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[eldoradothelost]

I hate my true self. If I'm not my true self I'm not living and if I am my true self (my emotions) I hurt people (physically)

Feels like I've repressed something in me. Maybe since I was three. I got to learn from my parents that when I was little I was very violent. I thought I had grown out of that.

Yesterday I finally understood that being nice isn't like a test. Technically everyone could get an A and get a perfect score. It doesn't really matter, but if you fail, you are worse, so that matters to me. I really don't want to have no chance at clearing that so I improved. What's the point of being nice if not becomingthe woker?

- To feel their happiness.

I don't understand.

Being mean isn't nice because it feels wrong it's because of consequences. Like people yelling and punishing me. If they only give me bad looks when I'm my self, it doesn't really matter. But you can't take away masking that easily. So probably not going to happen.

Being kind is the only reasonable thing being mean is rotted in stupidity. I don't want to hate myself more. Gender dysphoria is enough.

I tried to be my true self today, and ofc dad hit me back. It's only logical. Is it night of me too say that I wonder how he feels or is that wrong because it's a lie?

Alot of people that I hate I also don't understand, and because they won't tell me why their sad or angry or doing something stupid all the time, and the teachers aren't allowed too. And I can't feel empathy and I can't get sympathy if I don't get an explanation, so that's why I'll always hate them till they change.

Whichever psychologist thought it was smart to explain pain to autistic kids that can't apologise?

Now that I think of it all the times I hurt others physically and mentally I wasn't being rational with my decisions but rather going on feelings.

I can't understand that there's people out there that are do nice things BECAUSE of their feelings. How do you do it? How do you stop yourself? WITH YOUR FEELING?

God it stings.

I only left them because I was hurting her. He's doing better now. I'm definitely doing worse because now I'm not "taking care" of someone that's on the bottom of the ocean made out of jelly. Why didn't she do as I said, I even gave her instructions and little important details. Why does he think everyone wants to kill them? Why do they think that that the bad thing will happen to them, specifically? If they just found it to much, why didn't they say that? Why is the nut shell unbreakable, I know there's more to this story that is needed for me to feel sympathy for him.

I want to kill myself

Just a rant though, :3 /s

[wertfi-penguin]

Maybe the most damming thing about Nolans odyssey is i haven’t seen a single gifset from it

[geekyhistoriansunite]

[eldoradothelost]

once again proving that trans men are men through and through by demanding and being entitled to women's, and lesbians in particular, bodies. Classic!

I would be dishonoured if she loved me because she's a lesbian, because that would mean she sees me as a woman.

The message is "let's all be friends" because she 's disgusted by by masc people. (Specifically referring to feminominom)

Idk what to call that profession but like my hab therapist asked me to ask more questions, so it's always been a problem of mine. I'm working on it. (Audhd)

[eldoradothelost]

Idk but I have a feeling that Chappell Roan gets the ick when she sees butches at the lesbian hangout.

I suggest forcefem this INCLUDES you! Just like your always on tumblr's banning list! (I want to shit in their mouth)

Love Chappell Roan's songs but she used my gender expression to describe an asshole. Ouch!

Here's another version of my edit that gives more context (mainly for reposting):

And one for the ones that can't see enough to understand what pride flags those are:

How do you guys make quality memes?

If you want me to make one with isuggestforcefem OR what I would enjoy more, a real gay guy that is masc himself and only likes other masc guys! I don't really know any!

[eldoradothelost]

Its alive!

[thepinkpestilence]

the amount of hate anons and messages trans women and transfems could get simply for not wanting to take a part in pushing down trans men and transmascs is so disgusting. bc those people (tma/tme users and transandrophobia deniers) would claim to put trans women and transfems above everyone else but turn around and harass them the second they dont agree with their posts. its pathetic. shout out to every trans woman and transfem who is supportive of all trans siblings!!!

[eldoradothelost]

Just going to post this because the other really long post didn't make it through.

[eldoradothelost]

Idk but I have a feeling that Chappell Roan gets the ick when she sees butches at the lesbian hangout.

I suggest forcefem this INCLUDES you! Just like your always on tumblr's banning list! (I want to shit in their mouth)

Love Chappell Roan's songs but she used my gender expression to describe an asshole. Ouch!

Here's another version of my edit that gives more context (mainly for reposting):

And one for the ones that can't see enough to understand what pride flags those are:

How do you guys make quality memes?

If you want me to make one with isuggestforcefem OR what I would enjoy more, a real gay guy that is masc himself and only likes other masc guys! I don't really know any!

[glasspalacesstoneshop]

It was absolutely in my bingo card that the people who yell at trans men that they have so much privilege would throw a shit fit when you pointed out their white privilege

[glasspalacesstoneshop]

For the record if you spend all your time telling other people they’re evil for having privilege and then get mad when people call you out for having privilege, the thing you are seeking out is not intersectional analysis but rather personal absolution.

