Obviously I love Lucy and so the montage of Adrian falling for Lucy healed me a little uwu I love her so much
I love Chloe, I love that she did a little troll face at Mike but was starting to cry too. incredibly strong child. very smart. I'm in awe of her will.
I thought I would feel weird about seeing adult Lucy but O M G I was just so happy to see her moving on with her life! just having a life!! seeing her older made me so happy and now I'm looking at the acrylic charm of Lucy that I also got like WOW!! BABY. SMALL
it was so great to see Lucy getting older without really changing. she is so cute. she has such a great fun personality and I loved seeing her make her co-workers laugh with her understated vibes. I'm so happy for both of them.
also looking at the cover after reading it again was diabolical I was like wait. blue? a bow? no............................ he wouldn't.............. (he did)
mostly though I'm just feeling this crazy like, "omg a time skip happened and it was great" feeling. like thank god, things turned out okay for my child Lucy, whom I love. she has a family now. :)
there is this controversy going on on TikTok where a girl made a video about how she is unemployed and disabled due to currently going through cancer treatment and how the loss of SNAP benefits was going to effect her. and the MAGA crowd found her and ripped her to shreds because she was a young “healthy-looking” girl with dyed hair. the most baffling part was all of the people saying things like “My dad had cancer and he worked EVERYDAY until he died! No excuses, you lazy bitch!” which is soooo wild. it is crazy how many members of the conservative ‘blue collar’ crowd love to brag about being fucked over and killed by capitalism. that is not a flex, quite the opposite, if anything that is insanely pathetic and sad. maybe your daddy would still be alive if we had socialized medicine and better sick leave policies but no, he worked himself to fucking death and you want a 20 something young woman to die the same pathetic fate. we need to start telling these people ‘that is so sad, I feel sorry for you’ instead of pretending this is in the scope of good work ethic. because it’s fucked up the things they’re going through and patting themselves on the back for. maybe if they felt less proud of being fucked over by the system, they’d work to change it.
I just like the contrast of someone defending Mike by being like WELL TOO BAD FOR HER right next to the name of the woman he's debating the subject with
cuz like
I'm pretty sure Mike vs Lucy is just men vs women to the majority of people reading it at this point
And "too bad for her" isn't actually a smart thing to say about anyone
(someone else mentioned Tumblr vs Reddit = the genders of the people reading)
Personally I just love this comic it's like the best American anime
I LOVE BITTERSWEET CANDYBOWL SO MUCH I LOVE AUGUSTUS SO MUCH I LOVE DEPICTIONS OF PEOPLE WHO HAVE TRAUMA BUT MINDFULLY USE IT FOR THINGS AAAAAA
there's something so incredibly awesome and brave about a dude whose body is THIS terrified from past violence still deciding to go for a plan that involves him getting beat up
them
I also love final fantasy and final fantasy cats and augustus's fashion choice and Lucy gripping his left arm and touching his head gently
I love how smart and aware he is and how analytical and it reminds me of ME, all the time
being hypervigilant does kinda boost your processing power and speed. living in a state of constant anticipation of confrontation is like, not the worst. it definitely hurts a lot to have an Augustus Style Build (even more if some dipshit throws you on the ground) but he's COOL! and smart! and incredible! I admire him so much. maybe I just really like loners or something.
IM STILL
DYING to know
how this affects Mike because
David has ALWAYS been a sort of joker character
a dark horse of sorts
and he's always played it like he's just a chill guy which is obviously not true lol
and I'm so curious about this!!! I've never seen David just go for someone's jugular and when he did the person in question just instantly was eviscerated
I also wish I could see David's face when Lucy started crying over how Mike was treating her cuz
like?? it feels like he's going for "karmic justice" here
he WANTS mike to get what he deserves
Augustus was smiling too but his smiles didn't seem to reach his eyes
David like, idk. he seems COMPLETELY into what he's doing
chikorita gets clowned on a lot for its shit stats and a movepool i would be hard-pressed to describe as "extant" but designwise it's really evocative. it begs the kind of questions that make pokemon so magical: what IF a lima bean was a small dog. what IF instead of a head it had like. a weird nub. with an anime face on it. what if it could throw a fistful of razors across the room
I love. love. LOOOOVE BITTERSWEET CANDYBOWL OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD I LOVE THIS WEBCOMIC SO MUCH OH MY GOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDDD
bittersweet candy bowl -- weebposting (idk I just made that term up but I'm like weebing out over this incredible webcomic and what it means to me personally) -- I haven't posted in forever so if you don't know me you won't get what I'm yapping about SORRYY -- also I just yap about PTSD fulltime now hello it's inescapable I guess
I have always loved Augustus. There was discourse in the comments that he "groomed" Daisy and it's like, okay, first of all, if yall are the same age it's different?? HELLO?? and I sincerely think it's because they don't know what that term was ever supposed to mean and the term itself has been eviscerated BUT I DIGRESS
I love Augustus
He does the fake smile thing that's supposed to hide aggression but can also accentuate it, and yet...
