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Those daytime ✨️ depression ✨️ naps, sure do hit differently

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Chat, I am spiralling. Been left on read by my fp for the last 6 hours, and I can't get my rational brain to take the lead.

yourangelciggy

I wonder if you sit and reread old messages too.

Being in love with your best friend, them not knowing, seeing them live life with the newest person, wishing you were somehow them but forever forced to keep it hidden out of fear of losing the only person that fucking matters to you, it feels like hell on earth.

I hate how you make me feel, but I hate how I feel without you even more.

At this point, I genuinely question what someone must do to stop me loving them. Because apparently I'll accept anything and not actually leave 🥲

gurodarling

i wait for your notification like a puppy waiting for its owner.

insaneyve

Crazy how much love I can give but I never receive it back.

Oh boy. It's been awhile since I've had to deal with the feelings of having a FP, the fact it's "them" makes it so much harder too. This one is gonna ruin me if i can't break it 🥲

Stop letting others break you down and destroy your life.

Go ruin that shit ✨️ yourself ✨️ like the lil unstable baddie you are 🥹

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desultory-suggestions

You didn’t deserve to be punished for asking for love.

flittermousemoth

Self-aware of my self-destruction, yet unable to stop myself.

I don't think many people understand what it's like to literally loathe your appearance. Your body. Your being. Regardless of what compliments I get. All I see when I look in the mirror is disgust, nausea. It makes me want to crawl out of my own body. I spend half the time acting like a vampire and covering my mirrors so I don't have to see. Body dysmorphia mixed with a ed has been my existence for the 10 years. Recover. Relapse. Recover. Relapse. It's a never ending cycle.

strawberryshortcakeszzzz-deacti

“I’m totally fine”

I'm back apparently ✨️

I've also relapsed with my ED in recent months.

Can I "it is what it is" my way through this?

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howtoescapethis

I will never understand ✨️ men ✨️.

Like one minute, he adores me. Next, he avoids any type of physical touch with me. lmao.

Not at all triggering for my ED. And definitely doesn't make me feel repulsed by myself 🫠

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