house md enjoyer | autism | viola, piano and guitarist | med
i write fanfics, occasional original works, and random rants. and js random photos of life and drawings.
commissions : OPEN!
Fandoms - Bungo Stray Dogs, Attack on Titan, Jujustu Kaisen, Studio Ghibli, Love and Deepspace, House MD, and Cowboys Bebop
Authors I like and will talk abt - Agatha Christie, Nikolai Gogol, Nikolai Leskov, Fyodor Dostoevsky, Mihai Eminescu, Jules Verne, Mary Shelley, Osamu Dazai, Yukio Mishima, Oscar Wilde
(listening to trash magic by lana rn... IM GETTING FREAKY TACHYCARDIA OH GOD LANA RELEASE THIS PEAKKK! YOLO VROOOO)
cw - fluffy fluff and then js straight up NSFW. idk
SFW
-He most definitely gets you flowers for no reason. hes js soooooo...AAAHHH
-He will always listen to you and your problems. that savior complex does thingssss
-forehead kisses. HELL YES. leikkkk. he will always kiss your forehead before he leaves for the hospital or if you work at ppth, even better, your getting forehead kisses whenever he can get House away
-daily check-ins. 'Did you eat?' 'Do you need anything from the store?' 'Need help with something?' 'Everything alright?' 'Need a break?'
-which leads me to walks together. he will hold your hand, keep you close, listen intently to whatever you need to ramble about, or just lets the silence hold
-late night drives. he doesnt care the time. he'll let you pick the song, roll the windows down, go on a long ass car drive with no exact destination
-'CAN I HELP?' syndrome. no need for explanation on this
-you borrow his clothes. steal that McGill sweatshirt or anything you can get your hands on that looks good
-if ANYONE is EVER rude to you, he drops nice guy but doesnt act aggressive. he'll be calm but very firm. and if house was rude to you, or even worse, genuinely hurt your feelings, wilson will raise his voice
-anxious affection. if hes had a bad day with House or with patients, hes gonna be clingy. he might bury his face into the crook of your neck, or rest his head in your lap whilst laying on the couch
-he always wakes up before you to make your morning tea or coffee or matcha or what you need to start your day. he'll bring it to you in bed, kiss your cheek and apologize for having to leave for early rounds
-i can lwk see him just getting you small stupid (funny) gifts. maybe a keychain or a candy you mentioned ONCE or a book and he will buy it instantly for you, leaving it on your pillow or in your office desk.
Now NSFW but idddkkk
-HE TALKS YOU THROUGH IT-... i would know-
-he's very... passionate.
-whenever you whine or whimper, he cups your face with one hand, the other hand on your hip, thumb tracing rhythmic circles on the bone.
"Shhh... I know, baby... I know... jus' tell me what you need..."
"Atta girl... you're so gorgeous..."
"Just like that, sweetheart... look at me. Oh, baby... those pretty eyes.."
-He's very gentle with his words. VERY gentle. maybe a hint of possessiveness but otherwise he's never mocking and will always ALWAYS be willing to change anything for you
-Hes just wrapped around your pinky and goes at whichever speed you need
-He LOVES missionary. He wants to hold your face and kiss your cheek, watch you come undone below him.
-He'll pull one of your legs over his shoulder and go in gently
-whenever he has enough time between consults or rounds, he'll pull the blinds, lock both doors in his office and pick you up, pinning you against the wall.
-he'll eat you and kiss you like a starved man. hes such a puppy with his eyes
-NECK. KISSES. CHEEK. KISSES. COLLARBONE. KISSES. HE'LL KISS ANYTHING YOU LET HIM KISS
those random food blogs saying that "this food has cancer!" "that food has cancer!" are encouraging eating disorders, and here's why.
first of all, every single food has CANCER, we are literally made of cancer cells (I want more cancer give me all the cancer there is pleas yummmm cancer mmmm tasty)
second of all, they always 'reccomend' some extremely expensive food with basically no nutritional value and then say "it tastes exactly like 'insert food' just healthier!" and it always ends up tasting nothing like that food
last of all, am I saying you should eat unhealthy? NOOO
eat what you want, whenever you want, however you want (of course, if a doctor says you have be more healthy or you're obviously unhealthy then you will have to change your diet)
also some nutritional foods below
Chicken, beef, fish, pork, BEANS, BEANS, BEANNSSSS (I love beans, and even if you don't like beans you can put it in cookies and you won't taste it!)
