hi !! i am faye, this is my new tumblr account so i can start over and post what i want. i am 24, non binary. i use any & all pronouns. i am pan & ace. i like kpop, bl, anime, and so much more. i will link my carrd !!
âabortion ends livesâ so does pregnancy, school shootings, lack of gun restrictions, wars, genocides, and ice. but of course you donât care about those because you just want control over womenâs bodies!
tags: mentions of death, angst, fluff(?), mentions of unaliving, content ending.
(authors note: this is a rewrite of a one shot i made years ago on my old account, @deadpoetfaith !! in no way am i good at writing, however as i slowly make my way back into the DPS fandomâŠi wanted to give rewriting it a shot. I hope you guys enjoy it !!)
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Todd was in his dorm room, he was sitting at his desk and playing with the desk set that he had received three years in a row. It had been a few months since Neilâs passing and everything that had happened. Todd was breaking more out of his shell, although his mind was always plagued with thoughts of the dead boy who had become his best friend, and crush. He had come to terms that he was gone, and sadly not ever coming back. Todd continued to sit at his desk, letting himself get lost in thought. That was until he heard soft knocking at his door.
âHey, Itâs KnoxâŠI have this letter i was meant to give you.â The boy spoke, his voice muffled through the door. Todd got up and opened the door, smiling weakly yet softly. Knox gave the other a soft smile, he then awkwardly handed him the envelope before saying a quick goodbye. Todd closed the door, hearing the soft click before returning to his wooden desk. He leaned back, letting his fingers trail over the paper. As his hands carefully opened it, his heart was thumping. Once it was opened up, he pulled out the piece of paper and at the very top it read, âAll The Words I Didnât Sayâ.
âDear Todd, if you are reading this, i have taken my own life. I never wanted things to end like this, but knowing my father will never let me live the life my heart desperately desiresâŠI canât bear to go onâŠ
Meeting you was one of the best things to ever happen to me. I have to believe we came into each otherâs lives for a purpose. I came into yours to show you that you have a voice, and i hope you continue to use it. Please never hide it awayâŠespecially when itâs so beautiful.
I hope you find your yawp, even if i am gone and cannot hear it. I know my soul will feel it even as it rests. You found a way in a short time to ignite something inside me, and i am not talking poetry or acting. The moment i laid my eyes on you, i felt something i tried to hide about myself. Something that even i couldnât put into words.
I never believed in love at first sight, i never believed i could live my own life until you and the otherâs gave me the encouragement i needed. Todd, you made me believe in somethingâŠrealâŠsomething so beautiful that it could be art itself. I love you, and i am sorry i never told you. I had a plan to, if things had went differently. If my father had seen my dreams as importance.
I know this letter is short, but i need to say this.
These are all the words i didnât say.
Keep being yourself, donât go back in that box. Donât accept another silly desk set, speak your mind and what you want. Yawp!
Write poetry, seize the say, just please donât change who you are.
I love you, Todd. I always will.
Love,
Neil Perryâ
â
Todd finally finished reading the letter, he had been tearing up as he did. A soft smile played at his lips, it was weak but evident. âAt least i knew he felt the same.â He thought out loud to himself. The hurt was still in his heart, that very sickness he felt when Charlie had told him about Neil. Yet, something else was there too. He felt seen and loved, he knew Neil was right. The boy had been so glad to have met his roommate, his friend, the very boy he loved himself. He had changed his routinely, boring, and bland life for the better.
He had friends, something he never had in the past. All because Neil took a chance on an awkward boy who was used to living in his brotherâs shadow and parentâs expectations.
â
It was still pretty early in the day, the sun shining brightly down on Welton. Birds chirping loudly as they flew over the school. Todd walked outside, taking a deep breath as the cool breeze hit his body. He made his way over to a bench, sitting down and closing his eyes. âItâs beautiful out todayâ The boy whispered, taking a deep breath before letting it all out. A smile still seen on his face.
It was all going to be alright.
(note: i hope you enjoyed, please like or repost !! i highly doubt anyone will see this but oh well)
tags: mentions of death, angst, fluff(?), mentions of unaliving, content ending.
(authors note: this is a rewrite of a one shot i made years ago on my old account, @deadpoetfaith !! in no way am i good at writing, however as i slowly make my way back into the DPS fandomâŠi wanted to give rewriting it a shot. I hope you guys enjoy it !!)
