embrace the chaos

♎️ 20s, she/her, bi – chaotic nerd 🍿 aka @walkinq-paradox (old blog) welcome to my home 🤍

[fic-dumpster]

[mytendermind]

you are everywhere lately. it is all consuming at this point, honestly. i see you in every laugh, every breath, every room of my house. i see you in my music, my art, my writings. everything has suddenly come apart and restitched itself to make room for your encompassing presence. i feel you, in every inhale, every beat, working your way into my thoughts like you’ve never belonged anywhere else. and it is painful, because all i want, all i crave, all i need is to share your breath, to be near you and hear you and see you and watch you laugh just once more. i need to love you with every single ounce i have, with no one in my ear telling me it is wrong. god, if it’s wrong, let me never be right. i shake with the love and admiration i hold for you, i wish for nothing more than to hold you in my palms with nothing less than the reverence you deserve, my throat constricts with the pure need, the pure desire to have you, all of you, the most unrefined you, and all i ask is please, let me. please. 

[buddiesource]

Buck & Eddie 9-1-1, S09E01

[jesterlesbian]

The Many Eddies of 9-1-1 9x01 "Eat The Rich"

[pineapplehazard]

RUIN THE FRIENDSHIP - Taylor Swift

[gayeddies]

They act like they've been working together for years. They have been working together for years. You've all been working together for years.

[kindofmakingmewet]

Just had a though: assuming there is some kind of Eras documentary coming at some point what it’s called The End of an Era??

[kindofmakingmewet]

SOMETIMES THE CLOWN WINS

[slayerbuffy]

Gilmore Girls 4.06 | “An Affair to Remember”

[aphantasias]

"i heard some dick was being mean to ya" was, for me, definitive proof of eddie's feelings. it was so ridiculously affectionate, so familiar, so husband-like in its sheepish accountability and silent plea for forgiveness. yeah sorry about that douchebag from yesterday. i know he hurt you. i do that sometimes. may i offer you our son & our pepa in these trying times? <3 while i work through my instinct to cut people to the bone whenever i feel like an exposed nerve? <3 please forgive me i can't sleep

[bexism]

buck&eddie | fallin in love again and again

[waitingforthesunrise]

emotional processing is so funny because sometimes you’ll be violently sobbing on your bedroom floor over something that happened 4 years ago and then you’ll just. get up and make coffee. and go to the grocery store. and take all this fundamental sadness for a walk. and ponder the cosmic experiences of humanity while eating a sandwich. and that’s healing.

[yoursminehourss]

honestly i think im good without that thanks

[thoughtcascades]

I come from a long line of people with something wrong with them

[pancakeke]

I am totally willing to accept unexplained light sources in movies if that means those movies won't be dark as fuck for the 90+ minutes they run

[crazy-pages]

The light! Comes! From! The same! Place! As! The music!

[loveridden1999]

they really take money from your bank account when you buy something this is so fucked up :/

[nbmudkip]

“how could you have forgotten that” i forget Everything. unless i remember

[shitposting-hobbits-to-gallifrey]

"how can you remember that" I remember Everything. unless I forget

[magnusedom]

eddie diaz in every 911 episode because i miss him too much:

2.01 | under pressure