aren’t you tired of being tired don’t you just wanna be not tired?

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aren’t you tired of being tired don’t you just wanna be not tired?
i would rather die than market myself on linkedin. it's the modern day version of a peasant doing a little dance to convince the king to let him live
In the past, when I have described the pervasiveness of BPD, I have repeatedly run into an issue/symptom that I’ve struggled to explain.
It is a phenomena that is actually very common among people with BPD, but for the most part, is classified under another subset of symptoms or never spoken about directly.
Object permanence is the understanding that objects continue to exist even when they cannot be observed
Emotional Permanence, therefore, is the understanding that emotions (and other abstract concepts and expressions like love) continue to exist when they cannot be observed
Many people with BPD have difficulty recalling or recreating any given emotion without the stimuli behind that emotion being present
Issues with Emotional Permanence are particularly noticeable in our relationships with other people. I think that this is a major reason why we constantly seek reassurance, and why we are so often plagued by fear of abandonment. When a person in our lives removes an emotional stimuli via the absence of their presence or reassurance, we find it difficult to recall if that reassurance ever existed.
So, an example: Someone reassures us that we are loved, that we are not annoying them. We are comforted. That person goes away for a while, or doesn’t explicitly mention those words for a while. When that happens, we no longer recall being loved or reassured. While we can be provided concrete evidence of those reassurances, we cannot recreate, revisit, or properly reflect upon the intention and emotions within that exchange, thus we feel unloved, or begin to worry about being annoying.
This is typically when emotions skew towards a depressive cycle. We feel as anxious and depressed as we did before we were reassured the first time. So at this point, we typically seek out additional reassurance. If it’s given, it comforts us, but it does not prevent the cycle from happening again. (Sometimes it’s not given, because in a Catch-22 of mentally ill BS, we end up annoying someone by asking them if we’re annoying them too often)
Because this issue is so difficult to pinpoint, there aren’t many resources on how to cope with it. I don’t have any coping strategies myself (although I’ve been putzing around with a few- reassurance flashcards of some sort?), but I’m hoping to start a larger conversation on this. Meanwhile, I hope this can help people identify what they are struggling with.
(Source: me)
Why didn't you do this? Or that? Or another thing?
Well truly the reason is deep seated in lots of trauma and physical pain a lot of the time, but it also just does not cross my mind to alleviate even that pain before tackling even menial tasks, nor do the people asking these sorts of questions ever intend to hear those sorts of answers, so "I don't know" will do quite nicely.
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Okay but using Karen for the betterment of others is a genius move I never could have seen coming
Be the good Karen you want to see in the world
reblogging for the pun
They're not intentionally ignoring you, they're busy. They're not mad at you, they're having a bad day. They're not getting tired of you, they're going through a tough time. You're not the main character in their story. Don't forget that.
If you think, “it could have been worse,” please remember that you didn’t deserve to be hurt at all. You didn’t deserve to be abused, even if it “could have been worse.”
yes
come thru bitch
If I had legs like his I'd show them off all the time too
If I had this much ass I'd wear skin tight pencil skirts all the time
KING HAS LEGS
Isn’t it weird how you can actually feel the pain in your chest and stomach when something really hurts your feelings
This is actually because it activates your vagus nerve! Basically your body goes “we are so upset! We must be injured! Where???? On the inside guts! Those are confusing and hard to differentiate!!! Confusing guts are hurt!”
Great! How do I uninstall it?
“great! how do i uninstall it?” carries the same vibe as “thanks! i hate it” but more ACTIONABLE bc we gettin our shit together in 2k18
I feel seen and I'm not sure I like it
That's the lasting cultural legacy of Sherlock, it's everyone going fuck you Sherlock I'm not drunk the charging cable hole on my cellphone is just VERY SMALL
but if i don’t hyperfixate i’ll get depressed and die
*runs out of hyperfixations* oh god oh fuck *lies in bed feeling empty and useless for 48 hours*
*desperately digs through old hyperfixations* there must be SOMETHING
I wish allistic people understood that infodumping about a special interest is a lot closer to baring your soul than sharing fun facts
Like the information itself isnt the point, its the conduit through which im trying to communicate with you. Its a love language.
What neurotypicals think it is: “I’m gonna ramble about this one specific thing that you’re not even interested in.”
What it actually is: “this is a thing that makes me happy, and I want to share my happiness with you because I feel comfy around you and I love you”
Me: I’m hungry and should eat
*literally 4+ hours later*
Me: oh that’s right I was hungry. I’m gotta eat now or I might pass out.
Literally me