â
Todd was in his dorm room, he was sitting at his desk and playing with the desk set that he had received three years in a row. It had been a few months since Neilâs passing and everything that had happened. Todd was breaking more out of his shell, although his mind was always plagued with thoughts of the dead boy who had become his best friend, and crush. He had come to terms that he was gone, and sadly not ever coming back. Todd continued to sit at his desk, letting himself get lost in thought. That was until he heard soft knocking at his door.
âHey, Itâs KnoxâŠI have this letter i was meant to give you.â The boy spoke, his voice muffled through the door. Todd got up and opened the door, smiling weakly yet softly. Knox gave the other a soft smile, he then awkwardly handed him the envelope before saying a quick goodbye. Todd closed the door, hearing the soft click before returning to his wooden desk. He leaned back, letting his fingers trail over the paper. As his hands carefully opened it, his heart was thumping. Once it was opened up, he pulled out the piece of paper and at the very top it read, âAll The Words I Didnât Sayâ.
âDear Todd, if you are reading this, i have taken my own life. I never wanted things to end like this, but knowing my father will never let me live the life my heart desperately desiresâŠI canât bear to go onâŠ
Meeting you was one of the best things to ever happen to me. I have to believe we came into each otherâs lives for a purpose. I came into yours to show you that you have a voice, and i hope you continue to use it. Please never hide it awayâŠespecially when itâs so beautiful.
I hope you find your yawp, even if i am gone and cannot hear it. I know my soul will feel it even as it rests. You found a way in a short time to ignite something inside me, and i am not talking poetry or acting. The moment i laid my eyes on you, i felt something i tried to hide about myself. Something that even i couldnât put into words.
I never believed in love at first sight, i never believed i could live my own life until you and the otherâs gave me the encouragement i needed. Todd, you made me believe in somethingâŠrealâŠsomething so beautiful that it could be art itself. I love you, and i am sorry i never told you. I had a plan to, if things had went differently. If my father had seen my dreams as importance.
I know this letter is short, but i need to say this.
These are all the words i didnât say.
Keep being yourself, donât go back in that box. Donât accept another silly desk set, speak your mind and what you want. Yawp!
Write poetry, seize the say, just please donât change who you are.
I love you, Todd. I always will.
Love,
Neil Perryâ
â
Todd finally finished reading the letter, he had been tearing up as he did. A soft smile played at his lips, it was weak but evident. âAt least i knew he felt the same.â He thought out loud to himself. The hurt was still in his heart, that very sickness he felt when Charlie had told him about Neil. Yet, something else was there too. He felt seen and loved, he knew Neil was right. The boy had been so glad to have met his roommate, his friend, the very boy he loved himself. He had changed his routinely, boring, and bland life for the better.
He had friends, something he never had in the past. All because Neil took a chance on an awkward boy who was used to living in his brotherâs shadow and parentâs expectations.
â
It was still pretty early in the day, the sun shining brightly down on Welton. Birds chirping loudly as they flew over the school. Todd walked outside, taking a deep breath as the cool breeze hit his body. He made his way over to a bench, sitting down and closing his eyes. âItâs beautiful out todayâ The boy whispered, taking a deep breath before letting it all out. A smile still seen on his face.
It was all going to be alright.
(note: i hope you enjoyed, please like or repost !! i highly doubt anyone will see this but oh well)
tags: mentions of death, angst, fluff(?), mentions of unaliving, content ending.
(authors note: this is a rewrite of a one shot i made years ago on my old account, @deadpoetfaith !! in no way am i good at writing, however as i slowly make my way back into the DPS fandomâŠi wanted to give rewriting it a shot. I hope you guys enjoy it !!)
â
Todd was in his dorm room, he was sitting at his desk and playing with the desk set that he had received three years in a row. It had been a few months since Neilâs passing and everything that had happened. Todd was breaking more out of his shell, although his mind was always plagued with thoughts of the dead boy who had become his best friend, and crush. He had come to terms that he was gone, and sadly not ever coming back. Todd continued to sit at his desk, letting himself get lost in thought. That was until he heard soft knocking at his door.
âHey, Itâs KnoxâŠI have this letter i was meant to give you.â The boy spoke, his voice muffled through the door. Todd got up and opened the door, smiling weakly yet softly. Knox gave the other a soft smile, he then awkwardly handed him the envelope before saying a quick goodbye. Todd closed the door, hearing the soft click before returning to his wooden desk. He leaned back, letting his fingers trail over the paper. As his hands carefully opened it, his heart was thumping. Once it was opened up, he pulled out the piece of paper and at the very top it read, âAll The Words I Didnât Sayâ.
