VanillaCrepeYT

Born in May 16, 2010. Litharoace Multi-spec Demigirl. This is my current main social media. I always post random content, mainly my art, out of boredom.

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Slendytubbies 3 Blindspot AU page 1

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[vanillacrepeyt]

I remember when the fans used to call Guardian 'Walten' even though the devs debunked it. Although one of the devs liked 'Walten' as a nickname.

[moonxq]

i don't think the disappearance of the cat from the third trial is a mistake; i think that the presence of the cat before was because she perceived helping it as a sin. es literally tells her to sing her sins, and in her first mv the only things she can think to sing of that align with the belief system she so desperately clings to are things like helping the cat and watching a cartoon. she actively denies that her murder was wrong to es. killing her mother aligns with her beliefs and was justified, it has to be, or else what was the purpose of her entire life and the suffering she endured?

in her second mv, we do see a glimpse of her mother, but amane is still desperately clinging to her beliefs. it had to all have meant something. and so, if shidou continues down the path of giving others medical care, then he cannot live. because if he is allowed to help others when she was severely punished for wanting to do the same, then that would mean she was actually tormented for no reason at all. if shidou lives, then that would mean her mother did not have to die, that her family did not have to live the way they did.

keep in mind that she believed her true sin involved helping the cat in trial one and she was voted UNFORGIVEN for that. the song seems to say, can i still be a good girl even if i slip up and want to help others and watch cartoons? and the winning portion of voters said NO. they probably meant to tell her that murder is wrong, but i think instead they accidentally affirmed the abusive parts of the practice she was born into. it's no wonder that in the second mv she is so punishment-focused. she is a bad girl for helping the cat, she is guilty for faltering in her belief system. and so, everyone who breaks those vows must be severely punished (including herself).

however, there is some indignation in her second mv, especially right at the end where she says remember MY cries? why did you (her mother) punish me if you were going to break promises too? but at the end, when she's standing over the body of her mother, she's dressed in her imaginary world's attire. she is protecting herself by viewing the murder of her mother as her simply upholding the definitely unequivocally true belief system she was raised in, rather than her lashing out in anger at the injustices she went through.

if she was just upholding beliefs, then the life she'd lived so far still makes sense, she was loved (not abused) and it all means something. if she is lashing out in anger at the injustices she faced, then she has to accept the fact that her entire life was filled with meaningless suffering, which is a terrifying thing for her to come to terms with. the same belief system that hurts her is also what she is protecting herself with.

but shidou and es and everyone else who reached out to her made a huge difference. i think the cat is gone from the third trial because she is starting to think that maybe medical treatment is okay, that maybe helping the cat was not actually a sin. her imaginary world has dulled, and there's a lot more realistic elements to this mv. i think she's slowly realizing the horror of her life. her inner world, previously protected by dissociating herself from the abuse and painting it as something justified, something bright and colorful and not very serious, falls into chaos.

her mother needed medical help, and she knew this. i think she actually did have a desire to help. despite it all, she loved her mother. her hands shook, and her inner world seems to represent that she WANTED to seek out medical treatment (the pills being created on the assembly line), but the screen flashes "DANGER" warnings at her. why wouldn't it? she was told her entire life that it was wrong. so, just as she was taught, she steadies herself, denies the desire to help, and prays. this is all she can do. this is right.

however.

her mother, contrary to every lesson literally beat into her so far, tells amane to break her vows. she tells amane to call for medical help.

and amane is angry!! when she lifts a hand to hit her mother, it slams down on the console in her imaginary world. the pills shatter, and so does her entire belief system. it's okay to seek medical treatment, the rule was meaningless, so why did she have to suffer? she tried to bury it and shield herself, tried to deny it and protect her belief system by claiming her fury was actually a calm and logical upholding of her vows, but she is so, so hurt and angry inside.

she sings of the beliefs she was raised with, but she's barely holding it together in her inner world!! this entire mv seems filled with anger. this is not a bad emotion, it's merely her starting to realize the injustices done to her. it's good that she's allowing herself to feel this.

in this mv, she kills her mother not as a symbolic representative of her beliefs, but as herself, full of rage and grief and confusion. this shot is such a massive difference from the second mv. there is less mental distance (it's framed a lot closer than before). there are no imaginary elements. it's real, it's horrifying.

her inner world is falling into ruin. she replaces the previous mv representations of her belief system with her new emerging beliefs, but they are still shaky, uncertain. clouds of smoke still rise from this faltering landscape.

it may take her a while to fully realize the extent of everything, but she CAN heal and start over. shidou himself believed that it was not too late, even as he was dying at her hand. mahiru's pure and overwhelming love will stay with her, too. she's never had people reach out to her and show her affection without also expecting perfection from her and punishing her severely should she falter. of course people like shidou and mahiru would make her feel uncomfortable and conflicted. if pain is all you've ever known, then anything else will feel unfamiliar and therefore wrong.

but shakily, she asks if it's okay to change.

the answer is YES. no matter how long and difficult her road ahead is, she can change. she can learn to falter and make mistakes (ordinary mistakes, not the outrageous things labeled as such by the belief system she was raised in). she can learn that it is possible for love to come from people who will not hurt her.

she can start over. i think shidou and mahiru would want that for her very much.

