Never more parties
Oml, school parties are SO awful.. Like - you just want to sit under the wall w/ your friend, watch people dancing and ship them, rat some snacks, but there must come this one friend that always tries to encourage you to dance with everyone and doesn't understand that you don't like to dance in public and you can't dance in public. Then, when you finally submit to do it. Everyone, even people that you don't know and are not really eager to get to know, start to dance with you or even fall on you. You start to feel even more uncomfortable than while you were just sitting, so there appear tears in your eyes. Your friends suddenly start to care about you and ask you why are you crying. You want to say sometimes, but your voice cracks and you are too afraid to admit that this amount of people around you seriously scares you, so you're even crying more. You get to the restroom to buck up and when you get out of restroom, you find out, that suddenly everyone care about you and you just can't be left alone. Everyone - guys from older classes that take care 'bout whole party, your teachers, literally EVERYONE, when you just want to be alone, but can't even a single word get out of your mouth and you die internally. When you finally buck up and get back to dancing, or maybe more like trying to dance, you start to see these lovey-dovey couples everywhere around you, what makes you think that you are just and ugly, crying bitch that is never going to have a boyfriend or girlfriend, but you have no motivation to change, what makes you wanna cry again, but luckily you stop your tears. When party ends everyone talk about how awesome the party was, but you just want to go home, swear to yourself that you are never going to any party again and try to forget about everything...