 minutes of the film, we learn that Nikki loves writing, she’s laid back, and that she cares very deeply for others. We see that she’s funny, she likes to gently tease her friends and joke around. She has ambition and wants to pursue her writing seriously. She has her own goals and thoughts and opinions.

She’s also characterized very well by her wardrobe, how she talks, her body language and expressions (courtesy of Inde Navarrette’s absolutely STUNNING and brilliant performance).

In a VERY short amount of time, the audience is given a VERY clear picture of Nikki’s personality and usual behavior.

Which makes her “transition” into “Freaky” Nikki all the more horrific when Bear makes his wish.

Because even if we give Bear some grace, and acknowledge that he couldn’t have known that the One Wish Willow would do what it did, and even if we treat his kissing her on the first night she comes over as morally grey (although in my opinion he absolutely did take advantage of the fragile mental state he believed her to be in), there is no way to excuse Bear blatantly ignoring that Nikki changes so drastically from the person Bear claims to be in love with.

After the wish, Nikki starts speaking differently and using a higher pitched voice, she starts dressing completely differently and wearing more traditionally “feminine” clothing. She suddenly drops her plan to quit working at the music store and pursue writing, she stops showing any care towards her other friends and the people in her life. She defers to Bear in every situation, with the only exception being any time Bear shows any sign of moving away from her emotionally (or physically).

After the wish, Nikki becomes a completely different person.

And Bear does not care or show any concern regarding this at all.

Everything that makes Nikki who she is, everything that makes Nikki, Nikki, is just gone after Bear uses the One Wish Willow.

And Bear couldn’t be happier.

We get a whole montage of Bear and “Nikki” as a “happy couple” hanging out together and ignoring everyone around them.

It’s not until Bear starts seeing actual consequences to his wish, such as “Nikki” causing a scene on their date or feeding his dead cat to him, that he begins to worry about her behavior.

And even then—EVEN THEN!!!!—Bear STILL adamantly refuses to accept that Nikki is not behaving rationally or how she used to in any way. While he eventually acquiesces to canceling his wish, he first tries to just “alter” it to make it so Nikki still loves him, but is just less intense.

He would rather use “Nikki” to satisfy his own desires and ego.

If Bear loved Nikki, hell, if he even just LIKED her for who she is, he would be horrified by “freaky” Nikki. He would have recognized and acknowledge extremely early on in their relationship, that something was deeply wrong. He would know that the woman he was with was not Nikki.

But Bear would rather have a bootleg version of Nikki that he can feel validated by, than have an actual relationship of any kind with the real Nikki.

He does not love Nikki. He does not even like her.

He likes the idea of Nikki. He likes the image of Nikki that he’s constructed of her, the image of her that only exists in his head.

He likes the fantasy of what Nikki would provide to him emotionally and physically.

From the beginning of the film, Obsession shows us exactly who its villain is. Nothing that “Freaky” Nikki does horrifies me as much as Bear’s treatment of Nikki and his refusal to see her as an actual person with autonomy.

For me that’s the most disturbing element of Obsession. That the people you trust the most and care about may be so obsessed with the version of you they’ve created in their mind that they’ll actively ignore your personhood and autonomy.

God. Obsession is so fucking good. I love film. I love cinema. Thank you Inde Navarrette. Thank you Curry Barker. Film of the year, if god hates horror fans why do we keep winning.

[cipheramnesia]

All other horrors aside, I have to admit it's pretty fucking funny that JD Vance probably thought being trumps VP would get him respect.

[cipheramnesia]

Every passing day he just looks more and more like the mascot for a German chocolate candy company.

[cipheramnesia]

Some people age like fine wine, then there's Vance aging like late 90s CGI

[cipheramnesia]

I miss when vice presidents were made using practical effects.

[cipheramnesia]

No one would ever abduct JD Vance because it would mean having JD Vance. I bet his wife keeps dropping him off in strange locations and hoping he can't figure out how to find his way back. She tells everyone she's not married.

[cipheramnesia]

JD Vance inspires the kind of devotion that animals feel gnawing off their own limbs to get away.

[cipheramnesia]

He has an incredible physique, a neck that just screams out for being hanged at the Nuremberg trials.

[cipheramnesia]

Credit where credit is due, he probably inspired his mom to be pro-abortion.

[cipheramnesia]

JD Vance's wife spends all her time jealously scrolling Erika Kirk's single and ready to mingle social media feed.

