I like the concept

I just really wanted this self-indulgent url. Whump/pro-ship/"problematique" content/salt blog, at least for now. Also now an addiction blog, as a recovering alcoholic who isn't open about it on main (and would rather keep that shit between my few followers here versus my 1k+ followers there...)

[arospeclotor]

Look I mean yes the song is about how the singers want to kill a man and rape his mom to gain political power, but they can fucking SING so like I mean. You kind of have to give them some points for talent.

[stjohnstarling]

I’m not sure how many people realize that there’s a way in which hurt/comfort is actually very kinky, because at its core you’ve got this emotional power exchange fantasy where one character is vulnerable and helpless and the other takes care of them. In the case of stories involving grievous injuries, where someone is bedridden for a long time, you often end up with two characters in a 24/7 total power exchange relationship without a safeword. It just doesn’t involve as many whips and dog collars.

[ardebatis]

Can I?? Like burrow into your brain like an amoeba? I need to feed on more of this

[angstandhappiness]

INTERESTING

[leyfin]

sobbing and crying at the woman who stole a meth addicted kitten from her dealer and then she and the kitten got clean together

[leyfin]

thats love baby!!

[styro-sometimes]

TUMBLR STORY TIME.

I volunteer for my local shelter and when the weather's good, we do a free vaccine clinic every Friday. Free distemper, free rabies, cats and dogs. We hand out free food from the pet pantry, we give people leashes and collars, we do whatever we can to keep people's animals at home and healthy. Every animal that can stay home and be fed and be vaccinated is an animal that we can keep out of the shelter.

We get all kinds of folks, sometimes we even get backyard breeders but we don't do any judgment, because we want people to come and get their dogs vaccinated, because one parvo case costs $7000+ and the whole year of Parvo vaccines for hundreds of dogs costs less. It's just harm reduction, everything we do is harm reduction.

So anyway, this one day this woman comes up to the vax clinic and she is high as fuckin' hell, just obliterated fucked up, smoking a joint in line, and she has this TINY pibble puppy with her, maaaaybe four weeks old. This thing is so fuckin tiny and wormy and lethargic, and she's like, "Hey I heard I can get her shots." and we're like, oh fuck this puppy is gonna die. Like straight up, we were all like, fuck that dog is gonna die. So we gave her wormer, we gave the first distemper shot, and I put together a whole care package: wormer to take home, puppy milk replacer, puppy wet food, a leash, a harness, some blankets, toys, we gave her instructions on how to get the puppy eating food, and we told her to come back in 3 weeks for the follow up vaccine. And we were all like, well fuck, that puppy's gonna die, goddamnit, that's so fucked up. But you know, we did our best, and we hoped we'd see her again.

And in three weeks, you guys, she showed up. And she was still high, but like, half-high this time. Smoking a cigartte in line but like, could focus, could ask and answer questions. And she'd taught that tiny puppy how to SIT and had her walking on a leash. We found out that it took her three buses to get to the clinic, and she told us all about how she got the puppy eating right, got her stool solid, she was taking her on walks... The puppy looked so good, you guys. I almost cried, it was so big. Really happy puppy. At the end of the visit, we were like, ok, see you in three more weeks for the next distemper.

So three weeks later, she shows up, and she's sober, and she told us, "You know, I was really fucked up the day I bought that puppy, I wasn't sure I was going to live, and I bought that puppy and she was too young, and I didn't know what I was doing but y'all were so nice to me, and you helped me so much, and I knew that I had to give this puppy the best life I could, so I moved back in with my grandma, and I'm getting clean, and I'm on methadone, and I'm going to rehab next week, and when I get back, I'll come back and visit you guys again."

So I just wanna say. Sometimes it's hard to find a reason to get clean for yourself. Sometimes you gotta do it for a little critter that depends on you.

[lastoneout]

[rneliflua]

"if you ship this thing it's because you're too naïve to understand that it's toxic and that you wouldn't like a relationship like this" actually it's because I see one of them as a mentos drop and the other as a bottle of coke zero and I want to watch the mess they'll be together

[darthlenaplant]

Get peer reviewed

[hazeldomain]

Pretty small twitter polls, someone with a larger audience feel free to do better but I think this helps get the point across.

