Ive been working this dead end job so long that the stagnation has left my skills in the past. I couldn't do another tech job now even if the opportunity came along. The world has moved on while I stood still. There's no bright future.
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Ive been working this dead end job so long that the stagnation has left my skills in the past. I couldn't do another tech job now even if the opportunity came along. The world has moved on while I stood still. There's no bright future.
let's try something different,,,
so, we came to terms with the chronic nerve pain and when it shows up it's acknowledged and put into perspective, it's understood that it will pass, sometimes it's bad and sticks around a while, sometimes not.
let's try something different with our cyclical chronic depression,,, along the same lines,
acknowledge, put it into perspective, understand that it will pass, know that it's not permanent, know that it is a false signal which the brain is interpreting as an end-of-days disaster
let's try being the observer and keeping things in perspective
it's unlikely you're seeing this,
question your perceptions
I've alienated just about everybody in my life
edit - I've brought this upon myself
am i alone in here?
struggles with perceived rejection
so recently I've had the opportunity to get away, from literally everything, home, work, people, all of it. and over the course of a few weeks the "normal" ongoing underlying stress and angst has sort of just dissolved away. it wasn't at first obvious, it's only by contrast that it showed up at all. when the emotional energy around me became aroused and I found myself activated, into a fight flight response. then, Ive had the luxury of time to observe these physiological responses diminish back to the baseline chill that's been the normal for the last little while. very interesting to notice the activation level peak and slowly drop off as the hormone levels return to pre-activated levels. it's happened a few times and each time it's been interesting to observe, maybe all my mindfulness practice is starting to pay off. edit- there's also been a lot more brain space, or capacity for thinking and remembering day to day stuff and I feel like I'm getting some of my old sharpness or mental agility back, that's all for now. oh don't even get me started on the premonitive dreams and visions, synchronicities and the flow state, like wow
quietly hoping
that this bleeding
is the beginning
of the end
"Wishes and intentions, the same.
Meaningless, unless they impel you to one choice or another, some deed or course of action, however insignificant. Thoughts that lead to action can be dangerous. Thoughts that do not, mean less than nothing."
Ancillary Justice - Ann Leckie
psilocybe subaeruginosa and look-alikes in pine forest
Generally growing in the soil, very occasionally on a rotting log.
The nipple-like cap, sometimes more obvious.
White, rubbery firm stipe and resilient cap. Lack of an annulus.
Purplish black spores.
Stipe is sometimes the colour of dead pine needles towards the base.
Bruising where handled or squeezed becomes more obvious over time to a blueish green, esp around the edge of the cap.
A subtle rubbery, pepper-like smell.
The impostors often have a fragile cap or stipe, which is easily smooshed or broken. There are reddish ones with obvious reticulum on the stipe, these nearly always grow on wood. The yellow capped ones are very similar until you turn them over. See also ALT text on images.
im good, thanks [ lets it go ]
ive realised i won't make it through that pile of books in the time that i have left
In the way that object permanence also applies to people for some of us spectrum buddies, I just wanted you to know I always know you exist.
You made a kind comment on a post of mine a while back. I remember it sometimes randomly with fondness.
Thanks. Glad you’re here :)
tears burn my eyes 🙏
taking a mental health day
realised today
music is stim
what are the rules for IRL friendship?
in the context of Platonic IRL adult relationships, how does it really work
i need answers
being late diagnosed autistic and only really coming to terms with this recently, i see my interactions with (colleagues, acquaintances, other humans with shared interests, peers) from a very different perspective now
it used to be that i would initiate communications, organise meetups, and basically hassle people into "friendships"
this always seemed very one sided, me doing the doing
and i still have no real friends, not for want of trying
it seems like it would be good to have people in my life but is the truth that "we" just can't function that way?
for many years i tried to accept that I'm just an alien, or too weird or naive or different [immigrated as a child from another language speaking country + childhood trauma] and that i will always be alone
but it's so difficult to be alone so much
and it makes me sad that i can't share fun times
i see people who just do it so naturally
it seems so easy for them
who knows, maybe there's no answer
or maybe I'm not asking the questions correctly
maybe i simply do fcuk everything up
is it my karma?
hello, is this thing on?
huh
so...
syntax error
404 fuck you
ive accidentally hit the survey button and don't know how to fix that, sheesh :/
needed that, next time less analysis and defining and more mindfulness and acceptance, thanking the teachers