Diary Card

Jasmine. 20. BPD and cute animals. Oh joy.

[gaypeopletwitter]

[fixedyourmeme]

[blueberryborderline]

My mood for 2018

[haybaeden]

[abusivelimerence]

people actually just remember their childhood?? like it’s a memory for them and not just a giant blur??? then can easily pin point events?? that sounds crazy, y'all wildin

[bpdminds]

that bpd feel when… nothing. there is no feel because i feel nothing and am completely empty inside.

[ministryofinterior-deactivated2]

bitch stop looking at me i do not exist

[chuckdrawsthings]

self-worth

[his-shining-tears]

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[toebeantheories]

Wait. Is water?

[cheese24k]

[friku]

where the fuck has this been all my life?????????

[kind-cult]

brrp brrrp brrrrp

[demisatyr]

this is the type of content i want to see on tumblr

[slut-shameless-deactivated20171]

people should be aware that personality disorders are not like other mental disorders

because they’re maladaptive, they don’t feel at all like impairments until we work out which environments, thought patterns and impulses are responsible. a lot of the time, having a personality disorder just feels a little…off. We know we’re not getting what we want out of life and we know we just don’t seem to relate at all to most people. A lot of us live in regret because of past actions, yet lack the executive function to avoid making the exact same mistakes again, and again, and again. A personality disorder is just like a security blanket. It keeps us safe from a seemingly hostile world by using fear, fury and fantasy. We don’t have the pragmatism to count our breathing when consumed by rage or anxiety. Yoga and a Healthy Diet™ does not permeate enough aspects of life to be totally effective - as soon as we’ve left our bikram class or shuddered down our kale and avocado smoothie (which is light years away from our comfort zone) we immediately regress into our symptoms again when we encounter the next situation. splitting feels cathartic at first to somebody with BPD. approval satisfies the lust of HPD for as long as it lasts. Staying indoors feels calming to a person with AvPD or PPD. Fantasy is the only way a Schizotypal personality can cope with the restrictions and realities of real life. The psychiatric term for these conditions is “ego-syntonic” - we feel numb and disorientated, not better, when we step away from our maladaptive instincts. please be considerate of this and try to assume that we’re doing our best, even when it doesn’t seem that way.

[itsborderlinebitch]

this is beautiful

[quaetantainsaniaest]

Plus because it’s so tied into our personality being a personality disorder and all- getting “better” means becoming less of yourself which can be a hard thing to deal with

[user64290]

Yea i know im not my illness but can u picture what this is like for a min? I thought everything i did was normal until i actually talked to a doctor at age 23. Let that sink in.

[borderlimes]

does anyone else w bpd find it really hard to handle disappointment? like i’m scared to get excited for things because i know i’ll be crushed if it doesn’t work out.

[bonglordsword]

[actualbpd]

me: abt to fall asleep brain: watch out me: for what brain: watch out

[stupidsoftie-deactivated2018091]

me ,  mugging you in an alley : give me your fucking attention

[ammit420]

whole world trash ima be at the crib

[adrianna-rcissist]

“everyone’s been through trauma!” no, no they haven’t. hardship ≠ trauma.

[adrianna-rcissist]

trauma is described by the dsm as “outside the normal range of human experiences”

OUTSIDE. THE NORMAL RANGE. OF HUMAN EXPERIENCES

[fyrinn]

Hardship is difficult. Trauma is an open wound that never heals. You can get past hardship. Trauma is something you’ll never forget.

[itwasntsobad]

Even if your mind knows, Your heart never expects it