Common headcanons for Sirius I donât agree with
I saw another post with one of those passing on my dashboard today and as I tend to disagree with many headcanons that are written for Sirius, I thought I would share my point of view of that character, and more specifically, the hc I often see and I donât agree with at all :
- Sirius loving his âperfect hairâ and his âstormy eyesâ
Sirius hates his appearance. He looks like his father : same forme of face, same eyes, same hair⊠when he looks in a mirror he sees the ghost of his father and the rest of his bloodline reminding him who he should be, and he hates it. Thatâs why he lets his hair grow, to hide the obvious resemblance. Same for a beard when he is old enough to have one. Every detail that can differenciate him from his family is welcomed.
- Sirius being a âdrama-queenâ
This boy was raised in a home were he was abused, at least psychologically (and I have always considered that he had been mistreated in a physical way as well). The key for survival then is to hide his weaknesses, hide what hurts so that it wonât be used against you. No, he doesnât panic for nothing, no, he is not overdramatic when something serious happens (if he is overdramatic, it is only to make his friends laugh). He will never talk about what troubles him, and hide it when something hurts him, and that destroys him from the inside, as it means that he needs to carry the weight of the world on his shoulders, and his shoulders alone.
He hides everything under jokes, and pranks and crooked smiles, but inside, heâs a mess.
And no, he doesnât spend his time complaining when he is sick, nor cries when he gets a scratch. He hides it again, and only the people closest to him can hear him complaining when he is in pain. The rest of the world sees a blank mask or a smirk instead.
- Sirius flirting with the girl he loves
If he is in love, he wonât tell anyone, especially the woman who has his heart. The people who were supposed to love him did nothing but hurt him, he has no idea how to deal with âloveâ. He has never known the feeling. So he panicks,and hides his true feelings, and if he really cares about this girl, he will make sure that she doesnât learn the nature of his feelings for her. He feels like he doesnât deserve her.
-Sirius being overconfident
Heâs terrified by himself. He is a tortured, broken boy who is terrifed by the idea that he could end up like the family he rejected. He is terrified by himself, and above all, he is afraid that what he had to go through as a child could destroy him and turn him into something as poisoned and dark as his parents.
-Sirius looking for being popular
To protect himself from his abusive parents and their remarks, he had to create himself an armour, an armour that makes him reject the opinions others might have of him, which turns him into the ârebellious oneâ. To ignore the way his parents think of him, he shuts down the opinions of the entire world.
- Marlene being bitchy, even mean to him.
A blackinnon specifity here, but I donât see how Sirius could fall in love with someone who could be cruel to him. Yes, I do imagine Marlene sassy and witty and next to Sirius, it forms battles of sarcasm and clever words. But itâs not cruel. She doesnât insult him all the time. Again, Sirius has spent a terrible childhood during which he was hurt by the people who were supposed to protect him and love him. He would never fall in love with someone cruel, he would fall in love with someone able to make him laugh, and entertain him, but most importantly, with someone who would show him the affection, the kindness, and the care he had lacked as a child. Not a cruel woman, a loving one.
I donât see Sirius as a stupid teens, nor someone superficial, nor someone who even cares about his appearance or what others may think of him. And I donât think he could fall in love with someone who would be mean to him. To me, Sirius is a complex and tortured character who holds too much suffering but knows how to hide it well, and instead of letting himself drown in this pain, he bravely faces it, fights it, struggles until his head finally pierces the surface of this ocean of pain, until he frees himself from a part of his past to be himself.
Now, feel free to react to this point of view and add your own headcanons :)