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This is your reminder that being on your period is an EXTREMELY valid reason not to workout. I don't care what your high school gym teacher told you. An organ is tearing itself apart inside of you. You do not NEED to workout on your period. Obviously, do it if you want to. But you should never feel bad or think you're lazy if you don't. You're not lazy. Women have literally compared bad period cramps to the pain of being in labour.

[cupcakescentedroses]

I met a guy who's exactly what I dreamed of as a kid less than a year after a heartbreak that left me suicidal and severely depressed for months. I never would have met him if that hadn't happened. I promise you 99.9% of the time a positive will follow a negative no matter how impossible it seems at the time.

[cupcakescentedroses]

Creating my dream life: Day 1

I'm not going to make this a daily recap thing for now because to be honest most of my days look the same. However, I did want to post this because it's the first day in my life in a long time that has looked somewhat like a normal person's day.

By which I mean I ate more than one meal, left the house and did more than just sit in bed doomscrolling all day and didn't wake up in an hour that's followed by "PM".

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I woke up at 8:30 this morning somehow and had raisin toast for breakfast. I usually wake up at 2-4pm and don't eat much if anything until dinner so that's an improvement. I did end up taking a nap later on but that's not too crazy considering the time I had woken up at compared to usual. I remembered to do my skincare this morning for the first time in a while. After breakfast I did my pilates workout which I've been doing 3 days in a row now. I realize that doesn't sound like much but trust me in my case it is. After that I had a Kinder Bueno bar because that's one of my favourite chocolates and then went on a walk with my dad because y'know.. Trying to get out of the house a little more. Was freezing out though. Horrible choice. Got home and couldn't tell if I was hot or cold and my head hurt for ages. After that I spent a few hours with my sister and then ate dinner and then took a shower and changed pyjamas. I have admittedly still been living in pyjamas all day every day but I have gotten better at making sure I'm changing them more often. Since my shower I haven't really done anything particularly productive but I had another snack and watched a movie. Have successfully avoided scrolling for the most part. Still spent more time than I'd like on social media apps but obviously I can't immediately fix everything 100% on day one. Gotta find some hobbies first.

[cupcakescentedroses]

I don't have the slightest clue how but I just woke up at 8:30 after months of waking up between 2-4pm. I went to bed around 3:30 last night which is earlier than usual and was planning on slowly trying to get back to a normal sleep schedule but apparently my body decided today is the day I wake up at 8am. When I first woke up I thought I'd be miserable waking up this early but honestly I'm not. It's bright outside, birds are chirping, I remembered to do my skincare, I had breakfast and now I'm here writing this post about to do pilates after this. Weird shift from previously just sleeping all day and scrolling on my phone the time I was awake but I like it.

Also, to anyone who stays up late to avoid people: If you wake up early enough you'll still avoid them.

[cupcakescentedroses]

I have seen way too many women posting about how you have to be masculine for a man to like you lately. If he wants to date someone masculine, he can go date a man. You're a woman. He should like that you act like one. If he doesn't then he's the wrong man. Find another.

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The perfect time doesn't exist, it's now or never ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪

If you're anything like me you've probably spent weeks, months if not years considering but not doing. The perfect time doesn't exist. Do it now or you never will.

I've seen countless videos on YouTube and TikTok titled things like "how to actually start working out from a retired lazy girl" and "how to actually start eating healthy". Just do it. It really is that simple. Find a gym near you and go. Find a fitness channel on YouTube if you don't feel comfortable going to a gym. Buy a cook book. Google recipes. Do it. Stop waiting and do it.

You could watch a thousand videos about it if you wanted to. You still wouldn't have done it. You'd have wasted hours of your life you could have put towards actually doing it though. Stop watching videos, go do it. Get up and do it.

There is no better time than the present because the present is all we really have. Tomorrow is not promised. Make today worth something.

[cupcakescentedroses]

Pilates is so funny to me because it was created to aid injured soldiers in recovery and now over 80% of people who do it are women, it's considered feminine, and most men who try it find it incredibly difficult despite claiming it looks easy.

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I finally chose recovery!! ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪

I turn 19 at the end of this month and I refuse to waste my 20s the same way I wasted my teenage years. So, I've decided I'm using this next year to improve my quality of life as much as I can.

I'm tired of spending every day wishing my life was different. There are things that are out of my control but I am not helping myself by using those things to justify not changing the things I can.

I can gain back my athletic abilities. I can stop doing things I'm addicted to. I can stop doomscrolling and being miserable over the constant negativity online. I can eat full meals. I can take up real hobbies. I'm not saying these things are easy but I can do them. They are possible to do and change.

Additionally, if/when the things I can't control change it will be no help to me to have no athletic capabilities. It will be no help to me for my happiness to rely on addictions that are actually making me miserable. It will be no help to me to spend all day scrolling on my phone. It will be no help to me to not be eating enough to have proper energy. These things will not change the circumstances that I don't have control over. They will however make it easier for me to handle the change when those things do eventually change because they will. Nothing is forever. Those things will change someday and I need to be ready for it.