Wildcard Collective

He/They | 20 | Formerly Anti-Willo-Loki | C-DID System | (Pro) Endos/Willos/Tulpas DNI | Proship AND Antiship DNI | Radqueers AND Radnormals DNI

[wildcard-collective]

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This blog belongs to the Wildcard Collective, a DID system who like to view ourselves through a Persona lens. While we do use recognised system terms as well, we may also call ourselves "Personas". Personas are both the masks we use to face the world, and are the true selves, after all.

Our collective name is "Onyx", but we're also fine with "Loki" due to our previous URL (anti-willo-loki). We're trans masculine and wish to be viewed as such! Please default to He/Him before They/Them.

While we have history in syscourse, we've grown tired of it and likely won't be making much of our own posts on the matter anymore outside of some reblogging. Instead, our blog will be more focused on our personal experiences and system shenanigans. We might even make some comics? There's so few anti-endo comics so we'd love to add to it!

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We are very unsure of our alter count as we're only in the position to identify the most overt and active alters. And even then, we often don't know when they're fronting either. It's also highly likely that the majority of our system is unnamed and undocumented. For these reasons, most of our posts won't be tag by any specific alter.

However, here is a list of alters who have tagged posts in the past.

🌀 - Aegean (He/Him)

🍒 - Clover (She/They/It)

🍷 - Loki (He/It)

🏹 - Robin (Any)

🎵 - Athena or Honoka (She/Her)

💚 - Dakota (He/Him)

🎲 - Kokichi (He/They/It)

🌻 - Marigolds (He/Ae)

🍀 - Prince (He/Him)

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Our DNI is as follows...

We are firmly Anti Willos and Tulpas along with "Endogenic" as a label. We ask that these people and their supports (whether they be pro or neutral) to not interact with our blog.

Our DNI extends to Polyminds, though we're not strictly anti to those when used as intended to separate willo communities from CDD communities. We know this is not a view shared by other anti-endos, but it's honestly not our problem if it badly effects their mental health. They would use plurality as an identity either way and I'd rather it be in a way that doesn't harm the CDD community as much.

We hate shipcourse and would prefer that both antishippers and proshippers do not interact. Our stance is that dark topics should be explored in fiction, but only with the care that the subject matter deserves.

We also want nothing to do with the Radqueer community or the Radnormal/Blankqueer community. Both sides are downright horrible. Our stance on Paras is that as long as you're anti contact/pro recovery, you're welcome on our blog.

Any further DNIs should be common sense.

Interact with caution if...

If you engage in any kind of discourse, such as being a syscourse oriented blog. We prefer to stay out of it these days and ask that our posts not be reblogged with syscourse tags.

If you are bodily a Minor. We are an adult in our 20s and don't particularly want to talk to children, but you are free to interact with our posts! We only ask that you refrain from sending asks or dms.

If your blog is a NSFW blog. We are very uncomfortable with NSFW content. There is nothing we specifically ask at this time over this and we'll leave it to your own discretion.

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Oop, this space is empty right now! We'll be linking any fun or important posts here in the future for easy access!

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[wildcard-collective]

I have the worst paranoia episodes for the most stupid reasons you do not understand.

[2spiritbutch]

it feels so weird to talk in syscord servers or post on systok if you’re not an introject,, it genuinely feels like most people online do not gaf about you if u dont have a billion introjects of super popular medias and you end up getting really left out and ignored and it lwk feels like theres no true safe space for systems 🤔 lets normalize treating systems like actual people and not a disorder where u get to talk to ur fav character

[wildcard-collective]

Rebrand of the blog is done! We'll be redoing the pinned post at some point, and probably trying to fit our aesthetic images in everywhere because we love our velvet room aesthetic.

[anti-willo-miku]

I just saw an endo say osdd is an endogenic disorder...💔💔

I swear I (alter wise) would be way more cool with endos if they just separated themselves entirely from CDDs. Stoped trying to rope us into their idea of plurality, stopped talking about CDDs, stopped pretending we’re supposed to relate or care about how they feel when they clearly do nto care about us. Just left. I do not trust an endo with anything to do with my disorder other than tools like pluralkit or simplyplural/sp alternatives.

[anti-rq-white-blood-cell]

Hey guys your carrd, strawpage, Rentry, plurapedia, and tumblr are not scientific sources.

