say goodbye to the old me

Vee | 21+

[pokemon-personalities]

please keep this post in your pocket for a rainy day: you are strong enough to get past whatever you are currently going through. you are capable and deserving of love. please don’t be too hard on yourself, you’re still growing and learning and ‘tough love’ isn’t always the answer

[gunzonyatmblr]

Sincere apologies to all the people I hurt while I was hurting.

[softlysimplesuggestions]

Say it with me: recovery takes time and I am worth that time.

[just-shower-thoughts]

It’s weird to think that night time is the natural state of the universe and daytime is only caused by a nearby, radiating ball of flame.

[scientificphilosopher]

It wrinkles my brain that Jupiter’s moon Europa has oceans that are sixty miles deep, while Earth’s oceans only reach seven miles deep at most. I’m willing to bet good money that there’s life in Europa’s oceans. Like five bucks. You hear me, NASA? I bet you five bucks that there’s life on Europa… Now that there’s money and reputation on the line, I bet they send a mission there real quick.

[curiousobsession101]

I have no idea when this was originally posted, but NASA is working on their Europa mission RIGHT NOW to look for alien life! But get this, they theorize that because of the depth, gravity, and composition of the oceans, any organisms that lived there would be waaay bigger than aquatic life on Earth. So far everything’s going well with regards to their Europa mission so they should have a spacecraft on its way to look for giant sea monsters in space in only a few years. (The planned date is in the early 2020s.)

[scientificphilosopher]

Looks like my negotiations worked. You’re welcome, humanity.

[libraryspectre]

I’ve never been gripped with such cold terror and pure delight in my LIFE

[fairyfawm]

the cat you see down when you walk to town, your dog, the bees, the stars, your plants; they do not know of human concepts of success or beauty. they do not judge you. they see you, when you pat them, when you smile, when you try to help someone. and they love you, as you are.

[purplebuddhaquotes]

The way you think about yourself and the way you treat yourself determines whether you become happy or not.

(via purplebuddhaquotes)

[concerningwolves]

Abled people have seriously skewed the meaning of “recovery” and i am Not About That. 

Whenever I hear the word mentioned (both on this site and in real life), the conversational subtext is usually “when will you/they recover enough to meet the standards of abled society?” As if I, a nuerodivergent person living with chronic pain will one day get up and fit seamlessly into a society not made to accommodate me. (Or as if I have any interest in doing so, which,, HAH. Nope!) I’m basically resigned to hearing this from abled people by now, but I’ve noticed fellow spoonies getting frustrated about not being able to do stuff that Abled Society says they should and falling into the pit of “when I’m recovered I’ll meet those standards”. That is not okay!!

For one, chronically ill and disabled people’s lives fit a different pattern than abled people. There is no magical point where all our symptoms vanish and we return to mainstream society — the hint is in the keyword “chronic”. It means that our condition or illness is a) going to stick around for a long, indeterminable length of time, possible lifelong, or b) recurs frequently or consistently. For example, my autism will never go away and I am completely fine with that, but fluctuating circumstances may mean that I manage the traits better at some times than others. My RLS will never go away either, but unlike autism it isn’t constant — I can have weeks, even months, with no symptoms and then suffer for the next six months straight. If I say that I’m recovering, what I mean is “I just had a symptomatic flare-up that knocked me off my feet but I’m managing the fallout better and getting back to my version of normal” NOT “i am now Fully Functioning and able to do bed-linen laundry without pain and suddenly capable of stuff i couldn’t do before.”

Secondly, recovery is a personal experience that nobody else can define. I’ve said it already but boy is it worth reiterating: recovery for chronically ill/disabled folks means getting back to OUR individual version of normal, not ANYONE ELSE’S version of normal. This definition is particularly important when talking about anyone who used to be (more) abled because in those cases, recovery can mean finding a NEW version of normal. 

If someone is in remission for a disease — let’s say cancer, since that’s a Big Thing — they could end up symptom-free, but that doesn’t necessarily mean they’ve recovered. Cancer (both the illness and the treatment of it) puts a huge about of trauma on both the body AND the mind, and they may need to adjust their lifestyle because of that. Expecting your life to go back to 100% normal after an illness/accident is harmful to your mental and physical health and I am SICK of abled society encouraging it. 

