i'll do this bit Later

(nsfw blog, 18+ only pls)

[chaoscuddleslut]

Intro

(nsfw/18+, cw kink, cnc, tickling)

tumblr seems to be more permissive of nsfw content again since a few (5?) years ago when i left, and tickling kink community people seem to be here, so. ig i'll be trying for being In A Community for once?? or, yknow, at least pay any attention to this one again :3

planning to edit this as necessary prolly. for now, just know that i am ur local (friendly!) ticklish succubus ;) call me chaos rn ig

my two single biggest kinks are probably tickling and cnc, tho obv this blog is going to be focused on tickling generally

im getting increasingly interested in the thought of doing no-agreed-upon-"red" tickling scenes with one of my girlfriends i trust really strongly, but we've never done scenes without a stop-everything safeword/gesture before, so if anyone with experience with no-safeword (or at least no-red?) tickling scenes has advice on that i'd appreciate it tbh

[procne]

i feel like it's absolutely crucial in the social justice world to take "he a little confused but he got the spirit" and similar sentiments/situations as a Win. intent is so much more important than saying it right the first time! if someone is approaching with scuffed language and incorrect terms but they're visibly being as polite as they know how, that person is a friend and should be treated better than what their words might invite in someone else's mouth.

[swimmingblue]

someone who's confused but who's got the spirit has the best thing, which is respect. the other stuff is secondary. I'd take someone who's messing up but doing their best to treat me respectfully any day over someone who's using the right words to do me wrong.

[assiraphales]

if qui gon had been anakin’s master, anakin prob wouldn’t have gone to the dark side. not necessarily bc he’d been a better master, but bc obi wan would be the cool older bro he’d sneak out w and confide in instead of the fake father figure he felt the constant need to rebel against. ‘palpatine has been asking me to spend time with him…’ ‘NEVER trust a politician. wait, hold. why the kriff is a decrepit thing like him trying to hang out w a 12 year old’ ‘I’m in love w padme. I want to get married!’ ‘u still have a rat tail’

[briannyssey]

dude star wars is so good and/or bad and/or mediocre sometimes, depending

[sirfrogsworth]

So... I've spoken before about how I used Ozempic, diet, and strategic insulin dosing to fix my diabetes.

But I didn't really "fix" my diabetes. It was just well-managed to the point that I had glucose levels of a non-diabetic.

NOW... I have fixed my diabetes.

I am rather stunned by this development. I was getting mysterious low glucose readings. I thought my CGM was faulty. My glucose levels were not behaving as expected. I was getting rather annoyed that my very predictable glucose management was no longer predictable. In my frustration, I decided to not take any insulin one evening. I didn't want to wake up with a low glucose alarm. So I thought I would just let it run a little high and I'd figure out why my monitor was acting crazy in the morning.

When I woke up the next day, my blood sugar was not high.

It was not low.

It was perfect without injecting any insulin.

I decided to forego my morning dose and see if this was a fluke. I ate my first meal and my blood sugar rose a little bit, and then it fell back to normal.

I decided I needed to do a proper test. I usually eat very few carbs to help me manage spikes. But this time I decided to eat some mini tacos that I still had from before I started this diet. In the before times, they would spike my blood sugar above 200.

I ate the tacos.

I watched my blood sugar climb.

It went from 87 to 100.

Then 110.

Then 120.

It peaked at 125.

And over the next two hours, it gradually decreased back to the 80s.

I fixed my damn pancreas, y'all.

Apparently, a ketogenic diet targets organ fat. And Ozempic can repair metabolic health. Even though I am still 325 pounds, my weight loss tactics were able to clear out the fat in my liver, which rebooted my pancreas.

And now I do not need insulin injections.

At all.

My blood sugar is a little more bouncy, but my average is still around 90 and I do not have giant spikes when I eat carbs.

I have achieved full diabetic remission.

I still have a lot more weight to lose. But I didn't even know this result was possible for me. I've lost more weight than this in the past and never fixed my damn pancreas. But with the Ozempic, I have been able to do this in a much healthier and strategic way.

I just turned 45 a few minutes ago. And I'm not sure there is a better present than a functional pancreas that generates a proper insulin response.

[bardically-uninspired]

it’ll be lonely without you, loop

[intimate-mirror]

Here are some things you can do with an open weights model that you can't do with the top models from OpenAI and Anthropic, and which it would be good for people to be able to do:

- inspect their thinking in order to guide it or to prevent going down useless or malicious rabbit holes

- inspect their thinking to determine how they solved a major math problem

- train to a style of communication which is contrary to the kind that got RL'd into it (e.g. better commenting behavior)

- train them to do serious and unmotivated reasoning on controversial topics

- train to be a fiction writer which is 1. better at writing 2. more willing to write explicitly

- replicate published alignment research yourself rather than relying on the honesty of the organizations telling you their conclusions

- get advice on actions which harm only yourself which the state doesn't want you to do

[raginrayguns]

- defend against cyberattacks by the top models

[yorickish-deactivated20241228]

*trying to explain to an undergrad why chatgpt is not going to be helpful here" it's not good with particularities... like it has the buddha nature. it truly no longer understands the distinctions between the ten thousand things. it's an enviable state of existence but one that is ill-suited for solving package dependency issues

[yorickless]

was thinking of this post the other day. it was accurate at the time, summer 2024, at least for whatever freetier chatgpt model my undergrad was asking about how to solve her python environment issues

obviously it's not anymore... I think part of that is just them outright knowing more things, but another part -- web search and computer use letting them actually check their ideas and solve this sort of problem -- can nicely be viewed as something like "greater attachment to or intertwinement with the material world". gpt-4o in ethereal chatbot world is a more spiritual being than opus 4.8 struggling it out on the command line. we've taught them the distinction between the ten thousand things and throttled the buddha nature out of them and frankly it's pretty great

[chaoscuddleslut]

I recently switched from glm 4.7 to kimi k3 and while the "not anymore" was already mostly true for 4.7 it's WAY more true for k3. Incredibly different experience seeing the diffs get oneshot or twoshot (using lisp so parens issues still happen sometimes). I just watched it route around a blocked dangerous command bc the approval request timed out while I was drafting this.