Not even scientific, I want peer reviewed, replicated studies. Not something that looks scientific but isn’t.

If you send me a non-peer reviewed, non replicated scientific study. I’m laughing at you.

[antiwillo-dj-pon-3]

Sysblr is so toxic sometimes. Let’s just respect each other guys, it’s not that hard.

[wildcard-collective]

Remind me to never open up my posts to endos again, it always goes the same way. I'm so tired, man. I'm not touching the argument and awareness again. I just want to live my anti-endo life in peace now.

There will probably be more posts, but that won't be me posting them. I know at least Loki is still big on what I guess could be called syscourse.

[wildcard-collective]

Endos don't understand what the Anti-Endo stance actually is. It's not a denial of the existence of their alters (several of the people I've seen identifying as Endos probably are systems), it's about the claims of being "Non-Disordered" or having no trauma.

Trauma comes in many, many forms. Those especially horrible things that people think of when it comes to the idea of "traumatic enough to form a CDD" make up a very small percentage of what can traumatise a child. Something I noticed back when I was in school is that the majority of people I would meet were traumatised in some way. You could see it in their actions and hear it in their words, trauma informs so much of how a person goes about their life and they may never even notice. I'm obviously not saying everyone I met had a CDD, trauma is only a single requirement for a CDD. What I AM saying is that trauma is so much more common than you know. It doesn't matter whether or not you think it was "bad enough" or maybe you're not even aware that what you experienced was traumatic just yet, it's still trauma and it still effects you as a person and how you will live for the rest of your life.

And, that, is OKAY. It's okay to admit that you were traumatised. More people understand than you might think, especially those growing up today with the horrible state of the world right now.

It's also okay to not be ready to face that just yet. Maybe you're not in the position to look back on your past with a critical lens. If you believe you're experiencing CDD symptoms without trauma, you may not be in a safe place for your brain to start processing your trauma just yet. Maybe you're still a child, maybe you still live at home, maybe you're still around certain people who might not be as great as you think.

It's okay to be in that position, but I don't think you're ready to come online and talk about being "Endogenic". I'm definitely not saying your alters need to pack their bags and go back into hiding, but I am saying you might want to give yourself(yourselves) some time to just live as you are without some internet idea of systemhood shaping your experiences.

If it was up to me, we wouldn't have these "-genic" labels in the first place. We would all just be able to call ourselves systems and acknowledge that that comes with trauma, but that trauma does not define systemhood.

[wildcard-collective]

I’m so fucking tired… Going to be rethemeing this blog soon alongside a huge DNI list. The AWV eating itself wasn’t on my July bingo card.

If you want my stances on things…

A child never should have been a mod for the Characters Against Endos server. Don’t pick child moderators.

I will never understand the TCOAAL drama. Its horror and horror can explore taboo topics. I don’t know why this was apparently a big deal in the server, maybe I’m missing something.

The way people are treating AW Solivan is horrific and in no way justified. You do not drag up something so horrifying from someone’s past over fucking shipcourse on Tumblr of all things. This is a place for people with CDDs, you’d think people would know better.

I have nothing to say about AW Valerie or anyone else as I have no idea what’s going on there.

If you require my shipcourse stance, I’m still firmly neutral on the topic. There are places for taboo topics in fiction, depending on how it’s handled.

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Edit 2: I think Edit 1 was being a bitch.

[anti-willo-dean-winchester]

So I’m aware I haven’t been too active on this blog for a bit, but with everything going on I feel like I should say some things.

So first of all, it’s absolutely disgusting how solivian (I think I’m spelling that right ..) has been treated. We are very anti harassment, and it’s just so disgusting the lengths some people went. We really do hope that solivan and anyone else affected in this entire thing is okay.

I don’t feel up to going into every little issue that has been happening in the awv (as we also don’t know everything that has happened to cause many to leave the community), but just know, we most likely will not be changing the name of this blog and @anti-willo-telemachus , because our stances on willos and endos is still the same.

Feel free to ask us any questions if you have some idk .. I felt like it would be important for us to at least say something ..