Recovery means understanding what your body and mind needs and learning how to provide it so you can live comfortably/manage your symptoms; NOT so that abled people approve of how you live your life! Just remember that 

[mulletlove-deactivated20200811]

perhaps love and kindness are practices rather than feelings or states of being

[3840293843293-deactivated202211]

can white women (and everyone else, but especially white women) stop glorifying florence + the machine, she had a horribly racist music video and seeing as she hasn’t addressed the racism it’s likely that she still holds racist beliefs. i dont care if you like her music or whatever but can you at least stop acting like she’s god’s gift to the gays and instead pick some other white woman to fawn over

edit: if you dont want to watch the video, here is an article that talks about the video’s racism a little - basically the video is very antiblack, as it depicts a man in blackface as a villain and uses “voodoo” in an appropriative and belittling way

[sadiekqne]

hey guys!! after realizing that no comprehensive godly parent quizzes exist, i decided to make my own!! now, this won’t necessarily give you a result you’re used to, but it should give you a more accurate result based on your personality :)) enjoy!!!

[romance-incubomp3-deactivated20]

Stardew Valley is wild cause it’s this fun wholesome little game where you raise animals and grow crops and get married but it also has monsters and dwarves and the mayor and rancher lady are secretly fucking and it’s heavily implied the shop owner’s daughter is actually an illegitimate child his wife had with the local wizard and there’s a note from your grandpa saying he’s gonna return from the grave and visit you on the dawn of your third year in the valley

[voiceslostinstars]

remember when i wanted to do regular update posts? yeah, me too.

i am. not in a good place.

everyday is a fight and everday i get more and more frustrated with myself.

and i know i should be positive, i gotta be patient with myself and love myself a little more but let’s be real, even writing this feels fake as fuck.

i hate myself.

i hate that i hate myself. i’m trying so damn hard not to hate myself this much but i’m just so frustrated with my progress, which is practically non-existent.

when i say practically i should look at what i’ve already done but

i’m not satisfied. and not the kind where you can draw energy out of it to motivate yourself to change something.

i feel like i’m wasting everything. time has no meaning anymore and all that crap but the months pass and i do not get shit done.

i had a talk with my friend and i was opening myself up to her, which is great for me by the way because i have to practice that, and i told her some shit that has been in my head for ages but hadn’t realised it.

and i said some stuff that made everything a little clearer when it comes to my behaviours and

it’s not good. it’s not bad either. what is the lie, hah.

i’m just continuing to stand in the way of myself.

she told me i was strong for still standing and fighting but honstely i don’t feel strong. i’m not proud of that. i should be. but it feels more like why me.

why do i have to fight this fight for so long. what did i do to be punished like that.

but apparently i’m not a quitter. which sucks

because it means i’m going to continue to balance the tightrope between depression and living.

i’m exhausted.

i just want to get shit done

i want to be sure of myself

want want want

change needs action

i just gotta start doing something

anything

fuck.

i just can’t fucking focus on anything. my concentration is shit.

just please, give me a break, universe. just a little one. a tiny one.

but positivity right. feels like ash in my mouth at this point.

[traumasurvivors]

It’s okay if you thought you were over it but it hits you all over again. 

It’s okay to fall apart even after you thought you had it under control. 

You are not weak. Healing is messy. And there is no timeline for healing. 

[kingkyliezzzle]

[purplebuddhaquotes]

“It may get worse before it gets better, but it will get better.”

—

[sartorialadventure]

Lisa Farrall hairstyling (British Hair Awards 2016, Afro Finalists Collection)

[stormraven24]

Wait, these aren’t paintings?!

[thelightreturns]

I spent the whole time scrolling down going “are these photorealistic paintings or actual photos”

[armada-of-ships-against-antis]

Finally it’s back on my dash again and I’m still in awe.

Those are just beautiful and I mean every detail. I can’t believe those are “simply” from a Hair Award. I mean the hair looks fantastic but so does everything else.

[smuttine]

I didn’t know there were more!!!!