(I honestly can't think of anything else so put some others below)
thanks to @yuliasnotesss because I've been wanting to talk about this topic for a long time, but I kept forgetting and I saw her post today and it reminded me to talk about this 😭 thanks yulia
hey, so I wanted to come on here and talk about some things I keep seeing repetitively on Pinterest, Instagram, Tumblr etc. Whenever I see girls going on about being skinny and eating low calorie meals, those meals are not the best ive seen.
i will come through clean right now, I am a competitive figure skater who does ballet and has developed an ED (starts with an a) and it lead to me having to cut back hours on the things I love to do because I kept having syncopes.
Back to what ive been seeing.
with every 'meal inspo' I saw, it had the reappearing diet soda for the drink.
But why diet soda? Diet Coca-Cola? Diet Pepsi? Why?
Here's my take backed up on proven facts.
Diet. The word we always want to see when we aren't happy with us. Healthy diet. Diet. Diet diet diet. But diet soda? Not what you should drink.
According to Keck School of Medicine of USC, the artificial sweetness-calorie thing mismatch can confuse your brain. Studies show that sweeteners like sucralose (often used in Celcius, Red Bull Sugarfree, Monsters, etc) can increase activity in your hypothalamus (part of your brain that does hunger) and make you more hungry.
Now for the ED loopy kinda thing. Because the brain feels "cheated" out of the energy it was promised, it ramps up intense cravings for high calorie foods later on. In an ED context, this physiological drive actively triggers the binge-restrict cycle, making it a setup for failure rather than a "hack."
This is the first time you basically shoot yourself in the foot.
Since these drinks are using fake sugars and such, it changes your taste buds. So then when you go to eat natural sweets like fruits, it won't taste as satisfying because you're so used to drinking fake stuff.
Second time you shoot yourself in the foot. That must hurt.
But enough about what not to do because no one likes getting told 'NOOOOOUUUUUUUUUWWUHHHHH.' That sucks. Let's do what u could do :>
For me, it took me a while to except food. I didn't like my bone structure and I am naturally on the low end of weight. So i'm here, staring in the mirror, picking myself apart. I kept weighing myself. Eating very little. I saw some change, but it wasn't permanent.
So what was I supposed to do? Decrease food again, increase hours on the ice with more intense workouts?
You probably thought yes.
You're an idiot---NO!!
The body will stay at the weight it feels comfortable at. Doesn't matter if you think you have to lose weight, your body will go fight or flight and keep the fat or whatever.
But think again.
Your weight is you.
No, not you as in YOU.
You as in YOU.
Your weight is all of your organs, bones, muscles, tendons, joints. Everything that makes you a living breathing organism.
You wouldn't be here without that.
But if you're like
'but I dont wanna be here... ;-;🥺😔'
GET UP, DAWG. YOU GOT THIS VROOOOOO.
js remember, 988 is the suicide Hotline in America. idk for other countries but you matter.
BACK TO MY DICUSSION.
Ykw, lemme put some ideas for you in bullet-point form. I, myself, am autistic and very picky about eating, so js... random thing, so if you're autistic or picky or both. here ya go.
cucumber and avocado salad (with salt, pepper and white balsamic vinegar)
cucumber avocado salad but now with soft hard boiled eggs for protein
salad with tofu
Boston lettuce salad with a portion of grilled chicken
but you get the jist? do whats comfortable for you, but still eat.
dont just save pinterest photos of the lifestyle you want--actually get to the life style you want.
baby steps.
clean your room, go through your clothes and donate what you dont like anymore, redo your skincare routine, watch vlog videos, listen to different music.
anything to get you into the vibe of what you want.
just, dont starve yourself or harm yourself. do good. eat good amounts that fuel your body so you can exercise, hang out with friends or whatever. hope this helped and sorry it ended so suddenly: )
