the pain of seeing nona be raised by cam, pal, and pyrrha in a gentle, loving way and then having it contrasted by kiriona- who glibly says that her dad made her skin impenetrable and left speed holes in her body. the whiplash of spending a good portion of the book wondering if nona could maybe be gideon and/or harrow if given a proper warm upbringing, to then be faced with kiriona at her lowest, most bitter and (in her eyes) unloved self!!!!


