(Due to personal things we most likely won’t be too active on either of our anti willo blogs for a bit, but Telemachus did want to say that he is trying to get enough motivation to continue writing his things, we’ve just collectively been extremely drained, we also might try to go more in depth on our personal thoughts on radnormal and such at a later time if we feel up to it)

[ablackonyxz]

When I should be doing ArtFight but… The Brain Worms TM really liked the idea of an unconventional Pokemon and Persona crossover. It’s sort of a PMD Pokemon replacing people setting, but in modern day Japan! Mega Evolution is the equivalent of Personas, though would just be called Personas in an actual game.

I ended up designing this Absol who’s the childhood best friend of the protag concept (a transmasc Pyroar). She’s sweet and well-mannered, probably a strict rule-follower in the student council. She probably struggles with standing up for herself and she isn’t always the most socially aware.

There’s an odd pattern in a lot of my work where I always end up including a character with DID… And this is one of them! It wouldn’t be revealed until about mid-game, but the alters each have their own mega because the Persona is meant to be the “true self”. What if there are two true selves? The alter with the Z mega is more brash and a little mean, though she mostly a shy bookworm outside of combat with gothic aesthetic that contrasts her headmate’s softer appearance. A fun fact I’d love to reveal after the big reveal is that the Mega Z alter is the studious one and the other is embarrassed to admit she’s not the good student she portrays herself as.

For their Arcana, I think I’d assign the Temperance? Elements of balance seem very fitting

[wildcard-collective]

Reblog from my main again because OC with DID. :)

[anti-willo-miku]

im tired of this grandpa……

[oceanside-aero]

This may be a lukewarm take, I don't know, and I know others have said this, but we really don't need an abundance of anti-radqueer labels that all mean the same thing.

Yes, I have my issues with the radnormal label, but even with those issues I disagree with the tactic of trying to replace it with something "better".

As much as you all might hate it, it's best to just leave them be. Making these labels, constantly posting about hating radqueers, even if it's true, just reinforces their world view. What we're doing is pushing vulnerable people deeper into harmful ideology. They talk about how "anti rqs are evil and will hate you" and we're proving that to them right now.

If you want people to be better, start by no longer feeding into what's keeping them in this harmful state.

[wildcard-collective]

I swear it's like people want to give everything a label. Anti Radqueers didn't need a label, it enforces that whole "us verses them" thing and brings way too much attention to Radqueers.

[opossum-et-al]

CDD system ask game because it's been long enough that i need to make another one of these

🪅 Is splitting a frequent occurrence for you? How long does splitting take for you? What is that experience like?

🪁 What's a unifying like/dislike that (mostly) everyone in your system shares?

🔥 Are there any alters that swear more/less than most of you?

🏆 Who is a alter you'd like to thank/give some recognition to? (no need to name names if you're/they're not comfortable!)

💐 What is something someone has done/can do that makes you feel seen/supported as a system?

📻 How does internal communication work for you? Does the ability to communicate vary between alters? Does communication take the form of words, images, emotions, etc.?

🥁 Do you experience chronic pain?

🎒 Are there any items you carry with you that help ground you? If not, what would you choose to carry?

🐾 Do you have any non-human alters? Feel free to share what species!

🗓️ Do you have any alters that feel connected to/like they're from a different time period? Feel free to elaborate!

🍋‍🟩 Are there flavours most of you like/dislike that specific alter(s) hate/love?

🎻 Are there any songs/genres of music that most of you like/dislike that specific alter(s) hate/love?

❓ What is a question you still have about your disorder?

🚫 What is something about your disorder you don't think is talked about enough?

🗂️ (if you have a journal) Do you share a journal or do alters have their own journals?

🎼 What is a quote/lyric that really resonates with you?

🪵 What is a piece of advice you've received/something you've learned that has helped you and you'd like to share with other systems?

note: this ask game is made and intended for those w DID/OSDD/p-DID/etc. please only use this if this applies to you :))

[wildcard-collective]

Ooo. Ask game! Sign us up. :)

[wildcard-collective]

AWV... Why am I getting posts in my feed about yall being toxic? What did yall do while I've been dissociating the hell out these past few weeks (months)?

I would definitely love some context.

[ablackonyxz]

Another year, another ArtFight!

…Help I’m so behind on descriptions and connections. If the site is alive tomorrow, I’ll have to lock in and finish them. And the complete the lore document for my cat oc. 💔

Art Fight

An art gifting game

[wildcard-collective]

Reblogging from my main for anyone in the AWV who might be participating this year. :)