Sometimes you can learn more about a person's character by looking at parts in isolation. What the mouth shows vs what the eyes show. In the second panel, everything but Augustus' mouth is him reflecting with sincere pain on how the movie stuck with him because it helped him see Lucy's POV far too clearly.
All of these expressions, to me, say "here's how I really feel about you and my smile is just there to distract. My eyes tell the truth."
and it makes me like Augustus even more because I can identify with him. having the ability to "see" things is hell. if you can "see" someone in a movie behaving in a way you despise, because it reminds you of your own experiences being abused (just projecting a little here), it makes it possible for you to "see" down a very dark hole into a world where people are endlessly and casually cruel. that "world" is a very dark place that people only want to experience indirectly, IE in movies, where they can say "I didn't like what happened to the woman" and not explore the possibility of such a thing happening to real women in real life. also I would guess Augustus is fully "activated" here (a term I use for my own PTSD that just means "on full alert for any danger because something dangerous is happening on some level") and his bpm is high af rn. but again: projecting!! it's just really cool to read a story where I can project like this!! normally people like me are the "oh I didn't like what happened to her haha" characters that don't get a lot of attention or screen time and are written off as lost causes from early on. OH MY GOD I FUCKING HATED THAT MOVIE ... I won't even say its name. it's an example of having a female lead who's traumatized and gets killed off. a very predictable, very sickening ritual of moviedom. apparently mentally traumatized people are to be treated with fear, suspicion, and even murder. booooooo humanity sucks who did this
anyway someone in the comments (a smart person, thank god) pointed out that Augustus can't tell whether or not Mike is the enemy here. and I gotta admit, I can't tell either. but that's why I jumped onto tumblr to rant about this page lol because the artist who makes this webcomic (omg I typed weebcomic but that also counts, it's very anime in a good way, it's made by a fellow anime enjoyer) is a genius artist. that's my take!!!!! genius. I'm so glad there is a webcomic For Me Specifically. I used to read so many webcomics and this one is still updating after 10+ years.
so yeah!!! omg finally I get to rant about fandom stuff and not something overwhelmingly traumatic. I've been into politics for a while and Imma be real: it did not improve any aspect of the situation I've been in since being born.
that said it did provide some interesting *subtext* about the circumstances into which I was born and that's been hella interesting and useful
unfortunately my nervous system is now so shot that I have almost no remaining short term memory. but I did recently stumble upon a journal for people with autistic burnout. which is the thing I have. so yeah I gotta seriously learn how to relax no more dillydallying with this stuff. I gotta go sleep HARDCORE (I've been letting insomnia dominate and I forreal do not recommend that route!! hypervigilance is only good if you're an fps gamer lol which I am so it's fine)
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edit: accidentally looked at the comments and one of them was "alright it's getting a little white knighty" and I'm liek oh my god please. please don't make me read any more takes like that. it's like I'm inhaling toxic fumes somehow.
If only there was some kind of law the USA could pass to stop people from getting randomly shot with a gun in public. Ah well . My crazy unrealistic dream
Weaponized incompetence my ass just weaponize it back. Once my dad tries to pull the “but I don’t know how to clean the counters as well as you” on my mom and she said “ok honey I’ll show you” and she made him stand in the kitchen and watch her clean the counters. Then she pulled out a bottle of chocolate syrup and proceeded to spray the entire kitchen in chocolate, hand him the sponge and said “okay now it’s your turn”
asked my cat if he wanted dinner or the slop that kills him and my twin was like "he can hear you, you know?" and when I looked down at my cat he was like this
If you had shown me this site in 2005 I would have asked you if had checked your virus software lately, because this looks like a bad one. I would have clicked away so fast it would give you whiplash. Looking at these sites now, I have to convince myself that they aren't virus laden sites and fight against the pavlovian urge to just navigate away.
I navigate away anyways because fuck them, there's usually a better site (though they are dwindling quickly). I still can't get over how the internet "as intended" today looks like a malware ridden fever dream from 20 years ago. This is every story I've ever read about an empire that used to be great and has now fallen into turmoil.
Imagine if you locked Light and Patrick Bateman in a room together. They would be having the most generic conversation but you wouldn’t be able to hear it over the sound of their overlapping internal monologues. There would be a few seconds where their monologues both play in sync to say something misogynistic.