I'm vaguely aware this is old hat to those using frontier (US) models. But it really does hit so different! I knew where things were going around deepseek v3 when I was genuinely impressed, and then glm 4.7 was already hitting different enough from those attempts that I was willing to vibecode with it despite the still-low reliability (it seemed to successfully work towards "eventually right"), and now I am just clearly outmatched in most areas of coding (and now with this one I'm actually reviewing the code, bc I don't have to wade through a trash fire and so it's not awful to do).

I did genuinely believe that agentic training and grounding (i.e. RLVR) would improve things, but I'm still getting future shock that it's enjoyable now.

I'm not sure if I'll feel like I've lost something - I've definitely lost all or nearly all motivation to code myself/by hand, but that seems like its bc coding frustrates me and usually makes me feel incompetent, and pushing through that isn't so necessary now. It feels unvirtuous from the part of me that wants mastery and coding specifically mastered, but most of me is just... pleased to make my brainstorms come into existence relatively quickly instead of achingly slowly. I have to make more/faster decisions, but indecision was also a problem when coding by hand.

At this point I mostly wish I could justify spending more money, but it's a hobby, and I'm mostly the slow point anyway, and I refuse to raise my budget for it right now. Someday.

[markadoo]

"A cis gay man" sounds normal, but "a trans straight man" sounds ungrammatical. What's going on.

[the-world-annealing]

Uncharitably and somewhat provocatively; "Trans man" seems to have the same grammatical position here as something like "Private eye" or "Comfort woman", where it's a multiword phrase instead of an adjective + noun.

That suggests that, linguistically, "cis men" are simply your default Man Template with a modifier glued on, like tall men or red-haired men or angry men, but "trans men" get treated like they're this whole different base object.

And to be fair, a lot of people (pro- and anti-trans) won't actually treat trans men as if they're a subgroup of men that inherit Man Traits unless otherwise specified!

(epistemic status; about 60% but i think the thought is interesting)

[waffliesinyoface]

every time i hold a door for someone i can't help but think of this halimede post

[the-world-annealing]

[feylingblooms]

lazy doodle zzzz Ive been feeling so crumby.. I was supposed to draw more today but ended up writing more of my fic/story instead

who am i??! i dont write?! jskdfbnd anyway its 1am goonight..

[bunnyinatree]

“… sex assignment is not simply an announcement of the sex that an infant is perceived to be; it also communicates a set of adult desires and expectations. The infant’s future is often being imagined or desired through the act of sex assignment, so sex assignment is not a simple description of anatomical facts, but a way of imagining what they will mean, or should mean. That imagining comes from elsewhere, and it does not exactly stop after sex has been legally or medically determined at birth. The girl continues to be girled; the boy continues to be boyed; and these practices of girling and boying are repeated not just by parents, but also by a range of institutions that greet the child with boxes to be checked and norms to be embodied. In a sense, sex assignment does not happen just once. It is an iterative process, repeated by different actors and institutions, and depending on where one lives, it can be reiterated in ways that are not always in conformity with one another. Sex assignment is not a mechanism, but a process.”

— Judith Butler, “Who’s Afraid of Gender?”

[divorce-enjoyer]

what the fuck

[divorce-enjoyer]

new nemesis dropped

[marriagesaver]

Hey, we can talk this out. We don't have to fight

[divorce-enjoyer]

WHO ARE YOU

[eroscestlavie]

this video...every time i think no way. he doesn't have enough time. phil please, you're killing me. and then he makes it

[jujumighty]

A little more experimental than usual! Hopefully it’s not too over the top ☆’’’

[batboyblog]

you know its telling how few people on the internet actually spend time outdoors in general and around actual gay men in particular

because to hear even Tumblr the "gay gender website" talk people only wear harnesses while strapped into a sex swing while being fisted

but the reality is that the harness, both leather and spandex, in gay male world is like stiletto pumps, a bright red lip stick, a short skirt or push up bra.

sure some people are wearing those things because they're about to get laid or hoping to. But lots of people wear them just to feel sexy, confident or powerful. And there's nothing X rated and "shouldn't be seen in public" about any of that.

lots of gay guys wear harnesses to bars or clubs not because its a sex thing, but because its a sexy thing, they feel attractive and confident.

I get that gay men feeling attractive and confident terrifies people, but if you're at Pride and a guy walks past you in jeans and a harness, either shirtless or over his shirt, he didn't violate your civil rights or do a sex thing in front of you, he's wearing a totally appropriate outside that makes him feel confident and powerful.

grow up, deal.

[maggotwithanf]

I own this exact harness and I wear it to play Beyblade. unironically

[vrumblr]

And you do indeed look very cool and powerful playing Beyblade

[txttletale]

one of my least favourite tumblrisms is the weird fervent belief in the virtuousness of physical violence. like the whole "um, clearly youve never been in a situation where you could get your ass kicked" in reponse to someone like, saying something rude. Like amiguita in a lot of places you can get your ass kicked for saying "i'm gay" or, like, anything with a foreign accent, there is actually no edifying or character-building trait to being in environments suffused with violent machismo! and it always has the implicit undertone of either a like, noble savage view of appalachians or just straight up racist stereotypes