Shiloh & friends

DID system | Reconstructing bodily trans Catholic | mysticism | God makes no mistakes

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A mentally ill mixed-faith system! Bodily 20 and ftm, currently in school for public policy. Read on for Shiloh, Ryan, our theology, and our system. God made us perfect. You are in our prayers. We interact from k***o-c***r. For art see @ryans-artblog!

Shiloh

he/him - 21 - straight male in a transsexual male body. Side Y; chastity for God. Mixed side A, B and Y views in our system; we are not the same. Welcomimg of all perspectives, this blog is queer-accepting.

Ryan

20! Side A butch trans male, gay and partially detransitioned, SA survivor. Follower of Christ and lover of world religions. I also do art, and love dragons and fantasy. Shiloh and I will both mainly post here about the system and our faith, but other members' posts will be tagged with their names too.

Theology

We are (mostly) a group of culturally Catholic, born-again progressive Christians as of 2023 exploring our Catholic faith post-reconstruction. Folk Christian/mysticism, formerly pagan, repenting & spreading the word of God. We have a high appreciation for Orthodox theology, as well as the Episcopal Church, which is the denomination of our home parish. Home spiritual leader: Fr Mike Schmitz! Saints: Gabriel, Joanne D'Arc, Julie, Francis, Hildegard, Guadalupe, Paul, Solomon.

System

We are the Emerald System: so named in 2021 after a dream. sometimes called "The Pumpkin Patch", the "inner world", "the house", "the family." Traumagenic, dissociative plurality since ~'09, discovered in ~'19. Source: C-PTSD or dissociative identity disorder. Validated 3x by licensed professionals. Bodily 20... mentally cool.

We have two regression accounts. If you came from there, welcome! You are welcome here! This account is safe for work but not children. I'm not really about getting followers, this is a personal record. Endogenic systems and tulpamancy practitioners.. well.. I'm not one of you guys, and I don't believe in that. But I can't control you.

Members

First and middle names, all surnames Emerson (system surname, don't try anything) except for Thomas, whose name is Kelly. Some art by Ryan, some Pinterest images.

Ryan/Chester/Rhys - '05

Meadow - '09 (mama)

Dune - '09

Chevy - '15

Yuuna - '19-'24

Benny - '19-'23 resting with angels

Leo - '20

Grandpa - ~'23

Angie - '21

Artie - '22-'25 sleeping

Olivia - '23

Francis - '23/4-'25 sleeping

Peter - '24-'25 sleeping

Thomas - '24?

Liddy - '24

Shiloh - '25

As of 6/4/25

[seraphim-eternal]

By the grace of God I am who I am, and His grace towards me was not in vain.

1 Corinthians 15:10

[kstripling]

[boomer-mythology-destroyer]

[emerald-prayers]

Guys.. this isnt wrong

[sacredheart-stigmata]

today, on the feast of the transfiguration, i am reminded of our transgender siblings in Christ. i am reminded of Jesus exposing his divinity, showing himself as he truly is, just as trans christians expose the glory and beauty of their gender through transition. i am reminded how transformation-- transfiguration-- is a holy act, practiced both by trans christians and Christ alike. i am reminded that they are God's children, beloved just like Jesus, His son, and I am awed

[ryans-artblog]

mc but make it realistic and historically accurate (ish) >>>

Haven't posted here in a sec, continuing my realistic interpretations of chars :) check my blog for mlp as actual horse breeds ^^

[emerald-prayers]

Art is out on my blog :) new phone and new job have been a little prohibitive but I'm glad to have actually finished something

[vimeddiart]

Last month's patreon art! Jesus fanarts 🍷

[guiltywisdom]

Western Christians tend to think of "going to heaven" or "going to hell" as the framework for the Gospel, but the Bible story is not about us going somewhere, but the Creator God coming to live with us.

Nicholas Thomas Wright

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We need to bring back the athletics body type post

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This one

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Tumblr has 10+ image limit had to add these on too

[coldcrashpictures]

This photoshoot unlocked something in me the first time I saw it. The idea that EVERY body here is what "peak physical condition" looks like.

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[ryans-artblog]

Wounds: jumpscare.

Another personal piece today, huge yikes! /nbh, this isn't a vague, just a memory piece inspired by Radiohead's Black Star. Luckily I'm much happier now. I might start posting personal art with this style, even some system stuff. It'll be much more positive!

07/06/2025

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Crossposting to here since I think I want to start putting some of my personal art on here as it is my personal blog. No pressure to read just my graphic diary. I hope someone else can relate, being in college and still having experiences like this is rather wild and diabolical, certainly not something I was expecting of being around adults.

This whole situation is actually the reason Shiloh came about and split off from Thomas and I, it was to deal with this. Spirituality is his weapon of peace against knotted tangled situations. I feel like in queer communities it is super common to double cross each other but then have the outward appearance of being righteous because you used inclusive and/or therapy language the entire time. Life gets messy.

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[liivn]

medieval heart-shaped prayer book in a medieval painting and in real life

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[mudkipzzz]

[honeyluvsw]

red pngs ! free to use! credit not needed but appreciated :)

[ryans-artblog]

Happy pride y'all! I don't do personal art a lot but I wanted to make a pride art since I deserve to be seen and legitimized :) Yap below>>

I have been coming to terms with my gender identity recently, and it's been difficult to embrace that I actually am intersex and that it has contributed to my conception of my gender. Through experiencing dysphoria at 13, going hyperfem, identifying as a lesbian and then butchgender, coming out and being forced back into the closet at 16, suspecting my DSD at 19, losing my ftm affinity group, and partially detransitioning at 20 even to myself, I am still here. I am finally freeing myself from the confines of needing to fit anyone's idea of what I should be as a transsexual person. I picked the 1999 alternative trans flag because it was designed by an ftm guy like me! It's also transsexual inclusive, and I am loud and proud about that label. Whatever gender I am perceived as or percieve myself as I will always be transsexual and that's beautiful. I'll always be true to myself.

I love you! Your identity is real! Even if it can only be online, even if like me you want to be out and can't. Keep pushing. Keep going. Happy pride.

06/23/2025

[emerald-prayers]

Suppose this belongs here too. Happy pride month and God Bless, Jesus loves you jyst the way you are