Look, ma, watch me crash

23 - ENG/ESP - i come here to vent melodramatically and reblog things in an attempt of staying alive - god i wish i was a traumacore blog

[virgendelosmataderos]

daily affirmations:

i was born alone and i will die alone

i am so convenient people forget about me

i will never be somebody's priority

i will never be chosen over something else

i will never be chosen over somebody else

nobody is coming for me

[kosmogrl]

[lunarriviera]

[transfemmbeatrice]

thought of this immediately and was delighted to discover it’s the same op

[virgendelosmataderos]

me when it's time to do bad no good things

[virgendelosmataderos]

gave up the only razor i had because i can't sh until this month's concert season is over 🥲 i'm a pit girlie and i don't want my cuts being accidentally grabbed or for the constant friction between bodies to hurt me 🥲🥲🥲 why did i do that.

[virgendelosmataderos]

a merry update amidst all the chaos:

:)

[virgendelosmataderos]

gave up the only razor i had because i can't sh until this month's concert season is over 🥲 i'm a pit girlie and i don't want my cuts being accidentally grabbed or for the constant friction between bodies to hurt me 🥲🥲🥲 why did i do that.

[traumatizeddfox]

i ached to become both the executioner and the sufferer

[virgendelosmataderos]

Sometimes depression deprives you of the most basic yet insane and sad things. I hadn't made my bed in at least two months. I was sleeping on a fucking tilted matress most days. I did not care.

Today, I'll get to sleep on my made bed, with new, fresh sheets and a stable matress.

Be kind to yourself. Shame is a stubborn thing.

[virgendelosmataderos]

i don't even know why i'm self-harming anymore. i might have an idea, but it's either way off and i instinctively disregarded it or i'm just in deep denial over what's happening.

i don't feel like i'm in any danger. this is a bit scary.

[virgendelosmataderos]

i relapsed after 4 years clean! fuck me!!!!!

[virgendelosmataderos]

lol

[virgendelosmataderos]

rejection sensitive dysphoria so strong you wanna leave your expensive 11-day vacation behind and go tf home

[virgendelosmataderos]

ok so. listen.

[virgendelosmataderos]

rejection sensitive dysphoria so strong you wanna leave your expensive 11-day vacation behind and go tf home

[messymotherfcker]

Suicide is feeling less and less like a back up plan and more and more like an inevitability with every day that passes

[virgendelosmataderos]

all things aside, i should probably stop reading stories with self-harm in it. it's triggering me way too much sometimes lol

[rabbitplanet]

Good luck!

[jeleynai]

Pigeon

A gift for my dear friend @aessedia87 <3

[thee-boo-cocky]