âDear Todd, if you are reading this, i have taken my own life. I never wanted things to end like this, but knowing my father will never let me live the life my heart desperately desiresâŠI canât bear to go onâŠ
Meeting you was one of the best things to ever happen to me. I have to believe we came into each otherâs lives for a purpose. I came into yours to show you that you have a voice, and i hope you continue to use it. Please never hide it awayâŠespecially when itâs so beautiful.
I hope you find your yawp, even if i am gone and cannot hear it. I know my soul will feel it even as it rests. You found a way in a short time to ignite something inside me, and i am not talking poetry or acting. The moment i laid my eyes on you, i felt something i tried to hide about myself. Something that even i couldnât put into words.
I never believed in love at first sight, i never believed i could live my own life until you and the otherâs gave me the encouragement i needed. Todd, you made me believe in somethingâŠrealâŠsomething so beautiful that it could be art itself. I love you, and i am sorry i never told you. I had a plan to, if things had went differently. If my father had seen my dreams as importance.
I know this letter is short, but i need to say this.
These are all the words i didnât say.
Keep being yourself, donât go back in that box. Donât accept another silly desk set, speak your mind and what you want. Yawp!
Write poetry, seize the say, just please donât change who you are.
I love you, Todd. I always will.
Love,
Neil Perryâ
â
Todd finally finished reading the letter, he had been tearing up as he did. A soft smile played at his lips, it was weak but evident. âAt least i knew he felt the same.â He thought out loud to himself. The hurt was still in his heart, that very sickness he felt when Charlie had told him about Neil. Yet, something else was there too. He felt seen and loved, he knew Neil was right. The boy had been so glad to have met his roommate, his friend, the very boy he loved himself. He had changed his routinely, boring, and bland life for the better.
He had friends, something he never had in the past. All because Neil took a chance on an awkward boy who was used to living in his brotherâs shadow and parentâs expectations.
â
It was still pretty early in the day, the sun shining brightly down on Welton. Birds chirping loudly as they flew over the school. Todd walked outside, taking a deep breath as the cool breeze hit his body. He made his way over to a bench, sitting down and closing his eyes. âItâs beautiful out todayâ The boy whispered, taking a deep breath before letting it all out. A smile still seen on his face.
It was all going to be alright.
(note: i hope you enjoyed, please like or repost !! i highly doubt anyone will see this but oh well)
No games AU, slow burn (I hate myself enough), wlw, fluff, shy Hyun-ju, college student! Reader, no physical mentions of reader, no special personality traits of reader, no mentions of transition. No direct mentions of transphobia, but slightly hinted at the start.
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Loving Hyun-ju is the easiest thing youâve ever done. Not in a bad way, but in the sense that sheâs perfect, sweet, such a good person.
Loving her comes like second nature. You just wish the world saw her the same way.
You met her in a cafeteria more than a year ago â a job you got because you needed some bucks for a college trip.
She walked in some Tuesday in the afternoon, the light buzz of the coffee machine, warmth from the pastries being kept on the counter, sweet smell of different flours and fruits mixing with coffee created such a pretty atmosphere for her entrance.
She looked around shyly, almost like making sure no one acknowledged how she looked. A long white skirt that fell over her ankles, black blouse buttoned all the way up, a light blue cardigan and white sneakers. Her tote bag hung over her shoulder, threatening to fall with how tightly she was clutching it.
When she approached the counter, her voice was small, like not wanting to be heard â or scared to.
Bangs framed her hair; the way she tilted her head down made the back of her soft locks hide her face. It was even cute to see the tall woman being so shy, eyeing the pastries like they were a work of art, something worth stressing over.
âA medium latte with coconut milk to go, please.â You nodded and typed it on the digital screen in front of you, smiling. âCan I suggest our sweet fruit sandwiches? Buy one, get two, lactose free.â
You saw her eyes roaming over the neatly displayed sandwiches, humming while considering it briefly. âThat sounds tempting, a strawberry and a mango one, please.â
âComing right up! Thank you for your purchase, miss.â You moved quickly; after starting to work there, it didnât take long for you to get used to the process. Taking the cup, adding the sweeteners, shot of espresso, coconut milk, mix, foam, lid. Sandwiches in their containers, all in a paper bag.
