Nox

I like music and food

[claviculanoireht]

he like the sink

[claviculanoireht]

I wish I was a cute girl so that I could wear cute outfits and kiss other cute girls

[claviculanoireht]

When will I find my introverted, quiet and shy but can't stop talking about her favorite subject when you get to know her, anime loving gf?

[claviculanoireht]

I just want to be loved, I just want someone to want me, and care about me

[claviculanoireht]

Is it a condition, or a syndrome, or a specific mental illness to thoroughly hate yourself and think you're worthless and wish you weren't you?

[claviculanoireht]

I just want someone to make me feel warm

[claviculanoireht]

When I commit suicide, I want to make posts about it with photos on the internet before I die, that way maybe I'll feel just a little bit important before I kick the bucket

[ophelieaesque]

the unshakable sense of impending doom when the calls stop and the texts shortens to simple abbreviations

[honestloverboy]

Even when I'm surrounded by people I somehow manage to feel so fucking lonely

I'm used to constantly feeling alone but it's still really frustrating, I don't think anything can truly make me feel better

[cutupbun]

i want attention give me attention please ill do anything just to be noticed

[commonzinnia]

i hate being happy because i know it will take just the most insignificant thing to ruin it.

[vilea777]

every time i find even just a little hope for getting better i just sink to the bottom again and its this big never ending loop

[claviculanoireht]

Im going to therapy, I'm taking meds, I go on walks, get enough sunlight, touch grass, participate in my hobbies, it's helped in the way that there are days where I'm not feeling miserable, but I still don't feel happy, I still don't have expectations for the future, I still don't have a purpose, I still don't feel interest in living, I live because I have to, I'm forced to, but I don't want to stay alive, I'm just surviving until I can die, is this what my existence is meant to be? Was I not meant to be happy?

[shattered-lily]

"they haven't replied to my text, they must hate me and want me dead", I say, after messaging someone who is asleep

[wowlookwhosspirallingagain]

you ever just hope you die in your sleep so you won’t have to kill yourself ?

edit: i censored the words at first because my previous account got banned and i didn’t want that to happen again but thanks for letting me know i can write it normally

[neverthelessicare]

I just want to be someone special.

[claviculanoireht]

I end up posting my feelings and venting on the internet because I have no one I can tell, but no one cares either