[vanillacrepeyt]

I thought I was reading the report wrong until I commented on one of the Reddit posts, and people claimed that it's a metaphor where Amane was punished for having entertainment.

[vanillacrepeyt]

Kyle and sleepy Stan

Shading the yellow part bus is just my least favourite part because look at how I shade— it's underwhelming.

[laniemae]

this was one of my first thoughts when watching the non-demonium mv

[hibarants]

[vanillacrepeyt]

Did Es finally realize that the age of 15 is still considered to be a minor in Puerto Rico and Haiti?

[nniiqs]

i spent 2 days on this

[vanillacrepeyt]

Lampert and Kasper deleted scene:

[lafferfly]

"Destroy everything"

Happy 10th anniversary!

[vanillacrepeyt]

I'm surprised that Yumi isn't in this video. I know Russel didn't kill Yumi, but rather, his dad did.

[vanillacrepeyt]

Pulling a random pikmin keychain.

I went to SM North Edsa on the Annex building a while ago for the Anime Fair. I was exploring until I found a booth where you could pull a pikmin keychain. I think it costs 60-80 PHP. I don't remember the prize. I decided to pay for any pikmin keychain I can pull. I don't wanna pull more than 2 pikmins.

[xan-xarii]

I couldn’t find any good idol/model rui fics so

yeah they’re all whipped for each other but thats okay

[sodadagger]

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤDREAMER'S BEAT

[dravilk]

can you tell ive entered back into my regretevator phase? yeah

GOODBYE BOGGIO HELLO THE AXOLOTL SUN!! specifically the cult i liek them

also idk if im stupid but how does one get the official regretevator logo thats shown on icons and all that >_> definitely not doing anything rn

[vanillacrepeyt]

Poob is enjoying it.

[undoinglee]

Placing it here too

[yeuc-c]

Hi mark

turn that frown upside down

[vanillacrepeyt]

I think it would be his facial expressions when we either throw tomato or snowball, spray on him, or shower with the petals.

[communist-hatsunemiku]

absolutely triple S rated gif I just found on twitter..

[meloriri]

this lowk looks like bootycheek but oomf (star) told me to post……. i was gonna clean up the lines but i got lazy. ummm hairstyle is based on shuffle au ok shuffle au toya over darkfes akito card edit wowww

[vanillacrepeyt]

I already have 2 characters from different media, Milgram and Regretevator. Spoilers for Amane T3, and this will contain abuse and cult trauma

Correct me if I'm wrong. I suck at analysing.

A part of the cult: Amane's dad joined the cult after his company almost got bankrupt. Mark was already a part of some kind of a mannequin cult where they worship The Great One, AKA the tree who created Folly/Dreamer.

Wore a hat: It’s easy to understand if you look what's on their head.

Lives in apartments: 'The Purge March' and 'Non-Demonium' showed that Amane and her family live in the apartment. In 'Sticks and Stones 1' and in the game, Mark lives in the apartment, presumably after the divorce between him and Wallt. I remember when someone said that it's also a metaphor for what happens if anyone leaves the cult or something.

Doesn't follow the cult multiple times: Apparently, the laws are harsh from Amane's cult, especially the cult forbids entertainment and MEDICATION, and it was difficult for Amane to understand that she broke the law several times. In 'Sticks and Stones 1', Glevil said that Mark is always a 'problem child', wanting to be different from the mannequins.

Gets abused: Like I said, Amane broke the laws many times that she was either verbally abused, electric shock, giving her cold water, and beating up with the sticks. In 'Sticks and Stones', after the teacher carves off one of the mannequins for speaking against The Great Ones and the teacher notices Mark briefly, the camera extends as we see more bundles of woods, with Mark having the largest amount.

I am very hesitant about adding 'clinging to the cult' (if this is the right word) or something related because:

1. After Amane received 'guilty' on trial 1, she became clinging on her cult and more hostile. After Shidou's death and during Trial 3, Amane decided to create her new cult because she realized that her cult was 'incomplete'.

2. Mark claims that he is just 'checking' his family. There is a theory that Mark went back to the cult because he felt vulnerable.

To be honest, I felt something I couldn't describe when I read the translation of Amane's VD. I am not raised on that type of cult, but it sucks when the cult forbids their members to do something on what makes us human, such as stripping identity, love bombing or giving punishments. I am so glad that 'Non-Demonium' is good, and the 'Neverland' cover... I don't know what to feel. Amane's low voice is alright, but we sadly hear her 'energetic' voice on one of the 1st few parts of the verse and near the end.

[vanillacrepeyt]

Drawing the 2 religion trauma character before they released Amane’s songs tomorrow.

I can finally use my IbisPaint after some kind of error everytime I tried to create a new canvas.