This is the other major problem with content bans. Even if we all agreed that “positive portrayal” wasn’t allowed, who do we call on to evaluate which works “normalize” or “glorify”?

Sixty five percent of respondents would have had their own lived experiences wiped from the record, more than a third of them of behalf of a person who has not had that experience but wants to ‘protect’ people who have.

Meanwhile, only thirty seven percent of people would trust ‘a jury of their peers’ to have the media literacy to correctly identify “glorifying” when they see it.

And this goes both ways! The world is filled with people who think Romeo and Juliet is a love story and not a cynical mockery of how dumb kids are, but it’s ALSO filled with people who think Rorschach is a cool badass and the Punisher logo pairs well with a thin blue line.

You cannot discuss the practical implementation of content bans without acknowledging that the people who will be enforcing these bans have the reading comprehension of the average retail customer. Because they’re the same fucking people.

[gatobob-deactivated20240303]

I'm not comfortable with the way people keep posting my content in places absolutely filled with minors- or even places built specifically for minors.

I see people posting my content on Tiktok, ageless forums, AI chatbots, Discord games, even children's games like Pony Town and Roblox.

And then people come to me- asking why I'm not keeping minors out.

I'm a single human person, and I'm usually dog tired from working on game development. I didn't even know what half of these places were until I saw someone's fan content of my characters in them.

What I'm saying is:

Adults, could you help me out? Could you exercise a little common sense here? I have people asking me if they should buy my body pillows on etsy for their 14 year old sister because she saw your tiktoks.

I can't do this by myself.

[arospeclotor]

Me: *calls my sponsor for our weekly check-in and inventory*

Me sponsor: Hey, what's up?

Me, knowing I'm about to take up well over an hour of her life with the absolute bullshit that was my week: Well to start with...

(Family friend died (a long time coming, but still sad); the funeral is happening when I'm out of town (I'll be making the 3 hour drive back for the funeral proper before going back out of town, but I'll miss the viewing); my parents freaked out at the idea of me bringing my friend who is back from the dead to my sister's baby shower and we can only assume it's for classism reasons; one of the coworkers I get along best with up and quit; my roommate came out at work and received rape threats from her coworkers in response, so we had to make some serious plans for safety in the house in case they actually meant the threats (they weren't made in writing so it's a case of he-said-she-said); all and all it's been one clusterfuck of a week.)

But hey, I didn't drink! I didn't even really want to drink! That's something. Can't expect much better than that.

[sarasade]

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[arospeclotor]

Ok! My friend who I thought had OD'd and died just messaged me from a new Facebook account. So I'm going to kill him myself, but I'm so fucking glad he's alive.

[arospeclotor]

Me to my sponsor: Hey can I call you?

My sponsor: Sure, what's up?

Me: I did a thing that didn't seem like a big deal at the time, but my brain is telling me to keep it secret from you, which probably means I should tell you.

My sponsor: ...Yeah call me.

(The thing: a homeless guy approached me the other day when I was buying cigarettes and asked me to buy him a bottle of wine. I'm pretty bad at saying no to that sort of request, so I bought him the wine. So we went through what happened, my motivations, and whether or not I felt triggered to buy alcohol for myself afterwards (I didn't) and my sponsor determined that ultimately it was probably a neutral action on my part and not necessarily un-sober behavior. So okay, then! I'm still glad I told her.)

[xpassengerprincessx]

6 weeks sober!! Not being able to drink still feels like the worst thing that’s ever happened to me!!! but it’s getting easier!!

[arospeclotor]

Long post, trauma dumping ahead. Please scroll past if you don't care or will find talk of addiction triggering.

I was at a meeting today where we talked about trauma and triggers, people places and things. A great topic, but it made me think about my friend who I haven't heard from in months, who I suspect overdosed and died.

