Female-assigned intersex kidsâ vaginal canal size is also assessed by doctors, to ensure that itâs long enough to fit a penis inside of it. Doctors might surgically construct or re-construct vaginas, which can result in a host of health problems and necessitate multiple, multiple surgeries. This is especially the case since most intersex kids have these surgeries very young, and when their bodies grow into their adult forms, more surgeries are necessary to keep their vagina size in proportion. Non-surgical methods are also used to increase or maintain vaginal length by regularly using medical dildos to stretch the vagina over months and years. (Itâs kind of like braces for your vagina, but much, much worse.) Just like there are no standards for how long a clitoris âcanâ be before itâs classified as a penis, there arenât absolute standards as to how long a vagina is for it to be of ânormalâ length.
I had a dilation procedure performed for almost every exam I had with intersex doctors from the time I was 8 until I was 16, so that they could check how long my vagina was as I grew. I absolutely hated these procedures. I mean, imagine a man as old as your father or your grandfather, who you donât know, inserting a medical dildo into you each time you saw him, knowing that you canât question the doctorâs orders and just accept that you have to undergo these uncomfortable procedures for your health. Imagine a decade or so later, realizing that these procedures did nothing to track your health, and had everything to do with grown men feeling good about the fact that you could fuck some dude someday like a ânormal girlâ. That all those traumatizing procedures werenât actually medically relevant at all, and it actually was within my right to refuse those examinations.
I didnât know any of that at the time.
I also had no idea that I wouldnât want to ultimately have the kind of sex they assumed Iâd be having, adding yet another layer of this-was-totally-unnecessary/messed-up to my history.
Other kids shouldnât have to go through this. Other adults shouldnât have revelations some day far into the future that what was happening to them WASNâT okay, and their traumatic feelings ARE valid, and the whole system of how intersex people are conceptualized and âtreatedâ IS entirely fucked.
And itâs gotta change. Weâve gotta change it.