Mama didn't raise a bitch, but my older sister sure did.

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@willamisqueen
Mama didn't raise a bitch, but my older sister sure did.
Everyone else says im the nicest person they know
You go out of your way to tell me im a aweful child, that you never met anyone more distespectful.
Narcissistic parents have to make you look bad to justify how bad they're treating you.
I purposely put myself into relationships that I know wont work out, because I was raised to believe that I am unlovable.
What? You didn’t…
Imagine you’re talking to someone who did not have abusive parents and finish the sentence with an abusive thing that happened to you.
When my mom needed something done around the house, she would just trump up a charge and ground me and doing whatever she needed was my punishment. So my sentence is:
What? You didn’t have to spend a week digging a 3-foot deep trench for a new pipeline when you were 13 because your mom didn’t want to pay a professional to do it?
what? at 15 your mother does not hit you so hard that fractured your arm just because you did not want to wear a veil in the church
What? You didn’t spend a week in juvi because your mother chased you out of the house with a wooden board raised above her head then locked you out, and as you were walking the half mile to the nearest neighbor’s house barefoot and without a jacket in Kansas during January she called the cops on you to say you were running away?
what? you didn’t get called stupid and lazy for not taking the washing upstairs despite not being asked?
what? you’re mom didn’t ask you for advice at 15 on how she could please your dad sexually to save their marriage that wasn’t even in trouble in the first place?
what? you didn’t have the doors to your bedroom and bathroom taken off their hinges?
What? Your mom didn’t search your backpack every morning before school to make sure you weren’t “"sneaking”“ any extra books to read in class?
What? You mom didn’t ground you from friends and electronics all summer and treat you like a criminal just because you walked to the nearby convenience store with some friends after school?
what? you didn’t get hit when you were 7 with a broom for not wanting to wake up despite it being the first time you were hesitant to leave your bed? your bag weren’t searched and your mom didn’t get mad at you when she saw you brought a sketch book to school? you didn’t get locked in the bathroom? you didn’t get whipped for saying no to your grandma insistently when she’s been asking that same question for hours? you weren’t forced to babysit your siblings starting when you were 10?
What? You didn’t have to worry about waking up in the morning wondering if there would be a roof over your head because your mother or father moved you to the backyard in the middle of the night with no blankets?
What you didn’t try to reach out to people at school because of bad mental health and got treated like you were misbehaving?
What? You actually open up to your parents, because they didn’t go through your shit for little to no reason at all? Damn, if only that’d been me.
Wait, what do you mean you don’t distance yourself from your parents because of the shit they put you through? What do you mean they don’t constantly lament over how they ‘don’t know you’?
Are you seriously telling me your parents weren’t pieces of shit and you can actually confide in them without feeling as if The World’s problems are all your fault, despite that being incredibly untrue?
You mean to tell me your parents respected your privacy, didn’t blame everything on you, and didn’t ostracize and villainize you for daring to defend yourself? Damn….wanna swap?
What? You could say no to your mum when asked to do even more chores than you already did WITHOUT getting hit, slapped or shoved and then locked in your room for a day with no food or bathroom? What do you mean you weren’t woken up in the middle of the night to find your mum in the room leaving a letter that would say how disappointed she was in you, how she didn’t raised you like that? Etc. What do you mean you weren’t forced to watch your little sister getting whipped with a wooden decorative stick because she refused to do the dishes and wanted to go to bed at 11 pm when she was five? What do you mean you weren’t forced to eat rotten food because you and your sister forgot to put it out of its pot into a plastic container the previous day while your parents ate takeout in front of you? What do you mean your parents were supporting you as a kid when you were struggling to learn the 7th time table and they didn’t throw your notebook out of the window barely missing you or bruised your face from slapping you whenever you got the wrong answer? What do you mean your weren’t knocked unconscious because mum threw you with so much force on your bed that your head smashed to the wall? What do you mean that your own mother didn’t say that you deserved what you went through and will go through in the future because you were a cold emotionless bitch ten minutes before new years when you refused to join the rest of the family because you were feeling very depressed? I don’t know how you grew up without having to learn to walk on eggshells all the time and lying so well that you sometimes scare yourself?
im fucking disgusted…. all of your parents deserve to dance in hot iron shoes and be stoned to death. ive emotionally adopted all of you. i dont care how old you are. youre my children now. were having what ever you want for dinner. let me hug you all… im so sorry…
Mine would be
What? Your dad did chase you up the stairs, pull you off a bunkbed by your hair and go crazy and get in your face over accidentally spilling your drink
What? Your mom didn’t make a snide remark the moment you laid eyes on each other about your physical appearance and then try to gaslight you about it by laughing and smiling as if it were a compliment, every single time you visited?
What? Your father didn’t beat the shit out of you and call you a whore for changing your formal pants to sweatpants at work without taking his permission, because you worked with wood when you were 17?
What? You didn’t get the crap beaten out of you and your Tooth chipped just becuase you accidentally stumbled upon a section labeled sex in the teachers encyclopedias? What? You’re telling me that you didn’t get your ass dragged out of the chair from the dining table after your younger sibling talmttled on you calling your parents stupid behind their back and the dad threatening to kick you out and call the cops only a few minutes later he comes and hugs and apologizes as if nothing ever happened?
What? You didn’t get called a “fucking r*tard” and told “any normal human being could do this, fuck off, I’ll do it myself, since you can’t do ANYTHING right” and grounded for 6 MONTHS, including no electronics, no reading, and your door taken off the hinges because you had the audacity, the fucking GALL to use a sponge to clean up a spill instead of a towel?