[aleshakills]

Is there a word for occupying the space where normies think you're a freak and freaks think you're a normie?

[aleshakills]

I tell a woman with a 9 to 5 office job about the slightly niche speculative fiction novel I just finished and she goes "Oh, that's...interesting. I hadn't heard of that."

I tell a grungy chick I met at a dive bar about the same book and she kinda scoffs and goes "Okay" like I said my favorite show is Sesame Street

[what-even-is-thiss]

The reason your snacks are unsatisfying is that you need both carb and protein.

Carb starts your engine, protein keeps it going.

No carb, engine don’t start. No protein, engine dies out fast.

[what-even-is-thiss]

Easy carb add on:

Cookie

Fruit (canned or fresh)

Chips

Piece of bread

Popcorn

Crackers

Easy protein add on:

Nuts

Spoonful of nut butter

Cheese

Roasted chickpea snacks

Glass of milk (dairy or non dairy)

Small canned sausages or similar

[what-even-is-thiss]

Sugar in there.

[what-even-is-thiss]

I am pleased by people messaging me telling me that after adding a carb or protein to their snacks or meals they feel more satisfied all day. Yes, my plan is working. People are getting through their days with less hangry.

[terracotta7]

As if Joanne couldn't get any shittier, she misgendered and insulted a woman who called for support, all because the woman had PCOS/PMOS and "didn't sound feminine enough."

Fuck her.

Your shitty children's series isn't more important than people's lives.

[silvermoon424]

Bro absolutely COOKED with this.

[ohnoitstbskyen]

If you ever hear the phrase "fascism is aesthetics as politics," that's what this post is talking about.

It's not about being tough on crime, because the absolute toughest most brutal measure you could take against "crime" as a social problem is to alleviate poverty, and increase access to education, healthcare and social mobility.

It's about performing "tough on crime" as an aesthetic by enacting violence against a prop, i.e. minorities and the impoverished, who are fetishized and objectified to represent "crime." They are brutalized as punishment for crime, but never with the purpose of alleviating the problem of crime.

This is why a lot of conservatives and other right wingers can get straight up angry when you suggest things like reform or social measures to reduce crime. They don't want crime to be reduced, they want an eternal war against "crime" because it provides an arena for the righteous to demonstrate virtue by brutalizing their enemies.

[dykieran]

it's crazy how once you notice how literally everything centres men all the time you will never be able to enjoy anything properly ever again

[dykieran]

this show is about men this movie is about men this game is meant to be played as a man these characters are men so they're intrinsically more likeable than their bitchy women counterparts this show is about women but they're all for men to look at this movie is about a woman but there's a guy there as well to make it more palatable for General Audience (men) this fandom is all about this one man what do you mean you don't like men. what about this man you must like him!!! he's like a woman to me! and by that i mean i headcanon him as a trans man because im #queeringit and him being a trans man basically means Woman Lite right? so i basically do care about women! and going on e makes you like men and going on t makes you like men and being a lesbian means you still have to have a himbo man friend and you HAVE to read this book! it's about a man

[liberalsarecool]

Parasites don’t care when they kill the host.

[eldoradothelost]

What your thinking of is a parasitoid. Parasites don't want their host dead. That's their food.

[eshasunrise]

Billionaires are less sensible and more corrupt than parasites. Tapeworms care more for your wellbeing than a billionaire does.

[homunculus-argument]

Literally no reason for a guy to be over 5'7". That's just wasteful use of biomass. You had enough material to make four dudes and instead you made three. That thing is blocking an entire isle in the grocery store.

[homunculus-argument]

I know it's pronounced ayol but you're not making me make a third guess about how you're supposed to spell that shit.

[materassassino]

An isle is an island.

An aisle is a walkway between seats or shelves in a church, shop or on a mode of transport.

They're pronounced the same but spelt differently, meaning they're homophones.

[homunculus-argument]

[weepylucifer]

You know how we call things "pseudoscience"... the media analysis that's being done on twitter and tumblr should be pseudohumanities

[blujayonthewing]

[illegal-dyke]

Listen idk if this is some type of kink shit but this is absurdly insensitive, considering the state of the fucking world

Type of shit they say to us down at the asylum ('Correctional Women's Facility') while pumping electric shocks.

'the shocks aren't going to stop till you're in a dress with your nails painted'. For fucks sake this is a real method of conversion therapy, not your fucking haha moment.

[transfemme-shelterdog]

Wake up babe the transandrophobe "transfeminist" crowd is starting to eat their own by not allowing women to be butch.

Just like I said would happen