Dead n' Lovin It

Trish, 32, She/They, White IRL Y'all are getting it all now

[dead-n-lovin-it]

I think I've come to, what is more than likely going to be, the starkest realization of my life. At 32-years old. I have put way, WAY too much time and energy into what I do and don't do online. I have an obsession with being online. I have a compulsion to know anything and everything at any given point so I can just be aware. Now that isn't necessarily a bad thing, far from it. I have a strong sense of right and wrong BECAUSE I have always been so interconnected with the goings on online. But but but, I've been engrossed for so long with the daily happenings online that I neglected my own mental health. For a long time honestly. And it isn't lost on me that I have finally come to this realization at this point in time.

So, for my own sanity I'm not gonna be as present online as I used to be. I won't delete this account. I'll just archive it/maintain it for the foreseeable future. My queue is still good for another week or two, but besides that, yeah I think this is it. At least til I make the occasional random reblog/excitement post. None of you may be asking, but I'm gonna explain my reasoning anyway just so I can have a physical reminder of what I'm doing/what I'm doing this for.

(cw: child neglect, child endangerment, child abuse)

I do not want to go into too much detail unless absolutely necessary so,

TL;DR:

I grew up in poverty in an extremely conservative small town. I had the classic emotionally distant father and emotionally unstable mother combo. I feel like part of the reason I was able to survive as much as I did was because I had a strict adherence to the typical childhood routine. I followed my routine, I kept my head down, if my routine went as planned it meant mom and dad were okay, but if they were in a bad mood and it disrupted the plan it meant I wasn't safe. I lived in this mindset for the entirety of my childhood through my adolescence. Like, that has got to fuck you up mentally right?

Anywho, this all might sound corny as shit, but I genuinely believe it could actually work for me. I have decided to set a daily schedule for myself. Have allotted time for allotted activities, do what needs to be done, but also set time aside for leisure. Like having one night where I set aside an hour or two to watch a movie I've been meaning to or learn more about a skill I've been meaning to pick up. After that time is up, I actually dedicate time to taking care of my body and letting it rest after basically living in fight or flight for so long. Also important to note that I am keenly aware that this realization that I get to experience is a privilege, a privilege not a lot of people get to live to have. I have the privilege to live and better myself and not just for myself but for other people. If I can return a shopping cart to the coral for someone, why not right? If I can spare a couple bucks here and there when I see someone come up to our car and we are stopped, I can do that at least. If I find out a company is shitty to it's employees or they fund genocide, I can probably find another brand of cheese to eat. I need to not care about fartzilla6767 and their shitty fandom takes. I need to focus on myself and my closest friends and family, the ones I have in my life right now.

Be safe y'all, see ya around.

[setulose]

Whatttt is with the tendency of Tumblr users to seek absolution from every single person who offhandedly posts about disagreeing with something they do

[setulose]

I say this not unkindly, but firmly: to function as a member of a social species, you have to get comfortable with the idea that not everyone will like you

[morganaspendragonss]

will you guys cancel me if i say that queer tragedy has a place in the creative arts and shouldn’t immediately be dismissed as bury your gays

[rubynye]

adding @glorious-spoon 's astute tags:

#bury your gays and women in refrigerators and the black guy dies first are all about treating marginalized people like props#to further the story of the (white straight male) protagonist#that's not the same thing as a tragedy! some stories are tragedies! whose story has weight and meaning - that's the question

[corpusmacabre]

(+ silksong)

I need more

[sweet4ngell]

[yourfriendlyneighborhoodsloth]

[littledivathatyouown]

[chatterwell]

[ex-riddlecats]

does anybody else have a discord server thats only yourself and nobody else exclusively used to send images from your mobile phone to your tablet or computer

[peachfromcmbyn]

People on Tumblr love sharing information about themselves no matter how asinine it is. And I'm the same way. Everybody tell me what the last thing you drank was.

[burntundertones]

[thememedaddy]

[arsonistsfirefly]

:)

[toroidalearthtruther]

"less is more" is a lie perpetuated by big small to sell more less

[voidsentprinces]

The Scions whenever BLM/SMN WoL activates their PTSD by using LB3:

[downsteepy]

quick n messy tiduna for ffx's 25th anniversary ❤️

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[scribeherself]

people will say “they’re only friends” and then show me two people who would crawl through broken glass to hear the other laugh once. two people who have memorized each other’s coffee orders, fears, childhood stories, and emergency contacts. two people who would haunt each other’s houses as ghosts. be serious.

[scribeherself]

Just an FYI—the original intention of this post was to challenge the way people say only friends, as though friendship is somehow lesser than other forms of love. As if being deeply known, cherished, and chosen by another person could ever be a small thing. Normalize profound platonic love. Some of the most fulfilling, transformative, and enduring relationships we will ever have are friendships. 🫶🏼

[toadteapot]

just finished dawntrail and i thought wuk lamat was really niceys actually

[ladythatsmyskull]

[nitpickspot]

So, what you're saying is, under no circumstances should we be reposting the above image as much as humanly possible?

[aqueerkettleofish]

Well, we should certainly make sure that everyone knows about this image, or how will they know not to post it? It's not like "That image of Musk looking like a Nazi" would narrow it down.