My Vent Blog

I use memes, art and pretty things to make myself feel better.

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To those of you that fear recovery because you’ve become so comfortable with your suffering:

You don’t notice it leave. It goes away slowly and you don’t even notice it’s gone until youre happy and content.

You won’t miss it. It won’t hurt. You won’t be empty. I promise it will be so much better than your head tells you.

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Recently hit the 5 year anniversary of this post. I've had lots of replies, convos, reposts on Pinterest, etc, and I just wanna say I love you all, yes even those of you that responded while in pain. Especially those of you that are younger, I promise the brain gets better at handling things.

It did get better. Mostly slowly, but there were times between relapses like the post above, which I originally made to remind myself for future dark times. I hope those tastes of freedom and recovery motivate you to give yourself the good feelings you deserve.

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[shubbabang]

Shout out to everyone who is just so tired So so exhausted So very very tired so very fatigued so sleepy and tired So

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told someone i'm schizophrenic and they ask "are you sure it's not just your mind playing tricks on you" bro what the fuck do you think schizophrenia is

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[acuntlikeyou]

More Love Again Tracey Emin 2011

[traumaxprincess]

there's not enough time in the world for me to undo the years of trauma

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[heavensghost]

Olivia Gatwood, from Life of the Party

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[fryeshiverbigman-deactivated202]

shcrimbly and bompous

[a-hurricane-thundercloud]

To those of you that fear recovery because you’ve become so comfortable with your suffering:

You don’t notice it leave. It goes away slowly and you don’t even notice it’s gone until youre happy and content.

You won’t miss it. It won’t hurt. You won’t be empty. I promise it will be so much better than your head tells you.

[doeyedangel]

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That last comment was disgusting. How fucking dare you

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I didn't suffer that much for you to tell me to my face that I'm lying. Choke.

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Usually if someone is telling me they don't think they'll ever recover I cut them some slack because it always feels that way but to fucking downplay someone's recovery and possible motivation? Get fucked. I'm still on this blog bro I'm not gonna let u pull shit.

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That last comment was disgusting. How fucking dare you

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I didn't suffer that much for you to tell me to my face that I'm lying. Choke.

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That last comment was disgusting. How fucking dare you

[a-hurricane-thundercloud]

To those of you that fear recovery because you’ve become so comfortable with your suffering:

You don’t notice it leave. It goes away slowly and you don’t even notice it’s gone until youre happy and content.

You won’t miss it. It won’t hurt. You won’t be empty. I promise it will be so much better than your head tells you.

[cottoncandyc0rpse]

I had this, I was okay for a bit, best I’ve literally ever been, ate and was fine, didn’t think about numbers at all… and then my family had to go fuck it up triggering tf out of me and here I am again. This is why I’m going no contact with them. You can’t heal in the same environment that made you sick. If you know there are toxic things in your life that will make or keep you in a bad place, cut that shit out no matter what it is.

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original post is a lie. you will miss it. you will miss it every day of your life. you will miss it when your jeans are a little tight after you ate. you will miss it when your friend loses a bit of weight. you will miss it when someone walks by who is skinnier than you. you will miss it when you feel empty and dead and tired of life and you want to taste happiness.

i’ve recovered a million times. it IS worth it. but don’t lie and say it’s easier than it is. you will fail over and over again before you truly get better. and even when you are better, there will be days when you miss your eating disorder so so much and not going back is a struggle.

you won’t be perfectly happy when you get better, and getting better will be hell, and eating isn’t going to magically fix your problems. but it is worth it. it’s just not easy.

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i get what ur saying but this had nothing to do with eating disorders. It had to do with me not actively trying to die daily anymore. So no, I'm not fucking lying.