The small cafeteria only had you at the time, but serving an order to go was easier when no clumsy coworkers were annoying you. âHere you go, miss. Have a wonderful day, please come back soon.â You said with a smile, bowing to her and waving your hand.
Thatâs how it started, with an order in a small cafeteria that paid too little and a woman too shy for her own good.
It didnât take long for you to start talking to her; she started coming in often and trying new things. From the cheese and ham croissants to the sweet apple pies. Espresso, mocha, cappuccino, macchiato, flat white, sweet tea, matcha, fruit juice.
It was on rare occasions but still happened, which is why her first order became her usual; it was safer.
You even started serving a mix of strawberry and mango cream sandwiches, so she didnât have to fight herself between both fruits once the âbuy one, get twoâ promo finished.
She looked so happy at the thoughtful mix, like someone actually noticed her and wasnât disgusted by that â so small and so meaningful.
âMorning, Hyun-ju! What do you want today? The usual or something else?â You asked, familiar with her name, familiar with the way she would debate herself before ordering.
She seemed to think about it; the way she bit the inside of her cheek and fiddled with her fingers was always a sweet sight, how she seemed to choose each word carefully.
âJust the usual, please. I donât feel like making bold decisions today.â A paper bag and a medium cup to go, just as always. Per usual, she took her wallet out of her purse. It was then that you caught a glimpse of the things inside; not that you were prying, the colors of the book inside caught your eye without you meaning to.
âLittle Women! Iâve seen the movie, it was so good!â You chanted cheerfully; your words made her smile warmly, eyes widening in good surprise.
âReally? I started the book a few days ago, maybe I should watch it when Iâm done with the book.â Hyun-ju said while bringing a strand of hair behind her ear.
You tried to fight the smile tugging at the corners of your lips; she looked so sweet brushing her hair back like that.
âI have it on VHS in my house, you could borrow it, no problem.â One eyebrow raised a little, and she shook her head; a soft laugh came out of her lips at your eager offer.
âWell, as much as I would like that, I donât own a VCRâŠâ Her tone was soft and slightly embarrassed; you were quick to brush that feeling away.
âOh, donât worry! Most people donât own one anymore⊠Some never had one at home.â You muttered the last part between teeth, hinting at the nostalgia of old times, when it was more common to have one, even if it wasnât used anymore.
âYou can come over if you want, I have no issues. Plus, I make some mad fries, youâll love them.â You added, clicking your tongue and earning a chuckle in response.
âThat⊠actually sounds nice. I donât want to be any trouble, you donât have to do this.â You could almost cry at the sight of her making herself as small as she physically could.
She wasnât rejecting your offer, she was forbidding herself from enjoying it.
âItâs no problem! I love a good movie day, and showing off my VHS collection fills my heart with pride and ego! Haha!â Another laugh; it was soft and hid behind the back of her hand, but it was there. She laughed at your â hopefully â joke, nodding and taking her phone from her purse.
âWell, if itâs no trouble, then I can bring some fried chicken.â Her hand held her phone to you, ready to have your number added.
It made your belly flutter for a moment, and you couldnât help how quickly your hands reached for the device, adding your number with a wide smile.
âI guess Iâll see you soon then! Text me your schedule and we can work something out. See you later, Hyun-ju!â You waved your hand and bowed; she was still a customer in the store after all, and people were starting to enter as well as she needed to leave.
She returned your smile and bowed her head, paper bag and coffee in hand as she walked outside the coffee shop, the sweet smell of pastries and coffee slowly dissipating with every step she took.
Oh, dear.
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A/N: I love Hyun-ju so much, she's so beautiful omg. I DON'T KNOW when or why I decided to make this a slow burn, I'm so bad at this. I read and corrected this like 20 times no kidding, tried to get the grammar perfect cuz I suck at writing and english is my second language. PLEASE let me know what you think!! And send me requests, I'm always happy to fill them!
Taglist because the Hyun-ju fandom is real small lately (from the likes on my drabble post, if you want to be removed let me know!): @stormae1 @lesmiix @ffayemariee @milk-way69 @wingedkuriboh27 @num1hater1 @ghatwsreal @ignorant-scrumb @bearbyers @maknaeart @leyley347 @demythesimp @empress-cheshire
Natan here! ; want more of Hyun-ju? ; Check my masterlist!
iwtv is only fun when you can recognize every character sucks. Genuinely people starting this whole 'daniel is evil and horrible and the worst man to ever live' thing are pissing me off like you cannot have a lestat pfp whilst talking about how daniel has wronged claudia
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