(Not) Seeing You Next Level: Antis and Indefinite Hiatus Announcement
Hey there. This is the (soon-to-be former) creator of fyeahseungchuchu and the Seungchuchu Squad discord server. I'm evan, my main is @sleepynir, I've been 18 for two months, I once ate rubber bands by accident, I like mooncakes and I sleep with a Hinata crow plushie. Recent events that have jeopardised the wellbeing of people I care about have forced my hand, and I will be officially deleting Seungchuchu Squad as well as putting this blog and my personal accounts on indefinite hiatus, by July 5. Affiliated blogs, such as @fyeahleoji, will likely be affected as well.
I want to start out with an apology before explaining what exactly happened, along with the actions I have taken in response. This post is also my preemptive action, taken in the case OP decides to continue with their crusade. I’m writing this in the role of a mod, my own personal feelings I will address on my main.
I apologise. I know fyeah blogs are important to fandom as an all-in-one source. From the beginning that was my intention after all. It pains my heart, especially after all the work I've put into this blog producing original content and gaining followers, to put it on the backburner. I'm not going to delete it, as there is a dearth of content in our corner of the fandom, but I won't be generating content or reblogging anymore. At least, not for a while. This incident has greatly shaken me to the point that, melodramatic as it sounds, I'm no longer sure if I can trust anyone in this community anymore.
I created the Seungchuchu Squad server with the intention of making friends with a shared interest. I wanted everyone to have fun. I made myself a mod, and as such, took on the responsibility of protecting everyone's peace of mind within the server. And I mean everyone, regardless of whether I agreed with their opinions or not, because that's what being a mod meant to me, that's what having an open server meant to me. Naive as it was, I wanted to believe we were all friends who could trust each other, considering the amount of time we spent together and the nature of some information about our real lives divulged on the chat.
I willfully went against my better judgement for that selfish and personal reason - wanting to stubbornly believe in, laughably, friendship and trust - and put everyone's safety, privacy, and peace of mind in jeopardy by letting in people who proceeded to compromise that. I cannot apologise enough. As a mod on an open server, everyone's privacy was entrusted to me, and I failed to live up to that. I made bad decisions due to poor judgement and clouded reasoning. I was incompetent. To everyone in the chat, to everyone who at some point hoped to be part of the chat, I am truly, truly sorry.
Amongst our number was an anti. This isn't a problem in itself. We made a separate channel for wttm and otayuri, which they said they were uncomfortable with. We had several #nsfw channels, which eventually became a single private #sinpaisquad channel in which only a few of us posted regularly. I became complacent and assumed the rest of the members, who were rarely online or active, were not seeing our messages. That was my fault as a mod. We all assumed that the channel was only being seen by each other, and said things under that assumption, whether from intensely private details or our lives or opinions we never had any intention to make public. But this is the internet; it does not care about your intentions.
As a result of my lack of foresight, two things happened that compromised the privacy of the rest of the #sinpaisquad members. The first, is that a former member of the channel, whom we assumed had long ceased being active, took some screenshots out of context, initially with the intention on making them public. The second is that an anti blog made posts that unfairly incriminated several members, including one of whom they explicitly stated their url.
With regards to the person’s advocating of putting a minor in the nsfw channel, OP took the whole situation grossly out of context. I’m a mod, not god, and I can’t control what people say. OP didn’t mention that mods actually did take action following that, sending that person a warning as per our rules.
Thereafter, we asked if anyone had any other concerns. When we received no DMs regarding this issue, we assumed the matter was settled.
We have since ascertained the identity of the person who runs the blog as the aforementioned anti. Not being of age, they would not have been able to access the #sinpaisquad channel, and certainly would not have been able to take the screenshots above. As it happens, days before, we accepted a new member on OP’s recommendation. OP was not uneager to point out their friend was of age. That friend also consented, and was let into the #sinpaisquad channel. We believe that that friend then proceeded to violate the privacy of all members by taking screenshots of our private conversations, which they then passed on to OP, who is currently sitting on them as ammunition. Circumstances have lead us to believe that OP has been planning this for some time and exploited our trust in them for these purposes.
I am not going to debate the morals or ethics of what we said in the #sinpaisquad channel here. I'll be addressing that on my personal blog, as a personal opinion. But I am going to address the consequences of what these people have done. The Seungchuchu community is a small one, being a rare pair. The persons involved have utterly destroyed the trust between the members of the chat. They have hurt friends of mine. Whether or not you think we deserved it, again, I'll address on my main.
The internet doesn't care about your intentions. Just look at the shitlist fiasco. So long as you don't 110% trust the people you are corresponding with, whatever information you share has no guarantee of remaining private. I forgot that, and that was my mistake, and people are suffering for it. I'm truly sorry. I urge others not to make the same mistake.
On the other hand, I want to caution any righteous people out there. It's not bad to be righteous, and it's not bad to stand for what you believe in and take action to further your cause. It's just that when you take action, you need to realise the consequences will happen regardless of your intentions, and that said consequences might be bigger than you imagined. And once that happens, there are no take-backs. You can delete a post or a comment but the damage has been done. And that will be your responsibility to bear, indefinitely.
In the case that anyone releases any statement or screenshot pertaining to the Seungchuchu Squad or its members, I would urge you not to take them at face value. And regardless of where you stand, posing as a friend for the sole purpose of collecting incriminating evidence against people and their private information in order to smear their names is, in general, you know, not that great of an idea. I strongly discourage sending anonymous hate as well.
To anyone else who runs a Discord server: please be careful. If at least one good thing can come out of all this - people being more aware and more careful - it will be of some consolation to me. It might be my paranoia, but we’ve already had one new person approach one of our members for an invite after this, no doubt with the intention of further fanning the flames of drama.
I'm grateful for the friends I made while here, the fun I had, and all the cool art and fic and other content I got to enjoy. Perhaps at some point in the future I might even return, but for now I have no such intentions. As I said, my faith and security in this community have been too greatly shaken for me to be able to stay on. Regardless, I hope this community, full of amazing and creative people, still continue to flourish. I wish it all the best.
I'm so sorry. The mistakes I've made, my friends' current insecurities and fears, the collapse of the server - this is all on me, for not being a competent enough mod, for not being a smart internet-user, for not being adequate. If you think it is selfish or counterproductive of me to retire fyeahseungchuchu or the chats, again, I apologise, but I do honestly think it is for the best of everyone involved. At the very least, I'm glad that are a lot more servers and blogs dedicated to the pairing.
As much as I want to, I'm not going to run away, so I'll try my best to be active until the end of June if anyone wants to confront me, make any requests, or ask questions. I want to take responsibility for what I have done - or rather, what I have failed to do - so if any of the people affected have any requests, I will do my best to help.
Again, I'm sorry. I wish I could have done better. I'm going to learn from this and try to move on. I hope everyone else will be able to do the same.
Thank you for everything.
Sincerely, @sleepynir (mod evan)