[peachpulpeuse]

IF YOU SEE ANY PAINTING BY "EMILE CORSI" ON HERE, DO NOT REBLOG IT THINKING IT'S REAL AND FROM THE 1800s. IT IS AI-GENERATED AND EMILE CORSI IS NOT A HISTORICAL FIGURE

examples:

[tattedpetticoats]

And if you love the vibes and wish you could find something similar painted by a real person, let me introduce you to John William Waterhouse, on whose work the AI was definitely trained:

[laziestgirlintown]

Corsi is not real

John William Waterhouse official site

John William Waterhouse wikipedia

[enbaluka-tokyo-drift]

[zitongzi]

Shes literally skin and bones what the fuck is going on in hollywood

[aspiringsorceress]

[byjove]

Interesting fact: 107 police officers ‘died in the line of duty’ in 2024 and 40% of those deaths were accidental, so the number of cops actually maliciously killed in the line of duty was around 65. The police killed 1,381 people in 2024 and caused around 250k civilian injuries. I just thought I would get these number out there.

[queersatanic]

USA police officer deaths (2016-2025)

  via National Law Enforcement Officer Memorial Fund

In lieu of detailed alt text, here is a spreadsheet with the same information on it.

The notable things are that police officer deaths get counted as "in the line of duty" in a very generous way because it has an impact on "survivor benefits" paid out to families. The reason it's worth pulling Covid deaths out despite that also not being a violent death is that it seems likely that a lot of cops died of Covid-19 because it was a deadly pandemic for everyone, not necessarily because they contracted it from their work. But there was an incentive to say they got sick on the job.

Even the automobile crash fatalities being so high is a little misleading. Occupations where you drive a lot are, in general, quite dangerous in the United States. But U.S. cops also have this fantasy where they're going to be tangled on their seatbelt during some kind of pursuit and gunned down in their vehicles, so they opt not to wear a seatbelt at all. About half of all police vehicle fatalities are due to them driving without a seatbelt.

All of this is to say: yeah, @byjove is right, and it's fucking bonkers that police abuses get justified by them having a "dangerous job" where the most important thing is that they "get home safely to their families at the end of the day" when they have a job that let's them intimidate, beat, and execute people with impunity, and they are relatively rarely put in danger of being the targets of violence.

[seolihexagon]

"ooh i wonder what happens in the locked tomb" i say before i read the locked tomb

"ooh i wonder what happens in the locked tomb" i say after having read the locked tomb

[shailion]

Fixed a wasp meme :)

[hawnks]

30+ year old women are the backbone of this website

[drbased]

reblog if you're literally 30+

[clownboybebop]

if you’re ever in the position to choose between giving up and accepting defeat, and actually trying to fight the ancient unkillable god that is about to peel apart reality like a string cheese, remember this: scientifically speaking, you might as well give it a shot!

1.there were trees at the beginning of the world! there were trees so long ago that they predate bacteria that causes wood to decay. when a tree fell, it would lie there in stasis and there wasn’t any way of breaking down wood xylem on a molecular level in that way.

2. it seems obvious to say, but wood eating bacteria are literally incapable of comprehending what they’re breaking down. It’s just not information conciously available to a microorganism. they don’t know what they’re deconstructing, where it came from, bacteria have no way to even fathom the existence of a tree as a concept.

3. Regardless of the facts above, the world we live in today is a world where wood inevitably decomposes

it is worth fighting the unkillable god no matter how pointless it seems. it is worth taking the risk even though youre trying to accomplish something impossible. the reality in which you live was also once reality in which trees didn’t rot. You live in a reality that allows for existence before the possibility of destruction. you live in a reality where uncomprehending microbes break down matter that is so far beyond the scope of their comprehension that it feels comical to specify something so obvious. you live in a reality that occasionally allows unshakeable physical truths to be altered with no warning.

It is worth fighting the unkillable god because trees are so old they predate the source of their destruction, and it still did not spare them. It is worth fighting the unkillable god because bacteria rots unthinkingly, because there is room in our cosmos for destruction without comprehension on the part of the destroyer. It is worth fighting the unkillable god because now and then reality retracts the promise of immortality without fanfare, and when that happens there is no mercy for the ancient. the unmaking is not softer for the desecrators ignorance. for all things, existence is endless until the exact point where it ends.

so you might as well try to kill the unkillable god. it doesn’t seem likely, but at the beginning of the world, trees didn’t rot. so you never know! you never know

[kyraneko]

fight the unkillable god, because you may be mistaken about its unkillability.

fight the unkillable god, because you may be the first bacterium to take a successful bite.

fight the unkillable god, so as to set foot onto the path which leads to the god being killable.

the bacteria that couldn't eat the tree and the bacteria that could eat the tree had the same general understanding of the tree.

might as well take a bite.