This post is not about The Quarry as a game, it just heavily involves The Quarry fandom, and mostly things about my personal life, so if you're not interested, please just keep scrolling.
This is just something I had to get off of my chest as it has been weighing on me and bothering me for months now. I felt the need to explain myself in full detail, and trust me, I have contemplated not posting this at all because it should be unnecessary, but I feel as if I was backed into a corner and forced to "play my hand" unfortunately. I'm only tagging The Quarry because this is the community where the harassment has been taking place.
A few months ago, I was attacked by a lot of other members of the community, they called me several names and slurs, but here I'm specifically addressing that they called me homophobic and transphobic. This is honestly laughable to me as far before any of this happened, I openly supported LGBTQ+ people frequently on my blog, in part because I am literally one of them.
It hurt me deeply to be called such things because I personally know the struggles of homophobia and transphobia. To this day, I struggle with my sexuality. In the past, I've considered myself straight, gay, bisexual, and asexual. It has been a journey I'm going through since I was 13 years old. I'm not really a fan of labels in general, but currently I consider myself as Questioning.
There was a 2 year period in my life where I identified as trans masculine, and then a two year period where I identified as nonbinary as well. I'm more comfortable in my own skin now, but this was a major struggle for me in my teen years. My family even sat me down for conversion therapy for both my sexuality and my gender identity. It was a traumatic and harrowing experience for me, as I'm sure a lot of us can relate to.
Point being, in no way am I homophobic or transphobic. Like I said, that is simply laughable. And it's also infuriating. The fact that strangers can make these assumptions about me and call me these names based on one singular post I made on this website is beyond my comprehension.
I usually don't care about fanbase drama or disagreements or whatever, but when it attacks my personal character and the very real and difficult experiences I went through, that's when I draw the line. And to this day, there are still people in this community who are attacking me for this. I just block these people and don't engage at this point, but it's gone too far and I feel the need to defend myself. This is literally my coming out story, and I find it disappointing and depressing that it had to be in this manner. But whatever. I felt the need to tell my truth and share my experiences. I somehow doubt the bullying will stop even now, but hopefully some people in the community will understand where I'm coming from and understand me more as a person.
I know this is a pretty crappy post. I didn't really know how to express myself. I've never talked about this publicly before; I've never talked about it with more than four people before. And I've been consider posting this for months and I kept changing my mind because I figured I shouldn't have to be forced out of the closet just to try to stop internet strangers from attacking me on a daily basis, but here we are. I might delete this post later anyway. I don't know yet. But yeah.
P.S. I do have siblings. Although not nearly as serious as the other accusations I addressed here, that's also one I've gotten a lot that people are trying to use to attack me for some reason. I mentioned my sister before in my post about the Washingtons being Asian, so like with the other accusations, you can literally prove I'm not lying if you actually took two seconds to look through my public posts and likes. But I have a brother, too, and five half-siblings between my parents' former relationships. So yeah, I have siblings and know what it's like. Weird accusation to begin with, especially to attack someone over, but whatever.