There's a lot of guilt there. I got clean and sober, and maybe I could have done more to help him. This is a friend I considered like a brother, and I miss him dearly. I was pretty much just an alcoholic - a friend of mine jokingly calls me a "gold star alcoholic," as a play on the concept of a gold star lesbian... He wasn't. When we met he drank alcoholically, but he also smoked weed and did cocaine when he could. Then he got offered heroin. Then he was offered meth by a dealer who swore it wasn't actually as addictive as people say it is, because of course they'd say that.

I miss him. We could nerd out together. I got him into Supernatural, he tried to get me into Vampire Diaries (it never took). He watched Voltron and Steven Universe with me. We'd start the day sober and nerd out, then pick up our drinks (and he'd pick up his weed, he never did anything harder than that in front of me) and get blasted while we watched nerd shit, paused it to talk and smoke cigarettes and just generally have a good time.

Thing is, I came from a middle class family. He came from a dirt poor family. I had a safety net to catch me. My parents could help pick me up, help me network, help me move to get a new job when I got demoted due to my quality of work suffering due to drinking. He didn't have that I had people to lean on who were stable, and he didn't have that. I had people to lean on and prop me up when I was at my worst, people who were steady and in a place where they could help.

He didn't have that, and I couldn't be that person for him.

Idk where I'm going with this. I think I just needed to get it out. Addicts, we fuck up. We hurt people even when we don't mean to, but we're people too. I just miss him, and wish things hadn't ended the way they probably did.

[devilsofficialfanfic]

Why is it always enemies to lovers? Why can’t it be enemies and lovers?

[arospeclotor]

Being a recovering alcoholic is so stupid sometimes. AA will be like "you must be fully honest with yourself and your sponsor (or someone else you pick, for me it's my sponsor, the 10th step is continous), be fully honest with your higher power. Expose your most depraved thoughts and evil feelings and work through them in a space with no judgment. We will tackle these resentments in a safe space.

And I'm showing up like Hey, I had a panic attack at D&D and have a huge resentment towards the DM and I started having flashbacks to when I was an asshole at D&D and ruined the group I was in during early sobriety, destroying some friendships in the process; this time I'm sober and don't think it's my fault but oh boy help me out here!

Like I guarantee my sponsor did not realize how much D&D talk she'd signed up for when she took me on as a sponsee, of all the stupid things! Thank God we're both nerds so she at least gets why this is important, even though it seems dumb.

[orbees]

Kills me how so many ppl on here will be like be gay do crimes but then gasp in shock and horror at the very thought that there are Drug Users and Addicts on their Webbedsite

[orbees]

I'm just saying like if ur gonna be on here claiming to be anti police and care about social justice but then cry out in moral outrage everytime you realize there are drug users and addicts in your communities... mayhap you aren't as be gay and do crimes as u thought. Btw you're stepping on some of the most vulnerable people in ur community and you sound like a conservative <3

[orbees]

Oh and just to cut this off at the pass, yes this still goes even if you have trauma relating to drug use for whatever reason like. Your trauma is valid for lack of other words, and youre allowed to make boundaries as you will, but it does NOT give you an excuse to punch down on addicts, who are suffering too.

Also again, addicts are just as every bit as complicated and human as you are and often have trauma around drug use themselves.

And signing off: you are not more righteous or morally pure than addicts, you can end up there too just as easily under the right circumstances. end post 💗

[ratsetflummi]

i am getting somewhat suspicious of this count dracula. jonathan wrote that he is behaving kinda oddly, and that he is talking as if he'd been there for all of those historic battles centuries ago

what really tipped me off though is that he calls himself "a dracula", which, yes, could just be referring to a person belonging to house dracula, but dracula is also the romanian word for dragon, and according to some legends dragons can take the shape of a human at will

so currently i'm thinking that our friend jonathan harker might have been imprisoned by a dragon

[ratsetflummi]

we have not heard from our friend jonathan in three days, so now i am starting to worry that he has been eaten by the dragon

[papavers0mniferum]

in celebration of tpof’s kind of release date, some Strade! ft the worst Rammstein merch I’ve ever laid my eyes upon- enjoy.