What? You didn’t get gaslighted over financial issues and your mom didn’t try to hit you with books and she DIDN’T yell and cuss you out for being molested at 7?????
What? you never had to take care of your epileptic brother that’s older by four years? Your mom doesn’t constantly complain to you about your dad and how he’s a shitty person and then get mad at you because you and him don’t have a good relationship? You’ve never been yelled at for having an anxiety attack or showing any emotions? your dad didn’t get wasted at your bat mitzvah, proceed to get really aggressive and then throw a temper tantrum? You never got yelled at for your family’s financial issues even though you’re only 13? your dad never started yelling and hitting the steering wheel because there was traffic and make you feel like you were about to get into an accident? wait, you had a childhood?
What? You weren’t told “goddamnit don’t do that, we already have one kid who does, and she’s gonna be a crack whore Because of it” when you told them about your cutting?
what, your parents didn’t beat the shit out of you over the smallest things and make you feel guilty for being alive?
what, you didn’t get treated like hazardous waste because you were depressed?
what, your parents /didn’t/ emotionally stunt you?
What you didn’t get taught that crying is wrong?
If you cry in front of people you don’t feel like a failure and try to run to your room causing repressed emotions to boil over in the stupidest of situations leading to a cycle of self loathing and hatred?
what, your mother didn’t offload her traumatic memories onto you? what, she didn’t tell you that she thought you’re faking your depression? what, she didn’t ridicule you for having emotions? what, she didn’t threaten to abandon you? what, she didn’t-
What? Your mom never thought you lied about cutting and thought you just wanted to get out school? She didnt pretend It never happened and just expected you to stop? Wasn’t disappointed in you when you finally had to call her in because you cut to deep and it wouldn’t stop bleeding? Just told you to put a bandaid on it and left? She never tried to make your abusive brother not seem so bad by dumping her traumatic memories everytime you tried to talk to her about it? You never had to go to Walmart to get those butterfly bandaids because you brother cut you so deep you could see bone? Have a big white scar because the hospital was to far? You never got screamed at to leave your brother alone after he pushes you and makes you bleed? What? You never got into fights with your mom and told you were self-centered, selfish, a cunt, bitch, and a terrible person? Then had your mom say she never said those things and get mad at you for “lying to fit your story”. What? Your older brother you barely remember never moved back in and talks about how he would like to break your arm? Hopes you get your ass kicked, drinks to much one night and your family fucking left you at the house while you were in the bathroom, and you were alone with him? Recorded him saying this to finally prove to your parents he said those things? Told them that he attacked you, tried to steal your phone, and the only reason he didnt didint do anything further then push you to the floor was because your dog protected you? Told your parents, showed them the recording, and have them pretend like nothing happend, and gets upset when you dont care about him, and talk shit about him when he “could hear you”?
What? You didn’t attempt suicide three times in fucking GRADE SCHOOL at an age when a kid usually cannot comprehend death just because you were so angry and scared and desperate to escape your parents?
What your mom didnt kick down your door and scream at you till you had an panic attack because you forgot to wash a fork? She didnt get in your face and tell you, you were being dramatic and you could control your panic attack if you wanted to? She didnt ground you and take away your electronics 6 months because you couldn't stop the panic attack?
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My kink is death
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You would tell me if you were getting bored of me, you wouldn’t just leave right?
none of you are nearly as bad as your parents make you out to be
I either have no one hitting me up or too many people hitting me up. It's about as unbalanced as my personality disorder.
Death just seems like the best way out atm
You ever wanna tell someone something they did triggered you but you don't want them to feel like they have to walk on eggshells around you??? Same.
I had a dream about you
When I woke up I really wanted to tell you about it but then I remembered we don't talk anymore
I thought you would of cared if i stopped talking to you, turns out you was just waiting for me to leave
The fact that i still have to live in this house for another year makes my heart drop
6 more months, i honestly can't believe I've made it. Like if you would of asked 14 year old me, i would of doubt i could get this far.
You say I'm ''hard to love''
I'm sorry, I'm really trying here
When your own parents don't love you it's hard to believe anyone could
Me: i’m happy
Me to me: I think they’re buying it
Kids who sought out sexual/romantic interactions with adults…
because they were lonely and needed human interaction/attention
or had emotional needs not being met
because they thought it was the price of being treated with care
or because it was a way to understand/reenact/overwrite/escape previous trauma
because they thought it was normal
or because they had picked up the message that this was how to be daring and cool and sexy/mature
or because they didn’t really understand how it would affect them
because they felt like they deserved it
or because they thought there wasn’t a big difference and “age is just a number”
or because being sexual around adults was the only time people said nice things to them or seemed to like them or notice them
or for any other reason
… still did not deserve the abuse they suffered.
Kids who initiate flirtation with adults still don’t deserve abuse.
Adults who aren’t abusers will not take advantage of a kid’s crush or advances. It’s the adult’s responsibility to set clear boundaries and enforce them. It’s an adult’s responsibility to not become sexually or romantically involved with a child. Adults who do are abusers.
Children did not cause those adults to become abusers. Children cannot tempt nonabusers into becoming abusers. Children are never responsible for adults deciding to abuse.
Even if you feel like you made it really easy for them to abuse you, being vulnerable to abuse around a nonabuser doesn’t result in abuse. Your vulnerability wasn’t the cause of the abuse. Their choices were.
It’s not your fault, it was never your fault.
This was me my entire childhood, and this post means alot.
Dont worry im sick of me too