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Welcome to my blog, where I post meta, fic and scrambled thoughts about my latest obsessions! Current main fandoms are Genshin, HSR, Taylor Swift and Ace Attorney, with a particular soft spot for Haikaveh
Same name on ao3 and youtube
(first 10min of 6.6 quest spoilers) babe wake up there's a new addition to the kaveh philosophy...
thinking about how kaveh calls himself an idealist out of guilt, and how this influences his self-perception. even when he does good things, he doesn't think of himself as a good or selfless person; he just thinks of it as making amends for his past
but even in the roleswap, where he doesn't have that guilt, he's working to give everything he has to others and improve their lives. he's doing the same good in the world; it's not out of guilt this time, but instead out of a genuine heart. he's the same idealistic, caring person regardless of his own circumstances!
everyone can see his good heart, except for himself. it's hard for people to truly understand themselves, indeed!
Alhaitham and kavehâs final scene in the archon quest,,, oh boy
Kaveh being upset that the house is destroyed and holding that, as the owner of the house, alhaitham should be rightfully upset, and that heâs essentially just a âhelperâ in this situation, which alhaitham calls out since itâs THEIR possessions that are affected, itâs THEIR home! The divide that kaveh puts between them, with him as a tenant and alhaitham as the home owner, and the way that alhaitham instantly elevates them to both sharing the responsibility to be equalâŠ. yeah
Kaveh being distraught that the things they both depend on in the home, and the home itself, are ruined, mentioning how easily destruction can be wreaked, so all these things have fragility, whereas alhaitham views this destruction as an inconvenience to be righted in the grand scheme of things â the dichotomy of how they handle their emotions, especially in relation to each other!!!! The ruined house = their relationship metaphor is driving me up the WALLLLLL
And this dichotomy in the difference of their sentimentality, how they handle their emotions, being what upsets kaveh (at least more explicitly in the CN)?? Theyâre always faltering in understanding each other on this fundamental level which out of everything is the most important! Alongside the idea of âhomeâ being so essential to kavehâs character, ofc a place he calls home being destroyed, even if just for the moment, is going to upsetting for him
Alhaitham mentioning that people can seek to change their situation, but kaveh saying AGAIN that itâs hard for people to change and that anguish is a reliable source of inspiration to him, which is essential as an artist, with art being so fundamental to him
but not only this, in regards to his and alhaitham's relationship, anguish is difficult for him to let go of in general because of how engrained it is into his person; he relies on anguish to propel him forwards so much so that it shapes him, and if he gave this up, he'd have to relearn not only himself and who he is without something so defining but also what that meant for him and alhaitham? like, can he not imagine what a relationship without tension between them would be like anymore?? HELP
no because alhaitham reaching out and understanding kaveh's position and saying that heâs genuinely happy kaveh is able to justify things for himself, the reasons why he believes the things he does, whereas before this split in their views was a source of contention for them, with kaveh giving alhaitham reasons he follows his ideals with alhaitham being unconvinced?
and the fact that he expressed this kaveh directly and doubled down on this to me really showcases these little progressions in their relationship, even if kaveh isn't ready to take this as sincerity yet. Theyâre at the stage where they can begin to accept the tensions brewing beneath the surfaceâŠ? PLEASE I CANNOT
Alhaitham explicitly going out of his way to help kaveh through actions (wisdom being shared through incommunicable mediums is so haikaveh coded) being a skill heâs going to master?? As in acknowledging the sentiment kaveh attaches to their belongings, as in,, piecing together the house once more,, as in,, working towards the mending of their relationship!?!?!?
And kaveh frantically trying to attribute this to the transaction-based nature of their relationship but coming up SHORT for once because alhaitham is helping kaveh with his own things, like yes baby, heâs waking up finally!!!
And then him willing to help alhaitham patch up his own books as a way of assembling the house together, like âlittle decisionsâ like this are working in tandem to bring them forwards to a new path of understanding each other oh okay,,,
